Guidance

Recapitulation, Release, New Moon and Watch Your Language!

Happy Merry, Marvellous, Magickal, Mysterious, Majestic, Manifesting Monday!

Holy Hannah, it feels like a hot minute since we last communicated and it has been and here we are in September! And lo and behold the energy of September is Recapitulation – Release! Then toss on the energy of this New Moon which is change!

I will give you a heads up, this is a rather long post – so if that doesn’t interest you – skip to the cards.

So as you all know, I took the month of August to step back, work on some amazing creative projects, design two new courses, spend time with my British family who were bringing my sister’s ashes over so we could scatter them together and I kept saying out loud “And feel all the feels!”

Little did I realise what that would mean and how much I would make the Goddess laugh by telling her my carefully manicured plans.

Nor, how she would show me exactly the depths she wanted me to excavate and release, as she created the perfect storm that I couldn’t run from! Gulp!

The last weekend of July is what I call my Fi (sister) weekend, as on the 28th was her birthday and on the 31st was when she took her last breath. So it’s a lovely, but vulnerable place to dance in, to feel, to remember, to laugh and to cry.

During that weekend two incredibly unpleasant things happened, one with the two remaining family of origin members and one with a close friend. Okay, I can suck those up (as I have big shoulders), but unbeknownst to me it started creating the perfect storm in my body and my mind.

August 1st I sat down with all my coloured pens and pencils and mapped out my whole month. The courses, the creations, the book outline, the writing, the family time and the ceremony – you name it, as I like to be organised and have a plan (little did I know the Goddess was laughing her fucking soxs off whilst she watched!)

The next day with my glorious mapped out calendar next to me, I woke up in a full state of panic! No rhyme, no reason, but pure panic. I don’t mean panic attack, as an attack subsides, I mean a pure state of unadulterated panic that wouldn’t let up, wouldn’t calm down and my heart rate was about 160 bpm, and in the process threw my heart out of rhythm. In other words it threw my heart into Atrial fibrillation (which I didn’t know at the time).

This went on for 9 days and brought me to my knees, literally and figuratively.

I became like a T Rex – don’t look at me, don’t touch me, don’t talk to me and everything was too loud, too bright and too sharp.

I was running from the panic and watching my life become smaller and smaller as all the things I loved to do – being out in nature, walking the doggos, sitting and writing were impossible. I thought I was losing my frigging mind, but boy oh boy, I was feeling all the feels!

As someone who has worked in the therapy field and spiritual field for years, I had an incredible tool box and I was using every single tool I could think of. Vagus nerve work, tapping, supplements, prayer, meditation, you name it I tried it. Nothing. Nadda.

I felt so incredibly vulnerable, confused, scared and all the fucking feels!

It was only when I stopped and turned around and faced the panic and invited in the wisdom and the lessons, which meant peeling the onion back down to the core and looking at my family of origin. Then writing for 5 hours straight and pouring it all out, crying non stop with snot bubbles everywhere and seeing the old, old, old trauma that had been activated that things started to calm somewhat and by the next day my heart had gone back into rhythm.

But yet there were more ECG’s, blood work (none of which I am a fan of) and doctors telling me “how do you know it’s gone back into rhythm?” Mmmm, because I am in this fucking body!

I am a firm believer in “our issues are in our tissues”, and we hold things we don’t remember or have chosen to suppress until the body says – no, we need to release this piece. And then there’s no choice.

I’m also a firm believer that we hold old, old traumas deep inside and when the perfect storm is created they come out with a vengeance as they need to be acknowledged, seen, listened to and loved.

You may disagree with this, and that’s okay.

Why am I sharing this with you?

I believe we all experience things that bring us to our knees and facing them, talking about them is important. Realising we aren’t alone is vital in this world. Asking for help is important and sharing is important, it builds relationships, connections and community with depth, vulnerability and strength.

So many lessons have come out of August, with this experience, the ceremony for my sister’s ashes, having all my plans side railed. But you know what – they are all deep, rich, glorious lessons that have me in change mode! Changing my work, how I work, my life, relationships and disconnecting from my family of origin.

Plus with the energy of September being Recapitulation – Release, it’s the perfect time!

So let’s Lena share what that phrase actually means, shall we?

“Recapitulation is a recapture, remembrance, and retelling of experiences, choices, actions and relationships from the past in order to digest, neutralise and file them away without any residual emotional charge. The release is the act of letting go of any attachment to the emotional content of the past event or memory.

This includes nostalgic reminiscences of “good times” as well as reminders of traumatic or uncomfortable experiences we would rather forget. What is being recapitulated usually holds some degree of judgement or comparison, with the attachment to how we have defined it holding the memory hostage until it is released with a good deep sigh into neutral territory.

Why is this coming up now? We are in major preparation (and have been for a while) for a time marked by a crisis that could initiate a turning point where choices and decisions have a long lasting and powerful influence over our spiritual and emotional evolution. Part of this preparation is to go inward to reflect on where we have been and where we wish to go. This process is being supported by material from the past flowing through our conscious and unconscious fields much like snippets from a film, a frame here and a frame there. In order to move forward we need to deal with the past.”

We have the Virgo New Moon arriving on September 14th (Thursday) and we also have 6 planets in retrograde. So if you have been feeling a tad stuck in the mud or that certain situations are at a standstill, don’t fret!

This New Moon prepares us for Change!

This Virgo New Moon is the last before the Equinox and before Eclipse Season begins, which means it sets the foundation for the changes that are destined to come. While we will still very much feel the stagnation from all the retrograde activity, this New Moon acts as a turning point, lighting a path to help release us from the old.

Virgo is a grounded earth sign that is represented by the Virgin Goddess, which is a symbol of wholeness, inner divinity, and sovereignty.

The Virgin Goddess that rules Virgo is not attached to anyone, in charge of her own life, and fully connected to the divine power that lives within her.

We can use the energies of the Virgin Goddess to guide us through this New Moon time, and to remind ourselves that everything we need is within. No matter what happens, the Virgin Goddess knows she will be ok. She knows that she will find the strength, wisdom, and knowledge to move through whatever comes her way.

So with all that being said, let’s carry on with the reading shall we?

Take a glorious deep breath out, let all the stale old air just leave your body and at the end of your exhale hold for the count of 3. Now take a deep breath in and as you fill yourself with this glorious prana energy, invite in the energy of change and release. Let it swirl through your cells and into your heart space.

Then when you are ready, pick the card or cards that tug or entice you.

Did you remember to pick?

Come have a look.

ACCOUNTABILITY

When we take responsibility for our choices, we gain integrity and the right relationship with ourselves. Optimally, our decisions are conscious ones made with consideration for the likely consequences for all involved. However, this is not always the case.

In life, we learn as we go. As we become aware of a more beneficial way to handle ourselves, others and life, we do so accordingly. We maximise our chances of this when we remain open to addressing any damage or ill feelings that arise toward ourselves and others.

The refusal to acknowledge our flaws and imperfections that show up in moments of poor discernment and behaviour thwarts our growth and inner harmony.

Life gets easier and infinitely more beautiful and warm, the second we accept that we – like everyone else – are humanly imperfect and that this is perfectly acceptable.

The things we wish we had not done or had approached differently are gifts.

They are necessary for learning how to do things differently going forward. They are also what make us increasingly compassionate and understanding of others and their actions. We are not our mistake but what we do with them. All of our past choices can be used to help us grow into the truth of ourselves.

They help us identify what is aligned with our Spirit Self in the less obvious places.

Accountability is an act of self-love, compassion, and acceptance that benefits all. However, the most important person to be accountable to is yourself. It can be helpful to develop the habit of checking in with yourself each day by asking: What am I doing and why? Is this aligned with my values and Spirit Self? If so, proceed. If not, ask yourself: Is there another way, a way that feels good and true for me to continue, or does this behaviour, thinking, situation, or person need to go? Do I need the perspective of someone who knows better and is more experienced in this area?

When you are accountable, you stand empowered, confident, and with integrity.

BROKEN DREAMS

We break our dreams when we cease to believe in them and ourselves.

Our attitude toward disappointment, perceived failures, and rejection has the power to derail our confidence. When a prolonged state of defeat and doubt ensues, we not only give up on our dreams and ourselves but also on what makes us feel alive.

It can be hard, but we need to trust that the way to realise our dreams is by persisting and working with the disappointments as well as any perceived failures or rejections. Perceived setbacks are often opportunities to learn to think differently, to develop further, and to explore new ways of realising our vision.

When we interpret, and therefore turn, challenges into actual setbacks, it can feel like the world has rejected us. In response to this feeling, we give up too soon.

The world does not reject us. It cannot. Of course, it may feel like it does, but what is more likely to have transpired is that certain individuals, organisations, and opportunities have said no to us for one thing at one point in time.

The world is full of many more individuals, organisations and opportunities if we continue to say yes to ourselves.

To abandon your dreams is to abandon yourself. There is no need for this. Explore ways of doing what you love differently. Being flexible with the way that you go about realising your vision will save you from much unnecessary heartache, regret, lost time, and despair.

Do what makes you feel alive in your life.

Never lose sight of what lights you up and makes your Spirit Self sing. No matter what.

CIRCLES

Our thoughts, emotions, behaviours and relationship patterns are potentially detrimentally circular when they remain unconscious.

Without acknowledging that we do not know what we are doing or how to get different results, it seems as though the same disappointments, ruts, and detours keep happening to us. This is because we do not realise our subconscious part in these unwanted reoccurrences. Nor that we have the power to exit the unmerry-go-round.

If we do nothing different, nothing different happens. We will only continue to re-enact our default setting automatically. A life lived in circles inevitably limits what is possible for us.

It can also be particularly harmful when toxic relationships, addiction, or financial dependence is involved. Awareness of how we perpetuate more of the same is necessary before we can consciously create an upward and outward spiral of life for ourselves.

Circles that spiral downward are the effects of unconscious repetition and confusion. In this sense, we are the ones who prohibit us from venturing forth upon new ground. To acknowledge that we do not know what to do about something, we begin to see with increasing clarity, logic, desires and emotions what is confusing and therefore prohibiting us.

Once we can see things for what they are, we can recognise what we can do about them.

There is always more than one way out of any circle. You are ready to be free and go forth.

Focus your attention on who you are without the loops, fears, distractions, and preoccupations.

In other words, focus on who you would be and what you would do without the problems, drama, impossible lifestyle, or comfort zone you may be circling.

You are your white horse, ever equipped to venture forward.

Wowzer! Those are some deliciously potent messages for this month and this New Moon.

Sending you big hugs and squeezes and yes, there will be an Equinox guide coming out later this week. Be kind to yourself, be true to yourself, be honest with yourself.

Possibilities and the Buck Moon.

Jenny Heston · 4:44 pm ·

Happy Mysterious, Marvellous, Musing, Magickal, Mellifluous, Manifesting Monday!

How was your Solstice? Did you take some time to soak up the sun’s energy and light your inner flame? The things that make you feel filled with passion, hope and joy? I hope so!

I took the day off work and the whole day was splendidly delicious. A couple of the ways I celebrated was to go for a walk in the woods and watch the sunbeams dance amidst the myriad of green branches and light up the moss.

Then, down to the ocean, the same spot where my sister and I visited 5 years ago and celebrated Solstice.

The same spot where the Solstice intention I set then came to pass exceptionally quickly, and changed my life in a way I couldn’t imagine.

There I offered up the beautiful Sun Wheel that I had woven of ivy, St. John’s wort, ocean spray and feverfew – all filled with my releases and my intentions. It was incredibly powerful to cast it on the ocean and watch it gently float further and further from shore, as it slowly unravelled.

Yesterday, we had a glorious Solstice gathering within Creatrix Circle, and I will say I love the women that are in this circle. They blow my hair back with their openness, their vulnerability and their depth.

And for all those who have emailed and messaged saying that they missed the open spots for the Solstice Reading Special and will be another one – the answer is possibly at the Equinox, we shall see.

So let’s talk about Possibilities shall we?

I bring up Possibility as with the Solstice just passed, this is the time to really look inwards and outwards and see what you can create, manifest, call into being or try.

I was listening to something the other day and a Chinese Medical Practitioner shared that when someone dies of old age what is really happening is their heart stops believing in Possibilities.

So when someone dies of old age, their heart no longer sees possibilities for that lifetime and their spirit departs.

Sit with that for a minute. Mull the word Possibilities around in your mind for a moment.

On a deep and tangible level Possibility opens our heart to the experience of life.

Possibility is the very thing that makes life worth living. That gives our Spirit something to live for on this planet.

The opposite of Possibility is when we feel stagnant, stuck, trapped or confused. Which we all experience at some point or another and is one of the most blaugh feelings in the world.

However, what is happening here is your Spirit is asking you to perceive Possibility again.

Possibility is asking this question – “What opportunities are here for me?”

Possibility is looking at a dead end and seeing that the path continues. You may not know where it’s going, but it’s there waiting for you to see it and take a step onto it.

Possibility opens our heart to the truth of life’s wonder and connects us back to where we are meant to be, which is allowing the Divine to dance with us.

Possibility opens the portal of our perception.

…….and most often times our perception is rather limited.

When we are in the mindset of Possibility we are able to see new ideas, innovations, ways of being that we couldn’t see before.

So ask yourself this question – “In my dream of dreams what would be possible for me?”

The minute we step out of our daily routine and rut we are opening ourselves up to greater Possibilities.

So are you willing this week to play with Possibilities?

Possibilities and the Solstice energy tie in deliciously with the Buck Moon energy which is coming in on July 3rd.

The spiritual meaning of the Buck Moon is a powerful time for abundance, strength, passion and possibilities.

This moon is a lovely time to reflect on your life and decide what steps you’d like to take next. What vistas are you willing to perceive in your life? What are you open to?

Make time for fun and joy!

Turn off technology and be present in the joyous season of summer.

Find activities that fill up your soul with happiness and pleasure as this is when possibilities come flooding in.

So with all of that chuntering on, let’s crack on with the reading. When I went to the guides and cards and asked who wanted to show and shine – the deck that came out loud and proud this week is Love Your Inner Goddess Oracle. Perfect! As we could all do with loving ourselves a wee bit more and being a tad more gentle and kind whilst we open up to all the delicious possibilities that are available to us.

Now if these guides are new to you, please let me introduce them – “These guides have come to help you awaken and express your divine feminine spirit, to live from your heart, to empower your true self – and to discover your sacred rebel within, to say no to the voices of fear and hate and become a voice for love, truth and spirit on the earth.

Living as a soul, with truth, takes real courage in this world. We are often taught to follow the rules and be a good boy or girl – and that if we do this, everything will be OK. Your inner goddess thinks that is a bunch of nonsense. She wants so much more for you. She wants you to live a beautiful divine destiny. She will show you how to be a loving rebel, breaking the rules that go against your heart and soul, changing the game and playing from the heart. She’ll show you how to live the life that is meant only for you. You are meant to stir up healing change and be a voice for what is wise, loving and true.

There are issues in our own lives and the world that need to change, that need to be healed. Your inner goddess knows how to bring about healing change with love, playfulness, courage and dignity. She is a fearless minx who will help you dance, love, storm and laugh your way into a more beautiful world, created from the heart. “

Seriously, the perfect guides for this time. Woosah!

So gorgeous one, breathe. Just breathe, BE and allow yourself to relax, your mind to calm, your breath to slow and ask your wise inner self – what do I need to know this week. Then when you are ready, pick the card or cards that tug at your heartstrings – don’t let your mind pick!

If you need help with getting into the flow, there’s a lovely guided visualisation for you.

Did you remember to pick?

Let’s go have a look shall we?

BRIGHT DESTINY

To become truly yourself, shining your divine beauty and light, you will go through a process of releasing what is no longer right and true for you.

Like the caterpillar who sheds the chrysalis when it is time to emerge as the butterfly, you will let go of the person you once thought you needed to be.

This can feel freeing, exciting. It can also seem frightening.

You may feel crazy sometimes, trying to hold onto a past that is no longer available to you and grasping for a future that is yet to be.

Sometimes, it can feel like a dark night of the soul, filled with questioning and confusion.

Others may not understand what is happening, and you may feel as though you can’t really explain it, either. In such times, we have to trust that all the changes and uncertainty are part of a process of growth – letting go in order to open up to something amazing and new.

This is happening for you now. You don’t have to be afraid. You are going through this because you are ready for it, even if you think you’re not.

There is a loving reason for all of it, even if you cannot see that right now.

Put your faith in the mystery. Trust that the answers will come – and so will the joy of all that you have grown into. Stay true to your path and know that you have a bright destiny ahead.

For now, let the process happen. Fear can make us try to force something that isn’t quite ready yet. Don’t try to impose a meaning, take action or understand it all prematurely. Don’t think too hard!

It’s OK to relax and trust that the moment of clarity will come when the time is right.

PRIORITY OF PURPOSE

Making a choice can be hard, as if to say yes to one thing, you have to say no to fifteen other things! Remember that saying no is just saying, “not right now”, rather than “never”.

There is a higher plan for your life that includes all of your passions. You can do it all, but just not all at once.

Your soul knows how to build your most inspired and beautiful divine life, as though it were building an extraordinary temple for your spirit.

It knows that the foundations need to be prepared and the walls built before the windows, doors and skylight can be installed. The roof may be absolutely one-of-a-kind incredible, but if you try to lay the roof before you’ve built the walls, you are going to have some problems!

There is a certain order to how things need to happen, which the soul intuitively knows.

That is why listening to the soul and trusting your inner guiding voice makes more sense than trying to accomplish everything straight away and ending up with so much less than you deserve for all that effort.

Every moment of patience and sacrifice that you make now is stored up by the Universe as a sweet grace that you will receive back later, as everything falls into place so perfectly.

Tune in and trust your soul to show you how to gain everything you ever dreamed of, one simple step at a time.

EARTH GODDESS

You have beautiful dreams and wonderful visions of what life could be. It is not enough to imagine them. You want to live them! This is exactly how you are meant to feel.

For that to happen, you must practise feeling grounded, taking practical earthly steps, one at a time, to bring your dreams to life. The Universe will send so much help your way, but you are the one who must take the steps. Spirit cannot do that for you.

Even if you are not sure how your biggest, boldest dreams can come together, you can still ask yourself, “What is it that I can do now?”

Sometimes, it will be an obvious action that you can take, and, sometimes you will need to pray and meditate and ask for the way forward to be shown.

When you can do something, do it. When you cannot, rest and wait for your intuition to nudge you when the time is right to take action.

Remember, you are an Earth Goddess. You have the power to manifest your visions, to bring your beautiful ideas to life in the world. This is what you are here to do. Remember to love yourself enough to recognise your creative power and use it joyfully each day.

There’s a fantasy that wants to become reality for you. Don’t let a few gritty moments or human imperfections prevent you from experiencing the joy of heaven on Earth.

Oh my gosh, I so love my guides and the cards. Perfect for this time! So my most glorious one, I wish for you a stupendous week filled with Possibilities and the energy of the Buck Moon. There will not be a reading next week as it is Canada Day here and I am going to dance with adventure and possibilities. Huge hugs!

Solstice is here in 9 days! A glorious Solstice Guide (for Summer/Winter), and a Solstice Reading Special just for you!

Jenny Heston · 5:55 pm ·

Happy Miraculous, Magnificent, Moody, Melancholic, Magickal, Majestic, Moodling, Manifesting Monday!

First off, thank you to all who sent messages and emails about jury selection, I really appreciated them all!

So before we explore everything for this week, I would like to share how I got handed a glorious reminder – words have power, huge fucking power! (I should know this, duh.)

I received the jury selection notice about a month or so ago and from that moment on I kept saying “Nope, nope, nope, I can’t sit for a whole darn day” (as that’s not how I work) etc.

So my back went out a week ago on Thursday and the pain level was 9/10 and lo and behold I couldn’t sit. In fact I couldn’t sit, lie down with any comfort or fairly much do the things that I normally do.

Finally, my wise self kicked in and whomped me alongside the head with a 2×4 and reminded me Abracadabra – I will create as I speak. So I had a glorious talk with my back about what I had been saying and about 20 minutes later I received a call from the Sheriff’s office.

Jury selection had been cancelled!

By the next day my back was down to a 3/10 pain.

So remember, the words we use over and over again with feeling and intent (whether conscious or not), create magick.

What kind of magick do you want to create?

With that in mind let’s talk Solstice!

Yup, June 21st Summer Solstice is here!

You may be thinking to yourself – um, err, what the heck Jenn, what’s the big deal, what does it matter. Ahhh grasshopper it does matter, it matters very much. It’s one of the biggest celebrations on the Wheel of the Year, and has been celebrated since neolithic times.

It’s a time of power, abundance and magick, as Summer Solstice is one of the 3 days of the year when the veil is thin and the Fae come out to play! I mean for goodness sakes even William Shakespeare wrote about it in 1596 in his play Midsummer Nights Dream (so that’s how long the magick has been around.) Muhahaha.

Summer Solstice is the celebration of the sun, which is masculine and is the energy of Passion, Action and igniting your inner fire. This is why your Summer Solstice guide is referred to as SASS! Stupendously Awesome Summer Solstice!

This glorious guidebook is 45 pages filled with empowering soul work, rituals to connect you to your own fire, lore, herb magick, crystal magick, body magick, a guided visualisation, spells and so much more – all to help you connect with your own inner flame & use this seasonal energy to ignite.

(And for those of you in the South I have a glorious guide for you, which I fondly refer to as BOWS as you experience the Winter Solstice,!)

The Sun is entering the height of its power this month … and so are you.

With the Sun reaching the peak of its cycle, your own corresponding inner flame also has the potential to reach its peak.

Your inner flame – your own internal sun – is the source of your own fire, your power, your ability to create & take action in the outer world. All these things are being affected by the outer Sun; and all they have the potential to reach new heights this month.

With our side of the Earth (Northern Hemisphere) being flooded with the intense fiery energy of the sun, this fire gives you extra energy, extra power, expanded confidence.

Your work right now is to soak up as much of that fire energy as you can. It has the power to uplift you & empower you. It will help fuel you –in all areas of your life.

The Summer Solstice sun will help ignite your internal fire, and inspire you to grow & mature in whatever ways you are meant to in your life.

So grab SASS and let’s go light some things up!

Many of you have emailed and asked if I am going to do a Summer Solstice reading special. So the spiritual posse and I had a natter, felt into it and yes!

Yes, there will be a special on three readings just for Summer Solstice that will help you ignite your inner fire, passion and also release the things that no longer serve you so you can move forward with purpose.

I will say, I love these 3 reading specials (especially the soul and personality one!)

We are going to limit the amount of readings to 21 (the same number as the Solstice this year), so it will be a first come first serve basis.

Okay I’ve chuntered on long enough. Let’s crack on with the reading shall we?

When I went to the cards and checked in with my delightful guides I was tickled to see who they had picked. Of course it had to be the Fae, perfect guides for the build up of Summer Solstice energy!

Solstice is one of the three times in the year when the veil is thin between the realms and the Fae come to play.

So if these guides are new to you, please let me introduce you to them.

These guides are the magickal and mystical that weave through the threads of every day, they are the Dragonfae, Gods and Goddesses who dwelt in dimensional lands….Eden, Avalon, Ys, Atlantis and Mu, they are Morgan, Guenevere, Merlin and others – fully alive and filled with magick!

They are the deliciously magickal beings that have always been there, we just forgot, and when we connect with them, we reconnect with the lost parts of ourselves, allowing us to fully explore the gift of life on this beautiful green and blue planet, known by some as Gaia, by others as Dana, and by many other names.

Yummly delicious!

Okay dear one, just take a breath. I invite you to see in your mind’s eye your own inner flame. That place of passion, excitement, power. Watch the colours dance and play as you notice it. Place your hand on your belly and breathe into that spot, long, slow and deep. Allow yourself to see in the flames what you want to ignite with passion. Then when you are ready pick the card or cards that call to you.

Did you remember to pick?

Ready to go have a look?

MELUSINE

Love who you are

Keys are rare in the realm of spirit; but I now provide you with a key that will open the door to who you truly are. Your true feelings about self-worth and self-love have been hidden, locked away for years, but now they will be revealed, and healed, for all time.

For there is a part of you that you feel is not suitable to be shown to others, particularly in romantic relationships. You feel that this part of you is unacceptable and lacking in beauty. However, this part of you, in being denied, is causing pain and guilt to surface within relationships where there need be none.

You deserve to be loved for all of you, for the parts that are claws and thorns, for your lines and your grief, for your irritability and your sadnesses. Come forward and be revealed, and never again mistrust or reject a portion of who you are.

Embrace your scars and flaws, and see them as wonderful differences that only make you unique, and very real. Open your heart, unlock the door and step out of the enchanted chamber in which you have hidden this aspect of who you are.

Love all of you, your body and soul, your mind and spirit, your ancestry and your trials and challenges. You are perfect, whole and complete, with the unique stamp of this individual body and soul upon you.

Take this key, and unlock the secret parts of you. Let them see the light, and know that you are safer for doing so than you have ever been before, in any of your numerous lifetimes.

HIDEKI’S DOOR

A knock on the door

I know you wish to reach out, and yet you hold back. I know you feel drawn to knock on this door and to see whether it will be answered this time…and yet you fear so much. You fear that it will not be answered…that the answer or the face that appears beyond the door will not be to your liking…that if you enter, you may never return…

I cannot put your fears to rest, for only you can do that. But I can tell you what I see. I see a spirit whose flame has flickered low, whose light is in danger of going out if it does not take the next step. For years you have passed this door and many times you have found yourself here. You may even have knocked at the door, only to flee, like a terrified child, before the door was opened to you.

I say to you now: it is time. Reach out. Knock at the door. And let what will be, be.

Nervous about a new chance…feeling as though your comfort zone is far better than the unknown; longing to travel and to change, yet unwilling to do anything about it; procrastinations and old habits keeping you from reaching out and accepting what is being offered.

You are ready…it is simply nerves that are holding you back, conditioned fears and internalised voices from the past. Reach out…take a hold of the handle and be ready for the wonder of the unknown that lies beyond the door. The doors of perception are about to change…forever.

You have nothing to fear, except fear freezing your hand, again. Knock on the door. All is well.

WU-WANG

Wild, pure heart

In times of olde, they said that only those who were pure could connect with those like myself. That the virgin could connect with the Unicorn. That the child could see the meaning of God. That the fae would truly see into your heart, and finding it corrupt, would never appear to you.

I am here to tell you that your heart is pure and wild and innocent. It is that you have forgotten how to see us, that you have been told that in order to see us, you must be perfect. That in order to see us, you must be mad, unclean, broken, and if you say you have seen us, you face being shunned.

I am here to say to you that we appear to those who have looked into their hearts and have seen beyond the woundings….because within you there is a wild and untrammelled heart space which is free of any taint. In that space we can enter and therefore, we can and we will be seen again. You were not born into this world wrong or sinful. There may be karmic markings, but you are no sinner, nor are you corrupt or unworthy.

Foster that which is wild and pure and good with you, and we will begin to appear and come forth. You will feel us on the wind, in the water, see us in the fire and hear our voices emanating from the heart of our mother, the Earth.

You are a child of the Mother, call her what you will, and at your core you are one of the wild ones. That is my message for you.

Yes!!!! Oh my Goddess, what glorious guides as we move towards Summer Solstice. Loving Yourself, Opening New Doors and celebrating your Wild Pure Heart! Whoot! Positively Perfect. So dear one, remember to pick up your SASS or BOWS guide, snag one of the few spots for the Solstice reading special, and I will see you next week. Happy June!

Get Outside, Get Grounded and say Hello to the Taurus New Moon.

Jenny Heston · 4:44 pm ·

Happy Magickal, Musing, Merry, Manifesting, Magnetic May Monday!

How are you most delicious lovely? How are you juggling the delightful energies of May?

So many of you, and various friends, have shared that it feels very much like you are in a blender and being spun and scrambled. I loved my friend Lisa’s description – “It feels like someone has taken a chopstick to my brain and stirred it all up.”

I totally get it, what with being in the midst of an intense Eclipse Portal, with a side of Mercury retro – no shit! But the bonus news is Mercury went direct yesterday! Whoot!

But to top off the delicious energies, the weather is doing wonky things and the heat has cranked up here.

It’s Hawt, Hawt, Hawt.

We have an unprecedented heat wave in effect which is meant to break records all over the place – blaugh!

Now, I don’t know about you but the heat makes me wilt, and rather crotchety and all in all, I’m not a supreme fan – Spring and Fall are my favourite seasons.

Yes, I do like a warmish summer day, and a cute sundress (with pockets), but not when it is so hot that it’s impossible to hang out in the sun. Grumble, grumble.

However, my garden loves it and things are popping up like mad, veggies, wildflowers, herbs, it makes me super happy.

I had plans with the boys on Mother’s Day to go play mini golf in the afternoon, but when I saw the temperature it was a quick change of plans.

They very kindly agreed to get up at 6am so we could go beachcombing, driftwood gathering (for faery homes) and shell finding.

It was divine.

Grounding, calm, fun and relaxed and oh so quiet as most humans were still in bed (thanks guys for getting up so early).

I love exploring all the various landscapes that surround where I live. The various beaches that are all different, the forests, the garry oak ecosystems, the meadows, the mountains. You name it!

I find it soul soothing and oh so wonderfully rejuvenating and nourishing.

With an Aries Moon in my chart my favourite self care and nourishment is to be outdoors in Nature and have a fabulous picnic somewhere after a glorious exploration.

I’m not a “Hang out in a bubble bath and read a book” kinda gal.

This week, on Friday the 19th we welcome the New Moon in Taurus and with that comes delicious grounding energy.

Take a moment and think about the image of Taurus.

It’s a great big bull/ox with a huge solid body mass and all four feet connected to the earth.

Grounding at its finest, or maybe I should say – most solid!

“Take a deep breath. Inhale through your nose and exhale out of your mouth, letting out a sigh. Almost like a sigh of relief. Feel the weight releasing from your chest and shoulders. Perhaps unclench your jaw or stretch your arms out. Settle into your being and soak in the wisdom the Taurus New Moon brings…

The Taurus New Moon on May 19, 2023, holds a grounding vibration, allowing us to rebalance our being and reconnect to a state of ease. We have been through much since the last lunar cycle and now we are given a moment to pause.

While this pause will give us a chance to centre ourselves, there is also some high-powered energy flowing through at the time of this New Moon, activating our Solar Plexus Chakra and inviting us to reconnect with our power.”

Taurus is a sign associated with stability and security, and that is exactly what is on offer under this New Moon. How can you create more security in your life? What steps can you take to feel more stable and secure in yourself?

Issues that crop up around the time of this New Moon may very well be linked to subconscious feelings of insecurity or a lack of self-worth. Pay attention to anything uncomfortable that arises at this time, and see if your insecurities may be playing a role.

So to give you some food for thought I have some lovely journal prompts for you and a wee bit of Taurus Magic to soothe your body.

Okay, enough chuntering, let’s crack on with the reading shall we?

When I asked the cards who wanted to come and share, these glorious guides were front and centre!

So in case you have never met them, let me introduce you – and if you have met them before, let me reintroduce you (as not to do so is rude!). “You have a sacred destiny; we all do. There is a powerful and profound reason that you are here on the planet. However, sometimes it may be difficult to understand what that reason is and perceive what is required on your journey into the future. It may be a challenge to know what the next step in life should be. This is the time to call upon the energy of nature and majesty of the natural world to provide answers to the heartfelt yearnings of your soul. In ancient traditions, shamans, medicine women, witches, visionaries, and prophets all accessed hallowed knowledge by observing their natural environment. These wise beings stepped through mystic gateways into inner realms to bring back meaning to the seemingly random event of life. “

Perfect!

I invite you to just pause, to be still, to allow the swirling energies or your mind chatter to gently slow down as your breath leads the way. Then invite into your mind’s eye, the image of the bull. Solid, grounded, earthed, connected. Then ask your wise inner self – what do you need to know to feel that kind of connection?

Then when you are ready, pick the card or cards that call to you.

Did you remember to pick?

Let’s go look, shall we?

STILLNESS

Frozen Tundra

The tundra is a stark and severe landscape found in both the southern and northern hemispheres. It is usually bereft of most plant and animal life, and can only support very low-growing plants such as mosses and lichen.

The soil is frozen year-round, so it is impossible for trees to grow in that barren landscape. In the winter, the landscape is very cold and dark, and wild winds surge across the desolation.

Even in the summer, the land remains frozen, although the surface can be soggy and covered with lakes, marshes, ponds, and bogs that become havens for millions of migrating

So what is the message in this landscape?

Take a step back from a project, situation, or relationship, even if for just a few moments.

Mend bridges. Slow down. Breathe. Be Still. Go within. Listen to your inner voice.

Take time to connect with your spirit guides, ancestors, and spiritual guardians. Listen to your higher self.

Timing is everything.

This is not a good time to start a new cycle. Wait. Incubate. Fix things that need fixing. Heal things that need healing, and think things through.

Most importantly Forgive yourself and others (forgiveness truly given is a powerful tool).

If things seem barren, or even bleak, or the energy is flat, hold on.

Just as the migrating birds find new life in the tundra marshes in the summer, you too will expand once again during the coming thaw in your life.

HEALING CHAOS

Spiralling Tornado

Energy in our Universe spirals. Water spirals in the wake of the fish that swims through the stream. Air spirals in the wake of a bird in flight. The moon spirals around the earth, which spirals around the sun, which spirals around the galaxy.

Even our DNA is a spiral. It is the healing principle of life.

It’s not an accident that the ancient symbol for healing is the caduceus: two spiralling serpents.

It is the sacred spiral.

Most people assume that there is nothing good that comes from tornados, but every part of nature has value.

For example, although some birds lose their habitat from a tornado, birds such as the prairie warbler, whippoorwill, woodpecker, grouse, and woodcock, as well as forest salamanders, all benefit from the new landscape created by tornadoes.

Downed trees provide habitat for black bears and white tailed deer and create dens for many kinds of animals.

Tornadoes churn up the soil in ways that rejuvenate the earth.

So what is this landscape sharing with you?

When you pick Healing Chaos you are acknowledging potential chaos (or the need for chaos) as an activator for profound healing.

If your life seems chaotic, know that it has an underlying energy of healing. You are being healed on all levels. You are a healer.

However, if your life is calm to the point of being stagnant, it might be time to create a bit of chaos in your life. It will really activate healing, shift and glorious new energy.

Do the unexpected. Mix life up a bit.

EMBRACING

Floodplains

A floodplain is a naturally occurring phenomenon in which the land adjacent to a river floods out to far banks of the surrounding land during times of high water.

Land that is normally dry may be underwater for a period of time.

When this occurs, silt, sand, and nutrients are deposited. For this reason, floodplains are often areas of great fertility as well as rich ecosystems. They are excellent areas for lush, abundant crops.

It is a natural occurrence that allows life in all areas to thrive.

So what do you believe this landscape is saying to you?

Sometimes life overflows with emotions, which can feel uncomfortable. (As water is very much associated with emotions). However, the ensuing result of this discomfort can be of great value, perhaps arising from an unseen or unknown source.

Do you feel your emotions are overflowing, or not flowing at all?

Cherish the overflow of emotions, and embrace the times that seem murky, for your inner floodplains are being replenished, and as a result, there will be massive spiritual and physical expansion.

Embrace all your emotions; don’t judge them. After all, when we look at the word e-motion, it is energy in motion and needs to flow.

When you embrace all your emotions; greater prosperity and fertility can flow into your life.

If your emotions have been blocked, now is the time to explore them, feel into them, and experience them so they can move and flow like the water.

Woosah! Wow, those are amazing messages for getting grounded, don’t you agree? Wishing you a stupendous week, take time to ground, root and get outside! There won’t be a reading next week (I don’t believe lol) as it is a long weekend here and I plan on playing and getting outdoors. Massive hugs and squeezes and be kind with yourself.

Post Eclipse Portal, Mothers Day and Tension………..

Jenny Heston · 5:55 pm ·

Happy Magickal, Merry, Misty, Mischievous, Magnetic, Manifesting May Monday!

How are you delicious lovely? How was your eclipse experience?

I have heard from quite a few of you that it was rather intense and “thank goodness the frigging thing is done with!”

Hate to be the Debbie Downer here but eclipse energy goes on for a few months, so if you notice endings, things rapidly changing, remember to breathe, trust and flow, yes?

Often we desperately cling to things by our fingernails because they are “known”, they are part of our tight, wee little comfort zone, they feel safe, even if they aren’t. After all, who wants to bump up against the electric fence of their comfort zone and make a change?

That can be scary!

There are lions and tigers and bears oh my!

Let alone the mind chatter of “What will people think? I can’t. I’m too old, too young, too short, too tall”…………… and the list goes on and on.

But what if you dropped into a place of Trust, Faith and pushed that electric fence wider and played with the mantra;

“Let everything that needs to go, go. Let everything that needs to come, come.”

You will be amazed at the results (and the lack of anxiety and worry).

On top of the eclipse energy that is wafting in the breeze we have the energy of May and I will let Lena share her wisdom and explain it to you.

The theme for May is: “TENSION”.

“Tension this month is the condition of pressure or a relentless force causing anxiety, strain, crisis, release, and change. We are stretched tight, some of us more than others, as we attempt to hold on to the past and control the future. The emotional center of the year is highlighted as we clear out old stagnation and get things flowing in a more positive direction. Fear of change and fear of the unknown is what keeps us grasping tightly to our defences, old habits and outdated beliefs.

It is hard to relax in a state of tension. Sleep cycles can be disturbed and we may be hypervigilant about what may or may not be just around the corner. Anxiety unconnected to any real situation may be a constant companion to some that are prone to it. There is physical tension in the body, pointing to necessary adjustments in self-care; emotional tension, often erupting in drama as old repressed feelings find their way up and out; and mental tension, especially related to the need to know and the fear of the unknown.

All of this may sound extremely challenging, however there can be a very positive outcome to the month but it requires certain disciplines and the willingness to deal with feelings and emotions without blame or judgement.“

Mmmm, do you see how this folds in like a victoria sponge cake into the post-eclipse energy and the mantra?

On Sunday in North America we celebrate Mother’s Day and for me personally, it’s irrelevant if you have birthed children or not. As we have all at some point in time nurtured, mentored, supported a child – whether they were ours or not.

I also realise that Mother’s Day can be challenging for some as there are so many energies that float around that day, there’s:- love, frustration, loss, grief, disconnect, yearning, joy, expectations, connection, being invisible – and so very many more.

It reminded me of years ago when I was in a lovely Kundalini yoga class and my most amazing mentor invited us to bring in our Mother, to feel that energy of safety, unconditional love and peace.

Well, I have to say that was not what happened for me by any stretch, instead it brought up loss, abandonment, grief and some very dark emotions which had me sobbing the whole way through class! (Gotta love how energy moves).

Afterwards I went up and shared with her my experience and she could really hear how that didn’t feel safe inviting that person in. So instead she invited me to bring in someone who represented that mothering energy instead – so the next time I happily brought in my Great Aunt, another Aunt and a lovely older female friend.

Which in turn created a totally different experience!

So remember:-

“Let everything that needs to go, go. Let everything that needs to come, come. “

On that note, let’s crack on with the reading.

Okay, when I went to my delicious guides and asked who wanted to come and play.

These lovely guides came in loud and proud! If they are new to you, please let me introduce you.

“As above, so below. As within, so without. Today, many of us seek to reclaim the sense of connectedness that existed universally in ancient cultures, when human fate was wholly entwined with nature.

The world was seen as a symbiotic entity in which all living organisms interacted and supported each other, from the innermost cellular level to the outermost cosmological level. An essential bridge is being rebuilt between humans and nature, allowing us to access the realm of the transcendent and the land of the luminous.

Herbalism is the medicine of belonging, a gateway through which we keep alive a very sacred aspect to our source. “

With all that being shared, let’s drop in shall we? Take a delicious breath and invite in the energy of endings, as when there is an ending there is a new beginning. What needs to just gently drop away (no drama), so that something new can grow?

Then when you are ready, pick the card or cards that resonate for you.

Did you remember to pick?

Let’s go have a wee peak, shall we?

REISHI

Retreat

Called lingzhi in Chinese, Reishi represents immortality and is considered the “herb of spiritual potency,” meaning success, well-being, divine power, and longevity.

Said to have been discovered in 396 BC in the Changbai Mountains of China by Taoist monks, it is one of the oldest mushrooms used in medicine. It has long been called an anti-aging mushroom and powerful Shen tonic, a category of medicines that “nourish the spirit.”

Reishi powerfully influences our main spiritual centres: the endocrine, nervous, and hormonal systems. Hormones powerfully impact our perception, mood, sleep-wake cycles, ability to bond with others, and awareness of reality. They activate the nervous system, which is also directly related to igniting mystical experiences.

Reishi is ruled by Jupiter, the “guru of planets,” the one that dictates how we derive wisdom and access to the mysteries of life.

Reishi is inviting you to Pause. It’s time for renewal.

If you feel overwhelmed or mentally overloaded, it’s time to retreat. Take the time to recuperate and recharge, and personal growth will follow. Overstimulation and indecision lead to a sense of weakness, imprisonment, and a feeling that you are evading death.

Like Bear, hibernate or rest before you take on the next project or challenge.

Many Native American tribes have called this space of inner contemplation the Dream Lodge, a place to witness death and see beyond the confines of physical reality by visiting the dreamtime.

Create the space to be in silence and calm the internal chatter. Take time for reflection and nurturing yourself (and we all have that time).

MITRAGYNIA

Shape Shifting

The Indigenous peoples of Southeast Asia have valued the power of this rainforest tree for thousands of years and have used it as a poultice to treat wounds, as well as treatment for a variety of symptoms, including stress, pain, fatigue and fever.

Like Coca leaves in the South American highlands, fresh leaves from the Mitragynia tree are chewed for energy and stamina throughout the day.

Mitragynia was revered among monks in Asia, as it assisted them during long periods of meditation by providing focused attention and positive energy.

Mitragynia embodies elements of both Saturn and Neptune, as it profoundly relieves and decompresses the musculoskeletal system, while granting a freeing and euphoric feeling to the body-mind.

Used in the right amounts, it can greatly assist those with addiction (Neptune).

The balanced side of Mitragynia represents the ability to shapeshift and adapt across realities.

Like the Dragonfly, Mitragynia grants us the power to break through the illusionary facade we often accept as reality, providing us the freedom from pain in order to break through limiting illusions.

Dragonflies, like Mitragynia, help us initiate subconscious healing from the trauma experienced from endless cycles of pain and suffering.

Dragonfly medicine invites us to seek out the parts of our habits that have gone unchanged, unnoticed, and stagnant.

Ask yourself, have I tended to the changes I’ve been wanting to make?

Don’t get lost in the labyrinths of self-doubt.

Break free from illusive belief systems that hold back your transformation.

ANGEL’S TRUMPET

Death

Angel’s Trumpets have an intoxicating scent and flowers that resemble angelic horns aimed downward, symbolising the call of the angels to humanity.

Plants in the Brugmansia genus and relatives like Daturas have a rich history of use among shamans and magic practitioners, even though they are poisonous.

Some South American Indigenous groups, like the Kamsa, Jivaro, and Ingano, initiate their children at a young age into the path of curanderismo – becoming a healer – by ingesting Angel’s Trumpet during a flower ceremony.

Jivaro boys who walk the shamanic path are given the medicine at the age of six to acquire an external-vision-producing soul that lets them communicate with ancestors called arutam wakani.

Angel’s Trumpet is ruled by Pluto and Mars.

Angel’s Trumpet signals a time of catharsis or death.

A deep emotional breakdown is due or near. You may feel lost in your own emotional despair, depression, shame, or unworthiness, but now the angels of discernment and darkness are here to support you.

Coming eye to eye with the darkest feelings within yourself catalyses the greatest awakening. Deeply pause, let go of control, and witness the broken pieces within yourself with loving awareness.

The medicine of the Bat symbolises the need for a ritualistic death of relations, situations, or aspects of life.

Bat, like Angel’s Trumpet, signals catharsis and rebirth, signalling literal or metaphysical death of old patterns and worn out habits.

Understand that you can reconstruct at any time, create something new, deeper, richer and more in alignment, regardless of how shattered you feel.

Wowzer! Oh my giddy aunt, the messages tie in with the eclipse energy and the monthly energy (and you seriously can’t make this shit up!)

Wishing you a stupendous week and inviting the mantra into your life with trust and faith and feel the dross drop away like drops of rain off a Gortex rain jacket. Big hugs and squeezes!