Jenny Heston

7 Steps To Reclaiming Your Joy

I have had quite a few people ask me over the last few months about Joy, Passion and where the heck it seems to have gone. Life on the outside looks really good, they aren’t struggling financially, there are wonderful people that love them, they are highly talented and all the rest – but it feels empty, grey, kinda bleak and as if something is missing. So what’s with Joy and why does it feel so elusive sometimes? Has someone drawn too heavily on the Joy bank and therefore there is none for you? NO. Let me assure you of that one. There is more than enough Joy to go around. I remember those times, Joy, Passion and Love of Life had seemed to vanish, in fact I am sure they had been flushed down the toilet. I was trapped in an abusive marriage, and when I walked away with wounds that were physical, emotional, mental and spiritual at some point I ended up taking care of a Mother who was the mirror image of my ex husband. Lucky me! But hey life happens, and we show up and we need to learn, grow, expand and I had two of the best teachers for that.

First let’s differentiate between Happiness and Joy, they are both emotions, however Happiness may be caused by luck, good fortune, or other person-centric pleasures. Joy is caused by elation at a moment in time. Joy may not always be about oneself but be about others’ contentment also.Joy is an emotion comprised of feelings of happiness, contentment, and harmony. It differs from general happiness in that it is not caused by a particular event but comes from within the individual. … Joy is a generalized feeling that comes from the person.

Well that’s all fine and good to get the ball park idea of the differences, but where the heck do I find it? I am going to say something that you may not like – Joy is an inside job. (Yes, I did say that). Seriously, Joy is not based on an externality, for example you get a new car, you don’t feel Joy, you feel happy. As you drive the car, relish and remember how you saved for what you wanted, feel the safety, revel in the heated leather seats – you start to feel Joy when you drive the car, not because of the car per se, but because of the experience. Does that make sense?

Okay, so let’s say you agree it’s an inside job. Now what? From my experience, the more you feel anything the more it becomes a default. So if you continually feel that the world is out of whack or that there is something wrong with you as you don’t feel Joy and Passion every moment of the day – guess what? That’s your default. So it is time to gently, and with massive compassion, deconstruct that default. So let’s go have a look at the 7 steps.

You Have a Choice. Make a choice to acknowledge those moments of Joy or happiness that occur. I mean seriously say – thank you, thank you, thank you. It could be a ladybug landing on your laptop keyboard, a hummingbird dive bombing you as you are too close to their nest. It could be someone giving you a beaming heart based smile as you pass them on the street. It could be finding a four leaf clover when you are outside having a cuppa tea. But if your head isn’t up, your eyes aren’t open and there isn’t a willingness to welcome and see those moments, then you won’t. I used to write notes that said Joy on them and would have them tucked everywhere, my wallet, in a pocket, in a book and I would give them to friends. A little reminder to remember to look for Joy not to expect it to come to me, but to look, say hello, welcome it in with an understanding that like a random encounter it could be gone very quickly.

The more I did this, the more I put my focus on looking for Joy, not with desperation and demand, but with a willingness to see it and invite it in for a party, or a cuppa tea.

Your Circumstances Don’t Define You. Some days are challenging, that is fact. Some people can be very unkind, absolutely twat like and it hurts. But these are transitory, honestly they are. You may be feeling confused, stuck, trapped or so overwhelmed you want to find a dark closet to hunker down in. But in the words of Marie Forleo – everything is figureoutable! What you are feeling today or what is happening today is not going to be what is happening tomorrow, a week from now, a month from now. It really isn’t. The pain slowly dulls, the arsehole leaves, you find a better job, you hang out with people who appreciate you instead of dragging you down. But note Point 1 – You have a choice. Do you remember Eeyore from the Winnie the Pooh stories? He was always gloomy, especially when he lost his tail or someone took his bow. It’s okay to be gloomy for a bit – but please don’t hand over your life, your wellbeing, your power to someone else. Don’t let anyone or anything define you for longer than 3 days. I have a pair of knickers (panties for North Americans) that are huge! They cover all the way to the boobs and they sit in a large ziploc bag in a prominent area of my office and they are called The Big Girl Emergency Knicker kit. If needed unzip the bag, place big girl panties on, pull up and crack on.

You Are Not Alone! I know some days you may think to yourself – wow, I am all alone in the world. Honey bee, you really aren’t, it may feel like that and that can be very scary, but you are not alone. Sometimes we feel alone because we feel broken, or not good enough, or that things on the outside look so good, how can I talk about the pain, emptiness I am feeling? This is where I bring in the G word or the U word, don’t get hooked on the word though. God, Goddess, Universe, Divine is there, hanging out around you all the time. But you have to open up a conversation with her. How? Just start one as if you are meeting your friend at a coffee shop, share your woes, your dreams, your trepidation, your elation. Yes, it does mean you might look like you are talking to yourself (I do it verbally as I drive, walk in the woods, sit by the water). So what? This energy loves you to pieces! Think about if you had a best friend come over and you didn’t talk to her the whole time, kinda the same thing. Talk, say things, write things, share things with others, with yourself, with the Big U or whatever you want to call it. If you haven’t read Gabby Bernsteins book “The Universe has your back”, I highly suggest you do. If you dropped your defenses and armour and opened up you would find people galore who would happily sit and listen to you and your story, with no judgement and if you listened to their stories you would find that you are so not alone.

Silence is Golden, Duct tape is Silver. You are a complex, delightful and delicious being. But when was the last time you sat with yourself and instead of focusing on the negative self-talk, you listened. You asked a question and you just listened for the answer or the silence? Meditation is fabulous for this and puleaseeeeee – if you dare to say you are too busy to meditate I will have to come give you a stern talking to! You don’t need a special cushion in a special room with the right crystals, a candle and some elevator music playing in the background. You just have to be willing to drop into your belly to breathe and allow for however long you like the thoughts to flow by and not be attached to them.

It can happen in a long grocery line, whilst you are watching your kids hockey practice, in the massive traffic jam on the M4. One minute, that’s all you need. One minute. Just breathe, imagine yourself as a strong mountain and for one minute the thoughts that cross your mind are clouds. Just puffy clouds that move with the wind in front of your face. The more you take time to listen the more you hear. See Point 3 – You are never alone, but you need to allow space for the conversation.

Go Help Someone Else. When you are feeling meh, and a sigh escapes your lips instead of a “Whoot!” Go help someone else. Why? Because it gets you out of your own head and helping, service and doing something that benefits someone else makes you feel frigging awesome. (It probably makes the other person feel pretty darn good too). This could be anything from volunteering at a non-profit who helps others, buying a sandwich (or making a sandwich) for the homeless guy. Walking your elderly neighbor’s dog. Weeding a friend’s garden as they are overwhelmed and could do with some help. Anything. Life is better when it’s not all about you……

Forgive, Release and Move On. If your head and heart are filled with old, stale resentments, hurts, sore and raw trigger points where is the space for Joy? There isn’t any. It’s like receiving a gorgeous crystal chandelier that you have always wanted and opening up a stuffed, mouse ridden closet and cramming your gorgeous chandelier in there. (Are you getting the picture?) Personally I practice forgiveness daily. Forgiveness for myself and where I messed up, or was too sharp, unkind or thoughtless with someone. Forgiveness for others who have hurt me. Forgiveness for a situation that I may or may not have created. But seriously, I used to pack that crap like a steamer trunk behind me and there was no energy to look at the wonderful things that were right before me.

Gratitude is an Attitude! Take time every day, every day (did I say every day) to be grateful. I personally do it at night after I have done my Forgiveness practice and I go BIG! I write down or speak out loud all the wonderful people, places, things, events, flowers, birds – you name it, that I am grateful for that day and WHY. It doesn’t have to be a big thing to be a BIG thing. It could be someone popped a quarter in your parking meter, a wonderful friend (who knows you eat like a horse) swung by with a raspberry cupcake iced to the hilt. It could be your kid actually picked up their stinky soxs and put them – gulp – in the laundry basket! Or it could be your dog greeted you with tail spinning exuberance and unconditional love when you got home after a long, trying day.

To me Joy is in the day to day, there are always moments that I can tap into, mainly because I ensure that I am doing something that I know will provide the playground for that. An example is nature for me, if I am feeling wibbly wobbly and disconnected and out of sorts. I pull on my boots, grab the beasts and head up either into the woods or down to the water and breathe in the green, look for the flowers, pause at patches of clover to see if I can find a 4 leaf one (and I normally find a few a month) and then I frigging celebrate these gifts. Why? Because if I don’t, I don’t tap into that Joy that floods up through my toes and rushes through my body and makes my heart expand tenfold. When I make a choice to look for it daily, the world is a far kinder, loving, welcoming place. So delicious one, go out with your head held high, your heart open and a willingness to see, experience, smell and taste the gifts that have always been there, you might not have been willing to see them.

Joy is foundational to your well being. Joy is the fibre of your soul. Joy is ever present and waiting for you to look over, wink and say welcome!

It’s almost Solstice! June 12th Weekly Reading

Jenny Heston · 2:59 pm ·

Happy, happy fantabulous Monday! It is wonderful to see you here! How was your week? Did you play with the full moon energy that happened last week? Are you enjoying sunshine, the smell of flowers and reveling in the abundance that is blooming forth?

Energy is starting to ramp up here as we head towards Summer Solstice and just prior to that – high school graduation. My lovely son (4th out of 5 kids) is graduating high school this coming weekend, so last Friday his suit had been altered and we had to go check it out. It made me laugh a tad as I watched this “child” of mine in track pants and a t-shirt enter the dressing room, to hear requests for help with all the buttons, to then watch him step out in a lovely suit, pink vest and pink bowtie. Hang on, my kid went in the changing room and a strapping young man dressed to the nines came out! (I had to go look inside and make sure it wasn’t a magic portal or like the Tardis in Dr. Who!).

Grad here is a huge performance and I will be honest, I don’t totally understand it and from a lot of the kids that are graduating there is an apathy about certain parts. However, it seems to be that we need to re-enact the graduation of people from 30 years ago with Cap and Gown on Friday night, then a Grand March on Saturday, followed by a Cavalcade through town, then off to their Prom and an After Party that follows that! Phew! It isn’t quite what I would pick as a rite of passage or a celebration by any stretch, but it is tough trying to chivvy against conservative traditions to say the least. Thus, we are going with the flow and it will all be wonderful (touch wood).

The cards that came tumbling out to help this week are the Wild Kuan Yin Oracle, so yummy delicious and very strong and clear. The crystals that insisted on their place this week are Sodalite, Sardonyx and Red Snowflake Obsidian, quite an interesting mix to say the least. So let’s see what’s in store for this week. Take a few moments to get clear and present, and if you feel inclined ask a question, pose a situation, emotion, thought that you would like some support with. If you feel like a bit of support with getting deliciously centred there is a fun little visualisation for you.

So trust yourself and pick the card or cards that resonate for you.

Ready to go have a little look see?

BLESSING OF THE KITE DANCER

I recognise immense potential and talent within you, beyond what you can see for yourself. I know that you are willing to develop into all that you are, and so I shall become your divine mentor. I will encourage and guide you, as you manifest your potential, develop and express your talents and fulfill your divine destiny. Sometimes I will evoke the best in you through opportunity, sometimes I will coax forth the best in you through challenge. What you can be assured of is success on this path of self-development. Life has offered you much natural ability and talent. I will help you discover and develop it so that you can offer it back to life as a gift of gratitude.

You have been gifted with a talent, an ability. You may or may not be aware of this talent. It may be an ability to write, draw, paint, dance, or a myriad of others. Or it may be a more unusual and rare gift of being able to organise and rally people together for events with purpose and to motivate others to do their best. Or perhaps you have some other sort of talent that is hard to articulate, define or pin down, but is real nonetheless. If you have no idea what talent lies within, then this gorgeous oracle indicates a process of discovery for you as well as personal development. All you need to do is attend to your spiritual path and personal growth and all else will unfold as it needs to, whether you understand it at the time or not.

This is not a slight ability that may be fun for a while to explore, it is a genuine talent that needs to be developed for a life path to be successful. Taking this particular journey, discovering, exploring and developing this particular ability, will bring you into a sense of your calling, into a deep sense of spiritual satisfaction. If you are feeling pressured by other commitments, even by family members or social networks, to step away from your personal work, spiritual path and commitment to your inner journey. There is work you are doing that will be of benefit to the larger human collective. That sort of contribution takes commitment and you are not selfish in honouring that commitment. No matter how ordinary you may feel at times – you are special! You are unique, you have value. Learning to live truthfully as yourself, and being that self in the world, is a way to honour the life that you have been given.

Love yourself as the Divine Mother does, with great generosity and affection. You deserve no less.

GRANDMOTHER ENSURES SAFE CROSSING

You have a journey ahead of you. There is a particular path that you are meant to take, so that you shall be in the right place at the right time, to encounter the experiences that you are meant to have and the people that you are meant to meet. This journey will lead you across the water, far away from what you have known. To bear the crossing of the water, you must lose sight of the shore. It is part of your destiny, your sacred life path, to take this journey. So although you may feel excitement or fear, hope or uncertainty about whether you are up to the task, know that it is meant for you and Grandmother shall watch over you. She shall give you means for the journey and ensure that the crossing of the water is safely undertaken. Be light of heart, beloved, even as you may mourn what is left behind, for this journey is divinely blessed and will bring great success.

There are times in life when we must cross the water if we are to grow rather than wither and retract. To grow requires courage but offers the reward of radiance and fulfillment beyond what we have experienced. To cross the water implies more than simply taking a trip, it refers to a more life-changing experience of committing to and taking a journey. A journey is not only an external experience, it is an internal adventure too. Such an adventure offers us opportunities to mature – to open our minds, to become wiser, more tolerant, more curious and less certain of how life should be. We can experience ourselves in different ways. It can be uncomfortable but exciting, certainly it will involve venturing into the unknown. You may have to leave behind support systems in many senses and become more reliant upon yourself and the inner guidance or your heart. But don’t fret, the Divine Mother will provide the necessary tour guide or person with greater experience to help you along your journey. The crossings of water could be physical or it could be where you leave behind a state of being or consciousness in favour of another.

Do not imagine that where you find yourself is to be your resting place. There is more for you in your life, further adventure awaits you. There will be a sense that every life lesson you have struggled through and mastered will have bearing and offer support to navigate the journey you are taking now or will soon embark upon. The sanctuary, guidance and protection of the Holy Grandmother is with you to ensure the success of your journey. Grandmother watches over the weaving of past,, present and future. She understands that what happens now is the planting and fertilising of the soul seed which will come to blossom more fully in accordance with your divine life purpose. She will nudge you when you need to be nudged, comfort you when you become uncertain, and provide the means for you to take step after step towards your destination. You are being asked to grow, but the success will be there if you are willing to take this journey.

TENDER TRUST, BELOVED BODY

I have so much that I want for you. I want you to experience all that life has to offer. I want you to see your dreams coming alive in the world. I want you to feel at home here upon the earth, and to realise you have come here not only to serve, but to take delight, to become alive, to exercise your power of choice to manifest a destiny that is brilliant and beautiful and perfectly suited to you. So I have given you a sacred animal, a devoted body that has offered its entire life in service to your soul growth. This is a precious gift and one worthy of respect. When you love this sacred animal, and let him or her love you in return, your body and soul become as one, a divine wild love child of life. Only then are you able to experience all that I can offer you and to manifest your divine destiny as a radiant, vibrant expression in the world.

Be present to recognise and receive the gifts and opportunities that are rightfully yours. Take time to be open and connected to your physical body and the physical reality you can experience through being connected to your body. Look around you. Feel what is happening within you and around you too. Notice what is being offered to you and if it feels right, say yes. Receive. It may seem challenging at first – perhaps even scary – to be so present, so open to life in its entirety. You may not be certain you will always take pleasure in what comes your way. You are at a point on your journey where something in the spiritual realm wants to come to life in the physical world. There is an inspiration, idea or plan that is ready to take form, to take shape, to become more than a fantasy and become a living reality.

For this to happen, you need the birthing container of your body. Your body is like a holy instrument through which the sacred breath can flow and create sound. It is the vehicle through which the inspiration can become a manifest reality. It is the time to experience more heaven upon the earth. It is time for your spiritual life to become more physically-oriented, for dreams to translate into reality, and for you to experience the Divine not only in the spiritual energies but also through experience of your body and the world of nature. It’s time to heal the relationship between you and your body so you dreams can manifest more often and with greater pleasure on your part. There is no point in the body having great wisdom and power to heal itself if you don’t give it a chance to use that power for repair, then growth, then glorious manifestation!

Well that was certainly fabulous, as we went from talent/gift, to personal journey to integrating it into the body! I love the cards, I frigging love them (have I said I love them?) So delicious one I wish a week filled of ease, effortlessness and flow for you and that you take some time every day to feel your feet on the earth, your heart beaming out love and your arms reached up and high to receive all the gifts that are just waiting for you! As I mentioned prior, with Grad this weekend and tons of family here, there will NOT be a reading on Monday – HOWEVER – as it is Summer Solstice next week, we are going to have some fun and do a reading on the Solstice, so expect to see it on Wednesday. If there is anything in particular you want put into the Solstice fire just drop me a line and I will happily bring it in. Huge hugs and slobbery kisses and see you on the Solstice!

Oh My Gosh it’s June! Weekly Reading June 5th.

Jenny Heston · 2:46 pm ·

Hello delicious one, Happy Monday and Holy hannah honey, it is already June! Gulp! This year feels like it is flying by, don’t get me wrong, I am exceptionally grateful we have sun, flowers are coming up and the whole garden is planted – which means glorious veggies soon and fun. But wow, we are nearly at Summer Solstice – almost half the way through the year. So I have to ask, (as this was asked of me) are you where you wanted to be by this time? Now this could be emotionally, spiritually, financially, physically, mentally or on a relationship basis, and if not, why not? When this was asked of me I had to sit and ponder a tad, for the most part I am where I wanted to be, sure there are a few things to tweak, but that’s normal as far as I am concerned. Yes? But I do feel it’s good to keep checking in with one’s goals, dreams and aspirations as often they can get waylaid by the busyness of life.

With June 1st appearing last week I realised that I have an inculcated habit of saying “white rabbits, white rabbits” every first of the month. This was something from childhood that seemed to stick, so I went and looked up why one does that. Apparently it is an old superstition that one say “white rabbits” as the first words on the first of the month and it promises a month of abundance, joy and keeps the weebly, wobbly things away. So to be honest, I still do it – isn’t it amazing how superstitions or rituals can stick with us? Is there something that you do that has stuck from childhood? (Eating ice cream doesn’t count!)

Okay darling one, let’s crack on with the reading. This week Sacred Rebels bounced up and down to come play, thus, they did. The crystals are Emerald, Brecciated Jasper and Pyrite.

So you ready? Take a moment, take a glorious deep breath in and tap into your intuition, your wise self and your inner guide. Invite love to flood through you bringing with it a willingness to receive and a clarity to learn and listen. When you have taken a few deep breaths pick the card or cards that are calling to you this week. So breathe and pick.

Shall we go have a little look see?

TRUST YOURSELF

You are wise. You know how to grow, even without knowing how you know. Like the ancient forests, spectacular galaxies and the acorn that becomes the oak, there is a natural intelligence for growth that is beyond logic and reason. It just happens.

You are growing. You really are. Don’t doubt it. Even if you don’t see it yet, remember that so much is happening when the seed is still unbroken in the ground. Below the earth, it is summoning up all the might, power and force it needs to push above the topsoil and burst up into the light. You are being asked to trust in yourself. You know how to grow. Don’t over think things, it won’t help you. Don’t worry so much, you are doing a great job in this game of life. When you trust yourself, you relax and you can heed your own wisdom, insight and messages much more clearly and easily.

You have a big destiny this lifetime and much to experience. Sometimes you make the error of judging something that is unpleasant as negative or a mistake. It isn’t. It’s just part of your great hunger for experience. It doesn’t mean you have to have a lot of it, but when you do, don’t shame yourself for it. Simply, let it be. Maybe it’s just fertiliser for your next step on the path! It’s all part of your life process and it’s all a sign of growth.

RELEASE THE DARK WOUND, LET LOVE LIVE

If we detach something from its source too soon, trying to force it to become what it is not yet ready or willing to become, we can unintentionally sap it of its strength and kill it.

There is a dark wound in the consciousness of humanity which demands perfection and denies process. If you have decided you are not good enough or worthy enough to succeed before you’ve given it everything you’ve got and asked for divine help, then this dark wound has you in its grasp. Let go of the death-grip of perfectionism and let yourself and your ideas live.

Love is abundant, creative and inspiring. It moves us so much more joyously and creatively than fear. Release the dark wounding of false belief. There are so many stories of vastly successful artists who very nearly binned the project that was the making of them and their career, because of the despair fostered by their own fear, anxiety and dark would. They doubted, they were uncertain. Was their work any good? They nearly lost it all to fear. Do not let this happen to you. It must be allowed to be what it is, and only time, love, patience and attention will reveal it.

COLLABORATIVE DREAMING

Your heart is big enough to dream not only for yourself, but for a new humanity. Imagine a world that is healed with respect, understanding and with community that fosters life. Even your dreams that relate to you alone will contribute positively to the greater good because that is the nature of your heart. Your heart naturally and intelligently co-operates in a grand scheme of loving creativity, working to heal the hearts of the world. The heart creates win-win situations that benefit the individual and the collective.

You are being asked to honour your growing desire to co-create with conscious, like-minded people. Your collaborative dreaming is a heart-inspired win-win, bringing mutual enhancement to yourself and others. Bear the rough patches that can happen when you work creatively with others. Ideas might clash and there can be friction, particularly if you have different ways of working.

Stay in your integrity, honour what you feel and remember why you chose to open up to group endeavours in the first place – especially if the group involvement becomes complex or challenging. Call on unconditional love each day and evening, it takes only a moment to do. Remember to hear your own voice. Others may or may not be able to receive it. When you hear your own voice you will be able to connect with your heart truths. You will know when it is right to remain in a group of when you need to withdraw in order to work with others who resonate at a more appropriate vibration and perhaps more in harmony with your own. You are no longer a lone wolf. Others are on the way to help you. There is only so much a single drop of water can do on its own, though it is precious. Together those drops can become a wave and make a considerable impact in the world.

I love how the cards unfolded this week, Trust, Love and Collaborate. Yummers! On that note delicious one, I wish you a glorious week. Remember it’s the Full Moon on Friday, June 9th. In fact this is a delicious Strawberry Mini Moon and a full moon in Sagittarius, but I will write more about that later this week. Have fun this week, practice looking for Joy and being open to receiving Miracles. I look forward to seeing you next Monday!

Faieries, Magic and Miracles – oh my! Weekly Reading May 29th.

Jenny Heston · 2:31 pm ·

Happy fabulous Monday and for those of you in the States and the UK – Happy Long Weekend! Whoot! Whoot! We had our long weekend last weekend and it was quite delicious to have time in the sun (it is a balmy 32C here) and play, garden, sleep in and just relax. I did feel rather like a lizard, shedding layer upon layer of clothes and basking in the sun whilst gardening (which is not the smartest thing to do for a redhead – tad crunchy at the moment). However, with the weather being lovely, the tools came out and a new planter has been built, some seeds are planted, the heritage tomatoes are still debating exactly where they want to be and lovely new perennials have been put in. Oh yes, and then everything got a glorious compost tea (incredibly stinky, but oh so delicious and nutritious).

I did experience a couple of first world, single parent problems. First, when your kids are out and you come home in a fitted dress with the zip up the back – how do you get out of it if you can’t reach the zipper all the way? (Paperclips is the answer, linked together!) Second, when the kids are out and you want to spend the whole day digging, moving rock, talking to the plants, how do you get sunscreen on your back? My sister suggested that the dogs could do it, but with them not having opposable thumbs, it makes it a tad tricky, plus they drool a lot!

I have a gorgeous new deck that I was sure would want to come play, but nope – still acting rather shy and wanted to just hunker down and watch, so the delicious and edgy Divine Circus hopped up loud and proud and insisted they were the ones for the job!

We moved about 9 months ago and right before winter I built a fairy bench around a massive stump (10 foot). As I have spent the majority of the weekend and the day outside it felt totally appropriate to do the reading on the fairy bench, because trust me – it is a gorgeous spot to sit and watch fairies dash in and out (ask my cat, she sees them all the time). It’s a gorgeous place to reflect, to sit and watch the changes that occur in nature and to celebrate miracles. Also at the top of this stump was where I fed the birds during the winter and I noticed a glorious sunflower growing up through the bench, so it had to happen!

All the crystals are citrine, the sunshine and manifestation, magical crystal.

Lets go, I invite you to take a minute to just settle into your body, if possible put your feet as close to the earth as possible and just breath. If you feel like a little visualisation to help, there is one for you here. When you’re ready, pick your card(s) and see who wants to work with you this week.

Shall we go see?

THE GOOD GEISHA

You are clever. You know how to play an impressive game of strategy to win approval and gain allies. Even without always noticing it consciously, you can sense what people want. Sometimes you are so good at showing others what they want to see that you forget how beautiful you are when you are just being you. But your time has come, the time to unveil the one true real you and attract the allies who are not interested in what you can do for them, but who love your for who you really are.

Any promise of success, love or wealth that begins with you contorting yourself into something you are not is a false promise. It cannot deliver anything worthy of you. You are not one of those fearful souls, but you know what it is like to have been caged in an invisible prison, a way of thinking and being that is not good for you. In times gone by, your soul has been shackled, your voice silenced, your true beauty hidden under more “appropriate” and “acceptable” guises, your intentions misunderstood and your words misconstrued. You’ve been like a beautiful wild creature, captured as though somehow you could be tamed and changed!

Be unafraid to discover the depths of your own being coming to life. If you do not, you shall bind yourself to a life far too bland for the colour and majesty of your soul. Being what another wants you to be is a false promise of love, and you are destined for love, real, wild, pure and true. Make sure you start by giving it to yourself, then you can share it with others and receive it from others too.

CONFETTI

You will soon have cause for celebration. Whether a big win or a token gain affirming that the best is yet to come, sweet success is headed your way. Prepare to celebrate! It’s time to find the celebratory spirit within. Maybe you already feel it, or maybe it’s the last thing in the world you can imagine feeling right now, but whether it’s on your radar or not, a cause for celebration is imminent.

It’s time to spend your energy in playfulness. If you want more success, happiness and celebration in your life, you can enhance that right now by being happy for the success of others around you. Do you know that success is like a wave? When you genuinely congratulate another and feel happy for their happiness, your own energy field gets a jolt of that same energy. You attract it into your own life. You deserve success for all you are and all you’ve accomplished just as much as anyone else.

So be happy for another – even if a part of you wonders if there is enough to go around, if maybe they have taken your piece of the pie, or if you wonder if their success is really served. Let such thoughts be without adding to their power for thinking such a way. Just take charge and choose how you want to respond. Be happy for them and be happy for you as the universe is giving you notice of a party – and you are most definitely meant to attend – and it’s heading your way.

DARK HARLEQUIN

Bells are ringing from deep inside. Something that once had to hide is seeking your attention. It want out! It wants to be free! As you release what was once shut away, your discomfort shall turn to glee. You are a spiritual adventurer! You are not afraid to go to the edge of what you know, of who you have believed yourself to be. Even when before you there lies the darkness of unknown worlds, of undiscovered parts of you, even when you feel uncertainty, discomfort or doubt, you are still willing to figure out what it’s all about,

So you’ve come to a place in you, and in your life, where you don’t know. You don’t know what’s happening. You don’t know how to work through it. You don’t know who you are (well, not all of who you are). You don’t know what you don’t know. You are at the point of not knowing because you are growing. There will be surprises. There will be discoveries. You’ll feel awkward at times, like you are trying to see in the dark.

Don’t be afraid to let there be some inner rattling and rampaging. You are at a time when you are naturally diving into the darkness for a healing purpose. So ask the difficult questions. Do things you wouldn’t normally do. Experiment with thinking in ways you wouldn’t normally think. Be willing to let everything change for the better by first letting go of how things are now. The messier your inner world seems to be right now, the more you can expect complete and utter transformation as a new order comes into form. Expect the unexpected, for you were born to grow into what is happening now. It’s time to let the wild thing out!

So my gorgeous faerie of fabulousness! I wish for you sun filled days, cool evenings and time to tap into the magic, miracles and wonderment that surrounds you – you just have to be willing to see it. Oh yes and if you have an answer to either of my first world problems, would love to hear it! See you next week and you are always welcome to contact me.

Post Mother’s Day and May 15th Weekly Reading.

Jenny Heston · 2:06 pm ·

Happy happy Monday! How was your week? Did you work with the Scorpio Full Moon energy and forgive, release and set your gratitude? It was Mother’s Day yesterday and I have to say, my kids get me (thank goodness!) I’m not about the big gifts, brunches etc. I’m all about time and thought. So bless their cotton soxs I was gorgeously gifted with a Nebuliser (which I use all the time and my last one broke), a pitch fork and a new Oracle Deck, as well as a fully cleaned house, dinner made and a Black Forest Cake made (nom, nom, nom). So I got to do exactly what I wanted all day – which was garden (even in the rain and the torrential hail storm). To me playing in the dirt and planting things, or building arbours for plants to climb up is pure therapy. Even though it means filthy finger nails – but as my Great Auntie used to say “You’ll eat a peck of dirt before you die!”..

During the winter I had put bird seed out (mainly the crows ate it) and lo and behold, all those sunflower seeds that they kicked off the feeding platform have turned into huge fat sunflower sprouts. So I moved them and I’m making a point this year of having about 50 sunflowers as they make me smile with their big bobbly heads that follow the sun. What’s one of your favourite flowers?

So with big sunflower energy, let’s crack on with the reading.

I invite you to take a moment, just breathe and feel your toes and your fingertips. Breathe to your belly and let it inflate like a glorious Buddha belly and as you exhale pull your abdomen into your spine. If you want to come play with some dirt and flowers as a visualisation. There is one here for you to help you get present.

Always, always, trust yourself and the guidance that loves you, then – pick a card or cards and let’s go see your message.

Ready?

FREE FROM JUDGEMENT, FREE TO LOVE

Imagine a world so infused with bliss, love and wonder that you naturally and always feel as safe as a nourished, cherished baby in the arms of the universal mother. Life mothers us, with kindness, and sometimes when we need it to grow, through challenge as well. Accepting this mothering – in its gentle and fierce faces – can be difficult at times.

You are learning about mothering and being mothered. You are amongst the universal mother’s special clan of nurturing spirits that help to honour life on this planet. You are also being asked to open up to receive more nurturing. You can do this for yourself. You can also choose to open up and allow others to nurture you. It might make you feel a little vulnerable at first, especially if you are not used to doing this, but you don’t have to worry. You will get used to valuing yourself enough to know that needing love and affection from another is an opportunity, not only for you to receive, but for someone else to give, which involves them being received too.

If you have been asking life for a solution to a specific difficulty you have been having, the message is the solution is in gestation right now. The situation is already being sorted out and the resolution will come to fruition very soon. Hold tight and wait for the imminent birth of that resolution.

SOFTLY, SOFTLY, THE TENDER TOUCH

The feminine wisdom of gentleness can assist you now. When we are at a point in life where we want to attain greater things, but don’t necessarily have a proportionally greater supply of energy at our disposal, it is time to work smarter rather than harder. This is the way of feminine wisdom.

The feminine way is not about force. Nor is it about driving, striving, pushing or grabbing at what we can in order to create. It is about inviting what we wish for to come into the space we have provided for it – internally and in our lives. This method cultivates more energy, causes less stress and attracts what is desired. It is manifestation by invitation rather than by will or force.

You don’t need to push quite so hard to receive what is naturally coming to you. Your “push” comes from a place of uncertainty over whether or not you will succeed. You need to relax and have more faith in yourself. All things come in time – rightly and according to a great loving wisdom. Rebel against any voice of fear; within you or around you, that tells you otherwise. You have been working very, very hard. You have learned much and accomplished much but it now time to change your approach. Let go of any force in your approach to creation now. Everything serves a purpose and learning the benefits and limitations of the more forceful way of manifestation through effort and willpower was a useful lesson. You are now beginning to create on a far grander scale that is beyond what an individual can manifest through willpower alone.

WHAT DO YOU FEEL?

There are many opinions around you. Some are helpful but others are distracting you from your truth. Although it can be helpful to hear the thoughts of others, when it all comes down to it, you will have to come to your own decision. Do you know how unique you are? How your path is your path to be chosen, lived and created – only by you? Someone else cannot become the source of your decision-making power without negative repercussions for both of you in the long run.

This message comes to you because you have become swept up in thinking things through. You have been thinking about which way to go with a matter of importance and you have got a bit stuck in the logic of the decision making process. Sometimes we have to accept that any path is a path forward and if it is not the best path, we can change our approach later on if needed. We don’t have to be perfect.

Don’t traumatise or punish yourself with possible choices. Just making a choice will set things in motion. The best way to catalyse the situation you are in and bring about healing change, stimulate your creative juices and find a more inspired, energised and enjoyable approach to your life, is to just make a choice based on what you feel right now. Not based on anyone else’s feelings. So spend time with your own feelings and know that all is going to work out perfectly.

Wishing you a glorious week filled with mild spring showers and massively gorgeous flowers! Remember to take time for yourself to replenish and nurture your body, mind and soul. Oh yes, and drink water! See you next week.

Jenny Heston

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