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Joy, Grief and Mercury Retrograde…..

Happy Marvellous, Merry, Musical, Mystical, Magnificent, Manifesting Monday!

How are you – really?

I ask as I truly want to know. Our patterns of processing anger, fear, change, anxiety, joy and grief are not linear. We don’t work through them daily from point A to point B and then tada – we are fine!.

So how do we feel what we need to feel and not get submerged or lost in it all?

I think it’s exceptionally important to ask oneself “What am I willing to feel or do at this moment in time?”

An example. As some of you know my Mothership died 5 months ago and within the space of 5 days my family of origin fragmented and was filled with attack, dysfunction and the most ridiculous behaviour I have witnessed from grown arsed adults. Which left me to do the majority of the packing up of things, as there was only 3 weeks to do it in.

The dysfunction and attacks were so brutal that I postponed the Celebration of Life to allow those individuals to try and get their poop in a group – which still hasn’t happened. Thus, we are moving ahead with a Celebration this Saturday.

Why am I sharing all this?

Because, to help me be able to do all the pieces that have needed to happen after her death and planning and organising the celebration of life (as the sibling has left it all to me), I put my grief in a box and stuffed it in the back of the closet.

After all, there was so much to do, right?

So the Grief got stuffed and in the midst of that stuffing there have been so many pockets of Joy!

Going on my month-long Odyssey through Ireland and the UK. Coming home to my family cooking an amazing Thanksgiving dinner. Playing in my garden. Hiking with the dogs. The work that I love. Planning and implementing a surprise birthday gathering for my only girl the other weekend. Bowling for my son Sam’s birthday this weekend.

But yet the Grief kept wriggling in the box and finally blew the lid off on Tuesday.

I woke up bright and early, and Grief came rushing in, along with anger, resentment towards my sibling, abandonment, feeling overwhelmed – you name it and I sobbed for most of the day. I walked and sobbed, I wrote and sobbed, it all just felt like too much.

There were still so many things to do, to organise to get ready for this Celebration of Life, what the fuck man!

So I took myself and the doggos for a massive walk in the pouring rain and within minutes there was a huge rainbow glistening against the dark clouds and a wee voice reminded me – acknowledge the Joy, find the Joy, pause and feel it.

Which I did. It was tiny, but the glimmer was there.

Then as I curled up into a ball and my dogs came and snuggled, there was another glimmer, and within two days I was coming back to centre.

So I decided to take that grief, anger, and all the myriad of other feelings along with the Joy and create something. I gathered a bunch of driftwood, I sat on the ground and I built a 3 foot high Rememberance Tree for the Motherships service.

Yes, I got cold and wet. Yes it felt fabulous to take that energy and funnel it into something creative and honouring.

So with the holidays coming up in the States (Thanksgiving), and then Christmas – for many, the holiday season is full of joy and connection; for others it can be a painful reminder of what’s missing.

Perhaps you’ve lost someone you love, or maybe you’re grieving the end of a relationship or the loss of a job. You may be living far from family or grieving the recent election.

When we don’t allow ourselves to feel pain, we also stifle the experience of joy.

So, grieving well means having resilience for feeling the pain, but also knowing that you are okay, that you will make it through, and, as a result, that you will experience both immense pain and immense joy.

Remember, whatever it is you’re holding, it’s valid and can be acknowledged in a way that feels personal and meaningful to you.

Find something that you do daily that is the tether to guide you back to Joy.

What is that for you?

How do you bring yourself back to centre and reconnect to something bigger than yourself that loves you to pieces?

And remember – Mercury Retrograde starts November 25th and goes through until December 15th.

So instead of giving it a bad spin, let’s reframe it.

While Mercury is moving through the underworld, it is a good time to slow down, go back over things, revisit the past, and pay attention to subconscious thoughts and programming.

Mercury retrograde can be a healing and highly intuitive time when we use it this way.

Re-visit, Re-envision, Re-lease, Re-imagine.

When we slow down and take in the big picture we can do that, yes?

So with all that being said – let’s crack on with the reading. When I went to the cards to ask who wanted to share their wisdom and insight with you this week, the glorious “Love Your Inner Goddess” guides came out big and bold. Now if these are new to you, please let me introduce them (as it would be rude not to).

“These guides have come to help you awaken and express your divine feminine spirit, to live from your heart, to empower your true self – and to discover your sacred rebel within, to say no to the voices of fear and hate and become a voice for love, truth and spirit on the earth. Living as a soul, with truth, takes real courage in this world. We are often taught to follow the rules and be a good boy or girl – and that if we do this, everything will be OK. Your inner goddess thinks that is a bunch of nonsense. She wants so much more for you. She wants you to live a beautiful divine destiny. She will show you how to be a loving rebel, breaking the rules that go against your heart and soul, changing the game and playing from the heart. She’ll show you how to live the life that is meant only for you. You are meant to stir up healing change and be a voice for what is wise, loving and true. There are issues in our own lives and the world that need to change, that need to be healed. Your inner goddess knows how to bring about healing change with love, playfulness, courage and dignity. She is a fearless minx who will help you dance, love, storm and laugh your way into a more beautiful world, created from the heart. “

Seriously, the perfect guides for this time. Woosah!

So gorgeous one, breathe. Just breathe, BE and allow yourself to relax, your mind to calm, your breath to slow and ask your wise inner self – what do I need to know this week. Then when you are ready, pick the card or cards that tug at your heartstrings – don’t let your mind pick!

Did you remember to pick?

Let’s go have a gander shall we?

ANGEL OF TRUTH

The truth wants to be told, needs to be heard. It may seem like the whole world wants to believe in a lie, and so you wonder if you are crazy, if you are the only one who is thinking differently and desiring the real story to emerge. Yet those that fight against the truth are even more in need of it! There can be no healing, no freedom, no moving one without it.

You are going to be blessed with a truth revealed, a realisation about yourself, the world or others that will bring you relief. It will happen at the right time. It will set your soul free.

Sometimes, the lies we are repeatedly told become so familiar that we forget that they are lies and begin to believe that they are real. Maybe it’s someone judging us that is the lie. Maybe it’s advertising and the media, which are often more about deceptive manipulation that a source of correct information. Whatever the source, all untruth teaches us the same thing – that we must be afraid and hate each other.

When we are fed so many false truths, it can become hard to remember what real truth feels like. It can even start to seem like the truth doesn’t matter as much as being able to convince another person to accept your point of view. This is like poison for the soul.

The soul needs truth like your body needs air. It keeps it alive. Deep in your soul, you know what is true, and you know when you, or anyone else, is not being truthful. You are sensitive enough to know that only truth feels good for you. You must give yourself permission to be truthful with your own soul and live honestly, authentically and bravely in this world. It is the only way for you to be really you.

QUEEN OF HEARTS

Your heart has been chosen by the Divine to be a temple for spiritual light, an inner place where grace and healing can dwell. This is very special. A temple is kept clean and pure, scented with sacred perfumes of incense, made beautiful with our feelings uncluttered and spacious so that as much spiritual presence as possible can enter.

When spirit enters and fills the temple of the heart, things of extraordinary beauty take place. Even the seemingly impossible becomes possible. Clear your heart temple with forgiveness, gratitude and love for the spirit, so it can fulfil its divine destiny of being a sacred channel for beautiful divine grace.

The mind may believe it has got the power to rule, but, in truth, the heart is queen. You are a true goddess of love, one who consults the heart for answers. You will courageously follow the guidance of the heart. Even when the mind doesn’t want to surrender to the call of the heart, and fearfully lists numerous reasons why it is crazy and stupid and will end badly, you know that the doubt of the mind is no match for the power of the heart.

Things don’t need to make sense to your mind or to anyone else, they just need to make sense to your heart. You are already a divine queen, your heart aflame with passionate purpose. Stay true to your heart’s wisdom and you will change the world!

EARTH GODDESS

To live the dream, we have to surrender the fantasy. This can be painful. It feels like the end – when, in fact, it is the beginning. Once the pain passes, there is the joy of what we have yearned for coming to life. It may not be as perfect as the fantasy, but it will be real, and it can nourish us. We can build our appetite for life with dreams, but we cannot be fed by them.

The soul requires real life experience to become fully alive, to have experiences and grow. There’s a fantasy that wants to become reality for you. Don’t let a few gritty moments or human imperfections prevent you from experiencing the joy of heaven on Earth.

You have beautiful dreams and wonderful visions of what life could be. It is not enough to imagine them. You want to live them! This is exactly how you are meant to feel. For that to happen, you must practise feeling grounded, taking practical earthly steps, one at a time, to bring your dreams to life.

The Universe will send so much help your way, but you are the one who must take the steps. Spirit cannot do that for you. Even if you are not sure how your biggest, boldest dreams can come together, you can still ask yourself, “What is it that I can do now?”

Remember you are an Earth Goddess. You have the power to manifest your visions, to bring your beautiful ideas to life in the world. This is what you are here to do. Remember to love yourself enough to recognise your creative power and use it joyfully each day.

Fuck yes! Glorious guides for this time. Wishing you all a stupendous week and there will not be a reading next week as I need to be present in this experience, see you in December. Huge hugs and be gentle with yourself, and find your glimmers and Joy moments and hold them tight.

Let’s All Take a Breath, and Bring in the 11:11 Portal Energy of this day.

Jenny Heston · 5:55 pm ·

Happy Mystified, Magickal, Manifesting, Memorial Monday!

This will be a shorter than normal post as I want to attend a Remembrance Day service, so let’s crack on shall we?

Well to say it’s been a heck of a week globally would be an understatement, wouldn’t it?

I have been hearing from many of you the shock that you have been feeling, anger, disbelief and the grief, as that’s what it is.

I’ve also been seeing a lot of attacking posts, divisive posts and blame posts – understandable in a way, but it isn’t going to help us as a collective to move forward and through this challenging time.

Today is Remembrance Day, also known as Armistice Day. It marks the day World War One ended at 11am on the 11th day of the 11th month, in 1918! 106 years ago!!!

And I do wear a Poppy, I always wear a Poppy at this time. Why?

The Poppy to me is a symbol of Remembering those who bravely went to fight for our freedoms and well being.

It is also a symbol of Hope, hope for our troops that are still deployed all over the world and Hope for a time of Peace.

Personally, I think it is important to focus on those types of events, the ones that inspire Hope and Peace, and don’t get me wrong, there are all sorts of horrendous wars being waged all over the world. But drop back into that space of Armistice, Hope and Peace – it is sooooo possible on every level in this world (at least that is my belief).

Thus on Remembrance day we have the potent energy of 11:11. Great Jen, what does that mean for me (you may be asking)?

This day holds the number code of 1111, which is a power number in astrology and also an angel number.

If there is something you want to manifest or a wish you want to make, this is the day to set your intentions!

1111 heightens our ability to create and to leave an imprint on the tapestry that is all of life. It also indicates that we are in complete harmony and alignment with all of nature.

From this state of alignment, it becomes easier for us to feel grounded and connected to our life here on Earth, but also to the magic and wisdom of higher realms.

Close your eyes and remember the last time that you set an intention. Did you feel doubtful that your wish would come true, or did you have faith that the universe was listening, ready to help you bring your vision to life?

11/11 is one of the most powerful days of the year for manifestation – a day when we’re reminded that our guides are always with us, supporting us on the path to our deepest dreams.

There’s a reason why we’re told to make a wish whenever we see 11:11 on the clock. 11 is a master number, and its frequency speeds up manifestation, opening up channels through which angelic beings can send their wisdom and support.

“The number 11 grants us access to the 5th dimension, where the constraints of time and space do not exist. On 11/11, we experience 5D energy in the form of synchronicity, alignment, and acceleration. You might experience that “right place, right time” feeling – the reassurance that you’re on the right path, and everything you’re seeking is seeking you in return.”

The Law of Attraction, based on the Hermetic Principles, teaches us that everything we manifest is created by thought: Where your attention goes, energy flows. Every second, you’re thinking things into existence – so on this day, pay attention to where your thoughts tend to wander.

Are you focused on bright and positive outcomes, or are you subconsciously manifesting your worries and fears?

Work with the energy of 11/11 to positively channel your thoughts in service of your highest path. I recommend meditating at 11:11 am or 11:11 pm to best harness the magic.

Set aside 11 minutes to close your eyes and go within, visualizing what you desire and how it would feel if you’d already received it. Yes?

Another simple way to harness this energy is to free flow and write for 11 minutes about all your heart’s desires and intentions. At the end of the 11 minutes, go back and highlight the words that inspire you, make you feel hopeful, excited and then formulate them into an intention.

If you wanted to go a step further you could make a sacred Sigil!

And if you want to ramp it up a bit more, use the fabulous phrase that can really Unfuck you!

Ready? Super simple, but super powerful when faced with confusion, stagnation and all the rest of that dross.

The phrase is “AM I WILLING?” e.g:- Am I willing to do the work to make a change? Am I willing to turn my anger and grief towards something constructive? Am I willing to get off the sofa and go to the gym to lose weight? Am I willing to release those relationships that drain me? AM I FUCKING WILLING TO MAKE CHANGE?

If you can’t come up with anything to put on your AM I WILLING list. Turn it around and ask yourself the same question in a different way: “WHAT AM I NOT WILLING TO DO OR PUT UP WITH?” e.g:- I am not willing to put up with this abusive relationship. I am not willing to continually struggle. I am not willing to be continually dismissed. I am not willing to feel unhealthy………..

Are you getting it now? Dare you to give it a try, it’s quite fascinating to play with, write down and it most certainly unravels those threads that can make you feel like you are tied up in a knot and disempowered (that’s what Fear does to us).

Okay enough chuntering, let’s see what guidance wants to talk to you this week.

Take a deep breath gorgeous one, relax the jaw and allow the spark of Hope come into your heart. Breathe it in and ask it to help you.

If you need a bit more to help you, here’s a wee glorious visualisation for Hope.

Did you remember to pick?

Let’s go have a look, shall we?

W.I.T.C.H.

Control. No woman alive today needs a dictionary to know what control means within a toxic patriarchy.

She’s experienced it a thousand different ways before she’s hit puberty. It’s alive in the curves of her psyche, in the expanse of her hips, in the marrow of her bones.

It is domination and restraint.

But in a blanched psyche and in a balanced culture, control can mean something else entirely..

A WITCH experiences control through cooperation rather than competition. She engages with all the parts of her psyche in an attempt to coordinate rather than dominate.

Right now, right this minute, please embrace all the inhabitants of your inner realm, because each deserves respect and a place at the table. Even the unruly, the inconvenient, the ugly.

Making space for all under the banner of wild inclusion and giving voice to the shame, malice and anger, as well as every other outlawed part of the psyche, is the way we create integrity, ensuring that no part of our inner realm is involved with factions, divisions or rebellions.

When your intent is to create rather than compete, you don’t have to dominate.

Your influence is enough.

This is power with rather than power over.

Invite in all the pieces of yourself, all the things that are bothering you today and wrap them in the blanket of inclusion and assert your authority.

HARPY OF RAGE

Rage can be purifying.

Like the harpies of Homeric poems, rage can bring the storm winds that scour and wipe a landscape clean.

While this may seem a destructive force on the surface, rage, like the harpies, can bring change and shift landscapes both internal and external.

Quiet or loud, a wild howl or a hiss in the dark, anger is both purposeful and natural, so stop bottling it and shoving it away in order to be pleasing.

So much more powerful to gather your rage. Rather than shrieking into the wind where passion can be swallowed, you will find your branch, and settle into a position of power.

Using your authority, you will choose your time, and cry out your claim.

Offer your anger to your art, your cause, your community, resulting in a rallying song of change.

A W.I.T.CH pours her rage into her creativity, advocacy and commitment.

She’s also willing to peck out and devour rage against her own self through the radical wings of self-forgiveness.

THE PREDATOR

You know the voice of the psyche that wants you to comply or conform in order to fit in, or shames you for being selfish, or tells you it’s honourable and responsible to deny your longing, demanding you fold your dreams away into a people-serving-shaped box?

It’s a predator you adopted as family.

The voice condemning and convincing you that following your desires will hurt other people?

It’s inside you. The call is coming from inside the house!

That predator is an unholy inquisitor.

He might have first showed up outside of you in your original home, church or school, and most certainly in our culture as a whole. But he is now alive as the inner patriarchy.

It’s the force that wants to control you in order to keep you small and unthreatening. It’s moved into the psyche, as it does generation after generation, if left unquestioned.

A W.I.TC.H knows it’s purposeful to speak truth to power, to stand up and march for justice, fairness and decency.

But she is also determined to march on behalf of the girl inside of her living with a monster.

She is willing to take to the inner streets to clean up the injustice of bullying thoughts, blaming self-talk, and name calling.

She speaks up for fairness when the internal predatory voice demands she please everyone else before herself.

She embodies fierce decency when her dreams or hungers or passions are shamed and belittled from within.

It is time to take a stand against the unholy inquisition of the psyche, and develop the tools to defeat the toxic patriarchy living there.

You deserve nothing less.

Oh my, oh my, gotta love the guides and the cards

How are you feeling about the ones you picked?

Sending massive hugs on this Remembrance day, breathe and invite in Hope.

Welcome to Samhain! But how does it support your spiritual and personal evolution?

Jenny Heston · 5:55 pm ·

Happy Marvellous, Magicakal, Mysterious, Manifesting Monday!

Oh my giddy aunt, it’s good to be back!

As most of you know I went off for a month and trekked Ireland and a good chunk of the UK (the cool spots).

Someone asked me the other day (appreciating I have been home just under 2 weeks), how was your vacation?

This wasn’t a vacation, it was an Odyssey, a trip to rediscover paternal and maternal places. To meet glorious Irish cousins that I have never seen face to face, to explore sacred sites and to scatter some of my Mum’s ashes in places she loved in Yorkshire.

Have to say it was epic and I’m still processing it.

As there have been so many pivotal moments on every level!

So I’m so glad to be back in time for Samhain, and I have spent some time in the garden (as it went nuts whilst I was away).

I harvested what was needed, and cut away those things that weren’t needed, and weeded out a shed ton so that the ground is open, receptive and ready for planting.

But that’s the energy of- Samhain (pronounced So-ween) and it is my most favourite celebration of the year.

I will be honest I frigging love, love, love Samhain as it is the epitome of endings and beginnings. This is a transformative time of year.

When you connect with this potent energy, and let it guide you in your soul work, you can create lasting growth & change in your life.

Now if this way of looking at what you know as our Western Culture “Halloween” is new to you, and you are thinking – Jenn WTF?

Grab the Magickal Book of Samhain and all will be explained.

If you just want to read a lovely story about Stingy Jack and why we carve pumpkins, feel free.

As in our Western Culture we think of Halloween as the “spooky time”, kids get dressed up and go looking for tricks or treats throughout the neighbourhood. Pumpkins are carved with faces to scare and there is a sense of celebration in the air.

Yet funnily enough Samhain (which is where our Halloween originated) is more than one day.

We have All Hallows Eve, which starts at dusk on the 31st and then on November 1st we have All Saints Day, and on November 2nd it is All Souls day, or Dia de Los Muertos. All of which are a celebration of death and those who have passed and new beginnings.

Think about it, when we were an agricultural based community, this was the time when the harvest would have all been brought in, the days were getting shorter and it was a time to move into the darkness.

This is the sacred time marking the end of the harvest season. It’s the time of Death in nature. This is the time of year when we acknowledge, and honour, the role that Death plays in the cycle of Life.

You cannot continue to evolve, and birth new life, without experiencing Death.

This is the time of honouring your ancestors and inviting their help and support.

It’s a place of reflection and celebration. It’s a time of spiritually slowing down!

If you remember, at Equinox the energy was still mingled with summer, our inner & outer worlds swirling around each other; a time of finding balance between the two.

And I will say I celebrated Equinox climbing a huge Tor in Ireland and participating in a dawn ceremony.

Now, at Samhain it’s clear that our inner world is overtaking our outer.

Day is turning to night as we move into the dark side of the wheel of the year. This is where the energy turns inward, and things need to die on the outside in order to do that.

Samhain celebrates that Death.

But what does this mean for you personally? How does it benefit you?

Turn Inwards. This is the time where you can make peace with yourself and to get comfortable with your inner life. This is where the work is for the next few months. It’s a place of being in a neutral mind and just observing.

Embrace the darkness. By embracing the darkness you learn not to fear the darkness.

There’s a lot of beauty in these dark days. Embrace it. Magic is born in the darkness.

And as you turn inward, don’t be afraid to look at your dark parts–be an observer. No judgement. What do your shadows want to show you?

Release whatever needs to die. If you are brave enough to look at the darkness, to listen to what it has to tell you, you discover parts of yourself you need to let go of in order to grow & evolve.

This is where we leave behind the things that we’ve outgrown. Welcome the mystery & the possibilities of the space that it creates in your life.

This is a powerful time for magic & manifestation. What new dreams will be born to replace the leaves that you’ve let go of?

Be gentle with yourself. Being brave enough to journey into the darkness requires really mindful nurturing & self-compassion. This is hard inner work. It requires you to be so gentle & loving & kind to yourself over the next few months.

In perfect divine timing, at Samhain we are entering the feminine/yin side of the wheel of the year.

Yin energy is restful. It’s gentle & nurturing. It’s intuitive & receptive.

So my gorgeous bean, that is how it benefits you when you move in rhythm with Mama Gaia and the seasons.

Now with all that being said, and as I want to go play and celebrate (and if you have actually read this far lol), let’s crack on with the reading.

The guides that decided to come and play with us all for this All Hallows Eve surprised me. They are the glorious guides of the Sacred Forest.

Now if these are new to you, please let me introduce them (as not to do so would be rude!)

At the edge of the mind awaits the holy wilderness of the soul. It beckons you, like a great forest filled with vast mysteries and wonders. While this mystical realm exists in a higher dimension, beyond normal reality, it is real nevertheless. To enter this mystical realm, it’s simply a matter of having an open heart and an open mind.

In this healing and holy place, long-sought answers to your deepest questions become known. Ancient wisdom emerges. Revelations about your future are revealed. Hidden talents and abilities are activated with you. It’s a place where miracles unfold, and your spirit can fly. In the deepest sense you remember who you are.

Okay gorgeous bean, here we are starting to step into All Hallows Eve, the start of Samhain. The place of release and moving into the warm, feminine darkness that nurtures and supports. I invite you to take a long, deep, luxurious breath in through the nose and out through the mouth. Let your face relax, your jaw relax and the worries of the day drop to the floor like leaves from autumnal trees.

Then I invite you to see in your mind’s eye a glorious warm dark night sky, you feel safe, you feel supported and held and as the clouds pull away you see stars that will guide you. Breathe that in. Allow this gorgeous Feminine Darkness to gently wrap around you and guide you and then when you are ready pick a card or cards that call to you.

You picked yes?

Shall we go see?

FOREST TEMPLE

Enlightenment

The sound of delicate chanting fills the forest. You follow the sound, as you walk down a meandering path into a small clearing. Before you, a forest temple becomes visible. As you get closer, it feels that the chanting is penetrating deep into your soul. Something seems to be shifting within you. Everything is the same, yet everything is somehow different.

Meditate on the light within you and around you. Connect with the ever-present of the Divine. Right now your awareness is increasing. Your ability to understand the world is shifting. More and more, you can see situations from all points of view, and this creates an expansion in all parts of your life.

We can often get stuck in seeing the world from only your personal point of consciousness, which is dramatically restricting possibilities for you. A one-sided adamant view of life can block a vast influx of light, joy, and connection to the Creatrix.

Strict adherence to your beliefs can obstruct wonderful opportunities from flooding your life. Be willing to step outside your limited points of view and see the world from the others’ perspectives, and your life will expand.

With enlightenment, you’ll feel the expansion from a limited sense of self to an awareness of the cosmos around you. That loves you.

Positive changes are coming. You are lightening up; feel buoyant and free. Your connection to Spirit is deepening if you allow it. Old beliefs about who you are and what you deserve in life are falling away, replaced by incredible new paths.

EAGLE SPIRIT

Freedom

Eagle Spirit invites you onto her back, and you dwindle in size so that you can climb on. You hold on to the down beneath her feathers as she soars higher and higher. The forest looks smaller and smaller, yet you can see so clearly as you ascend above the clouds. You have never felt so free!

It’s time to break free and let your spirit fly! Be daring as you go beyond predictable behaviour. Fling your arms up to the heavens in joy.

Also, pay attention when you have let life or others restrict your freedom. Recognising this is the first step to reclaiming your power. Don’t allow yourself to be trapped by convention or the expectations of others. The truth is that you aren’t here on this earth to be ordinary, but to step beyond limitations and self-imposed boundaries.

You have the ability to choose your life on your terms. Perhaps you aren’t always free to create the exact circumstances of your life – but you’re certainly able to decide what meaning to give those situations. Select meanings that empower you, for this is the time to break free. Hold the intent that boundless freedom surges through you, and so it shall.

This is the time to express yourself. Don’t hold back. Choose life on your terms.

Don’t be trapped by the expectations of others.

DAFFODIL FAIRY

New Beginnings

You feel a tap on your shoulder, and in a flash of yellow, you see a Daffodil Fairy fly by you. In a high, sweet voice she says, “The best is yet to be! It’s time for a new beginning!” With glee, you race after her into the forest.

Life goes in cycles. Just as spring follows winter, a new cycle is beginning in your life. In the phases of the earth, the plants die in the fall so that there can be new birth in the spring – it’s the universal dance of death and rebirth. There’s a time to end and begin, and this is the close of one cycle and the beginning of another.

We associate the daffodil with spring, as it is one of the first flowers to emerge after the snows. Its shape echoes the feeling of trumpeting in the new season; its colour suggests vitality, radiance, and sunshine.

It’s time to wipe the slate clean; it’s time to release the old and start again.

It can be difficult to release familiar routines, situations, or relationships when they no longer empower you; however, your higher self encourages you to not cling to the old, but set sail into new waters. If you find yourself afraid to let go, you are urged to face your fear and allow yourself to stretch in a new direction.

The Creatrix is at your side, and wonderful opportunities will be born in your life. Wholeness occurs when you can say yes to both endings and beginnings.

It’s time to start a new project or a new cycle. Life force and vitality are emerging. Release that which doesn’t serve and support you. Make way for a new start!

Lol, you seriously can’t make this shit up! Sorry if swearing offends you, but you can’t! Wishing for you a beautiful Samhain, give yourself the Magickal Book of Samhain if you feel called, but most importantly take the invitation that is being offered of stepping into the dark (in the Western Hemisphere) and really embrace yourself.

Big massive Pumpkin Smiles and may wee tiny Mars bars appear when you need them!

Dearest Gentle Reader, let’s get personal shall we?…….

Jenny Heston · 4:44 pm ·

Dearest Gentle Reader,

(I have wanted to say that for so long!)

It feels like it has been a hot minute! Actually it has been 3 months of a hot minute.

So let me explain why – as no, you haven’t been abandoned and I most certainly have appreciated the emails and messages and check ins.

If you are not interested in hearing about it, please skip to the reading part. Okay?

As many of you know, my mothership and I had an “interesting” relationship at times. She could be incredibly judgemental, unkind and most certainly loved to point out I was the Black Sheep.

For the last 3 and a bit months prior to the mothership choosing MAID on June 7th, I went and spent time with her every day.

And in that time I received an incredible, amazing blessing and gift.

She allowed her armour to drop, the judgements to fade away and we laughed and talked and teased and loved in a way I can’t ever remember doing with her. It truly was an incredible gift.

Now if you don’t know what MAID is, it’s Medical Assistance In Dying.

She had chosen this prior and it was meant to be a month out but on that day she had had enough, so it was 2 hours heads up!

And as of 1:13pm on June 7th things started getting “interesting.”

First off, my brother (only surviving family member), who turned up 10 minutes before the MAID process, expressed to me after she died his disappointment in me that I had called the funeral home, as he felt we should leave her body there for 3 days so he could visit it and be with her.

Hmm. Appreciating this is the man that last year at my sister’s Celebration of Life decided to strip down to swim trunks and swim in her scattered ashes.

With her death we were then presented with the fact that her home, her life, her things had to be packed up, sorted, and distributed in under a month! So needless to say the only way for me to do that was to take time off work and put my grief in a shoebox in the back of the closet.

My brother was useless as tits on a bull to be blunt and instead advised everyone (including my children) that none of us understood his complex grief and then went on an attack rampage focused solely on his perceived slights, misunderstandings and anger which he kindly directed fully at moi!

Toss on the cherry on that explosive toxic cake that the executor is his ex-wife who decided to work out some of her dysfunction with him and the attacks and vitriol were coming in quick and fast.

So here we are 3 months out and I had postponed my Mum’s Celebration of Life due to this fucked up family dynamic, have offered solution after solution which have all been discarded and finally came to the place of Enough!

Not a “Fuck You” enough, but a heart and soul based “No.”

My shoebox in the closet is asking to be opened, my children are looking to honour their Nanny and have healing, grieving and closure.

Thus, the celebration of life now has a date, I’ve been super clear about my boundaries and have fully distanced myself from my brother and his ex wife and hopefully he gets to a point where he doesn’t hold the whole family hostage and will allow the Will to go to probate.

Huzzah!

Now, why am I sharing this with you?

Because, transparency is important to me and I feel that I have been in Imago for the last 3 months.

Imago is what happens when a caterpillar cocoons before they transform, thus not a caterpillar, nor a butterfly – just the goo, a third entity unto itself.

So within this glorious goo phase many things have changed. My work, my life, my thoughts.

So yes, there is a reading today, will there be one weekly over the next month – No and I will explain why shortly.

Also, within this process it’s been most interesting and I have relearned that when one closes off a whole huge piece such as grief and the death of the last parental – it also closes out a lot of joy and magick and seeing the delight in the every day.

I’ve also noticed that many around the world are in that place of Imago – the not knowing as our world seems to go to hell in a handbasket politically, financially, economically and yet there is a collective yearning for something more supportive, loving and joyful.

Can you feel it?

So let me ask the questions of you that I have been exploring in great depth for the last 3 months.

What does your heart want (not your brain)?

What does your soul need?

How can you bring that into your life in a more tangible way?

What have you put off due to overthinking that would make your soul sing?

What do you need to release to allow more of that yumminess in?

Why those questions?

Because when you are in the Imago, the goo, they bring you back to your essence, they bring you back to Source and Love and they provide you with the breadcrumb trail to follow, which often is not logical at all.

An example of this in my own life is – for all you amazing ones who joined in when we did The Omen Days, if you remember you had 13 wishes and by the end of the Omen Days you were left with one, yes?

That last wish was the one you were meant to create this year.

My wish that I was left with was “I am travelling Ireland, UK and Wales and exploring the Sacred Sites.”

It’s been a goal and a dream I have had for at least 2 years and I kept putting it off and putting it off.

However, with all the drama of the last 3 months, and asking myself those questions every day, paring back the things that were done and allowing myself to sit in the Imago – guess what?

I leave in less than a week!

Spirit, Soul and Heart have said over and over again – “It’s time to go back to your roots, it’s time to embrace the ancestral healing and love, it’s time to open and transform.”

So I am. Hence why there won’t be weekly readings for the next 5 weeks!

However, for all of you who have asked, will there be an Equinox Guide, yes.

She will be released this Wednesday.

I personally will be spending Equinox (September 22nd), my birthday, my 60th birthday at New Grange in Ireland. If you don’t know this site – go check it out, it’s delicious.

Okay, that was a lot of openness and sharing, and for those of you who have skipped straight to the reading let’s crack on shall we?

When I went to the cards to ask who wanted to share their wisdom and insight with you this week, the glorious “Love Your Inner Goddess” guides came out big and bold. Now if these are new to you, please let me introduce them (as it would be rude not to).

We are often taught to follow the rules and be a good boy or girl – and that if we do this, everything will be OK.

Your inner goddess thinks that is a bunch of nonsense. She wants so much more for you. She wants you to live a beautiful divine destiny. She will show you how to be a loving rebel, breaking the rules that go against your heart and soul, changing the game and playing from the heart. She’ll show you how to live the life that is meant only for you.

You are meant to stir up healing change and be a voice for what is wise, loving and true. There are issues in our own lives and the world that need to change, that need to be healed. Your inner goddess knows how to bring about healing change with love, playfulness, courage and dignity. She is a fearless minx who will help you dance, love, storm and laugh your way into a more beautiful world, created from the heart. “

Seriously, the perfect guides for this time. Woosah!

Did you remember to pick?

Let’s go have a gander shall we?

ANGEL OF TRUTH

You are going to be blessed with a truth revealed, a realisation about yourself, the world or others that will bring you relief. It will happen at the right time. It will set your soul free.

QUEEN OF HEARTS

EARTH GODDESS

You have beautiful dreams and wonderful visions of what life could be. It is not enough to imagine them. You want to live them! This is exactly how you are meant to feel. For that to happen, you must practice feeling grounded, taking practical earthly steps, one at a time, to bring your dreams to life.

You can’t make this shit up! Seriously.

So my gorgeous one, a message for you:- Whatever you are going through, bring it into your heart and your soul and ask the questions. Follow the breadcrumb trail with faith and love, big love and trust that you are positively perfect and in the right space right now and everything is unfolding for your highest good.

You may get travel missives, you may not.

Otherwise, see you in mid October.

Big love and hugs,

Best Laid Plans of Mice and Men, and Pride comes Before A Fall!

Jenny Heston · 2:22 pm ·

Happy Magickal, Merry, Misty, Mischievous, Magnetic, Manifesting May Monday!

Hello my darling, darling – this is going to be a briefer reading this week, and I will explain why in a moment lol.

It’s been an “interesting” week and a bit to say the least.

I had great plans for last week – give a presentation to the National Lay Chaplain committee. Get tons of writing done, appear on two podcasts, clients, calls, joy and creativity.

I also had great visions for my Mother’s Day, a day of play, bouncing on a pogo stick, spinning bubble poi, hanging with all of my kids – as my daughter and her family just moved here last week and having glorious food cooked for me.

The only piece of those plans that happened was the presentation, lol.

The rest went to hell in a handbasket unfortunately.

And we have all heard the quote from Robbie Burns “The best laid schemes o’ Mice an’ Men, the best-laid schemes of Mice and Men Gang aft agley, go oft awry.“

Why?

My elderly mother has been unwell for 2.5 weeks.

Now what you have to appreciate about the mothership is that she is very, very, very (did I say very) prideful and rather vain.

Thus, I have been helping, tending and supporting her whilst counselling hydration and medical help, also a Covid test.

But of course, what do I know?

And there was no way she was having a Covid test as she wasn’t “one of those people who gets Covid”. And no she didn’t want medical help or anyone to know.

My daughter and I went to see her a week ago on Saturday and she couldn’t even sit up in bed on her own.

On Sunday I followed my intuition and popped in to see her to find that she had been on the floor for over an hour and couldn’t get up. But still “no one could know”.

Does the phrase “Pride comes before a Fall” fit in here, I think so!

I finally was able to talk to her doctor and they immediately said hospital, hydration and blood work. So the ambulance was called and guess what?

If you guessed she said no, you would be guessing correctly.

There was nothing wrong with her, and she had a hair appointment booked that week that she didn’t want to miss!!@!!#@#$@#$

So when I woke up last week feeling rather unwell and filled with brain fog, I immediately took a Covid test – positive.

My daughter felt unwell, she did a test – positive. The baby was positive a day or so later, then my son was positive.

All stemming from someone who’s pride wouldn’t let them admit they were human.

So do you understand now why all the plans went to hell in a handbasket?

I will be honest, I was rather pissed to say the least, but then again – what’s the point. It is what it is.

Don’t get me wrong – Pride definitely has a place.

I am proud of my work, I am proud of the things I create.

I am proud of who I am and how I move in the world.

But I refuse to allow Pride to take the steering wheel and make my choices for me!

Make sense? Do you have someone in your life who runs on Pride?

Okay, enough chuntering on, let’s crack on with the reading.

When I went to my delicious guides and asked who wanted to come and play.

These lovely guides came in loud and proud! If they are new to you, please let me introduce you.

“As above, so below. As within, so without. Today, many of us seek to reclaim the sense of connectedness that existed universally in ancient cultures, when human fate was wholly entwined with nature.

The world was seen as a symbiotic entity in which all living organisms interacted and supported each other, from the innermost cellular level to the outermost cosmological level. An essential bridge is being rebuilt between humans and nature, allowing us to access the realm of the transcendent and the land of the luminous.

Herbalism is the medicine of belonging, a gateway through which we keep alive a very sacred aspect to our source. “

With all that being shared, let’s drop in shall we? Take a delicious breath and invite in the energy of endings, as when there is an ending there is a new beginning.

What needs to just gently drop away (no drama), so that something new can grow?

Then when you are ready, pick the card or cards that resonate for you.

Did you remember to pick?

Let’s go have a look, shall we?

REISHI

Retreat

Called lingzhi in Chinese, Reishi represents immortality and is considered the “herb of spiritual potency,” meaning success, well-being, divine power, and longevity.

Said to have been discovered in 396 BC in the Changbai Mountains of China by Taoist monks, it is one of the oldest mushrooms used in medicine. It has long been called an anti-aging mushroom and powerful Shen tonic, a category of medicines that “nourish the spirit.”

Reishi powerfully influences our main spiritual centres: the endocrine, nervous, and hormonal systems. Hormones powerfully impact our perception, mood, sleep-wake cycles, ability to bond with others, and awareness of reality. They activate the nervous system, which is also directly related to igniting mystical experiences.

Reishi is ruled by Jupiter, the “guru of planets,” the one that dictates how we derive wisdom and access to the mysteries of life.

Reishi is inviting you to Pause. It’s time for renewal.

If you feel overwhelmed or mentally overloaded, it’s time to retreat. Take the time to recuperate and recharge, and personal growth will follow. Overstimulation and indecision lead to a sense of weakness, imprisonment, and a feeling that you are evading death.

Like Bear, hibernate or rest before you take on the next project or challenge.

Many Native American tribes have called this space of inner contemplation the Dream Lodge, a place to witness death and see beyond the confines of physical reality by visiting the dreamtime.

Create the space to be in silence and calm the internal chatter. Take time for reflection and nurturing yourself (and we all have that time).

MITRAGYNIA

Shape Shifting

The Indigenous peoples of Southeast Asia have valued the power of this rainforest tree for thousands of years and have used it as a poultice to treat wounds, as well as treatment for a variety of symptoms, including stress, pain, fatigue and fever.

Like Coca leaves in the South American highlands, fresh leaves from the Mitragynia tree are chewed for energy and stamina throughout the day.

Mitragynia was revered among monks in Asia, as it assisted them during long periods of meditation by providing focused attention and positive energy.

Mitragynia embodies elements of both Saturn and Neptune, as it profoundly relieves and decompresses the musculoskeletal system, while granting a freeing and euphoric feeling to the body-mind.

Used in the right amounts, it can greatly assist those with addiction (Neptune).

The balanced side of Mitragynia represents the ability to shapeshift and adapt across realities.

Like the Dragonfly, Mitragynia grants us the power to break through the illusionary facade we often accept as reality, providing us the freedom from pain in order to break through limiting illusions.

Dragonflies, like Mitragynia, help us initiate subconscious healing from the trauma experienced from endless cycles of pain and suffering.

Dragonfly medicine invites us to seek out the parts of our habits that have gone unchanged, unnoticed, and stagnant.

Ask yourself, have I tended to the changes I’ve been wanting to make?

Don’t get lost in the labyrinths of self-doubt.

Break free from illusive belief systems that hold back your transformation.

ANGEL’S TRUMPET

Death

Angel’s Trumpets have an intoxicating scent and flowers that resemble angelic horns aimed downward, symbolising the call of the angels to humanity.

Plants in the Brugmansia genus and relatives like Daturas have a rich history of use among shamans and magic practitioners, even though they are poisonous.

Some South American Indigenous groups, like the Kamsa, Jivaro, and Ingano, initiate their children at a young age into the path of curanderismo – becoming a healer – by ingesting Angel’s Trumpet during a flower ceremony.

Jivaro boys who walk the shamanic path are given the medicine at the age of six to acquire an external-vision-producing soul that lets them communicate with ancestors called arutam wakani.

Angel’s Trumpet is ruled by Pluto and Mars.

Angel’s Trumpet signals a time of catharsis or death.

A deep emotional breakdown is due or near. You may feel lost in your own emotional despair, depression, shame, or unworthiness, but now the angels of discernment and darkness are here to support you.

Coming eye to eye with the darkest feelings within yourself catalyses the greatest awakening. Deeply pause, let go of control, and witness the broken pieces within yourself with loving awareness.

The medicine of the Bat symbolises the need for a ritualistic death of relations, situations, or aspects of life.

Bat, like Angel’s Trumpet, signals catharsis and rebirth, signalling literal or metaphysical death of old patterns and worn out habits.

Understand that you can reconstruct at any time, create something new, deeper, richer and more in alignment, regardless of how shattered you feel.

Wowzer! Love these messages and they tie into the monthly energy (and you seriously can’t make this shit up!)

Wishing you a stupendous week filled with ease, grace and health. See you in two weeks as the long weekend is coming up. Big hugs and squeezes!

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Happy Marvellous, Merry, Musical, Mystical, Magnificent, Manifesting Monday!

How are you – really?

Re-visit, Re-envision, Re-lease, Re-imagine.

Have to say it was epic and I’m still processing it.

As there have been so many pivotal moments on every level!

When you connect with this potent energy, and let it guide you in your soul work, you can create lasting growth & change in your life.

You cannot continue to evolve, and birth new life, without experiencing Death.

Dearest Gentle Reader,

Happy Magickal, Merry, Misty, Mischievous, Magnetic, Manifesting May Monday!

jennyheston

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