Jenny Heston

Weekly Reading January 16th

Happy glorious Monday delicious one! Gosh we are halfway through January already and I have found it to be a wonderful, productive, creative time. How about you? How did the Full Moon go for you last week? I heard from quite a few people that they found the Full Moon (Wolf Moon) rather an emotional, chaotic energy time, and when this happens it’s even more important to remember the tools to help keep yourself grounded and your energy clear and moving forward. Personally, this is when I make sure I am wearing the crystals that work for me and I take little chunks of time out for some self care or just pure belly wobbling fun! Like sledding in the dark with just a headlamp (which becomes quite chaotic as my 3 large dogs keep trying to hop on my sled, or rescue me).

So this week the delicious Wild Kuan Yin Oracle deck made it very clear that they were meant to be the ones that came to play, so those are what we are working with this week. If you are new to working with the Oracle cards you might want to listen to this week’s visualisation to help you get centred and clear. Then trust yourself and pick a card.

So let’s go on a little magical adventure shall we?

Breathe in, breathe out and let’s go pick.

Ready to go see?

GRANDMOTHER DRAGONFLY HOLDS THE WISDOM

Sometimes there is benefit in focusing on the new, seeking out untried paths, developing untapped resources and exploring possibilities. The intoxication of hope, inspiration and optimism combined can be hard to resist. However, if fear, boredom or lack of commitment is beneath the quest for new adventures, if we are believing that what we need or want is always just beyond, we may be dissuaded from applying ourselves to the worth tasks before us right now. If we are an imaginative and visionary type of personality, we may rebel against the mundane tasks of applying ourselves daily to bring an idea to life. However, if we were to stop and look clearly at what we already have in our lives, we could realise that there is much of value waiting to be put to use.

Do not step away from what you are cultivating, even if it seems to have lost its steam, run out of energy or be utterly dead in the water! There is something within what you have been working on that is going to yield something of great benefit. There will be much more success, prosperity, happiness and maturing of your ultimate life goals and journey in tending to what is already further along in development than in something new. Grandmother Dragonfly offers you vision that is wide and unlimited by preconceptions. You may need to look differently at what you have nurtured and how to tap into what it has become to be able to share it with others and allow its sustaining grace to nourish human life in its own way. You will help people in many and varied ways. It is all a part of your natural development and you can trust in it. There is no need for you to ever be impatient or doubting of this.

BE LED BY THE PATH BEFORE YOU

You may question whether you are walking your true life path, in alignment with your divine destiny. Perhaps you have a choice to make and are uncertain s to which decision will be the right one for you. Perhaps you are wishing there were more choices available to you, that there only seems to be one path before you now and yet you are not convinced that it is the right path for you. Fear not. There is no mistake here. Trust in your unfolding life journey, for the path before you is one that I have blessed. Even if you sometimes lack confidence to trust in the path that you are upon, know this – you cannot miss your true path, or your divine destiny.

You are on your path. You are right in your sense that there is a greater purpose calling you forwards. Do not fall into the trap of imagining there is some other way to get there however. You have not made some error simply because your life doesn’t necessarily look or feel the way you imagined it would at this point. This too shall change in due course as your path curves ahead. Your life situation each day is like a breadcrumb dropped by the Divine, guiding you towards your destiny. You get to choose how you respond to that breadcrumb – happily gobble it up and continue on your way, or ignore it and try to venture off elsewhere out of anxiety or doubt.

Don’t make things more complicated than they need to be. Don’t rush in out of fear or panic to try and sort out an issue. Be patient and allow it to unfold. The universe knows what you are in need of, and the Divine Mother is with you always, giving birth, through you, to the fullness of your destiny. Take pause when needs be and rest. Then take the next step. Trust.

HARVEST MOTHER WATCHES OVER ME

There are times on the path when we feel the urge to go within, to withdraw from the world for a time, to claim some space. We may not know why, but if we avoid that impulse, we miss the great benefit that such a process can bring. In this world, we are typically taught that ‘things happen’ through effort directed towards external action. Of course, there is a time and place for this. However, there is also a time when the action needs to be internally oriented, and far more about receiving and restoring rather than doing, about contemplating and integrating rather than strategising and initiating.

There has been so much happening in your outer world and even in your inner world, so much awakening, so much experience, that it needs to be processed, sorted through and released into some sort of useful content. It is safe and timely now for you to declutter your world, especially your internal world – although clearing out something of your physical world may be a way to enhance the process. It is not time to keep taking in more information, or to push yourself to have more experiences, meet new people or take new risks. That will all happen again soon enough. There is something very nourishing, healthy and life-affirming within you, waiting to be tapped into, but you need to make a choice to do that. This is also a time of great abundance, of hidden gifts becoming apparent and being received if you are willing to create some space. There is a rich, growth-fuelling divine substance within your reach, and to receive that nectar of life you need to change pace.

Do not worry that you are turning your back on life. You are not. You are affirming the life within that is ready for your loving care and attention. There is something within that needs to be drawn forth, something that needs to be pulled out of the unconscious and brought to full awareness – a feeling, an intuition or instinct, a piece of guidance or understanding. It will be an important discovery – no matter how ordinary or minor it may seem at the time.

Wishing you a glorious week filled with magic, miracles and wonder. Remember to drink water and take moments to just BE. If you need more information on crystals and how they can support you, don’t hesitate to contact me.

How do you feel about the “F” word???

Jenny Heston · 5:26 pm ·

How do you feel about the “F” word? Does it make you cringe?

Do your shoulders go up around your ears, a possible shudder or does it make your teeth hurt?

Do you glare at the person who uses “that” word and then turn your back?

Do you tell them how offensive you find that word and that the use of that word shows limited development?

Oh yes, by the way, I’m not talking about the word – Fuck – I’m talking about the word Forgiveness.

Forgiveness, such a gorgeous word, but so frigging tricky to actually do, yet exceptionally important for your sake, not anybody else’s. You know the old saying – “Holding onto anger and resentment is like drinking a glass of poison and hoping the other person dies?” It’s so true, half the time the person you are angry at doesn’t give a flying fig, can’t remember, doesn’t care or a myriad of other reasons, but you holding onto this energy does hurt you. So unless you are one of the exceptional few who has figured out how to ingest a substance and send it through the ethers into another human body, you might want to try a different route.

About 8 years ago one of my fabulous mentors advised me that I had a bit of an issue with forgiveness and they suggested I should work on that. Excuse me? I don’t carry grudges, I have no resentments, all is well in my world – mmmm, have to say, bullshit. So I chanted the Ho’oponopono for 2 weeks (yes a full 2 weeks, most of the time under my breath). Now if you don’t know what I’m talking about, or think that I am referring to some exotic tropical beverage, it’s the prayer of forgiveness and it’s super simple there are 4 lines. You pull the image up of the person or situation and sing, say, chant “I’m sorry, Please forgive me, Thank you, I love you.”

Now that may sound totally daft to you or you may have worked with it, but it does work. If you want more information there are some fabulous sites online with a more detailed methodology and the back piece of where it came from.

So after the allotted time my response was – Sweet! I did two weeks of this so I’m all good right? I’ve released any anger, resentment etc that was there. The answer that came back was yes and Heck NO! I had most certainly dug deep and forgiven my 3rd grade teacher, my ex-husband, and everyone or anything else that I had a resentment to, but I hadn’t bothered forgiving myself.

My delicious ego kicked up with “Why do I need to forgive myself, I am a positive paragon of virtue!” (Which I am most certainly not). The fact of the matter is I’m human and I do fuck up (there’s that other F word), I have said unkind things, I have hurt someone’s feelings, I have forgotten a kids assembly at school, I have hurt my own feelings and state of being with huge negative self talk, disparaging comments and self attack.

So what I realised was as fantabulous as it was to do a two week process, I needed to have a daily forgiveness practice, not just a now and then one. Daily I needed to release any anger, blame, shame, judgement, fear or perceived stuff, whether directed at someone else or at myself. Why? Because that stuff can build up and be pushed down and it was limiting me, it was feeding fears, it was something I couldn’t change other than to say “I’m sorry”, it was energy being wasted.

So if you are thinking – I don’t need to practice forgiveness. Really? Come play with me for a moment and let me paint a random day.

You drive to work and someone cuts you off and you have to slam on your brakes to stop from rear ending them. WTH!!!! You were there, in that lane, didn’t they bother looking? At work there is drama happening and you hear through the grapevine that someone you thought was a friend is having a good old gossip about you, and it’s not very pleasant. The work day trudges along and Maria from accounting comes bouncing up to tell you how her latest fling is taking her to Cuba for 2 weeks, yet you can’t get your husband to go to the next State. Traffic is bad on the drive home and you swear, curse and beat yourself up about life in general. You didn’t pitch your very cool idea at the office meeting, you allowed yourself to be talked over…….

You get home to find that your darling family (who’s been home for a few hours now) are all just lounging around, or are out, the house is a mess and no one has bothered to open the fridge and think “What should we have for dinner.” You cook dinner, your youngest is in a foul mood and apparently feels it’s all your fault so most certainly acts out, you have to heckle the kids to do their homework and then you receive an email from work that asks for yet another thing that wasn’t meant to be happening for 2 more weeks and finally after everyone else has been tended you fall into bed exhausted.

So no resentments, no anger, no self attack?

If you can say you have none of the above then I should come meet you and you better be sitting under a Bodhi tree and looking uber serene!

So I invite you every night before you close your peepers, make a list of what you forgive, who you forgive and most importantly forgive yourself. Forgive your fears, your shame, your blame and your judgement, forgive the neighbour and their yappy dog that barks at 5am. Come back to the place of loving and appreciating yourself. The reality is you are awesome and you are human, that doesn’t mean you need to spend your time beating yourself up and holding onto anger. The more you forgive those around you and yourself, the more space you create in your life to flourish.

Drinking water or a nice cuppa tea is far better than drinking poison.

When you wish upon a star……..

Jenny Heston · 3:19 pm ·

Eleven years ago, when my youngest was 2, I realised that although I used ritual and manifesting exercises in my life daily I tended to do that alone and not with my kids. So I created a new tradition to teach my kids about releasing, clarity, intention and manifesting.

The first weekend after New Years became our family new year’s celebration. It is a celebration which calls to all of us to release, get clear, focused and start a fresh.

As the skies start to darken in the late afternoon a feast is prepared and put on to gently burble away. Whilst it cooks we all gather in the living room with pieces of blank paper and pencils. Candles are lit, calming music is playing and the space is set. We each snuggle up into our corner and write (for the little ones that aren’t at that place yet, they draw).

What do we write?

Whatever we want to release personally, within a family structure, within our community and globally; some of us scribble away like mad fiends, others have less to write. But it’s all about letting go of habits, beliefs, behaviours, thoughts; ways of being that no longer serve.

We don’t share these things, these are deep and dark and private. It’s interesting to see how people fold their lists or what they turn them into when they are finished; everything from paper aeroplanes to pom-pom’s, to flowers. When everyone is done we don our coats and boots and go outside into the snow and the dark and set those gorgeous lists on fire. As the paper ignites the sparks get whipped up into the air, taking with it any residue or baggage and gently blowing it away.

The light and the warmth of the house beckon and when everything is burned to a crisp and released we all scurry inside and peel off our layers. The music changes and there are large stars cut out of Bristol Board. There are pens, crayons, glitter, shiny things, paints – you name it, all waiting to be used and to bedeck a star. Then whether it is with words, pictures or phrases you take the time to decorate your star as to what you would like to create/be/manifest/do in the upcoming year. It’s so fun to see what comes out for each person.

The intentions are set, the desires are launched like massive rockets and laughter abounds.

When the stars are finished we share them, we don’t need to explain them, just share. There are no questions; there is no judgement, after all each of these are personal. Then when the tidy up is completed and glitter has been wiped away we all sit around a gorgeously laid table and share in a wonderful feast and the stars get placed on the kitchen wall so that every day we can read them, look at them and think – YES!

We have carried on with this tradition now for 11 years, and some of the stars have become more complex and some have become simpler. Some years the decorating of them seems to take hours and other years it is more a case of pouring out the yearnings, desires, intentions and goals in written words all over the star.

This year we did our stars on the weekend and one of the boys asked if I kept the ones from the prior year. I have kept them all. So I went and dug through a box and hauled them all out, the kids were amazed to find that a lot of their wishes, visions and desires from a year or so ago had all happened. They had created and manifested the intentions and wishes they had written on their stars.

It made me laugh and think of the song that Jiminy Cricket sang to Pinocchio – When you wish upon a star, makes no difference who you are, anything your heart desires will come to you. When you wish upon a star your dreams come true.

Weekly Reading January 9th – First of 2017

Jenny Heston · 4:17 pm ·

Happy 1st reading of this glorious New Year! I hope you had a relaxing, nourishing holiday season and have picked your WOTY that will become your touchstone in every aspect of your life. I took some lovely quiet time between Christmas and New Year and did a few releasing processes which helped clean out my energy (so now it’s even more sparklicious), which in turn helped me find my word and this year it is – SHINE! So with that as my touchstone it’s been a busy first week creating new programmes to better serve you, a new e-book is on the way and a delicious challenge is being created for March. So let me ask, how has your first week of this year been?

One thing I have noticed with myself and with others is the perfection gremlin raising his ugly head. So often when we have a big vision for the year – I mean a kick arse big vision and then enter into the planning mode a sense of getting lost in the minutiae and overthinking the tiny details starts flailing around. Which, for me, in turn kicks up my ever lurking “perfectionist” mindset and then everything goes to hell in a hand basket for an hour as fear starts creeping in or I decide I need to distract myself by watching a ridonculous video on Facebook. Can you relate to this at all?

So before we go see what glorious guidance this delicious new Oracle deck has for us, let’s take a moment to get centred, clear and present.

Now let’s go see what’s in store for this week.

SISTERS OF THE SACRAL SPIRAL

I create by weaving a web of love, drawing threads from the past and looping these with threads of the future, drawing them together, back and forth, over time, until the beautiful present moment is rich, full and abundant with love interwoven. What this means is that when you grow you do not only grow in one direction. You are a natural creation and so you grow according to natural law. That means you grow and expand in spirals rather than straight lines. Expansion means that not only will you encounter more light as you grow, but you’ll also tap into more of your shadows and that brings with it its own tests and challenges – and opportunities, of course.

You are going into, or are already in, an intense period of personal and spiritual growth. This will entail much joy and forward movement towards your destiny, and also some confrontation with the darkness in your own being – fear, doubt, grief – but more than that, any part of you that is unwilling to let go and trust in what is taking place. You will need to trust more than you ever have before. The universe wants to bring more abundance, fulfillment and experience to you than exists in your world at present. So you’ll need to be more open and receptive to what is on its way. Keep trusting, keep going. Love is guiding you and it is prevailing, but you have to trust in the process.

BLESSING TO BEGIN

Accepting my blessings and help will not create dependency or prevent you from taking responsibility for applying yourself to a task. My gifts imply amplify the results of your efforts. I do this because I am invested in your success. It will bring happiness to more people than you realise and your desires, and mine, are in perfect accord. You are being given a divine leg up, a blessing to begin. The Divine is going to help you launch something important – an idea, a seedling of hope, a new start. Accept the help and opportunity that so easily comes your way now, but also remember that you are being given help because there is something of great worth here. If there are new opportunities coming your way, act on them. Say yes!

Whatever stage you are at in the manifestation of your dreams, be it the earliest glimmer of a vision or one that you have invested decades of your life to and on which you are far along the path, the gift of the Mother is bestowed upon you – her red poppy of success. She has guided you and shall continue to do so, offering protection whenever needed whilst allowing you room to spread your wings. Ask for help and trust also that whatever is before you, you can handle it, even if sometimes you question that before conquering the issue at hand. The assurance and blessing of the Divine Mother empowers your own soul to take even the most apparently impossible or intimidating of prospects and turning them into accomplishments whilst growing in self-confidence and self-mastery. So believe in yourself. The Divine Mother does.

SURRENDER SENSITIVE SISTER, BE MOVED BY THE MOON

You know what you know. Even when you don’t know how you know! I speak to you through that knowing. The intuition that is beyond logic. The feeling that has no physical proof as yet. The instinct to keep going, to trust yourself and take the journey before you. Be open and truthful with all that you feel and resist nothing. It shall then simply flow, changing like the phases of the moon, naturally and without effort on your part.

Something is happening. You cannot see it, but in your most sensitive and responsive moments you feel it. You are asked to explore your particular way of sensing energy. Don’t discount what you feel. Recognise, honour and be moved by it. You are gifted with an ability to feel what is before the conscious mind of others recognise it – a gift for perceiving what is going to be because you feel it in your bones. It matters not whether another sees or feels as you do. You are meant to be moved by the moon. It is part of your nature. Don’t try to toughen up or protect yourself, or become less sensitive, less emotionally-attuned or less moved by energy and feeling. This can become your greatest asset, a source of wisdom, truth and even strength. Do not be hesitant to embrace your gifts. You shall find a way to work with them so you are not compromised or depleted.

If you have been feeling something – a choice, a need to express a feeling, the need to pursue a course of action – that seems entirely at odds with your rational mind – trust in and explore the impulses from within. Always call on the guidance that loves you unconditionally and then follow your feelings as they guide you along your divine life path with intelligent grace.

Wishing you a glorious week, warm toes and cups of tea. The deck we used today is called Wild Kuan Yin by Alana Fairchild. See you next Monday and if you want to receive these in your inbox, please sign up.

Weekly Reading December 19th

Jenny Heston · 4:01 pm ·

Happy glorious Monday and almost Solstice (I love Solstice), to me it is a time of reflection, going inwards and really having a nosy around my soul and psyche. This year we will have our ritual of a gorgeous cedar spiral walk and I am making a glorious Solstice smudge out of Frankincense, Myrrh, Cedar and Juniper – I will write more about that tomorrow. It’s also the birthday of my youngest monster, so a great lesson in balancing frenetic boys and celebrating the inward. HA! On the weekend we also lit the 4th candle of Advent – which is the candle of Peace.

Ahhh Peace, such a lovely sounding word, but often a difficult state of being to get into. What does Peace mean to you? To me it is inclusion, acceptance, understanding and a strong hopeful love that radiates out from every cell of my being. Sometimes it is there very fleetingly and other times it seems to last much longer.

So with Peace in mind let’s go see if we can find some prior to picking cards.

So let’s go pick.

TURQUOISE LOTUS MOTHER

Turquoise Lotus Mother brings precious healing to you now. Allow yourself to be lifted out of your struggle, beloved one. An old pattern is finally in its death throes, something that weighed heavily on you from your past. This is can be one of the most testing times to allow something to go, just when it seems to be demanding of your time, focus and attention. Yet do not doubt, you have actually learned the lessons it required of you and now you are being blessed with an opportunity to receive karmic healing.

Your Soul has learned what it needed from the situation and it has asked for a divine hand up, so that it might continue on its divine path of growth without unnecessary karmic weight pulling it down. Listen to your guidance now. If you have been working with crystals, turquoise in particular is recommended to empower you and help you to heal.

DAUGHTER OF THE PHOENIX

When the Soul is ready to spread its wings, it goes through a deep cleansing, purification and preparation for new levels of spiritual wisdom, power and light. Just like the Phoenix that is baptised through celestial fire to be born anew, you are going through such a phase of heavenly purification, preparation and initiation. This is an advanced phase of soul growth and soon after you will enjoy greater spiritual peace, divine power and advancement on your divine life path, Kuan Yin, Daughter of the Phoenix, has been through fire both physical and heavenly and has ascended into a position of great spiritual peace, power and authority. She guides you now to claim your rebirth and ascend.

Do not fear the challenges. You would not be taking these “spiritual exams” if you were not ready to live at a higher spiral of consciousness. Have some faith in your own progress and remember not to get attached to what is “leaving” your consciousness as you are preparing to ascend. Surrender that which needs to be burned away.

SHINING LOTUS

There are times when it makes sense to be discreet, until you find your inner strength so that you feel empowered enough to share your thoughts, feelings and beliefs without wavering, even in the face of challenge by another. At other times, we benefit ourselves and others by taking a risk and allowing the inner lotus blossom of our true Self to shine forth, for all to behold.

Have you been hiding in the spiritual closet, beloved? Sometimes it makes sense to avoid sharing your thoughts and feelings about spiritual beliefs and other personal matters until they are clearer in your own mind. However, there are also times when hiding your deepest truths away from the world will no longer protect you but actually hold you back from living your divine destiny, shining the lotus light of your own Soul and walking your path in the world.

If there is something that you have been holding within, you are guided to listen to your heart for the right time and the best way to share it. Be gentle with yourself and know that you have a right to be here on this planet in your own truth and that no matter what the response, whether a response of affirmation and love, or a response of discomfort, your truth serves the greater good.

So delicious one, we will be back on January 2nd – the first Monday of 2017! With Mercury Retrograde and the holiday season in full tilt, I wish for you and yours Peace, Hope, Love and Joy (oh and lots of mince pies!)

Jenny Heston

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