Jenny Heston

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Where’s your Joy? Virgo New Moon and Equinox is rapidly approaching.

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Delicious, lovely!  Happy Magickal, Mysterious, Merry, Melodious, Magnificent, Magickal Manifesting Monday!  

How are you?

Let’s talk about Joy shall we?  Where is your daily Joy metre sitting at?  Is it 90 out of a 100? 50 out of a 100?  Or are you having a dalliance in the negative numbers?  (There is no wrong answer to this and I will not be checking your homework!)

Now what do I mean by Joy?

Let’s differentiate between Happiness and Joy, they are both emotions, however Happiness may be caused by luck, good fortune, or other person-centric pleasures. 

Joy is caused by elation at a moment in time. Joy may not always be about oneself but be about others’ contentment also.

Joy is an emotion composed of feelings of happiness, contentment, and harmony. It differs from general happiness in that it is not caused by a particular event but comes from within the individual. … Joy is a generalised feeling that comes from the person.

To put it bluntly, Joy is an inside job!  

So let’s come back to the original question – Where’s your Joy metre sitting?

If your Joy metre is meh, come with me and write a list.  

Around mid June I noticed that my Joy metre wasn’t nearly as high as it normally was.  It was sitting at about 30/100.  It’s not that there was anything wrong in life, I love my clients, my work, but I had got into a tad of a rut of doing the same things over and over.  

Then near the end of July as the anniversary for my big sister approached and the grief rose up, yet alone the holding space for all the family, I realised it was down to 10/100 and by then I couldn’t seem to muster the energy to change it, it felt too hard (does that make sense?)

So the next day I managed to come down with Covid that kicked 7 bells of Hell out of me and my Joy metre went down to about a negative 50!  

Something had to frigging change and shift as this is not how I chose to participate in life.

So I made a list (not a to-do list, but a Joy list).

My list consists of 59 things or more that I want to see, try, do, feel, taste or experience.  All new things to me.  Note – this isn’t “what do I like”, but more “what am I willing to try that I might like?”

So far they range from trying a new hike, to eating pickled lemons, trying a hip-hop dance class, learning a new craft, trying out the ukulele, going to a new market, and a myriad of others.  

Some are simple and easy, some are a tad more complex.  Some cost money, others don’t, I just have to have the willingness and the curiosity to try something new and different and to look out at the world in a way that invites in new as well.

The miraculous part of making the original list is it ignited my sense of curiosity and playfulness and almost every other day I find myself adding something else onto the list that piques my interest.    So I’ve signed up for an “Alice in Wonderland outdoor escape adventure”, where the streets of downtown are turned into an outdoor escape room!

Since starting my list I have tried 6 new things, one of them being kayaking on the ocean and I will say my Joy metre is steadily rising, I feel much more grounded and I look forward to playing everyday.  And this time next year I will have a list of 52 or more “new to me” things I have tried!  

I invite you to try this process, it’s glorious fun and helps you shift your lens of perception.  

Give it a try.  What do you have to lose?  And if you want to go deeper there are 7 Steps to Reclaiming Your Joy that will help you as we approach this New Moon.

As August comes to a close, we welcome in the New Moon in Virgo on August 27th (Saturday).  

Now if you remember New Moons are a fabulous time for setting intentions and making New Moon wishes.  As Forever shares:-

“Falling in the earthy sign of Virgo, there is a grounded energy to this New Moon. It beckons us to sink our feet into the earth, to feel a part of all that surrounds us, and to remember that life is so much easier when we flow in harmony with the season of our lives.

Use the energy of the Virgo New Moon, to accept your reality, to bring yourself back down to Earth, and to recognize that your soul chose to be here, on this planet, at this time. It doesn’t really matter the reason, but knowing you are walking where you are meant to be walking, even if it doesn’t feel like it, can bring a sense of peace into your being. Allow yourself to find truth in that idea, whatever that looks like for you.

Give yourself permission to fully and wholeheartedly accept that you are right where you need to be, and all that is unfolding right now is leading you to your highest growth and highest expression of your soul.

How can you treat yourself as the sacred being that you are?

So as you make your New Moon Intentions (which will walk with you until March 2023), what will bring you more Joy, creativity, ease and flow and help you really honour yourself?

Okay, let’s crack on with the reading.  So when I went to the cards and asked who would like to guide and support this week I giggled when I saw it was The Oracle of Shadows and Light.  With the invitation to walk into the darkness of New Moon, they are positively perfect!

Now if these guides are new to you, please let me introduce them

Wisdom for Misfits, Mystics, Seekers, and Wanderers. 

Bittersweet…Unheard…Unconventional…Rebellious…Cheeky…Whimsical…Invisible.  They’re not the words you often hear associated with the spiritual world, are they?  

Nevertheless, some of the most spiritual beings who have ever lived are those who have been most at odds with what we call the mainstream.  They do not fit in.  They have had moments of despair.  And they know being truthful, and being real, is one of the greatest strengths and spiritual paths of all!  They ask you to step out from the shadows, to no longer hide your light away, and to consult with an oracle that acknowledges your individuality and strange genius!  

How’s that for a warm welcome?

So darling one, take a moment to just be here now (how many times have you heard that and ignored it?) Breathe deep into your belly, let your shoulders relax and allow in your minds eye the sensation of Joy to swirl. Let your Joy show you what her colours look like and give you images. Then when you are ready, pick the card or cards that whisper.

Did you remember to pick?

Let’s go look shall we?

SEWER MERMAID

Your sensuality is beautiful!

You’re being reminded of the treasures you have that you may have labelled “bad” and perhaps even pushed away, forced underneath.  We often have negative thoughts – that we are too short, too tall, our thighs too large, our breasts too small, our hair not right, our face not pretty enough.  We speak to ourselves in negative ways, and we begin to feel we are not good enough.  

And when this takes place, the result can be that we begin to create negative experiences, blockages, and difficulties.  

We push away, rather than attract them.  We hide for fear that what others see will not be good enough. 

But this mermaid of the hidden spaces is here to show you that your dark thoughts have told you lies about your great beauty; you are your own self, and all that you are is perfect, whole, and complete.  

You may try to push her away and refuse to believe that you are beautiful.  But when you are ready, she will swim to you and free you from all the harmful, negative thoughts and experiences, all the “sewage”.  You will begin to believe that no matter what, you are a beautiful being, healthy, attractive, and one who deserves love, respect, and affection.

It’s time to believe in yourself – that you are attractive, beautiful, and worthy of love and respect.  She will show you how to see your body as a place of health, delight, and strength.  Let’s clean up your physical and mental acts.  Let’s love all aspects of the physical self.  

Let us not criticise and hate ourselves, no matter our size, shape, or differences.  We are all unique expressions of the Divine – and that truth most certainly applies to you.  Let us not be ashamed anymore.  

Let us celebrate who we are, and learn to love the differences, and be grateful for all that we have, are, and will be.  

It is time to clean up your act – not of your natural looks, but of the way you have thought about yourself!  Something beautiful has been treated badly.  It is now up to you to begin to reframe your ideas and thoughts and therefore your experiences of yourself, your body, your worth, your ability to attract others, and to see yourself as worthy of love, respect, and consideration.

You are beautiful and very worth loving.  This is the only truth that must be told at this time.  

VIOLET DUCHESS

Stifled, bored and stuck.

Bored!  Stifled!  Ah yes, she’s trying to be “good” and “nice” and polite – but it’s not working.  This lovely and very passionate aristocrat has her fairy wings tucked firmly in, not visible at all, and is sitting stiffly, listening to someone give a lecture on manners.  

She’s polite on the surface, but it’s easy to see (and feel) that she is bored, frustrated, and ready to fly away at the first opportunity.  For now, she will bide her time, but  you can see the frustration growing beneath – and frustration is, after all, only your own life force, turned within, and longing to break free of its restraints.  

In your admirable quest for balance, you can actually become too neutral, pretending to be serene, acting polite, not making waves – and not speaking your truth!  Now that I’ve arrived showing you exactly how you feel, it’s time to discover – or rediscover – a raw and honest emotional reaction you had to a person, or to an issue, and express it. 

It’s all very well being a lover of harmony and not wanting to be a “troublemaker” but being a lukewarm person in regards to situations that really matter is not going to do you any favours.  

Bottling up your true self leads to unhealthy relationships, aches, pains, and even illness!  

Go for the passionate and truthful option – and rediscover just how strongly you can feel, and how much fun you can have! 

Your desire to be liked, to please to be seen as a “lady” or a “gentleman” is cheating yourself out of something wonderful that you deserve to experience.  Sometimes, there are rules that simply need to be broken.  Keeping to the spirit of the law sometimes means breaking the letter of the law, that’s how things change.  

There is a situation at the moment that has revealed itself as unjust, unfair, and absolutely unattractive to you, but you have yet to speak up! 

The most inspiring thing about this situation is that you’ll discover just how safe it is to stand up for what you truly believe in.  Others will be inspired, too, so while it feels like you’re taking a risk, at first, after a while you’ll realise you’ve started your own small revolution.  

THE THREE FATES

What comes around…..

It’s happening again!  Many of us have faced difficulty and troubled times in our lives.  Sometimes the impact of a negative experience is so profound that it leaves us with physical, mental, and yes, spiritual residue for months, even years, after the actual event.  

While you’re still vibrating – as the Three Fates put it – to the energy of a negative experience, you tend to repeatedly attract echoes of that exact experience.  

It seems you need another cosmic reminder of something that needs to be cleared and mastered.  Letting go is this moment’s very important lesson for you to learn.  It’s not about forgetting this lesson – because where’s the wisdom in that?

The Three Fates are suggesting that you move on and learn and actively replace this experience with completely different versions of the same theme.  No more repeats!  This is the opportunity to try something different, and see what magick takes place when you vary the approach!  

You may have been enjoying your own life’s reruns lately – wallowing through the memories and feeling sad, bittersweet, and nostalgic about the Good Old Days, whenever they were, exactly.

You know what?  It’s fine to muse on the past – your memories are precious and do need to be tended.

But it’s another thing altogether to be filled with regret, wishing you’d one things differently.  Life is a constant do-over.  You get a fresh chance every second you are alive.  So stop beating yourself up.  You have an opportunity to heal, to clear, to no longer hold onto and feel sad about the same thing anymore.

You can do things differently – you are not a prisoner of how they have always been done.  What  you have done – even if you judge it to be a mistake – can be reworked and learned from.  That is its wisdom!

You are so not alone – we all have karmic lessons, themes, stories that seem to repeat.  Learn from this.  Beware of what is taking place as a fateful encounter to master Life.  

If you take this approach, you’ll be all the richer for learning – wise, free, and able to help others, too.  

Okay seriously, frigging fabulous guides.  As we talked about Joy and then we expanded it with sensuality, bursting out of the confines and releasing the past – perfect for this New Moon on Saturday.  Sending you massive hugs and squeezes and have a fantabulous list.  Play with Joy!

New Moon Energy, How to Set Intentions that Manifest.

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The moon is such a powerful presence in our lives, pulling on the oceans tides and creating a rhythm of life for all of us. There was a time when we were deeply connected to these rhythms, but, over time, technology and our modern culture has separated us from those celestial vibes. 

Aligning yourself with the cycles of nature as a practice can be exceptionally transformative and tapping into the energy phases of the moon is a good place to start. 

A new moon is the perfect time for reflection and intention setting. She brings with her the opportunity to explore creativity as she is dark and “empty” – fertile ground for new seeds of intention.

The New Moon’s spiritual meaning symbolizes a very peaceful and tranquil moment in the lunar cycle. It’s a time of new beginnings and renewal.

The New Moon is a reset and a chance to start again, giving you a clean slate. This is why the New Moon is associated with manifestation work and intention setting.

If you are a beginner to practicing any sort of ritual don’t be put off.  New Moon Rituals are generally centered around setting intentions for that which you wish to manifest.

This is the darkest phase of the moon, the dream seed time. What do you wish to dream up? What new ideas are germinating in the nutrient rich soil of your soul? Your New Moon rituals should focus on what you want to call into your life.

Each New Moon brings with it the energy of the astrological sign that it is in.  However, I will be very clear here – I am not an Astrologer!  I use astrology in my own life and with clients, but if you asked me to decipher your transits and all that, I would look at you as if you were bonkers!

(Although I can recommend some incredible astrologers to you, who make sense of it all).

Thus, I often bring the Seasonal Lens to my Moon work.  

What does that mean?

For me, it’s more about where a moon falls on the wheel of the year.

Each moon cycle has a distinct natural energy – even moon cycles that fall within the same season. You can have two moon cycles that are both in summer, yet they will feel very different.  So when I talk about the moon cycles it’s all about the seasonal energy each new moon holds, as well as some of the astrological energy. 

Ask yourself – what is nature doing around you right now?  

How does that make you feel? 

Is nature stretching & growing or are things drawing inward?

Because if we are honest and tuned in, whatever’s happening in nature is happening within each of us too! And you can see the personal growth work you’re experiencing simply by watching what’s happening in nature.

I find the new moon each month is a meaningful place to pause, and to look at what’s happening in nature. And explore how that relates to what’s happening in my own life.

Then from that place set clear intentions that work with the energy and the season .

When you’re paying attention, you can lean on the natural energy present each month to feel nourished & empowered.

Which makes it even more delicious.

I highly suggest you get yourself a beautiful book that makes you smile and allow it to be your Moon Magick book.  A glorious place to track your New Moon wishes and your Full Moon releases, and the super cool thing, you will be amazed to see what has transpired in the last 6 months as you will have a written record of it.

(I have a gorgeous Moon Magick book that was gifted to me by a glorious friend, and holds all my intentions, releases, rituals and desires).  

Aligning with your intention is the easiest way to attract what you want into your life and connecting that energy with the energy of the moon is a great magnifier. 

Take the time each month to honor the New Moon, taking note of your intentions and seeing how things progress. Soon it will become a habit and over time, you will notice a shift in your body as you become more connected to the cycles of nature.

So let’s go explore this New Moon shall we?

There are many New Moon rituals you can do, or you can do one specific to the energy of the Moon you are working with.  

New Moon Journal Prompts to Get The Juices Flowing.

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Sometimes life gets busy and New Moon rolls around and between scrambling here and there and making sure everything is done, it can be easy to forget.

To forget what we want to Manifest.

To forget what our intentions are for this New Moon.

So to help you with any New Moon, here are some great journal prompts to get the juices flowing.

New Moon Journal Prompts For Spiritual Meaning

  • What truly motivates you?
  • Release habits that need to die and create new ideas for the future. Write down a list of 5 – 10 intentions you’d like to set. Then narrow it down to 3 you can focus on for your rituals.
  • What interests or hobbies do you have that can fuel your spirituality in creative ways? What habit can you start now to bring more creativity into your life?
  • Visualize what you want your life to look like. Using all five senses, write about it in detail.
  • What is your favorite way to distract yourself that makes you feel delighted?
  • What goals would you like to achieve by the next Full Moon? (Keep them small and actionable)
  • How can you find more joy during this lunar cycle? How can you slow down and live in the present moment?

Enjoy!

Lions Gate Portal and Sturgeon Full Moon – Ch, Ch, Changes…….

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Happy Magickal, Mischievous, Musical, Magnificent, Manifesting Monday!  

Thank you so much for all the wonderful messages and emails with regards to your Luscious Lughnasadh Companion Gift.  It tickled me pink to hear about how you were celebrating, journaling and which rituals you tried.  (My sister would have been very happy!)

Okay, we have a lot to cover and explore this week as today is the Lions Gate Portal and we have the glorious Sturgeon Super Moon in Aquarius on Thursday the 11th, so the energy has been off the charts.  So let me ask – how are you?  How are you feeling?

Many in our lovely community and in Creatrix Circle have shared all the unusual physical symptoms they have been having  from feeling incredibly unwell (which was me all last week), to fatigue, feeling as if the top of their head wasn’t there, chest pains etc.  Let alone the most random external experiences that were occurring.  One client thought she was going quite bonkers, but when we talked about the energy and I tapped into hers we found a solution to keep her grounded.  

So if you have been feeling off, odd or just very itchy, twitchy, bitchy or spacey – KNOW THAT YOU ARE NOT ALONE.  

The energy of August involves a lot of change, allowing yourself to release past wounding, large life evaluation and practicing proactive resilience.  

The words Courage, Determination and Flexibility would stand you in good stead this month.  

So let’s look at what the Lion’s Gate Portal is and how to use the energy to support you this month shall we?

The lion’s gate portal opens every year on August 8 (so the 8th of the 8th), when the Sun, Sirius and Earth take their perfect places for this energetic shower.  Sirius is the 2nd brightest star and is sometimes called our “Spiritual Sun” and is known for her energy giving powers.

This creates a glorious portal of manifestation.  

Eight is known as the powerhouse number, and it acts as a bridge between the material and spiritual realms. It’s also the number of power and wealth.  So having a double 8 is quite auspicious.  

Now  you have a quick nutshell version of what the Lion’s Gate Portal is – how can you actualize all of this powerful eight-energy?

The portal opens in Leo season so play with your inner Leo (even if you aren’t one).  The sign of Leo contains and represents love, generosity, leadership, and creativity.  

Focus on love.  Allow the Lion’s Gate Portal to open the portal in your own heart.  Do things that bring you joy!

Prepare for massive shifts.

Tap into your spiritual side.

Practice gratitude.  The more love and gratitude you pour out in the world, the more it comes back to you multiplied.  

Next up is the glorious Sturgeon Super Moon in Aquarius on August 11th.  This Moon is named the Sturgeon Moon to symbolize and represent the freshwater fish that were easily caught during this hot summer month in North America. 

Have you ever seen a Sturgeon?  They are so frigging impressive and look prehistoric and can be traced back over 200 million years!  

Sturgeon can grow to be quite large in size and often live to be over 100 years old.

So – align your spiritual intentions this month with the strong and impressive sturgeon. They’ve survived millions of years by adapting and persevering through many different challenges. You are just as powerful and resilient whether you realize it or not.

The symbol for Aquarius is the Water Bearer, symbolically and eternally giving life and spiritual food to the world. The water from the vessel washes away the past, leaving room for a fresh, new start. 

The sign of Aquarius is forward-looking and growth-oriented.  Take this opportunity to let go of old pain, release what bogs you down, and open your mind to renewed flexibility and clarity.  Great waves of life are flowing all around us at this time.  

August is a powerful month of releasing and reevaluating your life.  It’s time to let go of anything that is holding you back because you want to be open and ready for the new energies that are coming in at this point in the year. 

So with that glorious energy in play, that both meld together –  let’s crack on with the reading.  When I went to the glorious cards and asked who wanted to guide and support you this week I was delighted to see some new guides who wanted to show and shine.  

In case you have never met them, please let me introduce you (as not to is rude!)

These glorious guides give you needed glimpses into your everyday life and help you see where changes can be made to enhance your life here on Earth.  There is so much more to our world than we often perceive.

There exist many dimensions and numerous beings that reside in these realms.  All of these elemental beings are interconnected with us.  We do not live independent of one another but are interdependent.  These wonderful beings are here to help.

They not only take care of the Earth, but they work hard to take care of us.  We are familiar with many of these beings, such as angels, faeries, and elves.  There are many more we are not conscious of, but they, nevertheless, contribute to the workings of our planet.  Remember as you go through  your day, to ask for help from the elemental world whenever you need it.  The need is never too small to call on their help.  It is through helping us that they advance in their spiritual development.  We are their work.  We in turn can spiritually evolve through allowing them to help us.  To all these amazing beings we say Thank You.

Okay, let’s just take a moment and I invite you to take a lovely deep breath in.  In through the nose, out through the mouth with a glorious sigh.  Breathe yourself back here to this moment.  Allow the worries to drop like water droplets down to the earth to nourish something new.  Then, when you are ready, pick the card or cards that tug at you.

If you want a little bit more of a “tune up”, let’s go play with water in a lovely guided visualisation.

Did you remember to pick?

Let’s go have a look.

ALWAYS

The keyword here is Infinity.  

To truly understand life, you must understand that you have always been…and always will be.  You are a part of the Divine Source that rules the Universe.  Your spirit and your soul are immortal.  As the physical body passes from existence your energy body survives, eventually to move back to join with the Spirit.  Your connection to the Divine Spirit is never severed.  

You are never alone.  You are always connected to the Source.  You are the vehicle through which the Divine Spirit manifests on Earth.

Understand your divinity and your importance on Earth.  Appreciate that every other being on Earth is equally important to the Divine Plan.   You may have a desire or wish for a special person in your life who will promise to always be there for you.  First, you must always be there for yourself!

Perhaps in the past those who should have stuck by you did not.  Those you thought were true were not.  Release old pain and habit patterns and allow your highest good to manifest in your life.

Express your gratitude for you!!

This primes the pump for a real lasting relationship.  And always remember the elementals that are helping you along the way.  Their devotion to you is infinite and unwavering.

“I ever was,

I always will be.

I am Infinity.

My soul reaches out far beyond this shell,

Within me Spirit has a place to dwell.

I am.

So be it!”

Play a song over and over and over again.

FAIRIES

Think of the Spirit Realm and the realm of faeries and the faery within you.

You are being invited to use your inborn ability to tap into spirits of the mystical realm.  You may find that you are enhanced with an otherworldly, magickal, faerylike quality.  You may come from a long line of faery ancestors, carrying the bloodline of ancients.  Others may notice something just a bit different about  you.

The word eccentric might come to the minds of some who are acquainted with you.  But do you care?  No!  And that is how it should be!

You may see, hear and know things others do not.  Administering healing energy may be your talent.  There is a special twinkle in your eye…these are the eyes that can see faeries, and communicate with all the elementals.  You work with the heavenly as well as the Earthly spirits.  You are a gifted person…..intuitive and capable of easily channeling the energies of the Universe.

Remember to always use this power for the highest good.  Always ask that you be guided in its use and that no one comes to harm through your ministering.  Remember to keep your ego out of your spiritual work, for therein lies your downfall.

Give credit where credit is due…..Spirit does the work.  

“I joyously embrace my uniqueness.

I embrace all that comes from Spirit.

I allow Spirit to move within my being 

And to assist the growth of others as well as myself.

I know that all healing comes from Spirit

And I graciously accept the gifts bestowed upon me, and as such,

I bring only honour to the name of Spirit.

So be it!”

Sprout your wings today!

TROUBLE

Honesty, such a beautiful thing.  It’s time for you to keep your eyes open and your ears alert.  Someone is not being as honest with you as they can be.  This can be a business affair or a relationship.  There is a stretching of the truth or a covering up of facts.  

You are likely to find out too late unless you pay attention.  Bring your intuition into play and combine it with fact finding.  No one can keep the wool over your eyes for very long!

It’s also an important reminder to be scrupulous with your own words and deeds.  Remember that what you send out is what you get back.  This is the law of the Universe.

Be honest with yourself.  

Trouble can almost always be avoided by paying attention, choosing your words and actions wisely, and by listening to your higher self.  

Ask the faeries and angels to help you tap into your highest and best energy!

Remember, you do not need to draw negative situations into your life.  Choose to bring joyful and positive situations instead.  Sometimes the best action can simply be no action for the moment.  

“Truth is within me.

Honest people surround me.

I am guided in all things,

To the perfect course of action.

My world is bountiful

And I work with the tool of truth, trust and attraction.

So be it!”

Stir things up today!

Oh gosh, I love these guides for this week!  Wishing you an amazing week, delicious lovely, remember to beam love (especially to yourself), dance with the Lion’s Gate Portal energy and really utilise this amazing Full Moon to release, relax and rejuvenate.  Big hugs and see you next week!

Minions, Memories, Grief and The New Moon.

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Happy Magnificent, Magickal, Moody, Melancholy, Manifesting Monday!  Here we are in Leo Season with a New Moon on Thursday.  

This is a longer post as we have  a couple of things to explore this week, two sides of the coin so to speak.   Thus, if you aren’t willing to come and play in the messiness of human life, which can be real and raw, I highly suggest you skip this section.  We are melding Grief, Memories and Lughnasadh (aka as Lammas) – which is about abundance and harvest, and the New Moon.  

Yup I did say Grief out loud, something that is often classified as “taboo” in our Western Culture.  As most people don’t know how to deal with it. 

Let’s be honest, over the last few years with the lovely pandemic, war and massive climate upheaval, many people have experienced loss on so many levels including people transitioning and them not being able to be there when it happened.  

Which got me thinking a lot about how we’re all just muddling through life.  Honestly, it’s a wonder that any of us have the energy to reach out to others when we all have such complicated dramas playing out in our own lives.  Add in the overwhelming stress of losing someone we love, and the volume gets turned all the way up.

The trouble, of course, is that as humans we’re not meant to be isolated.  We are built for community, so even though it would be easier to wrap ourselves in cotton wool (or perhaps a duvet) and hide when we’re hurting, the real healing happens in relation to other people.  This has been a huge challenge for many of us and this is something that I do struggle with in the month of July.  

Three years ago I spent the month of July in the UK helping my big sister and best friend Fi to die.  It was the toughest thing I have ever had to do so far in my life. 

To watch someone you love so dearly in pain and being given one drug so the body will digest food, another drug so that the body will evacuate, another drug, another drug – it was inhumane and heart breaking. 

To be with her 24×7 in the last week and witness the physical body shutting down and to hear the death rattle was almost more than I could bear.  

Fi was one of my touchstones and I soooooooo didn’t want her to leave at all, but she did.  It was transformative, painful and powerful all at the same time.  And it fucking sucked!!!

When I returned back to Canada, numb and empty I struggled as all I wanted was to be alone.  It felt primal.  I wanted to wear soft clothing that felt cosy against my skin, I didn’t want to talk.  I wanted to sleep and curl up, eat comforting food and drink hot tea.  As after all it is difficult to be our most raw, broken selves in public.  

Grief, to me, felt like having a limb chopped off.  How was it possible that my sister – my best friend – was gone from the world in such an irreversible way?  The shock of her absence followed me around for months, like an empty space where my shadow should have been. 

And dealing with other people!  Oh my Goddess – I had to remind myself that other people were trying their best.   Even when they seemed to say or do precisely the wrong thing.  

So when the first July came around I didn’t realise how it would gut me.  To remember that on her birthday, July 28th, she started leaving us and died 3 days later.  Staying with her 24×7, the candles, the music, the stories that I would tell her in the hopes that she would open her eyes and would be totally fine.  It knocked me for seven to be honest.

The second year wasn’t much better, although being a bit wiser I made sure to clear space and time to feel all the feels and take myself off into the woods and be alone. 

This year I’ve been handling July – okayish so far, but I can feel it all burbling and needing honouring.  So I’ve been asking myself if being alone to mark her birthday and her “death day” (as I’m not too sure what to call it) is the only way, or could I hold the space for others?  

So I am striking a compromise.  On her birthday 28th, (New Moon), I am going to play, take time out and pause, invite her to the ocean, into the woods and into a lovely Leo New Moon ritual, as she was always telling me – pause, breathe, check in and set your intention.  

So with the Leo New Moon being one of the sweetest New Moons we have experienced in a while, that makes total sense.

This Leo New Moon carries the vibration of abundance, joy, and creativity. It is a beautiful New Moon for checking in with the flow of our lives and if we are where we want to be.

Some days, life tends to pass in a blur. We get caught up in the rush and swept up in the flow of our past actions and beliefs. But July’s New Moon is a good time to pause and consider the direction of our lives.

Are we moving in a direction that feels good? Are we taking actions each day that fill us with joy and inspiration, or are we living merely out of habit?

To really make the most of this energy, bring your attention to your heart centre under this New Moon. Listen to your heart, what whispers does it share?

One powerful and quick exercise you can do to connect with your heart is to close your eyes. Take three deep breaths, and then place your hand over your heart. From this place, ask your heart what it needs the most right now, and then trust the feeling or message that arises.

Yes, grief does lessen – in other words it doesn’t walk with you every day, but when it floods up it is as intense as it ever was.  

Then on Sunday – her death day – I’m going to hold a wee celebration of life with my family and close friends, instead of running to the woods on my own.  It will be hosted in the garden, there will be Minions (as she loved, loved the minions), cake and tea, great music, bubbles, stories and wee little origami boxes with ladybirds – to be released into the garden, each carrying a blessing.

  All the things she would have loved.  I’m trusting I will keep it together lol.

And as a gift to all you wonderful beasties, on Thursday (if you are part of our email community) and in honour of my most magickal, wise, amazing sister there will be a glorious Lughnasadh bundle available for free.  Why?

On August 1st (Monday) Lughnasadh or Lammas happens, it is the first of three harvest festivals.  A time of appreciation, gratitude, abundance and  it is a time of awareness that the strength of the Sun (Lugh) is beginning to wane and there is a shift and change afoot.  Active growth is slowing down and the darker days of winter and reflection are gently and slowly raising their heads. 

I love Lammas as it’s such a glorious celebration of food, first harvest and gathering.  All things that Fi loved and understood.  

You may not think you have anything you are harvesting in your life. You may not be able to name what, exactly, you’ve been growing & tending this year. BUT I PROMISE YOU, simply being a human being living through the uncertainties & upheaval has caused you to stretch & grow in ways you may not realise yet. And that growth is GOING TO bear fruit in some way.

One of the most beautiful lessons Lughnasa/Lammas teaches us is to TRUST.

So make sure you snag the Lammas bundle when it’s released this coming week.  It is filled with lore, stories, rituals and glorious things to make and do to honour YOU.  (Yes You!)  And how wonderful you are and all the ups and downs, the hiccups and the accomplishments you have experienced.  

Now enough chuntering from me, let’s crack on with the reading.   When I went to the cards to ask who would like to be present this week it made my heart smile to see who showed up.  The amazing Faery Blessing guides were most adamant.  As after all, who doesn’t need a Blessing?

Now if these guides are new to you, please let me introduce them as it would be rude not to.

Faeries are present in every droplet of water, every blade of grass – they are everywhere there is a trace of nature – thus every field, flower, and forest is theirs.  They inhabit the wild rainforests and the old castles; they dance within standing stones and burial mounds; they are on the top of mountains and within the grove deep in the valley; and they appear in the cracks in the pavement and beneath the cities in the old, tangled tree roots.  Faeries are part of this world, and they were here before we were born into this world, and they know us better than we know ourselves.  

For humans, many of us have lost our sense of play, our sense of relationship with nature, our courage to be ourselves – as well as our hope, creativity, and personal power.  We have looked outside of ourselves and nature and the sacred ones for answers, and in doing so, we have become quite lost.  The blessings of the faeries can bring us back into relationship with ourselves, back into relationship with the elements and the elementals, so that we can become more at home within the world, while creating a personal world which supports our dreams, our wishes, and our purpose.  

Yes!  Positively perfect!

So gorgeous one take a breath.  Just a normal breath and then as you carry on breathing allow it to slow down.  Breathing in through your nose and out through your mouth.  Allow in your mind’s eye a gorgeous rainbow swirl to form, this pattern is made of loss and abundance.  It holds any grief you may feel about a person, place, situation or thing and it melds with the abundance and appreciation of who you are.  As you breathe just let it swirl, you don’t have to control it.  

Then with this energy pick the card or cards that call to you.  What Blessing is for you this week?

Did you remember to pick?

Shall we go look?

A BLESSING FROM QUEEN MAB

The Faery Gift of Being the Ruler of Your Own World

With this faery gift from the formidable and enchanting faery queen, Queen Mab, comes the blessing of being the owner of your own life.  This is a powerful blessing indeed, for with this blessing comes the most precious gift of all, that of knowing that your life is yours to live.  

With this blessing, let you now take up the reins of your life, let you decide what it is you do, and who it is you are, and who you are now becoming.  It is your life, this wild and sweet thing, to be lived only once, and it is rare and priceless.  You shall no longer be owned, nor forced, nor pushed, nor pulled, for with her gift comes the solidity of determining your own fate – for you are a being who has often been pressured to give away the crown that declares that you are the sovereign.  With this blessing, it is returned to you.

Let yourself be a queen, a king, and know your world is as great as any other person’s.  Your life is a jewel, and no more shall you spend it pleasing others.  When this blessing comes to you, all who you know you will love and support you, and you will now take back the power that you gave away.  You will climb the stairs to your throne and look upon your world and know that you will be a strong leader of your own soul.  And you will inspire others to do the same.

With this gift from Queen Mab will come the sure knowledge of what is wise for you to do, and what would be foolish, and to know the difference between pleasing others and doing what is in the very best interest of the path of your soul.

You faery friend, are a magnificent being, and your life, your world, and your very being are royal.  Be most loyal to your ownself, and know now the gift of great and deep self-respect, and of choosing what is right for you.

Blessings of the great and good Queen Mab to you, friend.

BLESSED BE

A BLESSING OF A FAERY GUARDIAN

A Faery Gift of Magickal Protection and Lifelong, True Loving Care.

At your birth into this world, human child, a faery came to you and offered you the blessings of your soul.  For each of us, this blessing will be unique, created especially for the journey we are destined to take in this lifetime.  So, with this blessing, may you know again the beauty and sweetness of your own faery godmother, your faery guardian.  For she is still with you, helping to ease the way and remind you, as often as she is able to pierce the veil, that you are her charge, and she will remain with you all the days of this life.

May you now feel the presence of her love; may you feel that sense of being looked out for, that there is one being from the elemental world who works with your soul and helps you at all times.  

When this blessing comes, tune in to her presence and know that all about you there is comfort, and goodness, and a way to move through all difficulties.  Yoru faery guardian has always been with you this lifetime, and will remain until you have journeyed on.  Know you are her most precious charge, and when times become troubled, and life seems bleak, know there is a being whose duty it is to bring you back to hope, to optimism, to the sense that you are a gifted, cherished being.  Feel now the love of the faery guardian, your own faery godmother, and believe again in your own blessedness.  

BLESSED BE

A BLESSING OF CLEAR FORESIGHT

The Faery Gift of Knowing what is likely to come from the dimension we humans call the future.

A gift is given this day to you, a blessing of the faeries true.  This gift is that of the long vision, the ability to see the consequences of actions taken in the present and, indeed, the outcome of decisions of the past.  With this blessing of clear foresight, may you be blessed with the ability to see the lasting influence of what it is you choose to do – what will you be granting to the future of this world, to the children, to the ones who come after.

May you understand, therefore, what would be best for you to do, not only for your own self – though it is good and right for you to think of yourself – but of what is best for those  you love and for those who come after us all.  For the faeries love long, and see many a human unable to contemplate beyond their own needs – and, in that moment, unthinking of consequences, create a future they do not wish to inhabit fully.  With this amazing faery gift, this enchanted ability to see further into the dimension of time, you will make the best decision for yourself now and for the future and the future of others.  Time unfurls before you, a green scroll unwritten upon, but one upon which you can see what could come.  

Take this blessing and use it wisely, for the fae, for the human children, and for the betterment of your own precious self.  

Faery blessings of the long foresight to you, friend.

BLESSED BE

And so it is.  May your week be filled with Blessings galore.  If you are walking with Grief, please know that you are not alone – I see you, I hear you and you are so loved.  I won’t tell you it will pass, as it doesn’t – but the gap where your shadow would be does lessen.  To celebrate you and the fact that you are here, muddling through life and doing your best, do make sure to grab the Lammas bundle when it comes out on Thursday.  Happy New Moon and Huge Blessings and I will see you in two weeks as I’m taking my time to feel all the feels and not dumb it down.    

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