Speaking Your Truth. Shame. Eclipse Season is coming and Summer Solstice!

Happy Marvellous, Magickal, ‘Mazing, Magnificent, Miraculous, Mellow, Mischievous, Manifesting Monday!  Delicious lovely how has your week been? How was New Moon for you and working with the energy of ADAPT for this month?  

If you remember when we explored New Moon energy for last Monday the New Moon in Gemini is all about truth, communication, and self-expression.  This New Moon was drawing us to get clear on what our truth is and to work on expressing how we really feel. So Monday I worked with this energy and it was delicious.  I then launched into Tuesday with clarity, compassion, truth and a shed ton to do – sounds good right? It was, until it wasn’t.

In the early evening I had an appointment set up with someone who was going to rent a room in my home.  From the nano second I met this person – they tried to make me wrong. I was late (actually I was 10 minutes early) and then it went sideways in under 20 minutes.  All of a sudden I am faced with bullying, intimidating, aggressive energy that no matter what I said I was wrong. Holy Hannah, WTF is happening (ran through my mind).  So I spoke my truth. I spoke about how this was making me feel, how this behaviour wasn’t okay and all the other pieces and that there was no way this person was going to rent a room in my home.  I did it with compassion, kindness and awareness – not from a place of anger or vengefulness. Nadda. It fell on deaf ears. I was to be dominated, controlled, manipulated and made to feel wrong. WOW.  

Thus, the evening unfolded differently to what I had planned and as this person wouldn’t leave the property, change his behaviour and in fact ramped it up even more – the police were called.  The police officer was fabulous and advised me that there were some people out there who basically fed off bullying, intimidating, manipulating and making someone wrong to get what they want. (Shudder)  However, after the officer left I felt SHAME, massive, massive Shame.  That kind of shame that makes you want to lock yourself in the bathroom!  Obviously it was my fault, I had done something wrong. I should have been more accommodating, just been quiet and sucked it up (shades of my marriage were flooding to the forefront).Then I had a glorious friend grab the rope of shame and haul me back in and remind me – Not Your Shit.  The minute I could embrace that all of a sudden I had a plethora of people talking to me about speaking their truth and then feeling shame.

So it made me realise we need to knock this shit on the head. If you are speaking your truth with compassion (because truth without compassion is brutality), you have that right, and in fact it’s super important!  If someone wants to judge, berate, bully, harass you for that truth – that’s not okay. That’s just bad behaviour and not your shit, yet so many of us take it on and allow it to make us feel less than, wrong, questioning, confused and a myriad of other things.  So I invite you to make a pact today, this very moment. Enough with that sense of Shame when you speak your truth. You have nothing to feel ashamed of!!

As the amazing Brene Brown says:-  “Shame cannot survive being spoken.  It cannot tolerate having words wrapped around it. What it craves is secrecy, silence and judgement. If you stay quiet you stay in a lot of self judgement.”

We have a pact then yes?  No more Shame. No more hiding.  Speak your Truth. Own it and know that it is okay, in fact it’s way better than okay!!!

So to add to the energy of ADAPT and speaking one’s TRUTH we are soon going to be heading into that lovely time of Eclipses.  Do you remember at the very beginning of the year we had eclipse time?  We had a partial solar and a total lunar? Well guess what? We are heading back into it.  Starting in July we have a total solar and then a partial lunar. Now if you remember an eclipse  can generate an awareness of something larger  running the show and they poke holes in our ego/identity revealing things within us that we have been avoiding or are totally unaware of.  Eclipse energy starts building weeks before the eclipse happens and then plays with us for about 6 months afterwards. Thus, if you are feeling at all that you have been side swiped off the path, don’t fret – you haven’t.  

Oh yes, quite a few of you gorgeous beasties have been asking if I am going to do a Solstice special on Readings.  I am. It will start on the 17th and be open for one week. However, we will talk about that next week as we explore Solstice and I’m mixing up a glorious spell for you to work on that day. Muhahaha.

Interestingly enough, when I went to the cards and asked who wanted to guide and lead this week, I was rather surprised.  This deck has never chosen to come out for a public reading in all the time I have had her, which has been quite a while, so let me introduce you to the glorious guides of Les Vampires.  – These are the glorious denizens of a realm of mystery, legend and power.  These lovely guides come to those who are undergoing a test. If a shadow has fallen over your life, if you are confronting the unknown, you may feel abandoned and lonely, as if there is no light, no guide, and no path to follow.  These guides walk the hidden paths of the Dark Forest, the ones who have made the Night their home, the guardians who can help you find your way back to the Dawn. They are abundant in all that you need at this time – rich in messages to offer, lessons to teach, and wisdom to share with you.  

The crystals that wiggled and jiggled to come out and share their wisdom are:-  Cinnabrite – a stone of purpose, achievement and problem solving. It is helpful in overcoming habitual negativity.  Black Snowflake Obsidian – a stone of purity, Snowflake Obsidian brings about a balance to body, mind and spirit. Snowflake Obsidian helps to keep centered and focused when any type of chaotic situation (office, commute, home, etc.) presents itself.  Atlantasite –  is a powerful tool to open your way to the spirit. It will strengthen your feelings of love and compassion for others.  Gorgeous daisies and Spanish Lavender came to play as well.

So are you ready to play?  Hope so! Take a moment, actually take more than one and just take a Breath.  Not a shoulder high breath, but a slowing, calming breath. Breathe it in through your nose and out through your mouth like a shoulder dropping sigh.  Keep breathing this way and invite into your minds eye your Truth and any Shame that needs to be released. Just let them swirl there like watercolours.  Don’t attach, just let them Be. Then when you are ready and that energy has settled, pick the card or cards that invite you in. They have something to share with you this week.  

Did you remember to pick?

Are you curious?

PREY

When one is hunted in your time, with your people, you are often unable to identify what is happening.  The veneer of civility that covers us all, even us, especially us, helps us appear kinder than we are. Some people are hunters.  And that makes others prey.

In your culture at this time, there is a theory that those who are harmed, or hurt have somehow attracted that to themselves.  Oh, how the hunters love this argument. For it is a way of saying that the prey is offering itself up. And this is what we have come to warn you of.  There is one who sees you as prey, and they see themselves as the hunter. And the more they can persuade you that you wish to play this role, and that it is your fault, the more powerful they will become.  

There are many examples of abuse and monstrosity in your world, amongst humans.  And often it is the one who is most close to you, who will take what is most precious to you.  Do not become prey. And do not agree to this hunter being invited by you. The victimization they are visiting upon you has not been invited by you, except through circumstance.  If you feel this is wrong, speak up, and speak out. Being hunted, being preyed upon, is not something you must take responsibility for, nor must this play out.

You are able to make a stand, and you are strong, clever and powerful.  

It is time to stand up to a bully or to one who wishes to blame you for their own bad behaviour.  You did not attract the circumstances you find yourself within. You have a great deal more power than they wish you to have.  Do not refuse to help yourself, or fall into patterns of victimhood.

BURNT BY THE SUN

There are times when you have set yourself a great task – when you have decided that you have within sights a glorious a glorious outcome.  It could be an ambition, or a relationship, or a position, or an achievement. There is much that can come to you simply and with ease – but there are things in this world, which we both share, that must be earned.  You must earn this next step. For it is as it is for us. Our nature is to live in the night, to be under the gentle, brilliant light off the stars, of candles, of the last moments of sunset, or the first moments of sunrise.  To be in the full glare of the light is not for us. And at this time – this time not for all time – the fullness of your ambition will not be available to you. It must be earned. It must be deserved. And there is a path to walk, and a road to take before you can get there.

You may of course decide that we don’t know of what we speak, or of you, and your desire – and you may decide to reach as high as you can.  And we say to you, when this sun you reach for burns you with its fire – for it is a star and made of fire – you will learn what it is to be too eager, too soon. There is a time, and a place, and a way in which we earn what will be ours. The desire is worthy of you. You are worthy of reaching it. But for now, the dream, which you reach for, you are not yet ready for.  There is more work for you to do first. Be wise.

You will never know your potential, unless you go beyond the limits you have set yourself.  You may not succeed. But you will know a great deal more about yourself than you do now – and you are certain to grow through the experience.  Begin with baby steps, and persist.

NATURAL

To be your own true self is a lifelong – lifetimes long – purpose.  It is the purpose of this existence, and for each of us, despite the labels we all have – human, vampire, woman, man.  We have something greater at play – how the essence, that very drop of pure self makes itself known through us. And for this great miracle to take place, there are habits to be shed, reactions to be questioned, challenges to be met, and experiments to be made.  For you are not who you have been told you are. And so we ask for you to clearly and finally, perhaps understand and acknowledge that all that you are can be discovered when you take yourself within, and quietly feel, look and listen to your own self. Not the self of the label, the job.  Not the defences you have developed for protection. Not the protests of the ego, or the demands of family voices within. It is who you are truly are. And then, once having found a sense of that, to live from that place in small, consistent ways each day. How that manifests will be unique for each of you.  

But we ask for you now to go beyond the labels of time, and place, and family, and education, and status – and go deep, deep within.  There is something within you that is more than the history of others. That is yours alone. And the world needs it to be expressed – otherwise, why would you have been created?  For each of us – every drop of rain, every stone, every creature of the sky and the land, has their role and their part to play. We need to become our natural self again, beyond what we are told we are, and to live from that place.  And this will create a satisfying and more peaceful, harmonious life – no matter what challenges you meet from within, or without. You Are precious to the world, especially so when you find that part of you that is only yours to offer, and add it to the song of the world, and make all that is more beautiful, more fulfilled, and more totally realised as a consequence of your soul’s truest expression.

You have too many definitions others have given you.  Let them go. And learn the song within you, and give voice to that, in order to become natural, and truly fulfilled as your own self.  

Wow.  Prey, Ambition and Tapping into your Essence.  Absolutely deliciously divine for this moment in time.  So my delicious lovely, I will see you next week where we will explore Summer Solstice (Litha) and if you are on the email list there will be a reading special and I think we need to play with Magick!  Thus, there will be a cool and easy spell for you as well as some amazing rituals for Summer Solstice. Have a fantabulous week. Speak your Truth. Punt Shame to the curb. Breathe and Smile. Massive hugs and squeezes.  See you next week.