Weekly reading

Memorial Day & The One Phrase to Unf*ck Yourself

Happy Magnificent, Magickal, Marvelous, Majestic Memorial Monday (to all my US friends), and happy Spring Bank holiday to all my lovely UK friends! Wow, May seems to have just flown by! It just seems a few days ago that I was talking about the energy of AWARENESS for this month and pffft, the month is almost done. Although, I will say I am reveling in the warm weather, the garden growth and all the amazing smelly flowers that come out and dance for us in Spring.

So this last week I was feeling rather stuck, not physically as I tend to do about 15 – 18 km a day, but most certainly mentally, energetically and spiritually. There was something brewing and it most certainly wasn’t burbling up to the surface, instead it was trying to drag me down the rabbit hole. (Which I did do for a day, to be honest). So the next morning I got up and told myself very sternly that I needed to shift my mindset or it wouldn’t be pretty and I also didn’t like how it was making me feel. (Not a huge fan of stagnation and all the rest of that).

So that day, I took a bit of a break in the afternoon and went for a huge yomp with the doggo and instead of chanting (which I do every morning) , putting on music, or being alone with my thoughts I quickly scanned my Audible library. As I was frantically filtering through it there was a whisper saying – “There is something here you need to listen to!” ‘Lo and behold, a book came up that I had bought a year ago and had never listened to and when I started playing it I laughed at the Divine Guidance that just flitted in behind me and kicked me up the arse with a large Doc Martin (in a very kind way).

Guess what the book was called?

UnFuck Yourself

Yes that’s right, that was the title. (Do you think the Universe was telling me something? lol) So as I yomped I started listening and by the second chapter I was in love with the book. It also helped that it was read by the author who is Scottish and I am a sucker for a Scottish or Irish accent.

So what’s the phrase you may be wondering that can really Unfuck you……… Ready? Super simple, but super powerful when faced with confusion, stagnation and all the rest of that dross.

The phrase is “AM I WILLING?” e.g:- Am I willing to do the work to make a change? Am I willing to get off the sofa and go to the gym to lose weight? Am I willing to release those relationships that drain me? AM I FUCKING WILLING TO MAKE CHANGE? Then interestingly enough the author goes on to say, if you can’t come up with anything to put on your AM I WILLING list. Turn it around and ask yourself the same question in a different way “WHAT AM I NOT WILLING TO DO OR PUT UP WITH?” e.g:- I am not willing to put up with this abusive relationship. I am not willing to continually struggle. I am not willing to be continually dismissed. I am not willing to feel unhealthy………..

Are you getting it now? Dare you to give it a try, it’s quite fascinating to play with, write down and it most certainly unravels those threads that can make you feel like you are tied up in a knot.

Interestingly enough I worked through my I AM WILLING list whilst playing with alcohol inks for the first time. Let me tell you, if you want a lesson in releasing control, giving up perfection, being open to the possibilities and creating something stunning – play with alcohol inks! They flow where they want to and where you send them with your breathe. The more rubbing alcohol you put on them, the more diffused they can be, but if you leave them fairly straight the colours are so vibrant and intoxicating. Plus, they play nicely with each other and create new colours together (we always like things that play well together!). So as I was trying them out with no idea what would happen, or what would be the outcome I had to ask myself “AM I WILLING” to let go of perfection and allow the process? Ahhhh, and now the list started flowing.

Okay so with that food for thought let’s crack on. The cards that were very clear that they wanted in, in a big way this week are The Divine Circus Oracle. Now, if these amazing guides are new to you, please let me introduce you (as that’s always polite, right) – I laughed as these glorious guides are playful, but deep. They think outside the box and invite you to do the same. “What is life if not a Divine Circus? Life might seem ordinary at times, yet when we look more closely, it is bursting with creative diversity, constantly evolving, pulling rugs out from underneath our feet (usually just at the moment we think we have everything under control) and opening doors we couldn’t even see were right there before us moment earlier. Life is magical, thrilling, sometimes strange and even scary. It can inspire you and touch your soul, inviting you to discover the unique magic within you, to dare to live it, to express it, to play with possibilities and embrace what sets you apart from the crowd. “

Crystals that came to play are:- Sodalite – brings mental calmness and rational thinking, Morganite – It cleanses the emotional body of stress and anxiety, old wounds and hidden traumas, and enkindles lightness within the spirit, as if a burden has been lifted, Orthoceras – which is a fossil (do you see the little fish in it), assist you in moving from the old to the new and to be receptive to the fresh, innovative forces that are available to you. Fossils can assist you in your quest for transition, transformation and personal growth, helping you to understand the process of change. The flowers are glorious phlox that fill the house with an amazing scent.

Okay, take a moment to drop back into your body, breathe yourself back, long, slow and deep. Gift yourself at least 4 long breaths in through the nose and out through the mouth and allow the phrase “I AM WILLING…..” to drift up into your mind eye. Put no attachment on it, just let it dance there and then when you are ready to pick, pick the card or cards that can help answer that question and support you this week.

Did you remember to pick?

Shall we see who has what to share?

PIXIE PIERROT

There is an original you, the you that has always been and will always be you. No matter how much the outer forms of your body, your work, your lifestyle, your world seem to change, the original, essential you is always there within, unique, precious and just as you were created to be.

Within you is an intelligence that helps you adapt to various life circumstances and situations. You might do this consciously or unconsciously, but the point of any type of adaptation is survival. There is more meant for you in this life than merely surviving. You are actually meant to thrive. You thrive most fully, abundantly and deliciously when you are just YOU. Not the version of you that another may prefer, nor the one that helps you fit into the crowd, but just YOU – as you have always been.

It’s time to get back to the essence of you. It might be time to go back to the things you dreamed about in childhood, or something that really feels like it expresses the true you but that you cast aside for some very logical and sensible reason or other. That might be a talent, passion or lifestyle you were pursuing, or a deep-seated need to create or express yourself through art, clothing, music or dance. It’s time to reclaim it. Love yourself and let yourself live, thrive and express the original genius of you.

THE VELVET QUEEN

A rare prize is to be bestowed upon you. The universe is confirming that the most luscious dreams of your heart are being nurtured into manifestation. To this end, you shall be given a saving grace, an intervention if needs be. To be open to receive, surrender doubt in favour of unconditional trust. Through your trust and optimism, you make it easier for the universe to give you a most deserved gift. A rare prize is worth the effort to attain it. Your efforts will need to include loving discipline. Loving discipline is not about trying to bend the world according to your will but rather about readying yourself to align with the spirit of what you want to receive.

To receive, rather than attempt to take by force, requires strength, trust, spiritual intelligence and courage. It is easier to try and force things from a fearful place, but it is more effective and empowering to learn how to attract and receive through consciously chosen surrender. This allows the universe to do its best work for you! So it’s time to change your consciousness. Release issues around self-worth. Why should you not be empowered and assisted by the universe to create a life that fills you with joy and feels ‘just right’ for you? Of course you should, can will be! Release any lack of self-worth that would get in the way of your opening in complete trust to the universe.

Your most prized dream is within reach, through a combination of letting life unfold as it will and your own disciplined efforts. Don’t give up. You cannot make the fruit on the tree grow faster – that will happen according to the rhythm of life – but you can certainly do your part to be ready to climb the tree at the right moment to savour the sweetness of success!

BRILLIANT VIRGIN

In a world where we are bombarded daily with differing opinions and ideas, remaining true to you and your own point of view is nothing short of brilliant. Let go of confusion, distortion, comparison and compromise. You do not need to compare yourself to another or measure up to anyone or anything else. What matters to you and your successful life journey is to be in touch with your own truths. You know what you feel, no matter what anyone else says or believes. Stay true to you!

We have to trust that the inner vision, the hope, the dream within us, is going to be strong enough to stand the rigours of birth, and be able to come to life in the world. Sometimes we have to trust that we are enough, that we have goodness, value and worth, and so are worth the time, effort, patience and commitment required to transform our ideas into realities.

Stay true to you and your course. Do not allow yourself to be swayed by another, no matter how well-meaning their intentions may be or how impressive their arguments may seem. Do not water down the strength of your vision, your dream. You are meant to be birthing something unique into being. The world needs your originality! Pray for courage. Trust yourself.

When I saw the cards that chose to support, I giggled with delight as they all tie into the theme that I wrote about – WILLINGNESS and letting go of control. Seriously, you can’t make this shit up! We have a new month rushing in quickly which is a great time to get a monthly reading, the energy is going to shift and change and guess what? Summer Solstice is coming! (So love Summer Solstice!) Wishing you a week of exploration and Willingness, days filled with curiosity and laughter and most of all massive hugs and squeezes. See you next week.

Misplaced Long Weekend, Full Moon in Scorpio, Nature Lessons

Jenny Heston · 1:11 am ·

Happy Magickal, Marvellous, Manifesting, Merry, Mellow, Monday! How are you delicious lovely? Did you have a splendid week? Here it is a long weekend, but the bizarre thing was my mind was so wrapped up in something else, I totally blanked. So along rolls the weekend and I’m like “What, how did I miss a long weekend and not make plans?” Yup, total brain fart which did throw me into a slight tail spin as I would have normally planned out the whole weekend and be doing, doing, doing (yes I am a doer!) Now don’t get me wrong, ask me when the Full Moon is, any of the Sabbats, the energy of the month all of that stuff – I have it dialed, but I blanked on the long weekend.

So on Saturday (which was the Full Moon in Scorpio) I was pondering what the heck I was going to DO for 3 days without a plan. I kept hearing a whisper – can you just BE with no plan? Can you just SIT with no plan? Can you just PLAY with no plan? Gulp! So I took it for a test drive, I made sure to bang off all errands, tasks etc early on Saturday and then went to an art supply store – why? A few months ago I saw a painting at the Art Gallery that made me suck in my breathe, the colours were so vibrant and it looked “interesting”. It was made with alcohol inks on Yopo paper, so I filed that away for a few months and then when in the art store I grabbed the things to play with this medium. Something I haven’t done in a long while. As I brought my treasures home I could feel the itchiness to be ‘doing’ something, so instead I went and sat out in the garden and then things became even more odd, lol.

So there I am on Saturday afternoon ( the full moon) sitting in the backyard, writing, creating and playing with a new oracle deck (wait until she decides to come out to play, very cool deck). Whilst puppers (aka Danu) was munching on a bone. The sun was shining and I was focused on BEing and trying to reign in my mind, which was berating me with a list of things I should be DOing, when all of a sudden I heard this loud “peep” sound. I looked over to where it was and there was nothing. I turned my attention back to the cards and the sound came again, except even louder. “PEEP”. I look up and around and still nothing, then just as I’m about to turn away all of a sudden this tiny hummingbird appeared in the barren spot I was looking at. He hovered in the exact same spot for a minute, made his sound, shot up at a rapid rate up into the air, and I mean about 60 feet up, and then as if he had run out of gas, plummeted straight down to the earth and just before I thought he was going to hit the ground he did a massive swoop up into the air and went back to the exact (I mean exact) same spot he started. WTF! Do I need to call someone, is this a suicidal hummingbird? He did this 4 more times then vanished for about 5 minutes and then repeated the process. Okay, I’m watching and paying attention, but I still didn’t understand. To me hummingbirds are the representatives of Joy and I have to admit my heart did soar to watch him dance in the sky and perform, so very cool. I then did a bit of research and found he was doing his mating dance, trying to entice the lovely female hummingbirds to him and that I didn’t need to call the Crisis hotline! I then checked out my amazing Animal Speak book and Hummingbirds represent “Tireless Joy and the Nectar of Life, Accomplishing that which seems impossible.”

So with that burbling in my heart and body I really played with the Full Moon. This Full Moon in Scorpio was deliciously intense, all about transformation, or as I like to call it – “transforfuckingmation”. So I made sure to gift myself with time and ritual in the evening to do some powerful releasing and reframing, it was very cathartic. I also filled up a huge jar of water and left it out in the moonlight with all of my crystals and my anathame to be cleansed and charged. Yummers!

On Sunday again I practiced just BEing (gosh it can be tough) and I went back out into the plants and the yard and watched Danu frolic and play and then I noticed this Bee. Not that it was a huge Bee or anything like that but the fact that it hovered in front of my face, approximately 10 inches away and just kept in one spot and stayed there for minutes, would do a swoop and come back – made me pay attention. So you remember that game as a kid where you stare at your friend and who blinks first loses? That’s what it reminded me of! This Bee was amazingly persistent and sometimes on his swoop he would bring a buddy back and they would both hover 10 inches from my face, so close I could see their little furry legs and the shadows of their wings as they moved at light speed. Get this. They did this for an hour! A whole hour! (I so lost the blinking game to be honest). So I talked to them, sang to them, all thoughts went out the window and I just played and focused on them and then all of a sudden I snorted water out of my nose with laughter as I realised I was BEEing! I know Bee is big wisdom and overcoming the impossible but I wanted to learn more, so I did. BEE represents Fertility and the Honey of Life, No matter how great the dream there is a promise of fulfillment if we pursue it.”

Am I paying attention now? You bet! For me these are amazing lessons to be reminded of, it’s been an interesting few weeks. I was so grateful to literally have it thrust into my face in such a way I couldn’t miss it if I wanted to! Gotta love how Nature talks to us and gives us little nudges.

With that all being said, when I asked the cards who wanted to come out and speak on this gorgeous sunny day the cards that wiggled and jiggled to come and guide this glorious week are The Isis Oracle. Have you ever asked who Isis is? Goddess of the Skies, Magick and Wisdom are just a few of the titles she is given. Let me take a moment to introduce you to this lovely deck – “You are a powerful Soul and you are awakening. Your thoughts, feelings and inner world is changing, and so too is your outer world. When a Soul is growing in power and strength, it can benefit from guidance to help make the path into new way of being in the world that much easier. Isis offers Her wisdom and guidance to you to assist you at this time of spiritual growth and transition. She loves you, and wants you to shine and be your radiant self, filled with power and wisdom.”

The crystals that were very clear it was their turn are Rhodonite – is a stone of compassion, an emotional balancer that clears away emotional wounds and scars from the past, and nurtures love. Amethyst – It is thought of mostly as a protective stone. As it is linked to the crown chakra, it is helpful in purifying the mind and clearing it of negative thoughts. Selenite – embodies a high vibration energy that works to help you to bring light down from the higher realms into the physical body, to create personal transformation. And as always, a Selenite Wand (which amplifies). Oh yes, the gorgeous Calendula flowers and a sprig of fennel were most insistent. (Nobody need call the flower hotline as they immediately went into a vase of water)!

Okay let’s drop in, ground and get present, yes? I have a lovely visualisation to help you anchor into heaven and earth if you so desire. If not, just breathe in slowly through your nose and then sigh it out through your mouth. Allow yourself to settle and as you do I invite you to welcome in Gaia, Nature, Magick and the whispers. Let them play in your mind space and then when you are ready pick the card or cards that invite you to come play.

Did you remember to pick?

Shall we see, yes?

LIFE RESTORED

Spiritual resurrection is gifted to you now. Whatever part of you or your life you thought to be dead is being revived and will flourish back into life. Just as the Phoenix rises from the fire, transitioning from death, into life, so too will you rise again, healed and renewed.

Any trauma, ending, struggle or apparent defeat is not the end of the story for you now. What may appear to be an ending can sometimes simply be the forces of Ancient Feminine Power flowing into new pathways, pulling energy away from old forms so that they can transition into new forms. This can take short or long periods of time. It could be over days or years, weeks, months, decades. It doesn’t matter how long something appears to have been decaying, it will spring back into life at the right time.

Just as the River Nile subtly adjusts its course over time, so too will the River of Light that flows through you, filling you with life force and Divine Energy, move with innate wisdom. You can trust what is happening for you now. Something important to you is coming back to life. It might even feel like you are coming back to life after a period of increasing emotional numbness, physical or psychological struggle or spiritual disillusionment. It might also be a lifestyle, practice, business or relationship – new or old – that is coming to life now.

You are guided by Divine Priestess of the Phoenix, Sister Isis, to turn your face to the Sun. Just as the Sacred Scarab Beetle follows the movement of the Sun, you are encouraged to focus on the light and life that is seeking you now. Do not resign yourself to the way things have been. Let go of the past! Have hope and optimism. The past is over. Enjoy your rebirth.

WINGS OF ISIS

You have a special spiritual relationship with the angelic worlds. Part of your Soul purpose is to birth angelic consciousness and values such as fearlessness, compassion and service, into this human culture. Wings of Isis bring you angelic assistance and intervention, and confirmation that any impressions you may have had that you belong not only to the human kingdom but also to the angelic one, are correct.

This is no small task and although you are well equipped to succeed, there are beings that wish to assist you so that they may grow too and your success may be more graceful and swift. Isis, Divine winged mother, goddess and angel of healing, wishes to assist you with unconditional love now.

You will be asked to lift yourself up to higher and higher vibrational states of awareness and this may mean letting go of certain relationships, practices or states of being or even particular habits or thought patterns that would lower your vibration into fear, doubt or shame. Give yourself permission to just let this happen. You do not need to force anything. It is a matter of softening, allowing and trusting what feels right for you with absolute faith and bold, radical acceptance. It will be OK!

The more you accept this part of you, the more you shall draw into your world others like you. You will just feel comfortable with each other, because you all hold a similar refined vibration. Even in the midst of ordinary, everyday relationship, there is a sense of easy connection, mutual understanding and spiritual acknowledgment. The angels send you love and peace now and say, “We are with you, beloved one.”

KNOT OF ISIS

Each initiate has their own unique spiritual blueprint with particular skills, talents and higher destinies unfolding that use their unique attributes. Part of your spiritual blueprint is a special relationship to the energies of the Goddess. This means that no only do you have the important spiritual task of helping Her thrive in this world but you are afforded Her power, protection and abundance too. You are now deepening your connection to Her.

Part of your High Destiny this lifetimes is to heal and flourish through the Divine Feminine in Her many forms, especially in those forms that truly resonate and hold meaning for you. This healing will happen on your personal path and may well be part of the work that you offer in service to the world (which may be simply in how you live your life.

Your Soul is braiding or twining with the Divine Feminine energies in a particular form. For some that will be a specific goddess and the energetic process will often be strong and deep. The Initiate will feel as if they are integrating the part of this goddess that is not just in them, but is a part of their own consciousness. It is a deeply personal, spiritually powerful and beautiful growth experience for the Soul. This process does not make you lose your individuality.

Listen to your body-soul as it grows with Divine Feminine wisdom and trust that She will guide you, whether man or woman, deeper into your own healing which benefits us all.

Ahhhhh, holy hannah as the reading unfolded I could feel goosebumps on my arms. Okay, the messages are clear, what are you going to do with yours? So delicious lovely, I wish you a stupendous week, one filled with lifting your eyes up to the heavens and feeling your feet firmly on the earth, gorgeous belly laughs and glorious food! Thank you all for your amazing messages and emails, I so appreciate them. Huge hugs and squeezes!

Mother’s Day and De-cluttering Relationships

Jenny Heston · 1:01 am ·

Happy Marvelous, Magickal, Magnificent, Miraculous, Merry, Majestic, Manifesting Monday delicious lovely! How was Mother’s Day for you? I realised yesterday that asking that question can be rather loaded as there are so many energies that float around that day, there’s:- love, frustration, loss, disconnect, yearning, joy, expectations, connection, being invisible – and so very many more. It reminded me of years ago when I was in a lovely Kundalini yoga class and my most amazing mentor invited us to bring in our Mother, to feel that energy of safety, unconditional love and peace. Well, I have to say that was not what happened for me by any stretch, instead it brought up loss, abandon, grief and some very dark emotions which had me sobbing the whole way through class! (Gotta love how energy moves). Afterwards I went up and shared with her my experience and she could really hear how that didn’t feel safe inviting that person in. So instead she invited me to bring in someone who represented that mothering energy instead – so the next time I happily brought in my Great Aunt, another Aunt and a lovely older female friend. Which in turn created a totally different experience!

So this got me to thinking about Spring; decluttering our homes, gardens, workshops, kitchen cupboards, that one scary drawer that gathers everything from buttons, to one shoelace to a used bandaid. But what about relationships?

Do you ever declutter your relationships?

Now what do I mean by that. I mean sit down and do an inventory of how that relationship is working for you, what you bring to the table, what you receive, how it makes you feel etc. For example, I noticed a while ago that since moving I have attracted female “friends” into my life that most certainly want me to take care of them and look after things for them. Now, this in itself is not an issue if it’s a two way street, however, some haven’t been and there is a feeling of “Jenny will take care of it”. So interestingly enough, even though I could kinda see this I still kept stepping up to the plate, then I noticed that some of these women would be a couple of hours late for an arranged meeting, or would just sit and talk about themselves with no awareness as to what was happening in my life. Ahhhhhh, okay this is an old pattern from family of origin that is surfacing again. Thus, over the last 3 weeks I have really been looking at which relationships feel like a one way street and not ones of reciprocity, kindness, awareness and caring. Do you just cast them aside then was the question I had to ask myself. Some, most certainly yes! Others, I have moved out of the inner circle of relationships and put them more on the periphery, they are still there, but they don’t get the energy and attention that I had poured into them before. I am still open to them changing and growing, but it’s more a case of seeing if the other person is willing to put the effort in from their end, with no attachment to the outcome.

I will say, this has freed up so much energy for me and has released a lot of frustration and feelings of neglect. Have you ever done this? If you haven’t I highly suggest you do, it’s quite an interesting exercise. It also ties in with the glorious theme of AWARENESS that is at play for us this month.

Okay, enough chuntering on, let’s crack on with the reading. The cards that were most adamant to come and guide this week are The Oracle of the Shapeshifters. Now if these guides are new to you, let me introduce them (as that’s the polite thing to do), These are the magickal familiars, once the companions of shamans, witches, wizards, and wise ones – and now they are here for you. Now is the time for you to undertake a great quest – to rebirth yourself within this lifetime and this quest of evolution does not need to be faced alone. We change and we change again. We fear change. Yet it comes. For us to fear change is as foolish as winter crying for the coming of spring. Change is. Fear corrupts. These guides are here to support, encourage and help you through transformation and to teach you to let go of fear. True , deep change must take place for you to fulfill your soul contract. You may have turned from possibility to what you have convinced yourself is probable: You diminish your possible self, reduce who you are, and dilute your spirit. But even when you have sought to remain invisible and hidden away, and said yes to everyone else, life will find you – and transform you. You are never alone with these beings.” Phew! So there we have it are you ready?

The crystals that wiggled and jiggled to come to the forefront are Smoky Quartz – this is an amazing stone for grounding, leaving behind baggage and surrendering. Stone Canyon Jasper – is known as the ‘supreme nurturer’. It bestows a feeling of tranquility and integrity, by providing warmth, nourishment, and protection. Amethyst – aids in healing and intense spiritual growth.

The flowers are lovely Bachelor Buttons and Poppy petals.

Let’s settle, yes? Just breathe nice and slow, in through your nose and out through your mouth. Allow your shoulders to gently drop and nestle along your spine, like gorgeous wings at rest. Breathe into the corners of your belly and down to your toes. Then when you are ready pick the card or cards that whisper to you, inviting you to “see” them.

Did you remember to pick?

Let’s go have a peek!

TWO KITTENS

This magickal being is holding tight to two beautiful cats; both of them offer her growth in her femininity, independence, and satisfaction of many levels. Both of them are very young, very tender. She feels nurturing and protective toward them both. “How can I put one down?” she asks, torn. She is being asked to choose between the two, to separate one thing from another, and she is shocked that she must make this choice. When this being come to you, tune in. Ask yourself, your body, what it wants to do. Make a decision. You can no longer go on at this point attempting to walk in two directions at once. And that which you most fear – causing pain – will not happen when you choose. Cats are about your independence, your ability to leap high and to make it through many tricky situations. Choose. Choose now.

So are you having trouble making an important decision? You can’t see which one to choose? Which way to go? Both seem equally good or equally flawed? Hmmmm. We have come to show you the difference between two choices. You know you can take only one road at this time, and you know you must trust that that which you leave behind – that which you are telling yourself you are abandoning – will be safe and cared for. You will make it through this choice without feeling agonies of guilt. You will. The Universe trusts you to make the right choice! Feel it – you can now choose between seemingly indivisible ways. There will be a solution to this impossible situation.

For now, put one thing down and choose the other, or no real growth can take place.

LITTLE RED RIDING HOOD

You are changing the way you view yourself and speaking up and out. Others see you as an advocate for justice and fair play. You defend others by being who you are, simply by refusing to hide away or be fearful. By waking up every day, despite hardships, you are showing so many the way to live. You have made friends with your strength, and while people have mistaken you for a pushover, you know when the time comes that you are a strong person who cannot be stopped.

Like a wolf, you have fur and claws, and brothers and sisters who will help you if you only so much as call on their energy. But to find them, you must connect with the wolf within. It is time to travel on a new path, crossing a wood that seems empty and cold, but you will not be alone or as helpless as others seem to think you will be. You are not prey. You will have strong and unconventional allies. Like a wolf, you must be prepared to defend yourself, even if it means facing a fight. There is time to stand your ground and face the enemy. That time has come, brave one.

As little Red Riding Hood says – once I was hunted. I do no not hunt in return, but watch. And I am strong. I am myself, and I am proud of who I am. No one can harm me now that I have this knowledge, and with my mystic familiar – my lone wolf – by my side, I continue to walk my path. While I have lost some of my innocence, I have my life, my strength, my voice, my ability to stay myself no matter what others do or sy. I will no be a victim. I am not a victim. I am alive. And I will never give up.

THE FAERY BEE

A bee appearing in the beautiful natural world is a wonderful sign that true health is being restored to you. Bees speak of timeless wisdom – as in the ancient proverb “Ask the wild bee what the Druids know” – and are adept at creating shapes, patterns and, of course, honey, which provides food, sweetness, a natural antiseptic, and air-ionizing healthful wax, and can be made into med. It is also said that after completing the ritual of the the labyrinth in ancient Crete, the priestesses of Ariadne offered the initiates honeycomb to celebrate and acknowledge that all their needs would be met from that time forth. Bee can symbolise abundance, but, most import, it symbolises that all you need is being provided – and love is sure to come.

You ask me where the honey is, where the sweetness of life, the ease of life is? You sonder where the casual health and robust days have gone, and where the bright flowers and the sunshine have vanished to? No one took these things from you. You denied yourself your own needs and pleasures. I am here at all times, yet you have turned away from the natural world. For you to bring back its sweetness, you must spend time with flowers, ones that blossom generously – flowers of the plant kingdom and flowers of the human kind.

You have spent too much time among the bare-branched ones, who have told you that you will never acquire the luxury of feeling safe and comforted, but I am here to share that living life sweetly is as simple for you now as being outside in the sunshine for a few moments every day. The the flowers will bloom; the bees will come back; your joy and delight will return.

Wowzers! Choice, Speaking Up and giving yourself the gifts of delights! All super strong messages in this month of Awareness. How did your card resonate for you? Well delicious lovely, have a fabulous week, don’t forget it is Full Moon on Saturday. Wishing you spring flowers, warm showers, ease, effortlessness and flow and most importantly peace and laughter. Don’t forget you can get the monthly reading at any time in the month as it is a month from the day of the reading. The feedback has been that it’s a very powerful tool for navigating the four weeks ahead. Thank you for all your lovely emails and messages! Huge hugs and squeezes, see you next week.

Beltane is almost here!

Jenny Heston · 1:01 am ·

Happy Magickal, Mystical, Merry, Magnificent, Marvelous, Merry, Manifesting Monday!

So good to be back! It feels like it has been forever since we last connected, but in fact it has only been two weeks! How was your Easter? Did you get out and play, hunt for choccie eggs and do something fun? I hope so! We had a lovely family (family that is here) dinner, however, due to my son very kindly insisting that he would by a ham, and then not getting it to me until 6pm. Dinner wasn’t until 9pm! Ah well, we went and played on the beach, had skipping stone competitions, water fights and when we came home and walked in the door the smell was divine, it was quite lovely!

Now before we dive into Beltane and what it is and how to celebrate let’s talk about monthly energy. As you are aware the energy of each month shifts and invites us to be a bit more aware about certain ways we are showing up in our lives and where we can get taken off track and blindly carry on down the road of humdrum, same old, same old. I shared with some of you that every month I do a gorgeous monthly reading for myself. This reading gives me personally the energy of the month for me, then what to focus on each week. Quite a few of you responded that you would like that made available to you, so I am. Starting now there is a glorious Monthly energy reading that is available to you here! Which feels very appropriate with Beltane (May day) approaching – like on Wednesday! I’m also offering a May mini message which you can read about here as well.

Okay let’s take a little dip into what the heck Beltane is and whether you should pay attention to it or not. Beltane was thought to be one of the more important festivals of the Gaelic calendar. Beltane is a Fire Festival. The word ‘Beltane’ originates from the Celtic God ‘Bel’, meaning ‘the bright one’ and the Gaelic word ‘teine’ meaning fire. Together they make ‘Bright Fire’, or ‘Goodly Fire’ and traditionally bonfires were lit to honour the Sun and encourage the support of Bel and the Sun’s light to nurture the emerging future harvest and protect the community.

Beltane celebrates the height of Spring and the flowering of life. Earth energies are at their strongest and most active. All of life is bursting with potent fertility, look at the trees around you – (if you’re in the Northern Hemisphere), they are bursting forth with bright green leaves and the little sparrows are back as well as the robins. Abundant fertility, on all levels, is the central theme. My brother came to visit this weekend from Alberta, and was blown away by all the flowers and the smells that are happening as we are a good 7 weeks ahead of them. Rhododendrons are in bloom, there are fields of Camus lilies, Sea breeze is bobbing their little pink heads, the Iris’s are up and there are carpets galore of bluebells. Spring is here! Which is no surprise as Beltane is the festival that heralds in the fertility and growth of Spring. This is the time of unity between the Goddess and the God and massive celebration. For those of you who are on the email list there will be more information on Beltane tomorrow and a couple of super simple (we like simple) rituals to mark this fantabulous day. The colours of Beltane are red, green, white or silver and the ritual trees of this celebration are Birch, Hawthorn (which I planted two of) and of course Rowan. Speaking of Rowan, when my fourth child was born I had a ring made of Celtic knot work with Rowan leaves on it to celebrate his arrival.

Okay, enough chuntering, let’s crack on with the reading! When I went and asked which cards wanted to come out. The cards that wiggled and jiggled to come and guide this week are the glorious Oracle of the Dragonfae. Now if these delicious guides are new to you, please let me introduce them:- These guides are the magickal and mystical that weave through the threads of every day, they are the Dragonfae, Gods and Goddesses who dwelt in dimensional lands….Eden, Avalon, Ys, Atlantis and Mu, they are Morgan, Guenevere, Merlin and others – fully alive and filled with magick! They are the deliciously magickal beings that have always been there, we just forgot, and when we connect with them, we reconnect with the lost parts of ourselves, allowing us to fully explore the gift of life on this beautiful green and blue planet, known by some as Gaia, by others as Dana, and by many other names. The most positively perfect guides as we enter this magickal time of Beltane and an energy shift for May, plus the New Moon.

The crystals and flowers that were adamant it was their time to shine and share are:- Chrysocolla – revitalises and balances the base, navel and solar plexus chakras. Amethyst – aid healing and intense spiritual growth. Last but not least, Angelite – transmutes pain and disorder into wholeness and healing, opening the way for spiritual inspiration. The lovely rhododendron flower, bluebells and pansy were most adamant to participate.

Okay, take a moment to come back into your body, allow your shoulders to nestle down your spine and just breathe long and deep. When you are ready pick the card or cards that whisper at you.

Did you remember to pick?

Let’s go have a look shall we?

GRANDMOTHER MAGICKS

At this time of life change, you are drawing to you other beings and people, including divinities, who bring you solace, comfort and their unconditional love. You are surrounded by this comfort even in the beings of this Earth known as pets, but who are truly your guardians nd beloved companions…these pets are those who comfort you with their love and warmth, and their desire for your well-being, your company and your happiness, come what may. You may draw to you new friends at this time, or just be gifted with the kindness of strangers.

There are many wonderful beings in this world, some of whom are being sent directly to you to bring you comfort, to hold you, and to rock you safely to sleep each night. You are a being who is valuable, and who is loved beyond measure. Allow us to come close to you, and let us in. Bre prepared for kindnesses, small gifts and valuable windfalls when I make an appearance. Also, know that the old way of viewing this stage of life has fallen away….there is no need to take the lie up again. Let it be, and come forth into this new stage as beautiful as we know you are.

I also wish you to know that the time for change is coming: that you are passing from childhood of a kind, to a true deep maturity…this is a fine thing, and we will celebrate this together, you and I, together with the friends who want so very much to meet you!

AINE AND THE GUARDIAN

Here I stand, offering to you the protection and safety of my guardian being, wanting you to know how very protected you truly are. Never need you fear again those who have done you harm. This is over, and never again will disrespect and tyranny blight your path and light. Know that from this moment on, I stand with you, as does this magnificent Moondragonfae guardian, and together we say you may live as you wish, you may love as you wish, you may worship as you wish. No longer will others who feel they know best have their way with you, in spirit, in your heart, in your body, in your eternal soul. You are a radiant being of moonlit power, and the Goddess, our Mother, is overjoyed at your brilliance, your wit, your beauty, your freedom. I repeat. You are safe. You are protected. You are divine. All else is a lie.

Allow yourself to take flight, and explore the night and the freedoms it holds. The Moon cycles have much to reveal to you now, and as she wanes and waxes, and shines fully, you may stand beneath her and feel her rays shining through your every cell, filling you with natural magick that sustains your freedom, your true soul self, and brings you a warrior strength that by no means decreases your brilliances as a woman, or your femininity. Be receptive, and Aine will guide you to her magickal places, and this galactic Dragonfae being will help you see beyond our own star, the Sun, into the realms beyond. Your freedom and your self is as boundless as the night sky.

NIMUE

Between my two hands lies the power of all that is; the connections between the Earth and the stars, the realms through which you can move to bring about your deepest desires and dreams. But do you dare to dream it? Are you courageous enough to declare your desire? I can create, but I will not be brought froth when you do not have the fortitude to commit to your change. Make a commitment to thy own self now – she, who you truly are, is worth this trust, this pledge, this courage you must have to birth your own changing self. For I am gentle, but I too have no more time to spend if you wish to waste the jewels life has given you. I will turn away, because it may not yet be your time. Only you can say it is not so, and walk forth into your new self, with me as guide and light, with transformation as your nature, with your incarnation without material death as your truth.

Do this with me: Bless theyself. Love thyself. Know that you are beyond your own imaginings. Act this day, this hour, this minute, and change will flow. Do not hesitate. Be transformed now!

It is time for you to free yourself from the confines of others’ expectations and investigate other less conventional ways of making a living. You may be drawn to a particular crystal at this time, and may enjoy simply entering into more regular communion with the element of earth and its minerals. Wear jewelry that has been cleansed by you, and energised by you, and understand its significance and power for you. Make each piece you choose to wear a totem symbolising your own self, adorning and expressing who you truly are. Above all, the message of Nimue is to free yourself. Stop expecting others to unshackle the chains and force you to walk free. You, and only you, can remove that which is holding you back.

What a delicious reading! Talk about the perfect energies to go along with Beltane and the fiery, passion! Okay delicious lovely, remember to check out the monthly reading and the May mini message. If you want to receive information about Beltane and some easy rituals make sure you are on the email list. Wishing you a stupendous, fertile, abundant week filled with flowers, song, and laughter. Huge hugs and squeezes! See you next week!

Elements, Double Full Moon in Libra (Pink Moon), Easter and Earth day! Phew

Jenny Heston · 2:00 am ·

Happy, happy glorious Magickal, Magnificent, Marvelous, Mellow, Manifesting, Miraculous, Mischievous Monday!. How are you delicious lovely? How is your month going so far? How has it been working with Truth, Choice and Action? Before we dive into that I will say there is so much to share this week with Elements, Double Full Moon in Libra, Easter and Earth Day. So grab a cuppa, this might be a longer post!

Okay, if you have been feeling a tad in a funk, or just “grrrrrrrrr”. Keep in mind we had the New Moon in Aries on the 5th of this month and Aries is Fire baby, fire to ignite the dreams, desires and a bunsen burner under your passions. Aries is the first sign of the zodiac so now we start a whole new solar cycle as well as the energy of fire that accompanies Aries, thus destruction and creation.

Aries is a very initiatory energy which invites us to plant seeds pertaining to one idea and nurture it with fire (passion) to bring it into our future. Think about it, there are places in the woods, in the desert scape where when a wildfire happens and there is that intense, intense heat that seems to destroy everything, afterwards there are plants and flowers that haven’t been seen for years upon years. Why? Is it magic? Did random birds drop these seeds after the fire? No, it’s because these seeds lay dormant and needed the fire to get them to germinate and to grow. So remember to give those glorious seeds you planted at New Moon some chutzpah and passion (no this isn’t another thing to add to your to-do list, it’s intention and celebration!)

So let me ask what Elements do you most relate to? If you are unsure of what I am talking about, think about Air, Fire, Water, Earth. Which element do you really resonate with? Now, if someone had asked me that 10 years ago I would have said “ALL OF THEM”! I love when a wind picks up and I open my window to let it howl through. I love sitting around a fire with friends and family, sharing stories, music and just watching the flames. I love playing with Water! (If you ever come visit in the summer you may be splatted with a water gun as you walk up the path!) To walk amongst the trees, play in the garden put my hands and feet in the dirt is stupendous for me. All of these are good, but they are short and sporadic, what if the element is the whole season? For example, the element for Spring is Air, wind, rainstorms, big gusts, lightness, communication, growth and her direction is the East (also smudge). Summer is Fire, passion, wildfires, smoky skies etc. Her direction is South. Do you see where I am going? (If you have never listened to Vivaldi’s 4 Seasons I highly recommend it. Spring is all string instruments and is light, delightful and challenging.)

I asked this question of a client last week and she responded with her Sun sign, Moon sign, Saturn etc. Nope! I don’t want the labels, I want to know where makes you feel replenished over, over and over again. For example I have huge Fire and some Air in most every label you can name. For me, Water and Earth balance me out, when it gets too hot or the wind is too strong, that doesn’t make me feel fantabulous, yet walking in the woods, being by the ocean daily is like nectar to me. So what element(s) do you resonate with? I know my 6 month old puppy is most certainly Air and Earth. A wind picks up she goes bat shit crazy and dances and plays. Put her in the woods and she frolics like a faery on acid! Try and put her in Water it is a “Hell no” (even walking by the ocean every day) and if she gets too hot, or the fire that is burning is too loud – another – ummm, fuck no!

So let me ask again “What Elements resonate for you and how do you tap into them to nourish you?”

Okay, on Easter Good Friday we have the Full Moon in Libra, aka the Pink Moon! (That title makes me giggle.) The Full Pink Moon won’t actually be turning the perfect shade of millennial pink. BUT this moon means that spring is officially here and flowers are beginning to bloom. In fact, this moon’s name comes from the Herb moss pink phlox, or “wild ground” phlox, which is unsurprisingly a beautiful pink flower that blooms this time of year. This is also the second Full Moon in Libra in a row (we had one in April). The main theme are the patterns or cycles in relationships, which merit a conclusion.

It should be noted that the term relationships, seen from the perspective of modern astrology and Libra’s optics, involves both the treatment you give yourself and the feelings you cultivate in the interaction with others (partner, partners, family, friends). So if you have energy about yourself, or any relationship (whether work, family, friends, Uncle Tom Cobbly), what a perfect time to release it! Yes? (If you don’t have an Uncle Tom Cobbly don’t fret, lol).

Easter is quickly approaching and how are you going to celebrate? Time outside, visit with family, a large dinner, an egg hunt or just relaxing and watching it all happen? In normally create an egg hunt that is at least 2 km long, but for the first time in forever, I don’t have small people here to do that with. Hmmm, I think I shall have to create one for my neighbours and friends! Okay, a couple of jokes for you for Easter!

What do you get when you pour hot water down a rabbit hole? Hot cross bunnies!

Why did the Easter bunny cross the road? Because the chicken had its Easter eggs!

Hey, nowhere in this did I say they were good jokes lolol!

Then, last but not least we have Earth Day on Easter Monday (the 22nd). So my invitation to you is to get the heck outdoors with family or solo, all good. And go play in nature. Put your feet flat on the Earth, breath in the Air, celebrate the dew or snow (Water) and if you are somewhere warm and there are red flowers (Fire), celebrate it all. We live on a glorious, amazing Earth that nurtures and supports us, take a moment to let Mother Earth know you appreciate her and her bounty. Look up at the Sky and watch the clouds go by (even just for a moment).

Okay, I have chuntered on a shed ton. (I did tell you it might be a long post, hence why things are changing). When I went to the cards and asked who wanted to support, inspire and guide this glorious week I was quite intrigued to see that the Earth Warriors Oracle were adamant. The reason I was intrigued is this deck doesn’t tend to often come out for public readings, but hey, I just go with what I am told! Lol.

Now if you haven’t met these gorgeous guides before, please let me introduce you:- There is a river flowing now very fast. It is so great and swift that there are those who will be afraid. They will try to hold on to the shore. They will feel they are torn apart and will suffer greatly. Know the river has its destination. The elders say we must let go of the shore, push off into the middle of the river, keep our eyes open, and our heads above water. And I say, see who is in there with you and celebrate. At this time in history, we are to take nothing personally, least of all ourselves. For the moment that we do, our spiritual growth and journey comes to a halt. The time for the lone wolf is over. Gather yourselves! Banish the word “struggle” from your attitude and your vocabulary. All that we do now must be done in a sacred manner and in celebration. We are the ones we’ve been waiting for.”

The crystals that most certainly were clear about coming are:- Fire Agate – Historically, Fire Agate was used in alchemy because it was believed to contain the essence of fire. In many traditions sacred to fire deities, it encouraged timid adults and shy children to speak up and not be ignored or bullied. It is a stone of integrity, encouraging high standards of behavior in self and others, and promotes passion in love and in life. Merlinite – is known to be a stone of duality. It speaks about light and dark, and the black and white. It’s a seemingly simple stone that can attract good luck and powerful magic into your life. It’s a stone that will invite you to discover the deeper and darker parts of your being. Rhodochrosite – Wherever you happen to be on your spiritual journey, whether it’s crying on the bathroom floor at the heartbreak hotel or floating on clouds sprinkled with fairy dust, the Rhodochrosite crystal brings the most healing medicine of all – unconditional love. And of course Selenite to amplify!

The delicious flowers that chose to join in are cherry blossoms and a delicious bluebell (they most certainly went in water afterwards).

Ready? Settle yourself. See in your mind’s eye the Element that calls to you. Just breathe in the place that nourishes you and makes you feel whole and clear. Whether it’s the woods, the water, paragliding, the heat and the furnace. Just breathe it in and let your shoulders drop and nestle along your spine. Then when you are ready pick the card or cards that resonate for you.

Did you remember to pick?

Okay, let’s go look, yes?

CH’ASKA

Ch’aska, Star of Venus, supports an inner shift to higher consciousness. Whether or not you consider yourself to be financially skillful, part of your sacred power and purpose includes the healing of economic and financial matters in your own life and the world. You are meant to experience abundance, creating and sharing prosperity from a place of inner spiritual security. A healing liberation from poverty consciousness allows the Universe to work through you more easily without the obstruction of negative conditioning.

You are being guide to give up false shame of not having enough, or guilt for having too much. Your true worth is a matter of soul and has nothing to do with material things. As you relax and acknowledge the love that the Universe has for you, your material reality will unfold with grace and divine support.

Financial healing is indicated. Let go of fear and trust unconditionally that the Universe is supporting you. What brings you a sense of joy, purpose and passionate devotion? Focus on that. Believe in your ability to thrive by being and expressing your authentic self. Notice how you relax into flow and more easily attract what you need when you acknowledge that the Universe wants you to flourish through being you. Focus on putting your beautiful beliefs out into the world, not in consuming the negativity or fear of others. Give of your spirit abundantly!

WHITE BUFFALO WOMAN

Have hope, for you are pure of heart, and White Buffalo Woman appears as the divine sign of rebirth and harmony. She is the way shower who lives as one with Great Spirit. She teaches the practices that will free and empower us all. She heralds the birth of the divine upon a new Earth. You are held in her heart, and you will recognise her beautiful grace of spirit in your own.

In the Native American tradition, the Sioux Mother, White Buffalo Woman, is a symbol of rebirth and spiritual promise. For those of us attempting to awaken higher values in closed hearts that are unwilling to shift from more self-serving ways, White Buffalo Woman brings a message of divine justice. This is not about revenge or a mean-spirited definition of karma and people getting what they deserve, for if one is disconnected enough from the heart to be self-serving, then one is already in a living hell. The divine justice that White Buffalo Woman heralds is the restorative and correcting power of Great Spirit that will always find a way. If Great Spirit needs to use an unlikely candidate to do that, then it will. The Divine is not limited to what we think is going to work. It is powerful in ways that are beyond human comprehension. It is able to enact divine law and elicit restoration even when we wonder if it’s all falling apart before our eyes.

This doesn’t mean that we give up our fight, but, rather, that we are renewed with optimism and enthusiasm to embrace our journey with the greatest ally working alongside us. We find comfort knowing that Great Spirit is with us, not doing for us, but neither turning away from us in our need. We feel a more peaceful trust in the ultimate success of our purpose, for, no matter how many twists and turns the path takes, behind and in front of every unexpected obstacle, Great Spirit is present.

KAITIAKI

You are Kaitaki, guardian of the Divine Feminine. Your relationship with Mother Earth, Papatuanuku, is sacred, empowering and healing. You are destined to become more spiritually intimate with her, sharing in her creative potency and wisdom. Lean into her and trust in her support, even as you serve her by courageously voicing truth. She is your great ally, friend and healer, and as you dedicate yourself to her, she dedicates herself to you.

Make peace and let go of past issues around being abandoned or not understood or of feeling unsupported, as those experiences need no longer colour your worldview. Trust that you belong here, and that your connection to the Earth Goddess will support you in all ways. You are sensitive, and rightly so. Never judge your sensitivity or feel that you are overreacting – but also allow nature to calm and soothe you, so that you can be focused on accomplishing your soul mission.

If you feel that you are on your own, when you would like some help, allow the Divine Mother to be your friend and guide, whilst trusting that at the right moment, more allies will arrive. The Earth Mother has her own sense of timing, and you are not forgotten. You are just growing according to her wisdom and grace. Have faith in yourself and in her!

Happy Elements. Happy Full Moon. Happy, Hippity Hoppity Easter! There will be no reading next week as I am taking the weekend and Monday to play, hang with family and play with the elements around me! Have a superb week and please if there is anything I can say to you – you are enough, in fact you are brilliant. Smile, play, create, smudge and find chocolate eggs! And when things get a tad tweaky – fucking breathe! Huge hugs and squeezes! See you in two weeks.

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