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Ode to My Gorgeous Gal – R.I.P Uma

Uma, my gorgeous gal, the one that has walked so many different paths with me and has always been there, the dog of my heart. I got her as a rescue dog and drove to Trail to bring her and the whole litter home to foster them. 13 years ago I had lost my golden lab Maia to mouth cancer and my black lab Rudolph was bereft, he had never been alone, he had always had Maia. Thus, I thought it was a great plan to foster some puppies to see if that helped him. He hated them, actually he hated all of them except Uma. So the others found their forever homes somewhere else and Uma came to our forever home.

She was such a brilliant dog, sharp, bright and so incredibly loving without being a slobbery git. She came camping, travelling, exploring and fairly much anywhere I could take her. In the woods she was always the one that stayed close whilst the male dogs cavorted amongst the trees. She was the one that the minute she heard me go to bed, I could hear her on the stairs flumping down after me to hop up on the bed and curl up on the bottom left hand corner. When I went to Victoria to help Dee (my mother), she kept me sane – when Dee would kick off Uma and I would walk and I would chant. One day between the myriad of walks I realised we had done 25 km. She has flown with me, hiked with me and when I haven’t been feeling well she was always there on the corner of the bed looking at me and checking in.

In the mornings I would get up and go to the kitchen and the minute she heard the toaster pop down and the frying pan go on, voila up she would get to hang out and see if there were any scraps going.

So it’s been a heck of a week. A week ago today was Chinese New Year, where we entered the Year of the Male Earth Dog. We had a glorious celebration and Uma and the other two bounded around excited to see all the people and snag some tidbits of beef, lemon chicken or salmon. Saturday as it started to snow and snow and snow some more we went for a glorious walk and as usual she explored but always came back to check in with me and then dash off to cavort with the other dogs.

On Monday even though it was chilly, the sky was blue and the sun bright and brilliant – quite a gorgeous day so I rejigged my schedule so I could take the doggos out for a glorious romp with my friend Christine and her dog. There was so much snowy expanse to run, play and frolic – as well as trees to dash behind and hide whilst waiting for another dog to run by, but she didn’t play. The others all did, but she didn’t cavort, she stayed right to my heel and seemed to be slower and the walk not so enjoyable for her. By Monday night I knew she wasn’t feeling well.

Tuesday, she was worse, stairs were becoming a problem and she wouldn’t eat (which was highly unusual for her). Wednesday it was even more prevalent and she would look at me with eyes that saw but didn’t really, and large strings of drool hanging from her mouth. I also noticed the two other male dogs were exceptionally gentle around her and they would cry, which they never do. In my head she was going to be fine, it was all good and it would be something simple. So off to the vet we went. First diagnosis was Pneumonia. Sweet! We can deal with that right? Some antibiotics, rest, lots of water and she will be right as rain and ready for another glorious adventure.

The vet ran blood tests and did a chest x-ray and you know there is something more when the Vet goes out to get a chair so she can sit next to you. Well the blood tests didn’t come out well, she had no white blood cells and a massive secondary infection.

Fuck, fuck, fuck. There were two things, either she had a tick borne virus or it was bone marrow cancer. The first one could be dealt with by antibiotics, the other one – nadda. Another test was run to see if it was tick borne, and whilst that was happening I walked in the wind and the bleak grey cold along the dog beach looking at all the other dogs and allowing tears to freeze on my cheeks. Come on Jen, think positive, it’s all going to be good. Back to the Vets and nope, not a tick borne virus – bone marrow cancer. However, give her antibiotics will deal with the secondary infection and she can rally and you have another year. FUCK!

I took my gorgeous girl home, snuggled her, cried and told her how much she was loved. My heart felt so incredibly sad and heavy. The next day I cleared my schedule and hung out with her, I poached chicken, baked salmon – cooked beef liver to try to entice her to eat. Nadda. My gorgeous girl normally would follow me around the house when I was home and she tried valiantly – but she couldn’t. She fell down the stairs, she would stand and wobble and look at me and I kept whispering to her “You are so loved, you are the bestest dog ever and if you need to leave I will miss you like a piece of my being has been taken, if you can rally – I would love that to pieces.”

That night I wrapped her in a gorgeous clean blankie, just for her and took her to bed. As I watched her I wondered if she would be there in the morning, and guess what? She was!

I was so excited!!! She’s going to be okay! More antibiotics down her throat (which she hated) and I had to go meet with clients and do some work, so my son stayed with her as I didn’t want her to be alone at all. When I got home in the early afternoon I bounded up the stairs looking for her, she was lying next to the water dish in the kitchen and it took all her energy to lift up her head and look at me. My legs melted and I sat on the floor next to her and sobbed. Uma, Puma – you need to go don’t you? Fuck! I have to be the adult and make that choice for you. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!

2pm the Vet was phoned. 3:30 found my son and I walking into the vets with her wrapped up in her special blankie. Multiple visits from various technicians trying to amp up the price – for just a little more you can do this…… Seriously people, you have had over $1,000 in 2 days, can you please back away? We stroked her, told her gorgeous stories as the first sleepy injection went in. I took her collar off and told her she was free to leave, that it was okay – she had been such an amazing protector and friend, but it was okay to rest and release. The second injection went in and at 3:59 she passed. I stroked her and then she coughed and expelled air. But Uma was gone, it was just the body expelling air, which she did 3 times. Have to say scared the heck out of me at first.

As the ground is frozen solid here there is no where to bury her, so I had to leave her behind to be cremated. But as I watched her head loll I knew she wasn’t here anymore. I got home and sat. Just kind of numb and bleak and then randomly there was a moth. Ummm, excuse me, it’s a bazillion degrees cold outside, how the heck did you get here. It kept bopping around my head and part of me wanted to crush it between my palms. But hang on, moths and butterflies are all about transformation. Hmmmm, so I let her dance around me for a while and then after an hour or so, she just seemed to vanish. Was that Uma coming to say goodbye and that she was safe? I don’t know, but it did make me feel good.

Do I feel her here? You bet. Was last night tough to not see her on the left corner of the bed – hell yes. This morning when I went outside with my tea and the toaster had been popped down I could hear scratching at the door, so I opened it and a ghost came out. Five days, I wasn’t ready for this to be honest.

What’s Your Legacy Going to BE? – Weekly Reading January 22nd

Jenny Heston · 2:00 pm ·

Hello gorgeous one, how has your week been? Did you carve out a little time last Tuesday to make your New Moon wishes? I hope so. We have been fluctuating between huge snowfalls to the milder temperatures and rain, to then huge snowfalls – sigh…. So things are either squishy and sloppy or icy as heck – whoo, hoo (makes every day quite unique). Also makes it tricky to dress for the day – do I need an umbrella and rain boots or a Parka and snow boots – or even possibly spiky things that go on my boots?

On the weekend I went to a memorial service for a friend and peer, he had passed at 48 years old after battling brain cancer for the last 6 months. He left behind brothers, parents, a lovely wife and 3 amazing kids. He was a kind, generous, man filled with integrity and a passion for soccer and his family – so why, why him? There is no answer to that question or one that soothes the frustration, grief and sadness. However, as I listened to all the stories that were shared at the memorial service the word Legacy kept coming up.

The stories were poignant, funny, loving and wonderful to hear but the common thread was this man lived with such purpose, connection and passion in a way that was inclusive and caring. Legacy. Helped grow and expand our soccer association so that kids of all ages and adults could play year round. Legacy. He was an amazing father to his kids. Legacy. A caring and thoughtful son and husband. Legacy. Even in his last days he was still interested in how others were and what was happening in their lives. Legacy.

So after the service I came home and sat and reflected for a while on the word Legacy. What is the legacy that I would like to leave behind? For me it isn’t about “stuff” so much as “Did I live, did I love, did I matter, did I help and did I make a difference”. So often we postpone what we want to do to another day because we don’t feel ready, or we don’t share our gifts because of fear, or we don’t grab that opportunity because of feelings of worth. If you think about that – how daft is that? Every morning that you open your eyes and can put your feet on the earth can be an amazing day, it’s all a choice, an intentional choice. It goes all the way from the smallest act to the largest display. Think of it like the pebble being dropped into a pond and the ripples that come out from it. For example, you stop and talk to the homeless chap who is bundled up in blankets in a doorway and you see him as a person and he shares with you how touched he was that you “saw” him as he had been feeling so invisible he was contemplating suicide. Your friend is sick in bed and you pop over with some nice home made soup and check in on them. You see an empty parking meter and the by-law guy approaching so you drop a quarter in it. You’re in an abusive marriage and your children continually witness you capitulating and finally you say enough is enough, pack up your stuff and take them somewhere safe, calm and kind and they get to witness you standing up for yourself and for them. I know these all may sound odd to you – but all things matter. So let me ask – how do you want to live your life and what is the Legacy you would like to leave behind? Whatever it is, start it now, do it now, be it now!

Okay, I shall get down off my soapbox now. The cards that flew out and at me this week are The Sacred Rebels Oracle which I thought highly appropriate as this oracle is dedicated to those who aren’t afraid to rattle cages, ruffle feathers and rock boats, from a place of loving service to the spiritual evolution of humanity. The crystals that wiggled and jiggled and demanded to be included are Smoky Quartz (grounding, cleansing and healing), Amethyst (protection, abundance, wisdom and healing) and Citrine (personal power, creativity and manifestation).

So take a moment and just BE, breathe and BE. Wiggle your toes and gently place your hands on your heart and breathe into this space long and deep, in through your nose and out through your mouth like a sigh. If you want, there is a lovely guided visualisation to help you just centre and BE, and tap into the Joy.

Ready to go pick now?

Let’s go have a look see shall we?

SHOCK OF THE NEW

What wild unconventional voice is calling to you? Can you hear it? It is so different so unusual, it might be hard to decipher – like hearing an unfamiliar language for the first time. It might be hard to discern with great clarity now but there is an affinity between you and this strangely beautiful newness seeking to manifest.

There is a stirring at the deepest level within you. Something new will break through and the process of this birth may be a shock to you. The shock will transform into great joy and a sense of tremendous liberation, but you must bear the strangeness first. That strangeness might be something that rattles your beliefs about yourself and your world, daring you to become more of yourself, more open to where life is leading you and more willing to be the unique sacred art being crafted by the hand of the universal creator.

Nature never shies away from strange beauty. She allows for endless diversity and her sacred works are often peculiar and stunning. You live within her field of creative grace, as a specially created work that also creates! You are being asked to surrender any fear you may have of being seen as exotic, unusual, eccentric or bizarre. You are being asked to make peace with strange beauty and to let it happen through you in creative flow. There are rumblings and stirrings of the creative life force life happening now – deep in the undercurrents of your being. So be on the lookout for the big shift of new birth, the shock of the new, the unconventional, the strangely beautiful and the disturbing liberation of that which is foreign stepping into your life.

This is life creating the stage upon which you will experience greater fulfillment. Don’t reject it, no matter how small or insignificant, or how powerful and life-changing it may seem to be. You are being asked to dispense with your reliance on the past and what have been your tools to navigate life. You have outgrown your old methods. You will have to fly by the seat of your pants, so to speak, as you experiment with new ways to be. Life will show you the way.

DEFEND TO THE END THE WORTHWHILE

Beneath the lies and illusions, pretty as they seem, you know what is worthwhile. All that is genuinely and truly essential for the heart to throb with life is worthwhile. Anything that dulls it or suffocates its vibrant aliveness, must be questioned, challenged, and more than likely cast aside, for the heart is our key to living an authentic life. What is there once that is compromised? Without its foundation of truth, we are to be forever lost in confusion, doubt and despair!

You are a sacred warrior – a defender of the heart. You have cried genuine tears of your own grief and also the grief of the world. You have felt the need to protect the presence of love, for whilst it is exceptionally powerful, it can too easily be smothered under lies and fear. The sacred warrior is vigilant that the presence of love is not chipped away by fear, criticism, doubt or untruths. Even if others find the unflinching honesty of your feelings difficult to handle, even if those feelings are expressed with gentleness and compassion, the sacred warrior honours the task of being more faithful to love, than to anything else.

The darkness will be intelligent and sneaky. It will tell you that it doesn’t matter, that this one time you can forget what you promised, that you are just one person and that you can’t make difference. That darkness will lure you into sleepy ambivalence and dull your light, if you allow it to. The sacred warrior within will fight with love and honour to be true to what has meaning, and never, ever allow it to be cast aside – even if it seems easier in the moment. You’re being asked to stay strong and stand your ground. What is happening, or soon will be happening is worthwhile. So hold tight. Ask for help to heal.

FOCUS ON THE LIGHT

A tremendous force of light is gathering around you. It is attracted to the purity of your intention to create from your heart. As your intention grows, so does the light. As the light grows, so does your intention. Magic wants to happen for you now! The synchronicity, perfect timing, opportunities and information that are needed will seem to be drawn right to your door. You may start to feel as if you cannot walk outside without stumbling into something helpful, wonderful and inspiring.

You might be startled as this interplay of light with your heart evokes many new successes and attracts an abundance of opportunities your way. You may need to adjust as the field of light grows stronger and its effect becomes more palpable. It may bring rather dramatic improvements into your world. You may be uncomfortable or feel out of your depth with these changes. This would be understandable, but it would be a shame for you to hold on to that resistance for anything more than a brief moment. Any resistance or fear will inhibit the continuing free flow of the light so that is can manifest its beauty through you, in the physical world, where it is needed.

It is best to stay focused on your heart and intentions. Just allow all else to happen of its own accord, without making it mean anything too personal. Simply let it be the workings of the great light of love, flowing through a pure heart and touching the world. Even if the light that is drawn to you and flows through you has some dazzling effects, you don’t have to get caught up in it.

Don’t be distracted by other paths around you at this time as you are too close to succeeding on the one you are on now! Diluting your energies, in the pursuit of too much will slow down your success and the world needs your light to shine sooner rather than later! In time you may diversify and explore other ways to express yourself but for now, build what you are working on and know that success is coming swiftly.

Yummers! Love how the cards in essence told a story and each card can stand alone. First it was about embracing and welcoming in the new, the “odd to you, but great for you” – then it was about the feeling state and defending it, last but not least if you are willing to do the others then you need to focus on the light and trust and be willing. Ahhhh, willing is just a delightfully challenging word sometimes. So gorgeous one, I wish you a stupendous week filled with the clothes you need for the weather, great friends and glorious adventures – if you’re willing to see them as such. Start creating your Legacy! As always, I thoroughly love your emails and comments and I thank you for those.

Huge hugs.

Misty Magical Monday – Weekly Reading November 13th.

Jenny Heston · 3:41 pm ·

Happy, happy misty, exceptionally wet Monday! When I got up this morning I peeked out the window to see that the clouds had settled low over the mountain tops and it was dark and rainy. Ugh!! As much as I love where I live, I don’t like winter here, the clouds come down low and there are times when you look out the window and all you see is grey, there’s no lake – just grey, no mountains – just grey. It’s enough to drive you a little bonkers to say the least! Or want to hibernate for 5 months (which really isn’t an option). Thus, what I have learned for myself is that I have to have a few practices in place and play with the weather and the energy of the day. So I ensure that no matter what the weather I get outside, I take large amounts of D3, I set the intention every morning that something Awesome and Amazing is coming my way (Pam Grout, Thank and Grow Rich) and I do something to make me laugh each day. So with the grey, mist and rain this morning I pulled on warm clothes and headed out with the hounds and I found a lovely spot in the woods where the canopy kept off most of the rain and the mist filled the valleys and it was deliciously magical. One could imagine fairies riding large leaves down the creek and elves peeking out from behind moss covered cedar trunks. When I got home I gave myself permission to take the day off and just be. From that place of BEing, 6 loaves of fresh bread were created (warm fresh bread slathered in butter and dripping in honey – OMG), along with a batch of oatmeal raisin cookies. I played with my cards, read an inspirational text and laughed as the cat tormented the dogs, oh yes and had a wonderful Facetime tea date with my sister. Thus, all in all it’s been a good day so far – no matter the weather.

The deck that chose to come and work with us this week is the “Wild Kuan Yin Oracle” deck. I love the dedication of this deck “This deck is dedicated to the wild ones – those with a spirit that longs to be free and a heart that must love with great passion – who yearn to bring beautiful visions to life. May you always trust the divine wild child within you, for you are one of the new humanity awakening, ensuring that life upon this planet flourishes with love, kindness and radical optimism. May the guidance, blessings and enlightenment of Wild Kuan Yin touch your heart and heal the world.” I invite you to re-read that whilst you take a lovely deep breath in through your nose and out through your mouth. Breathe into your heart space, your wild, free heart. See a lovely golden light emanating from this space and as you breathe see the light expand further and further out from your heart until everywhere around you is filled with this delightful loving wild energy. Keep breathing long and slow. Then when you are ready and from this space pick the card or cards that are whispering to you from the mists. Trust yourself.

Shall we go see?

WILD RED RIDER, BLESSING BESTOWED

I descend with wild love and bring we me such grace that there shall be an inflow of harmony, serenity, goodness and order restored to your life. There is no limit to the way that I can land in your life, to the order that I can call forth from the wild chaos that my truth my first evoke. I see from higher perspective that which can be altered so that the patterns of your life can heal and you can step forward on your path, with clear purpose. I bring you the embodiment of my mantra, opening your heart, and granting your prayer immediate answer. Om Mani Padme Hum.

Let go completely and allow the Divine to take over. Harmony and order is promised, but it may involve you, and your life, being shaken up a little first. This oracle is the Divine Mother saying “Giddy up! I’ve got work to do with you! Let’s go!” She is not in her calm and tender form, but in a wild love, free and fearless form, urging you to go willingly with her on the wild ride she is going to take, right through the centre of your life! So best to surrender and hop into the saddle behind her as she prepares to descend and create some living, compassionate and wild mess in your life.

You are being asked to forget about nice plans and things that make sense and about routines and strategies. It is a time to take your hands off matters. It is time to let your priorities be adjusted and your viewpoints be turned inside out. You won’t be eating at the banquet of life off clean dish, or politely sitting at the table with fork and knife. You’ll be messily munching away, sitting on the ground, feasting on chunks of life the Divine Mother shoves into your mouth to satisfy your wild and hungry soul. It is not a time to look pretty and worry about appearances. It is a time to come out of your head, into your body and allow yourself to feel and experience it without recrimination, analysis, shame or judgement. This is your irresistible invitation to the divine party where there is aliveness to be experienced beyond that which makes sense to your mind, even your values and philosophies.

It takes a brave soul to be willing to run the risk of realising you have known very little up until this moment. But the gifts in return for this messy, risky journey are abundant and delicious. You won’t be the same person after an encounter with the Wild Red Rider, but you will be more of your true self – more alive, empowered and vibrant – than ever before!

SHE TAMES BY LAYING DOWN THE STAFF AND ROPE

My ways prevail. I subjugate the lower to the higher without any force. Through my ways, correct alignment to the higher divine order is established. My authority is supreme, yet I’ve no need to enforce it. Devotion to me is absolute, yet I bestow freedom. I show you now , the whispering way to tame great force. I initiate you into the way of strength without coercion, the way of attraction without demand. Follow me and learn the art of feminine power; that fear shall always succumb to love.

There is something that you want to attain. A situation exists that you would like to change. It may be something in your way of thinking or being, or a habit of body or mind. It may be a pattern within your emotional world, or an actual physical situation or obstacle you wish to changes. Perhaps you want it transformed completely, or perhaps you simply want some of the rough edges smoothed. No matter whether it is a small or large change that is desired, you have been attempting to bring it about through exertion of your will. Now there is a time and place for such approaches. Yet there is another way, a gentler and more peaceful way, that will evoke little resistance within you and help you attract what you want rather than to have to carve it out of your own blood, sweat and tears. This is the taming power, the magnetic lure of attraction that can tame even beyond the capacity of will.

You must be willing to become empty in order to be filled. You must be willing to accept the very thing you wish to be transformed. You must be willing to become flexible in order to stay true on the path. You must be willing to become childlike in order to be wise. It is in embracing what is that empowers you to transform it. You can, of course, choose the other way; to pursue, push and direct. However, you will find it an uphill battle all the way and it will only get you so far. This way hold more finesse, attains a greater result and will lead you further along your spiritual path as you learn that the opposites are only an appearance of reality, no reality itself. What you want is possible.

HOLY SISTERS

I am bringing you the gift of kindred spirits. These are helpful friends for your life journey. You have the power to help others and are worthy of being helped too. You are the keeper of the wisdom of the heart and you understand that there is no need for competition or comparison. There is more than enough for all to experience abundance of blessings. You know that when true spiritual success comes for one, the resources available for all only increase. Enjoy the sacred connections that I am sending your way. Nourish and be nourished, as you gather in my name.

You are one of kind. The way you share yourself with the world is particular to you. You have a path to walk this lifetime that is solely your own. You may meet others encountering similar issues at times, and yet your own path will never be exactly the same as anyone else’s. The type of frequency you hold is as individual as your fingerprints. Tht uniqueness cannot ever be taken from you, co-opted by another or compromised in any way. Whilst your energetic signature remains distinctly your own, it can create beautiful healing harmonies when allowed to synchronise with the energetic signatures of others. You could imagine it like individual scents intertwining with each other to make an enchanting perfume, or individual notes combing as emotive and uplifting music.

Don’t be scared to let go of relationships you have outgrown, that cannot serve love or restrict the flow of life because they are fundamentally critical or exploitative. Instead, let go and be willing to open up to new people who hold less fear in their hearts. The power of group endeavour, where there is an intention to generate love and be of service, cannot be underestimated. You are strong enough to maintain your individuality and uniqueness and still be part of a group.

Trust your heart when it comes to choosing your relationships – from how much time you give to family, to where you work and with whom, to your friendships, and even the community in which you live.

I love the cards, I really do. Look at the unfolding here – The Divine wanting to come play with you, becoming empty and trusting, finding your like minded tribe! Wishing you a fabulous week filled with warm bread, comfie thick socks and opportunities. Remember to be willing to connect with the magical and mysterious!

October is here and the colours are all changing! Weekly Reading October 2nd.

Jenny Heston · 3:01 pm ·

Happy October, Happy Monday and how the heck are you? As we play around in Fall one of the things I notice is that all the “activities” start up again. Kids dance, violin, Tae Kwon Do, your Yoga, Tai Chi, running group, your sweeties bowling, darts night or squash game and time becomes very busy. This is a glorious time to create a schedule for yourself that allows play time, nourishing time, connection time and relax time. It’s also a great time to do a cleanse and purge your body of any delicious toxins, or extra bag of chips that were eaten at the summer barbeque. I always do a gorgeous cleanse every Spring and every Fall, I recommend that you don’t do one in the heat of the summer or the cold of the winter as your body is in a different mode.

Do you remember a while ago we talked about the energy or theme of September? September was all about Adjustment, navigating all the debris of August and doing the wiggle and settle dance of adjusting to what we wanted, what we didn’t want and what we wanted to create. This month (October) we build on the Adjustment and the theme is Inner Stability and Balance, INNER being the operative word. As I mentioned above, Fall is a time when the activities ramp up, then there is Thanksgiving, Halloween, Remembrance Day and voila Xmas! So as the nights get longer and our bodies really want to hibernate a tad (eat soup, bread and watch a Netflix show), the activity is ramped up!!

If you’re willing I invite you to focus this month on your Inner Stability and Balance, our inner experience is what transforms our outer experience – in the words of Abraham Hicks – BE, DO, HAVE (The BE part being the inner experience). With all the delicious energy that has been bopping around for the last few months, it’s a time to integrate, to reflect, go inwards a little (no I’m not asking you to be a hermit, just make sure your inner self feels good, grounded and nurtured). How to do this when the season is ramping up? My advice take a walk in the woods! I did that yesterday after 2.5 days of 12 hour renovating (where I was so frigging bagged that I collapsed into bed). My inner was feeling undernourished and a little overwhelmed, which I could witness on the outer level – so for me it is “get thee to the woods”!

It was fascinating to see that a spot I had been 5 days ago had changed, the colours were really starting to pop and as I looked up the mountain side there were greens, oranges, yellows and gorgeous rusts. The creek had started to fill up a little after the hot, hot dry long summer we had. I could feel Nature wrap me up in a glorious multi coloured blanket and push love, nurturing and strength back into my soul, my mind, my body – everything. I gladly received the window of connection to my inner being through nature’s guidance and have to say it was wayyyyy better than a coffee or an energy drink (not that I use either), but it was like a glorious boost and a plugging in to Divine, my inner well being and stability. All of which had gotten a tad put to the side with “Let’s rip this wall down, build a wall here, hang gyprock, mud, tape, pour concrete, sink posts, build handrails etc. etc. etc. “

Anyhow, enough nattering, let’s crack on to the reading. Interesting to see The Divine Circus Oracle were the ones that insisted on coming to play. Also the new crystals I gifted myself the other day, Ruby Zoisite, Fire Agate and Cinabrite, which are so frigging appropriate for this time, danced out as well as glorious little mint flowers. Oh and following my own advice the reading was done on a glorious stump. Take a breathe, you always have time for that. Just breathe in through your nose and out through your mouth. Let your shoulders drop, your jaw relax, your scalp relax (yes, you can do that), and just take a moment for yourself. When you are ready, pick the card or cards that resonate for you.

Have you picked?

Then let’s go have a look shall we? What is the message or who wants to work with you this week, let’s go find out.

OUT OF THE DARKNESS

Something that has been troubling you, something dark within you or in your life, is about to become something else. You won’t see it coming, but when the time is right (and it soon will be), out of darkness will come new life.

A seed of new life is growing. Perhaps you cannot see it or feel it because the seed begins its journey to new life in the darkness, hidden, away from sight and away from light. This seed is destined to bring new life to a situation that might seem to be dying, a fresh perspective to a stale problem. When the time is right – and that is fast approaching – the seed will push through, rise up and reveal itself. It will no longer be just a seed, but a shoot that will grow into a plant and can then flower and bear fruit. It is not a question of whether or not it is going to happen. It is going to happen. It is just a matter of time.

Whatever struggle or challenge is in your life or your heart right now, trust that it is going to work out. Not only that, but the very thing that seems to be darkest in your life, the most troublesome, is actually going to be what brings forth beautiful gift of a new life. In a strange way, it is actually trying to help you. It is assisting you in being ready to receive and experience new life, for something new to be born in you and in your life. This might be the realisation of your own inner strength, your courage, the development of belief in yourself, confidence to trust your instincts or some other gift yet to be understood.

Soon you’ll see there was an opportunity and even a blessing hiding in the troubles of your past, just waiting for the right time to transform itself into light and life.

THE PROUD PIERETTE

If you were proud of who you are and everything you have learned in your life, free from shame, guilt or judgement, what would you choose for yourself today? The choices you make for yourself from a place of feeling good are going to be more loving and helpful than anything from a place of self-judgement. You’ve nothing to regret, you’ve learned a lot and you are a beautiful unique being on a wild divine journey. Be kind to yourself. Keep your head up! Then it will be easier to keep growing and glowing.

If you feel that life is getting you down, or you should have, or could have, made different decisions in life – you are doing a great job! You are meant to have learning experiences. What matters is that you choose to learn. And you do! In your own time and your own way, you make sense of things, and you grow wiser and stronger as a person.

If you feel any ridicule, judgement or shaming is coming from those around you – trust you are stronger and wilder and more beautiful and true than any of that mean-spirited fearfulness. Let the mud that is being slung slide right off or remain stuck in the hands of those throwing it your way. Keep your sense of inner dignity intact. Never make yourself smaller to placate the fear in another’s heart. Take pride in who you are. Be proud to be you! And know that this is a way to respect and honour the creative loving power of the universe that created you!

HER WICKED WAYS

You are meant to shine bright, to be a sun, even in the cold and dark depths of winter, bringing warmth to the world. Some don’t like the light. They want to freeze your enthusiasm, douse your creative fire and rain on your parade. Don’t let them! Shine your light with stubbornness and happiness. Defeat the Snow Queen and her wicked ways.

The Snow Queen depicted on this card has her wicked ways. She likes to test those that aren’t yet sure of their worth. She will try to freeze you with a glance that conveys criticism, judgement, ridicule. She’ll make you believe that you’ll be humiliated, that it’s inevitable you’ll fail and so it’s better that you just don’t try to begin with. She’ll plant seeds of doubt like a weed in your soul garden, and cause you to lose energy to mental anguish. You’ll find the way of your life more difficult than it needs to be if you don’t take heed of what is happening and use your power to stand up to her.

Whether she arises through a loved one who cannot support you, or a colleague who is envious of you and wants to see you fall, or the voice in your head that is afraid and is yet to really trust your heart to lead you. There is only one way to deal with her. You must stand up tall and true and reply “I am me! Save your soul-slaying, doubt-making for another day. If you stay anywhere near me, I’ll melt you with my creative fire and the warmth of my love. So be gone, it’s time for you to move on!!!!”

Wishing you an amazing week. Remember to take some time outside to just BE. Give your inner being some TLC and if in doubt smile and laugh! Huge hugs. Oh yes, and make a nice hot drink that nourishes you! If you want more information on the theme of the month I highly recommend Lena Stevens, I have been working with her for about 5 years now and she is pretty cool. There won’t be a reading next week as it is Thanksgiving here and I plan on celebrating. Have a great week and as always I love reading your comments and insights – thank you.

It’s a wild weather time! Weekly Reading July 17th.

Jenny Heston · 3:15 pm ·

Happy, happy delicious Monday! How are you gorgeous one? How was your week? Did you practice keeping cool, self care and playing? I hope so. It has been an interesting week here, forest fires seem to be everywhere and thousands of people are being evacuated so we are in a huge state of alert and depending on the winds we either have a smoke filled sky which makes everything hazy and the sun a deep orange, or we have clear blue and the sun baking down. My heart so goes out to all those who have been evacuated and have had to leave their homes behind. So I was thinking about this the other day as everyone I have encountered this last week has been itchy, bitchy, uncomfie and complaining about the heat (and it has been brutal) and the winds. However, I thought about our last winter and it was harsh as well, massive snow dumps to the point where you couldn’t drive, roofs were caving in and the clouds were so low they felt suffocating.

So it got me to thinking (as I tend to sometimes over do), the winter was harsh and dark, dark, dark and I watched people have an incredibly tough time with it – a lot of depression, hermiting, over eating and wanting to sleep for longer than needed, joy had seemed to have gotten buried under the piles and piles of snow. Yet we are feeling the counter side now, the heat, the intensity of what that can do, forest fires, devastation in some places and the need to get up early to find the cool spot, water, a flurry of activity early in the morning and then another in the cool-ish of the evening. What I came up with is the difference between dark and light. Finding the balance, embracing the sleep in the winter, the early mornings in the summer – the feeling the seasons and being aware of these things in ourselves. We can’t always be light, light, happy, and on show – if we did we would burn ourselves up. We need to step back, go into the dark and sleep, go into the dark and explore, yet don’t stay there. Does that make sense?

So with this wild weather I am not surprised that The Wild Kuan Yin Oracle wanted to come play! She takes the wild and connects it to the heart, so we can all play from our wild side with love and not the burning and destruction that can happen. It’s safe to let go fully and embrace yourself and the love that you have to pump! The crystals that bounced out to play are Bloodstone which is great for strength in new circumstances and mental clarity, Snowflake Obsidian which is a calming energy and helps with “wrong thinking”, Rhodonite, clears and activates the heart chakra. Oh yes and the lovely little flowers are from the watercress I am growing! (So proud as I have never grown watercress) and as a Brit, watercress, cream cheese and cucumber sarnies! Nom! Nom! Nom! Makes me feel that I am at an elegant tea party!

So with all that being said, let’s crack on with the reading. Honour yourself by giving yourself a moment or two (or longer) gently close your eyes down and just breathe, breathe in through your nose and out through your mouth, feel your feet on the floor or the earth, feel the whispers of air around you as you elongate your spine and neck. Just breathe, nothing else, just breathe and BE, breathe in – breathe out. When you feel in your body and connected to Earth and Divine, open your eyes and pick a card – or cards that call to you.

So let’s go have a look, shall we?

REMEMBER ME, THE DIVINE MOTHER WITHIN

From before you were born in this body, I have loved you and I shall continue to do so even after you cast aside your sacred body to pursue life beyond this physical world. I cherish you. I take delight in you. I believe in you. I will never leave you. I will never abandon you. I see the truth of you and I know you are worthy. No matter how strong and grown up you become, or how vulnerable and small you may feel, I love you, my own wild child divine. Trust in me, the Divine Mother within you. Life grows through me. You shall too, all the more so as you trust me unconditionally. Be comforted now my beloved one. I am with you always.

Sometimes we can feel alone, not quite sure where or to whom we may truly belong. Frightened and insecure, we imagine dark happenings or feel consumed with anxiety and doubt. Or perhaps we struggle to feel our feelings, and instead have symptoms of the feelings we cannot quite find another way to express. We cannot sleep, we cannot unwind and relax, we cannot quite feel safe or secure. So we worry about what others think of us or what they may say about us behind our back. Or we worry without knowing quite why we are feeling so uneasy. We find it hard to trust others or we find ourselves trusting others who are not worthy of that trust, and we end up feeling abandoned, hurt, disappointed or ashamed.

These are all signs that we are in need of re-connection to the Divine Mother within. If we have had a problematic relationship with mothering figures in our lives, then our relationship to the Divine Mother may also seem problematic. Yet the Divine Mother has no need to test us, to challenge us, forsake us for another, or judge us in anyway! Her need is to mother us. What that means is that she offers us enough sanctuary and unconditional love to feel safe enough to venture into life, to grow, to take risks and to truly do our best to live a full and authentic life. Life is an adventure rather than a terror to be confronted when inside us there is a secure feeling of being safe and loved, no matter what twists and turns the life journey shall take.

It’s time to lay down the old wounds or self-criticisms, judgments about yourself or those of others. You don’t have to earn love and affection, you just need to open your heart and allow yourself to give it freely. You are capable of growth. You have within you enough energy to hold whatever it is you are desiring. Have faith. Trust in the ability you have to mother yourself and your dreams into life. This is a big YES from the Divine Mother. Divine Mother has heard your request and is assenting. She says yes and any further clarity and assistance you need will come to you at the best tie and in the best way.

HER JOY RENDERS THE IMPOSSIBLE TASK POSSIBLE

There is something you are meant to do. You’ve been growing towards it your entire life. All your life circumstances, lessons and situations have been teaching you valuable skills and wisdom’s so that you are equipped for the tasks demanded by your divine destiny. You may know clearly what those tasks are, or they may as yet be a mystery to you. You may not be a big picture person, preferring to focus simply on accomplishing the many smaller tasks before you each day. However, all those smaller tasks have prepared you for a bigger journey of passion and purpose.

For you to take this next step, whether it feels like the leap that will launch your destiny into an entirely new level of manifestation, or whether it just feels like the next step on your journey, you are being guided. You must let go of doubt, fear, hesitation, judgement and control. Now that is no small task! You must allow Joy to be your safety net, your attitude, the feeling by which you are guided and the basis for your decisions. Bliss, happiness, joy – these are high frequency, high states of being which cannot be contrived and yet, are not dependent on our life circumstances. To learn to feel joy in our hearts, without having to have a particular reason for it, is the beginning of access to great spiritual power. Come into your heart and in that journey, we discover a kind of freedom of spirit, a place within where joy can happen; spontaneous and unbridled.

You are being called to that place. It is simple but profoundly high in frequency. The Divine can work very easily with a human being in that state because nothing is resisted. There is no coaxing or cajoling, analysis or procrastination, over-thinking or fearful acting out that drains energy and slows down the manifestation process. There is just presence, and life can happen with utter immediacy. There is nothing that is impossible. Approach your decisions from a place of joy. Remain open in your heart and mind, and the Divine Mother shall orchestrate this offering according to the perfection of her joyful grace. Trust, play and reach for Joy!

TENDER TRUST, BELOVED BODY

I have so much that I want for you. I want you to experience all that life has to offer. I want you to see your dreams coming alive in the world. I want you to feel at home here upon earth, and to realise you have come here not only to serve, but to take delight, to become alive, to exercise your power of choice to manifest a destiny that is brilliant and beautiful and perfectly suited to you. So I have given you a sacred animal, a devoted body that has offered its entire life in service to your soul growth. This is a precious gift and one worthy of respect. When you love this sacred animal, and let him/her love you in return, your body and soul become as one, a divine wild love child of life.

The Divine Mother is bringing you something special – it may be an experience, a relationship, a spiritual or material gift, an opportunity, or any combination of these things. If you have been wondering if something you have dreamed of can come to life, can be made manifest in the physical world Yes! Be present to recognise and receive the gifts and opportunities that are rightfully yours. Take time to be open and connected to your physical body and the physical reality you can experience through being connected to your body. Look around you. Feel what is happening within you and around you too.

You are at a point on your journey where something in the spiritual realms wants to come to life in the physical world. There is an inspiration, idea or plan that is ready to take form, to take shape, to become more than a fantasy and become a living reality. Your body is like a holy instrument through which the sacred breath can flow and create sound. It is the vehicle through which the inspiration can become a manifest reality.

If you have struggled with body image, eating or health concerns, a resolution will come. You need to heal the relationship between you and your body so your dreams can manifest more often and with greater pleasure on your part. Why not give up trying to punish, push or force your body, or control and dominate her with your mind. Explore and find a way to relate to your body as a friend. Your body loves you.

Mmmmm, that was a delicious reading. Trusting the Divine Mother without and within, tapping into Joy and embodying it! Hell to the yes! So gorgeous one, wishing you a beautiful week, remember it is New Moon coming up and a gorgeous time to plant your seeds of intention or just give the seeds you planted before a big dose of attention and watering. Take some moments this week to just slow down, look up and around, breathe and smile. You’ve got this and life is absolutely delicious! See you next Monday!

Love

jennyheston

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