The Divine Circus Oracle

New Moon in Libra, Canadian Thanksgiving and It’s Good to be Back!!!

Happy Magnificent, Magickal, Marvelous, Magnetic, Manifesting Monday!! (By the way if you know of any magnificent M words, let me know!) To all the lovely Canadians out there “Happy Thanksgiving”, a glorious time to remember all the things to be grateful for, glorious food and a beautiful space to create new memories. We also celebrate the New Moon in Libra today, which is a delicious transformative New Moon. With it being governed by Libra, this is the element of air and this New Moon will feel like a burst of fresh air that will wake up your senses and remind you of what is really important. As Lena Stevens shares:- “This is an important moon for anchoring balance, grounding, and receiving the support of your allies. If you are in the place of ambivalence around a decision, you could gain some emotional clarity around issues you have been trying too hard to “think through”. It is important to take some time around this New Moon and focus on balance. It may mean taking some things that do not serve you off your plate and replacing them with some things that will serve you better. As you take inventory of your life at this time, ask yourself where you could use more support and help. Set some intentions to receive the support you need from the allies and the helpers that can give it.” If you have been looking to get out of a rut, looking to redo areas of your life or just looking for a greater sense of purpose, this New Moon is going to help. This New Moon is going to deliver the secret sauce you need in order to break through and raise your journey to new heights. This illumination won’t happen straight away, but if you pay attention, over the course of the next few weeks, you will be guided and supported.

All I can say is BRING IT ON! September was a heck of a month and I am happily releasing it like a lovely autumnal leaf falling from its branch, and I will say It is soooo good to be back! Also, I would like to say a huge thank you to all of you who emailed, messaged or texted asking me if everything was okay and sending me prayers and love. That was so incredibly amazing and I am exceptionally touched and grateful.

So briefly to fill you in somewhat on what happened, as most of you know on Solstice I set the intention to live by the ocean and a few other things, and wow did the Universe respond! Within 2 weeks I knew it was happening, so I built a huge workshop to store my things in, found a roommate situation (with a woman who seemed like she was relatively sane)- paid her a chunk of money, rented out my home, said goodbye to one of my lovely boys and my dogs and moved. This was big for me as I had been in the same spot for 29 years to ensure that my children had stability and continuity as they were growing up. Thus, I arrived on the Island on September 1st, super excited and nervous as well. I helped two of my boys move and get settled into their new space and then contacted my roommate about meeting and move in time and all the parameters had changed. Apparently she had rented out my space to students, so I was welcome to sleep on the sofa for a while until they left, I had to now park on the road instead of the driveway and it was only 2 hour parking, thus I would have to move my vehicle every two hours and no I couldn’t see the space as she was busy. Wow!

Red flags sprung up everywhere as I felt that the rug I had thought was there was being twisted, manipulated and ripped out from under my feet. I cried and cried and got rather angry with the Universe to be honest and advised this “delightfully manipulative” woman that there were too many red flags already and I hadn’t even moved in yet, thus please return my damage deposit as I won’t be moving there. Nope was the response. No money returned, angry emails and texts and all sorts of crazy behaviour. It was sooooooo bizarre. Thankfully the boys let me camp out on their sofa for a month, which I was very grateful for as I was totally flummoxed and in a high state of fight or flight with a massive desire to just run home. But I didn’t. However, my body responded by getting sick not just a gentle tummy ache, but unable to eat, felt awful and anxiety was rampant. I lost 11 lbs in 2 weeks. Then as that eased up I went and had lunch at my mother’s retirement community and ordered the safest thing on the menu – a toasted ham/cheese sandwich. When it arrived it was solid. I mean solid and hard and guess what? I took a bite, experienced massive pain in my mouth and it had split and fractured my tooth! (Seriously) So for another two weeks it was a liquid diet and the weight kept dropping. So in total 15lbs lost and if you know me that means I am down to 120lbs at 5ft 9” – it’s not pretty to say the least I’m also massively phobic about dentists and normally need to be highly medicated, but I put my big girl panties on – my niece came with me and held my hand and I let him have a look. Due to the fact that I hadn’t medicated he refused to pull the fractured piece out, instead advised me it was going to fall out any minute and so I should pull it out quickly otherwise it would lacerate my esophagus or fall into my lung!!!! WTF.

Thus, I had to ask my son to sterilise a pair of pliers and pull the chunk out for me, and bless his cotton soxs he did. It took 20 minutes (so much for it dropping out quickly), but he got it out with only a mild laceration to the lip and no pain. Talk about a trust exercise (and the fact I am not stellar at asking for help)!!!

During this time I was scrambling and looking at all sorts of places, some were glorious but highly overpriced, others would send me to a psych ward if I had to live in them, as they were dark, dank and dingy. Finally I found a cute little old house that was only 3 blocks from the ocean and I could have it October 1st! Whoot! Excited puts it mildly. It FELT amazing, it FELT perfect, safe, cosy and just the right spot. But hang on, I have no furniture, absolutely nothing as I was meant to be moving into a furnished place. Hmmmmmm.

So I played a game – can I furnish a house in a tasteful, functional way for $300? Everyone I told this to said no. All I can say is that the abundance that flowed in was incredible. Friends gave me lamps, dishes, kitchen utensils, cushions, blankets, candles – all sorts. I found a new bed for $60 which came with brand new sheets, an Italian leather love seat for $40 and was gifted a new sewing machine and a $4K leather, brass studded sofa! I was gifted a cute kitchen table and chairs and one glorious friend painted an amazing picture that hangs over my mantelpiece. It was amazing! I didn’t quite make the $300, instead it was more like $450 – but seriously, that is amazing. So you are all welcome to come visit!

A week ago I moved in and wow! I have a garden to play in, I am doing a 40 day meditation/prayer where I walk a 5km circuit bright and early through the massive park, down to the beach, along the beach until I find “the rock” that calls to me. I then pick the rock up, park my arse down and offer up thanks, prayer and stillness. I think walk along the beach and circle round and back in time for tea at 7am. I have space to work and create, a place to invite friends over and I’m not sleeping on a sofa! (Though it was a very comfie sofa)

So my take away from this whole experience.

Most certainly ask the Universe/Divine for what you want, set your Intentions, don’t get freaked out when they don’t unfold as you thought they would. I do think the Universe likes to test and challenge you to see if your serious – don’t run. Trust, trust, trust, oh yes and when you can get out of your head, use the tools – trust, show up, believe, be willing to receive and take action. Find the miracles in the mundane and know that the drama llamas are transitory.

Now that I have shared all that, let’s crack on with the reading. When I asked the decks who wanted to show up this week I laughed my soxs off when I saw it was The Divine Circus Oracle. Why? Let me share with you the dedication if you have never encountered this delicious deck:- “This deck is for those who find it hard to follow rules, conform, bend to authority and generally ‘do what they are told’. May your rebel heart always be bold. May your spirit always be free. May you remember to live the Divine Circus and have fun doing things the way you aren’t supposed to, whilst living your most creative and unique divine destiny.” The crystals that wiggled and jiggled to come play are:- Malachite and two Ruby Zoisite’s. (So if you pick the card based on the colour of the crystal this will be most interesting). Rosemary, Lavender and Purple Sage also wanted to join in, which to me is positively perfect!

Thus, I invite you to take a moment, a pause, a long breath and just be with yourself at this moment. There is a lovely guided visualisation for you if you would like some more support with getting present and really celebrating you and the energy of this time.

If not, just breathe, breathe long and deep and roll your shoulders up, back and down. When you are ready ask, ask whatever you feel called to or trust that the Divine will guide you to the message that is meant for you. Then pick the card or cards that resonate for you. Enjoy!

Did you remember to pick?

Ready to go have a look?

DARK HARLEQUIN

Bells are ringing from deep inside. Something that once had to hide is seeking your attention. It want out! It wants to be free! As you release what was once shut away, your discomfort shall turn to glee. You are a spiritual adventurer! You are not afraid to go to the edge of what you know, of who you have believed yourself to be. Even when before you there lies the darkness of unknown worlds, of undiscovered parts of you, even when you feel uncertainty, discomfort or doubt, you are still willing to figure out what it’s all about,

So you’ve come to a place in you, and in your life, where you don’t know. You don’t know what’s happening. You don’t know how to work through it. You don’t know who you are (well, not all of who you are). You don’t know what you don’t know. You are at the point of not knowing because you are growing. There will be surprises. There will be discoveries. You’ll feel awkward at times, like you are trying to see in the dark.

Don’t be afraid to let there be some inner rattling and rampaging. You are at a time when you are naturally diving into the darkness for a healing purpose. So ask the difficult questions. Do things you wouldn’t normally do. Experiment with thinking in ways you wouldn’t normally think. Be willing to let everything change for the better by first letting go of how things are now. The messier your inner world seems to be right now, the more you can expect complete and utter transformation as a new order comes into form. Expect the unexpected, for you were born to grow into what is happening now. It’s time to let the wild thing out!

THE PROUD PIERETTE

If you were proud of who you are and everything you have learned in your life, free from shame, guilt or judgement, what would you choose for yourself today? The choices you make for yourself from a place of feeling good are going to be more loving and helpful than anything from a place of self-judgement. You’ve nothing to regret, you’ve learned a lot and you are a beautiful unique being on a wild divine journey. Be kind to yourself. Keep your head up! Then it will be easier to keep growing and glowing.

If you feel that life is getting you down, or you should have, or could have, made different decisions in life – you are doing a great job! You are meant to have learning experiences. What matters is that you choose to learn. And you do! In your own time and your own way, you make sense of things, and you grow wiser and stronger as a person.

If you feel any ridicule, judgement or shaming is coming from those around you – trust you are stronger and wilder and more beautiful and true than any of that mean-spirited fearfulness. Let the mud that is being slung slide right off or remain stuck in the hands of those throwing it your way. Keep your sense of inner dignity intact. Never make yourself smaller to placate the fear in another’s heart. Take pride in who you are. Be proud to be you! And know that this is a way to respect and honour the creative loving power of the universe that created you!

MEANT FOR YOU

You’ve voiced your intent, setting in motion a natural creative process. What you want has been summoned forth and is now headed your way. Don’t hesitate, refuse to receive, or pass this gift on to another. It is meant for you. Grab it! Within this new opportunity is exactly what you have been waiting for….what you have been wanting to create, what truly makes your heart sing.

What is rightfully yours is – or very soon will be – right in front of you. Caught up in a spiraling wave of new beginnings, it is time to reach out and grab what is headed your way. Opportunity is the universe believing in you. Return the compliment by accepting what is being offered with open arms and a trusting heart. You’ll be glad you did.

Don’t worry if this opportunity seems to be leading you down a different path to what you expected. All paths lead us to where we need to be. Sometimes the universe just has a better idea of what will get us to our destination at the perfect time, and along the pathway that will be of most benefit to all. Trust what is happening. Accept that you deserve good things to happen to you, and don’t be shy. Now is your time to step up, open your mouth (and your arms) and say, “Thank you! I accept!”

What a glorious reading for this Canadian Thanksgiving and New Moon. I invite you to use the energy of this day to really focus on all the people, places, situations and things that you are grateful for and to release and surrender those that don’t serve you. Write down your New Moon wishes and remember – there’s magick everywhere, guidance and love everywhere. Have a glorious week and see you next Monday. Huge hugs and squeezes.

Full Flower Moon, Shed Building and Hot, Hot, Heat!

Jenny Heston · 2:00 pm ·

Happy, happy magickal, manifesting, marvelous, last Monday in May! I don’t know about you but I sure feel that this month has just flown by! Phew. How have you been? It feels like yonks since we last connected, and yet it has only been two weeks. It was sooooo nice to celebrate the long weekend and just relax, play, hike and plan. On the Friday of the long weekend I was sitting out in the garden and looking around and appreciating how with the hot weather we have been having all the plants are pushing out of the ground and reaching for the sun. In fact one whole bed has self planted itself with sunflowers! I must have at least 60 in there, so we will have to do some gentle transplanting so they all have room and space to grow and flourish.

Anyhow, there I was perking and looking when all of a sudden I realised I needed a workshop, or a shed or a something. A structure that could be home to all my tools with a lovely rack off the side to hold the paddle boards and kayaks. So I grabbed my tape measure and wandered around the yard looking for “the right location”, when I found it I measured it up, grabbed a piece of paper and a pencil and started sketching out what I wanted. How big, what roof design etc etc. (This is where my capacity to over think can be a royal pain in the arse!) A few hours later I had called the lumber yards, priced out all the wood etc and poured concrete pads (not bad for a Friday night lol). Then for the next 2 days I dug, and dug, and dug and levelled, and dug and dug (have to say I wasn’t digging the digging), and doing that in a balmy 98F was a bit much. However, by the end of the weekend the area was level and ready to welcome a new structure. I on the other hand was sun crispy and feeling a tad peely wally as I had had too much sun! So this last weekend, I grabbed the wood and have built the foundation and got the floor on – whoot! Whoot! Huge happy dance (in fact I think I did one on the floor of the workshop). So the next part is my favourite, framing the walls in and getting them up and clad. This lovely workshop is going to look fabulous by the time she is done and I’m building little planters to hang on the outside and I might even paint some lovely flowers up one wall – but that will have to wait a while. However, it feels good to be building and creating and taking something from an idea into manifestation, right?

On Tuesday we welcome in the glorious Full Flower Moon. This is a glorious time to really luxuriate in seeing the plans you made months ago coming into fruition. It’s also a fabulous time to tend your most cherished and promising endeavours as well as to create more future plans that are really aligned with who you are and your values. Make a list of all the things you would like to do, be, create etc for this upcoming summer season and then put that list outside with your crystals and let it get deliciously charged up with this fiery full moon light. I personally plan on putting all my crystals outside, including the ones that I wear and letting them have a gorgeous moon bath.

The deck that was very wiggly and jiggly to come work with us this week is the wonderful Divine Circus Oracle, I so enjoy this deck and the insights it brings me. The crystals that were adamant it was their turn to play are Mookaite, Jasper and Calcite, and what better place to do the reading than outside on the floor of the new workshop with a dusting of Rowan tree petals.

So let’s take a moment to just settle into ourselves. Take a glorious deep breath in through your nose and out through your mouth and let your face, shoulders, scalp gently relax. As your breathing starts to slow trust yourself and allow your inner deep wise one to float up to the surface and help you pick the card or cards for you this week. If you would like a bit more support with settling in, there is a fun guided visualisation that honours the flowers of this Full Flower Moon.

Ready?

Shall we go see?

Princess Victorious

You are being asked to be a big picture person for the moment. Sometimes immediate gratification has to give way for a grander scheme unfolding, which will ultimately lead you to far greater and more meaningful success. What seems to be a delay, obstacle, loss or even failure now is a twist in the plot of your life, necessary for your gracious destiny to unfold according to a higher plan.

It can be hard to keep faith when you’ve been defeated just one too many times. It is easy to make fear and doubt mean something they don’t; it’s usually something like being doomed to fail and so we might as well give up. However, fear and doubt are just symptoms of fatigue. They are signs that we are feeling battle weary when it comes to life. To overcome weariness and create happiness, you are being asked to temporarily surrender your need to win – just for now. Instead, you are guided to step back, regroup, replenish, be kind to yourself and know this: sometimes you have to be willing to lose the battle to win the war. That means being willing to go through things in the short term that might seem like failure without losing confidence, courage and trust that everything is going to go your way in the long term.

Know that you are strong and determined enough to bounce back and overcome difficult circumstances. You will be given the power to succeed at the right time and in the best way for all concerned. So give in to how your journey is unfolding – even if it seems like you are losing when you’d rather be winning – but don’t give up hope. Trust that the universe is strategic. It is helping you to succeed. If you need a sign to know that things are going to work out for the best, even if it seems like they are falling apart along the way, then this is it!

Joker is Wild

The Universe has a sense of humour, but never at your expense. It is laughing with you, not t you. You’ll see this for yourself as the Joker weaves her magic in your life, bringing you the grace that is beyond all reason, the necessary ingredient to ensure you win with the hand you have been dealt by life. There’s nothing impossible when the Joker appears. Her wild ways can transform a losing streak into a lifelong love affair with lady Luck.

Strap yourself in and prepare for the ride of a lifetime. The Joker has come to you and the Joker is wild. Unpredictable and brilliant, she brings you a message. You are being empowered to overcome all odds. So you are going to win. No doubts, no dramas, but not necessarily in a way that you expect either! She is sending the best possible situation to you even now. It might startle you, like a sudden light in the middle of the night, but it will be welcome nonetheless.

You probably won’t see it coming. It will probably be in a way that subverts everything you once believed to be true. But it will be a welcome trick by the Universe, a loving joke that opens your heart and helps you realise that this vast impersonal universe personally knows and cares for you, so intimately and with such meticulous care. Just don’t expect to feel in control of the process, for the Joker is wild and moves according to her own genius, but always blesses you with what will work best, beyond compare, now and always.

Divine Disguise

Some blessings are obvious – the door that opens, the person who says yes and the instant success of an idea. But not all blessings are instantly recognisable. Some blessings are so veiled that at first you might consider them to be an unwanted development. A concealed blessing is either already at work in your life or on its way. Don’t worry if you feel like things aren’t working out as they should. Soon enough, the disguise will be dropped, and the blessed unmasked in all its beauty.

Blessings are the mysterious workings of the universe, there to help us along our unique life path to live our truths and fulfil our potential. The universe has the knack of knowing just what it is we need, even when sometimes we might think we need something altogether different. This is how it can be that something we resist and reject in our lives can become the very thing we’re most grateful for later on. The real beauty of a situation isn’t obvious to you yet. It could be a delay or change in plans that turns out to be in your favour, even if at the time you aren’t sure it signals failure! It could be the wrong person saying no so the right person can say yes. It could be being blocked from turning back to your past, so you must continue forward into the magic of your future.

But trust and have peace of mind and a realisation that the universe does really know what it’s doing. It’s in your corner, on your side, cheering you on and helping you avoid unnecessary pitfalls, even if you don’t know they exist.

So delicious lovely, have a wonderful week. Remember to wear sunscreen, drink water and celebrate all the wonderful little things that happen in the day. Like the crows that come strutting through the yard when I put the sprinkler on, they have a glorious shower, fluff their feathers, give a deep croaking caw and fly off to preen themselves. So looking forward to seeing you next week. Smile, Breathe and Trust. Huge hugs.

When Spring is Reluctant, Mercury is still in Retrograde and Your Intentions get Eaten! – April 9th Reading

Jenny Heston · 2:00 pm ·

Happy magnificent, marvelous Monday! It’s good to be back. How was your Easter? Did a large wascally wabbit come and poop little chocolate eggs everywhere? Our Easter was fabulous as guess what? We had two days of sun and nice weather in a row!!! (I know, sad but true). So a lot of time was spent playing outside, waking up the garden and just getting everything freshened up. We had a glorious egg hunt through the woods and bushes, and our wascally wabbit hid eggs in the bark of the trees, under shrubs, peeking out from rocks – quite inventive if I say so myself. Good thing we did our egg hunt on the Saturday as Sunday brought 8” of snow! (It was nearly enough to make me want to crawl back into bed and stay there until the real Spring arrived). Ah well, can’t do anything about it.

My friend and I collaborated and co-created Easter dinner for friends, family and waifs and strays, so I think there were about 20 odd of us which always makes for great conversations and interesting dynamics. We also played a fabulous game called “Telestrations”, I highly, highly suggest it but the caveat is it’s not really appropriate for small people to play. It can be a bit edgy, kind of like Cards against Humanity. But it’s great fun!!

On Equinox I did my ritual of writing on little strips of paper things that I would like more of in my life and then I popped them into 12 peat pots, covered them with dirt and planted all sorts of herb seeds in them. Well with the lack of sun (as Spring is being reluctant in showing herself), I noticed they were a bit straggly, so I moved them to a different window and lower down. About an hour later I walked back into the living room to see that one pot was missing, there was a small pile of dirt on the carpet and Legolas (my large white Akbash) was licking his lips with dirt hanging from his jowls! The bugger had eaten one of my intentions! So I don’t know if that means he is spreading my intention out into the world or that that intention was just too delicious not to share! Bloody dog!

Okay, enough about twisted games, pooping bunnies and intention eating dogs, let’s get on with the reading. The deck that came out loud and proud this week is “The Divine Circus Oracle” and if this is your first time coming to this wonderful deck, let me give you the dedication. “This deck is for those who find it hard to follow rules, conform, bend to authority and generally “do what they are told”. May your rebel heart always be bold. May your spirit always be free. May you remember to live the Divine Circus and have fun doing things the way you aren’t supposed to, whilst living your most creative and unique divine destiny.” Ahhhhh, doesn’t that just sound delightfully delicious? The crystals that literally threw themselves out of the bowl to come play are:- Ruby Zoisite – great for transmuting negative energy into positive. Snowflake Obsidian – a stone of purity and brings about a balance to body, mind and spirit. Last but not least, Citrine – highly protective and enhances optimism. These are then all topped of with of a Selenite wand for amplification.

I have created an “interesting” visualisation for you that involves some travelling, but don’t fret you won’t need your passport. However, if you don’t feel the need just take a few moments to slow your breathing down and get centred in yourself and then pick the card or cards that resonate for you.

Did you pick?

Let’s go have a little look see shall we?

RARE, RAW, REAL

There is a unique beauty in you that wants to shine through. It is different. It might not be pretty, neat and tidy, and you might even feel vulnerable about sharing this real, unveiled you with the world…do it anyway because the world wants to love you. The rare, raw and real you.

It’s time to peel back the layers and unearth the real you – naked, vulnerable, real, beautiful. With every layer of hiding and protection removed, you’ll encounter whatever it was that caused that layer of self protection to be built up in the first place – maybe a sense of shame, fear, hate, anger or doubt. Affirm your love for yourself, and a willingness to be patient whilst you become ready to be known and seen and loved for who you are underneath those layers of pain, then you’ll find it easier to let them fall away. As this happens there will be a revelation of a raw, rare and real you that you didn’t even know was there – so pure so powerful, so precious. The inner light of you will shine through, like a lantern suddenly illuminated, with the radiance of you lighting up the dark.

In being brave enough to do this, you help empower others to be their true selves as well, to be less afraid of what makes them different, to embrace their uniqueness and feel the divine dignity that is rightfully ours when we choose to simply be who we are.

DUKE OF SHADOWS

Cunningly clever am I, helping you discern the truth from the lie. I remind you that half truths may seem to be whole, yet in the shadows is information yet to be known. When the time is right, the light shall be bright, and confusion will give way to understanding.

You are being invited to be patient. This is a cautionary card, not to inspire concern, but rather to inspire curiosity. There is more to a situation, person, opportunity, or even an apparent absence of activity or success, than meets the eye. You could imagine it being like the universe has another card up its sleeve and is yet to show its full hand. A process has been set in motion but is “under the radar” of your awareness. Something is happening, even if that doesn’t appear to be the case. But just like a seed starts to grow into a plant, deep in the earth, apparently invisible and yet very real, you are being subjected to invisible but real forces of growth and healing at this time.

Because you cannot know what you don’t know, you will need to wait for more information to come to you. So if what you see, sense or feel is negative right now, don’t believe it! Things are going to shift and change and there will be a surprising twist in your life. Though you don’t see it coming, another piece of your life puzzle is going to reveal itself soon. It will help solve a difficulty or question you have been holding in your heart.

SECRET OF SHINOBI

Shhhhhh! Can you keep a secret? It’s time to play your cards close to your chest. Soon enough, you’ll be ready to stand upon the mountain top for all to see and hear. For now, let things unfold in the guarded privacy of your inner world. When the time is right to be seen in the light, you’ll know what is true and what to do. Until then, be patient, be private, be committed and wait for the right time to shine.

Sometimes being less visible, less transparent, less “seen” for a time is helpful. It doesn’t mean being dishonest or deceptive, but it does mean keeping your intentions and your truths to yourself until you see the best way to attain your goals. In fact, the best way to attain your goals might be more of the “iron fist in velvet glove” approach. You might find that gentle persuasion works far better than direct confrontation, which can unintentionally inflame a situation and trigger defensive reactions in others instead of finding a way to bring resolution.

When it is time to show your hand, to reveal your intentions and speak more openly and publicly about what has been gestating, you’ll know it; but for now, let things come together away from prying eyes. Just for now, it’s time to keep a secret.

Wow, that was quite amazing, they are all to do with patience, trusting and being willing. (Have I said how much I love my cards?) How did your pick resonate for you? To me these cards are quite “Spring” like in the way that we plant a seed and we have to be patient and not go digging it up to see if it’s growing. Trust. Such a small word and one that can be very hard to do sometimes. So my gorgeous one, I wish you a glorious week filled with patience, inner knowing and of course huge, huge belly laughs! Oh yes, and is it just me that thinks Ruby Zoisite would make a great band name?

See you next week.

The Divine Circus Oracle

jennyheston

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