Jenny Heston

What’s Love got to do with it?

As I wrote that title I envisioned Tina Turner belting out her song by the same name, loud and proud! So let me ask you – what does that song by Tina Turner and Charlie Chaplin have to do with Love? Stick with me and let’s go find out.

With it being Valentine’s Day I thought I would turn my hand to writing about love. Ahhhh, Love. The emotion that can make sane people crazy, and those without it feel lost.

“Sanskrit has 96 words for love; ancient Persian has 80, Greek three, and English only one. This is indicative of the poverty of awareness or emphasis that we give to that tremendously important realm of feeling. Eskimos have 30 words for snow, because it is a life-and-death matter to them to have exact information about the element they live with so intimately. If we had a vocabulary of 30 words for love … we would immediately be richer and more intelligent in this human element so close to our heart. An Eskimo probably would die of clumsiness if he had only one word for snow; we are close to dying of loneliness because we have only one word for love. Of all the Western languages, English may be the most lacking when it comes to feeling.” – Robert Johnson, The Fisher King and the Handless Maiden

It’s so true. The I love you that I say to my kids as I hug them or push back the hair from their foreheads as I kiss them goodnight is very different to the I love you that I tell my gorgeous furry friends as I pet them. The I love you that I say to my soul sisters, who have watched me go to pieces, picked me up and dusted me off, is very different to the I love you that I say to my elderly mother who forgets that we have talked. All of these are gorgeous and I feel blessed, but more importantly is the I love you that I say to myself. Isn’t it selfish to love yourself, shouldn’t you come last on the list and everyone and everything before you? Hell No!

I spent many years not loving myself as I had been indoctrinated by my mother not to and I had fully bought into the story that to do so was narcissistic, selfish, ego centric – this in turn led to making some bad choices in relationships, allowing others to define my worth, allowing others and myself to diminish and hurt me and saying things to myself that I would NEVER say to another human being as they were too cruel, unkind and vile. Thankfully, I have learned differently, I have learned that first and foremost it is vital (yes, I did use that word) to love myself. As the more I love myself the more I can love, help, support and serve others and really show up as ME.

Think of it this way if you will – a piggy bank. There sits an empty piggy bank and daily you start to drop your change into it, now this change doesn’t come in coin form, it comes in gratitude, appreciation, valuing your effort, saying kind things to yourself, kicking the frigging gremlins out of your head or giving them a different project to do to occupy them. Soon your piggy bank is overflowing and you feel frigging amazing. Situations can happen but you realise that yup, that situation may have sucked, you may have messed up but you are still worthy, loveable and valued. You no longer offer yourself up as the victim or the sacrificial lamb for others or your own inner critics to punt around. Instead you own it, learn from it (and sometime in the future will laugh about it) and release it.

So as I was thrilled to come across this poem by Charlie Chaplin. Now if you don’t know who Charlie Chaplin was he was born in 1889 and was a silent film actor/comedian from about 1920 to 1950 and he was iconic for his mustache and his bowler hat. He died 40 years ago. Now this poem really speaks to what self love is and what it isn’t.

As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth. Today, I know, this is “AUTHENTICITY”.

As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody if I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this person was me. Today I call it “RESPECT”.

As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life, and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow. Today I call it “MATURITY”.

As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance, I am in the right place at the right time, and everything happens at the exactly right moment. So I could be calm. Today I call it “SELF-CONFIDENCE”.

As I began to love myself I quit stealing my own time, and I stopped designing huge projects for the future. Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to do and that make my heart cheer, and I do them in my own way and in my own rhythm. Today I call it “SIMPLICITY”.

As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything that is no good for my health – food, people, things, situations, and everything that drew me down and away from myself. At first I called this attitude a healthy egoism. Today I know it is “LOVE OF ONESELF”.

As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right, and ever since I was wrong less of the time. Today I discovered that is “MODESTY”.

As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past and worrying about the future. Now, I only live for the moment, where everything is happening. Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it “FULFILLMENT”.

As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me and it can make me sick. But as I connected it to my heart, my mind became a valuable ally. Today I call this connection “WISDOM OF THE HEART”.

We no longer need to fear arguments, confrontations or any kind of problems with ourselves or others. Even stars collide, and out of their crashing new worlds are born. Today I know “THAT IS LIFE”!”

Wishing you a fabulous Valentine’s Day and please remember to do something nice for yourself every day, as you are the only you there is.

Weekly Reading February 13th

Jenny Heston · 4:08 pm ·

Happy glorious Monday delicious one! Here in the snowy wilds of British Columbia it is Family Day (which is a stat holiday). So we have had a glorious time going hiking in the deep snow and playing, which has been awesome fun! We actually broke all records for snow last week as we received dump, after dump, after dump. I was so glad to see the blue sky, sun shining and no snow falling this morning – as much as I appreciate all the seasons, winter can seem to be a tad too long for me.

How was your full moon/lunar eclipse experience? For quite a few people that I talked to, the energy had been rather intense and left them feeling a bit fractured and discombobulated. This is when it’s important to practice self care, eat well, rest, journal, work with gorgeous crystal energy and drink water! Tomorrow is Valentine’s Day and whether you have a sweetie or not, practice self love and as you go about your day smile and radiate out love. The glorious part of doing this is that the love bounces back to you tenfold! How are you going to spend your time tomorrow? I personally have bought a plethora of red carnations, had them all individually wrapped and will gift them to the amazing women in my world that I am thankful for. Oh yes, and all the food at dinner will be heart shaped!

Okay, let’s go see what guidance, inspiration, healing or support wants to play with you this week. If you feel inclined there is a lovely visualisation to help you get centred and grounded.

Ready to go see?

IN THE WORLD, NOT OF THE WORLD

It is safe for you to become naked with life. This doesn’t necessarily mean stripping off and running wild in public. It does mean stripping back your beliefs, strongholds and mental or emotional security blankets so that you can live with less obstruction than ever before. Imagine the conditioning that has kept life away from you, just kept it dropping out of your hands like keys, coins or clocks. Conditioned beliefs about money, time, security, having, locking away, holding and controlling can be surrendered and allowed to fall away. What would it be like to feel as though you were on holiday every day?

Sometimes we need our defences. At other times, it is clear we are outgrowing them. There is something that you have outgrown. It has to do with your ideas about productivity, time, control and money. It has to do with abundance, trust and living with the fundamental belief that everything is going to turn out okay. You are ready to be much more vulnerable and exposed in life. You don’t have to hide behind being organised, perfect, in control or financially secure and stable.

Likewise, you are being stripped of internal beliefs that are failing you, perhaps externally as well. Whether this seems to be your choice or not, make no mistake, it is your own spirit in cahoots with the loving spirit of life that has brought this situation about. You are being guided to trust!

BIG BOLD VISION

You were not born to play a small role in life. You have the ability to dream big. Even if you have absolutely no idea about how your visions can come to pass or what all the details may look like, you can access the heart and guts of a vision by tapping into your wildest dreams and surrendering attachment to exactly how it will all work out. The details are up to the creative genius of the universe. You are an active, contributing participant but not the sole player in your life journey.

You are being asked to remember that when something is right for you, endless synchronicities and support will flow your way, at the right time and in the right way. Stay open, receptive, playful and surrendered. You are about to receive or be invited to become part of, a grand visionary beginning. Trust your heart, be still with your choices and when the time feels right and truthful, leap! Trust in what you perceive.

Even if it conflicts with what everyone else around you is saying or the surface of things, trust your inner perceptions. Trust that things will be coming up roses for you. Even if everything seems to be a bit of a shambles now, it’s really just the essential mess before a truly spectacular success.

SACRED FOOL

The fool is a great rebel, able to thwart convention and tell the truth without restraint. Your heart is a wonderful, powerful, sacred fool! It cares not for the right way to do things. It cares not for what the mind says is real and not real. It lives according to an inner wisdom that cannot be dictated to or controlled by anything. It loves, it lives and it is what is!

It’s time to take your offer to the world. Don’t try to be appropriate, don’t try to be socially acceptable and worry about what others may think – just be. If you want to wear a mad hat whilst doing so, fine.

It’s time to leave behind what has been because it no longer feels right to stay attached to it. Your mind is a monkey puppet on strings. More often than not, it is cajoled into fear when it could be playfully dwelling in the radical spontaneity of life. So, the sacred fool in you urges your mind to let itself be pulled into joy by your heart strings not into fear and doubt by media or anything else. It’s time for you to play.

It’s time for you to let life happen in a completely unreserved, unscripted way. Life wants to operate more radically through you so that you become the conduit through which miracles and crazy wild synchronicity can occur. If you find yourself making choices that have others questioning your sanity, then you are right on course. You are just approaching enlightened awareness. There is a moment – sometimes a rather long one – when we wake up to life, shed our attachment to mass opinion and float in a completely different state of being. Stay on your path, stay on the journey, remember to take nothing too seriously and it will all work out perfectly.

Wishing you a fantabulous Valentine’s Day, a glorious week and remember to Play!

Weekly Reading February 6th.

Jenny Heston · 3:12 pm ·

Happy delicious Monday, gorgeous one! I have to say it’s good to be back, that was one heck of a flu. I get rather grumpy when I’m sick as I normally feel like death warmed over and I rail against all the things that I want to be doing (I have learned to let go of the “should be doing” things). This time I was a lot kinder and gentler with myself (and the other humans around me), and gave myself permission to sleep, to do nothing but heal and to trust that my body knew how to heal itself. Although I did suck back a lot of oil of oregano, goldenseal and echinacea! But it all paid off and I am back to my bouncy energetic self.

Last night we had a huge dump of snow, approximately 2.5 feet, so the schools and colleges were closed as were most of the government agencies and a good half of private businesses, as the roads were brutal. The fun part about all this snow is watching how people step up and help each other – whether it is shoveling out their vehicle, getting over a large snow bank, clearing their sidewalk, everyone seems to pitch in and get er done. But after spending quite a while shovelling snow so that I could get out to my vehicle I am quite enjoying looking at the pristine white that is bedecking the trees, mountains, houses and gardens.

So on this gorgeous snowy day let’s go see what Universal Guidance is waiting for you, for lovely little gem of divine inspiration is inviting you to come play.

I invite you to gently close your eyes down and take a glorious deep breath in, nice and slow through your nose and then a lovely sigh like exhale through your mouth. Keep breathing in this way and see at your heart centre a glorious ball of warm light. Envision this ball of light moving down your body and going out the soles of your feet, down, down, down into the gorgeous molten core of the earth. Feel it click into the gorgeous grounding earth energy and then move itself back up and through your lovely body and out the top of your head. As it moves up, up, up it expands completely around you so that you are standing in the middle of this lovely warm light and feel, as it expands out into the Universe, feel it click into the universal energy – the realm of infinite possibilities. Now that you are connected to earth and Divine, your ball of light moves slowly back to your heart space and gently sits there, nurturing, guiding, healing and loving. With this energy surrounding you, in you and through you, gently open your eyes and trust yourself as you pick the card that calls to you.

Ready to go see?

VISIONS OF LIFE BEYOND DEATH

Sacred vision is awakening within you. You’re becoming blessed with the ability to truly see. To see what is real rather than what appears to be. This is true insight. What was once considered consequential may soon be found to hold little consequence after all. What was once dismissed as an irritation or irrelevance may be seen to have great spiritual significance.

If you have been wondering about your life path or whether you should take action on a project or you need inspiration to really move you out of a slump you have fallen into, then this oracle brings you a message of hope. You will receive your vision. You will be graced with a way out of the stagnancy. You are leaving behind a smaller view for a more expansive one. You are watched over in life and held in protection.

Shift your perspective and look at an issue of concern a little differently. Your ability to be inspired and see the light in all things is unfolding. It must be nourished in your heart with loving acceptance because you are going to help others through your vision, your art and how you choose to be in the world.

GOING BEYOND NORMAL

On the path of life there are deciding moments where we can choose to go with the mainstream or we can dare to take a bolder, more authentic and trusting way – even if it seems riskier or less safe. To rely solely on logic and science, without incorporating the mysterious and magical is a recipe for an existence that is far too dray! The sacred rebel within our hearts will always choose a juicier approach to life. You are currently approaching such a choice point.

There is a time and place for logic, strategy, planning and measurable outcomes. These are not bad tools to have but we must be vigilant not to worship them or allow them to quash our less rational, but equally valuable decision-making tools: intuition, feelings and those things you know, without knowing how you know them! You are being asked to stay open to the intuitive approach in your life, your work, your creativity as well as in your spiritual journey. You are moving outside of the plan and logic! You are living on the border of what is socially accepted. This is good. This is fringe-dwelling freedom. You now have a chance to live from the heart more deeply and expressively than ever before. You can give up forcing or squashing yourself down into a very limited set of so-called desirable qualities like intellect and control.

You are going to be breaking with tradition. Perhaps not entirely but at least in a way that is meaningful to you. This will require you to have courage in your convictions and faith in your heart truths. This will help you inspire others around you to step out of fear and live more freely and lovingly. It’s time to get a bit wild and let nature take its course!

BRING IT INTO FORM

Beautiful dreamer, you can imagine wonderful worlds of light. You can dream up so many possibilities. Now it is time to bring those possibilities of light into the world. They need to be more than ideas. They need to live, to manifest. The world needs not only your dreams, beautiful as they are, but also your creations.

Get thee to thy desk! Thy easel! Thy computer! Create!

You are being asked to honour yourself with a commitment to complete your inspired tasks. This will help you to grow and that is a wonderful reason to commit. But, there is another reason too – you know that your inspired ideas are worth translating into practical forms so that other people can access them and experience something special too.

If you have been thinking about writing a book, painting a picture or acting on an inspiration or idea, then are being told and unequivocal YES! Do it. Now. Don’t dally or dither about the details or worry about how it is all going to work out. The universe loves a bold spirit. Once you take a step, it will rush toward you like an enthusiastic and chivalrous lover – opening doors, hand gently guiding at your lower back – as you are moved forward.

This oracle confirms that the information you need to translate your ideas into form will be provided according to the higher wisdom of life. It may or may not happen by traditional routes. Even if it seems unimaginable, when it is time for something to be born into form, nothing can stop it. It will happen!

Wishing you a stupendous week ahead. Remember to smile, drink water and do something that makes you feel awesome!

Where is my Weekly Reading?

Jenny Heston · 4:02 pm ·

Hello delicious lovely. You may be wondering where the heck your weekly reading is (valid point), so let me explain.

Tis the season for bugs, germs and boogers – need I say more? I was happily sailing through this season being rather cocky and sure that I was staying healthy and bug free. HA! Between people coughing in my face at the grocery store, some chap sneezing in his hand at a meeting and then shaking mine and the ever lovely serving person who sneezed in her hand and then handed me my plate!!! (Elbow pocket, elbow pocket).

I got slammed by a lovely flu, cough, urrgghhhhh WTH bug.

So for the last week I have been living in my pj’s sucking back Goldenseal and Echinacea as if they are going out of style and sleeping lots (although the sleep time is filled with those deliciously bizarre fever induced dreams). I am a firm believer that self care is important and so I have been practicing this.

What does this mean for you?

It means that come next week Weekly Readings will re-commence along with some other crystal delights.

See you next week and remember – use your elbow pocket and don’t shake hands with bug ridden people.

Weekly Reading January 16th

Jenny Heston · 3:56 pm ·

Happy glorious Monday delicious one! Gosh we are halfway through January already and I have found it to be a wonderful, productive, creative time. How about you? How did the Full Moon go for you last week? I heard from quite a few people that they found the Full Moon (Wolf Moon) rather an emotional, chaotic energy time, and when this happens it’s even more important to remember the tools to help keep yourself grounded and your energy clear and moving forward. Personally, this is when I make sure I am wearing the crystals that work for me and I take little chunks of time out for some self care or just pure belly wobbling fun! Like sledding in the dark with just a headlamp (which becomes quite chaotic as my 3 large dogs keep trying to hop on my sled, or rescue me).

So this week the delicious Wild Kuan Yin Oracle deck made it very clear that they were meant to be the ones that came to play, so those are what we are working with this week. If you are new to working with the Oracle cards you might want to listen to this week’s visualisation to help you get centred and clear. Then trust yourself and pick a card.

So let’s go on a little magical adventure shall we?

Breathe in, breathe out and let’s go pick.

Ready to go see?

GRANDMOTHER DRAGONFLY HOLDS THE WISDOM

Sometimes there is benefit in focusing on the new, seeking out untried paths, developing untapped resources and exploring possibilities. The intoxication of hope, inspiration and optimism combined can be hard to resist. However, if fear, boredom or lack of commitment is beneath the quest for new adventures, if we are believing that what we need or want is always just beyond, we may be dissuaded from applying ourselves to the worth tasks before us right now. If we are an imaginative and visionary type of personality, we may rebel against the mundane tasks of applying ourselves daily to bring an idea to life. However, if we were to stop and look clearly at what we already have in our lives, we could realise that there is much of value waiting to be put to use.

Do not step away from what you are cultivating, even if it seems to have lost its steam, run out of energy or be utterly dead in the water! There is something within what you have been working on that is going to yield something of great benefit. There will be much more success, prosperity, happiness and maturing of your ultimate life goals and journey in tending to what is already further along in development than in something new. Grandmother Dragonfly offers you vision that is wide and unlimited by preconceptions. You may need to look differently at what you have nurtured and how to tap into what it has become to be able to share it with others and allow its sustaining grace to nourish human life in its own way. You will help people in many and varied ways. It is all a part of your natural development and you can trust in it. There is no need for you to ever be impatient or doubting of this.

BE LED BY THE PATH BEFORE YOU

You may question whether you are walking your true life path, in alignment with your divine destiny. Perhaps you have a choice to make and are uncertain s to which decision will be the right one for you. Perhaps you are wishing there were more choices available to you, that there only seems to be one path before you now and yet you are not convinced that it is the right path for you. Fear not. There is no mistake here. Trust in your unfolding life journey, for the path before you is one that I have blessed. Even if you sometimes lack confidence to trust in the path that you are upon, know this – you cannot miss your true path, or your divine destiny.

You are on your path. You are right in your sense that there is a greater purpose calling you forwards. Do not fall into the trap of imagining there is some other way to get there however. You have not made some error simply because your life doesn’t necessarily look or feel the way you imagined it would at this point. This too shall change in due course as your path curves ahead. Your life situation each day is like a breadcrumb dropped by the Divine, guiding you towards your destiny. You get to choose how you respond to that breadcrumb – happily gobble it up and continue on your way, or ignore it and try to venture off elsewhere out of anxiety or doubt.

Don’t make things more complicated than they need to be. Don’t rush in out of fear or panic to try and sort out an issue. Be patient and allow it to unfold. The universe knows what you are in need of, and the Divine Mother is with you always, giving birth, through you, to the fullness of your destiny. Take pause when needs be and rest. Then take the next step. Trust.

HARVEST MOTHER WATCHES OVER ME

There are times on the path when we feel the urge to go within, to withdraw from the world for a time, to claim some space. We may not know why, but if we avoid that impulse, we miss the great benefit that such a process can bring. In this world, we are typically taught that ‘things happen’ through effort directed towards external action. Of course, there is a time and place for this. However, there is also a time when the action needs to be internally oriented, and far more about receiving and restoring rather than doing, about contemplating and integrating rather than strategising and initiating.

There has been so much happening in your outer world and even in your inner world, so much awakening, so much experience, that it needs to be processed, sorted through and released into some sort of useful content. It is safe and timely now for you to declutter your world, especially your internal world – although clearing out something of your physical world may be a way to enhance the process. It is not time to keep taking in more information, or to push yourself to have more experiences, meet new people or take new risks. That will all happen again soon enough. There is something very nourishing, healthy and life-affirming within you, waiting to be tapped into, but you need to make a choice to do that. This is also a time of great abundance, of hidden gifts becoming apparent and being received if you are willing to create some space. There is a rich, growth-fuelling divine substance within your reach, and to receive that nectar of life you need to change pace.

Do not worry that you are turning your back on life. You are not. You are affirming the life within that is ready for your loving care and attention. There is something within that needs to be drawn forth, something that needs to be pulled out of the unconscious and brought to full awareness – a feeling, an intuition or instinct, a piece of guidance or understanding. It will be an important discovery – no matter how ordinary or minor it may seem at the time.

Wishing you a glorious week filled with magic, miracles and wonder. Remember to drink water and take moments to just BE. If you need more information on crystals and how they can support you, don’t hesitate to contact me.

Jenny Heston

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