Divine Circus Oracle

Memorial Day & The One Phrase to Unf*ck Yourself

Happy Magnificent, Magickal, Marvelous, Majestic Memorial Monday (to all my US friends), and happy Spring Bank holiday to all my lovely UK friends! Wow, May seems to have just flown by! It just seems a few days ago that I was talking about the energy of AWARENESS for this month and pffft, the month is almost done. Although, I will say I am reveling in the warm weather, the garden growth and all the amazing smelly flowers that come out and dance for us in Spring.

So this last week I was feeling rather stuck, not physically as I tend to do about 15 – 18 km a day, but most certainly mentally, energetically and spiritually. There was something brewing and it most certainly wasn’t burbling up to the surface, instead it was trying to drag me down the rabbit hole. (Which I did do for a day, to be honest). So the next morning I got up and told myself very sternly that I needed to shift my mindset or it wouldn’t be pretty and I also didn’t like how it was making me feel. (Not a huge fan of stagnation and all the rest of that).

So that day, I took a bit of a break in the afternoon and went for a huge yomp with the doggo and instead of chanting (which I do every morning) , putting on music, or being alone with my thoughts I quickly scanned my Audible library. As I was frantically filtering through it there was a whisper saying – “There is something here you need to listen to!” ‘Lo and behold, a book came up that I had bought a year ago and had never listened to and when I started playing it I laughed at the Divine Guidance that just flitted in behind me and kicked me up the arse with a large Doc Martin (in a very kind way).

Guess what the book was called?

UnFuck Yourself

Yes that’s right, that was the title. (Do you think the Universe was telling me something? lol) So as I yomped I started listening and by the second chapter I was in love with the book. It also helped that it was read by the author who is Scottish and I am a sucker for a Scottish or Irish accent.

So what’s the phrase you may be wondering that can really Unfuck you……… Ready? Super simple, but super powerful when faced with confusion, stagnation and all the rest of that dross.

The phrase is “AM I WILLING?” e.g:- Am I willing to do the work to make a change? Am I willing to get off the sofa and go to the gym to lose weight? Am I willing to release those relationships that drain me? AM I FUCKING WILLING TO MAKE CHANGE? Then interestingly enough the author goes on to say, if you can’t come up with anything to put on your AM I WILLING list. Turn it around and ask yourself the same question in a different way “WHAT AM I NOT WILLING TO DO OR PUT UP WITH?” e.g:- I am not willing to put up with this abusive relationship. I am not willing to continually struggle. I am not willing to be continually dismissed. I am not willing to feel unhealthy………..

Are you getting it now? Dare you to give it a try, it’s quite fascinating to play with, write down and it most certainly unravels those threads that can make you feel like you are tied up in a knot.

Interestingly enough I worked through my I AM WILLING list whilst playing with alcohol inks for the first time. Let me tell you, if you want a lesson in releasing control, giving up perfection, being open to the possibilities and creating something stunning – play with alcohol inks! They flow where they want to and where you send them with your breathe. The more rubbing alcohol you put on them, the more diffused they can be, but if you leave them fairly straight the colours are so vibrant and intoxicating. Plus, they play nicely with each other and create new colours together (we always like things that play well together!). So as I was trying them out with no idea what would happen, or what would be the outcome I had to ask myself “AM I WILLING” to let go of perfection and allow the process? Ahhhh, and now the list started flowing.

Okay so with that food for thought let’s crack on. The cards that were very clear that they wanted in, in a big way this week are The Divine Circus Oracle. Now, if these amazing guides are new to you, please let me introduce you (as that’s always polite, right) – I laughed as these glorious guides are playful, but deep. They think outside the box and invite you to do the same. “What is life if not a Divine Circus? Life might seem ordinary at times, yet when we look more closely, it is bursting with creative diversity, constantly evolving, pulling rugs out from underneath our feet (usually just at the moment we think we have everything under control) and opening doors we couldn’t even see were right there before us moment earlier. Life is magical, thrilling, sometimes strange and even scary. It can inspire you and touch your soul, inviting you to discover the unique magic within you, to dare to live it, to express it, to play with possibilities and embrace what sets you apart from the crowd. “

Crystals that came to play are:- Sodalite – brings mental calmness and rational thinking, Morganite – It cleanses the emotional body of stress and anxiety, old wounds and hidden traumas, and enkindles lightness within the spirit, as if a burden has been lifted, Orthoceras – which is a fossil (do you see the little fish in it), assist you in moving from the old to the new and to be receptive to the fresh, innovative forces that are available to you. Fossils can assist you in your quest for transition, transformation and personal growth, helping you to understand the process of change. The flowers are glorious phlox that fill the house with an amazing scent.

Okay, take a moment to drop back into your body, breathe yourself back, long, slow and deep. Gift yourself at least 4 long breaths in through the nose and out through the mouth and allow the phrase “I AM WILLING…..” to drift up into your mind eye. Put no attachment on it, just let it dance there and then when you are ready to pick, pick the card or cards that can help answer that question and support you this week.

Did you remember to pick?

Shall we see who has what to share?

PIXIE PIERROT

There is an original you, the you that has always been and will always be you. No matter how much the outer forms of your body, your work, your lifestyle, your world seem to change, the original, essential you is always there within, unique, precious and just as you were created to be.

Within you is an intelligence that helps you adapt to various life circumstances and situations. You might do this consciously or unconsciously, but the point of any type of adaptation is survival. There is more meant for you in this life than merely surviving. You are actually meant to thrive. You thrive most fully, abundantly and deliciously when you are just YOU. Not the version of you that another may prefer, nor the one that helps you fit into the crowd, but just YOU – as you have always been.

It’s time to get back to the essence of you. It might be time to go back to the things you dreamed about in childhood, or something that really feels like it expresses the true you but that you cast aside for some very logical and sensible reason or other. That might be a talent, passion or lifestyle you were pursuing, or a deep-seated need to create or express yourself through art, clothing, music or dance. It’s time to reclaim it. Love yourself and let yourself live, thrive and express the original genius of you.

THE VELVET QUEEN

A rare prize is to be bestowed upon you. The universe is confirming that the most luscious dreams of your heart are being nurtured into manifestation. To this end, you shall be given a saving grace, an intervention if needs be. To be open to receive, surrender doubt in favour of unconditional trust. Through your trust and optimism, you make it easier for the universe to give you a most deserved gift. A rare prize is worth the effort to attain it. Your efforts will need to include loving discipline. Loving discipline is not about trying to bend the world according to your will but rather about readying yourself to align with the spirit of what you want to receive.

To receive, rather than attempt to take by force, requires strength, trust, spiritual intelligence and courage. It is easier to try and force things from a fearful place, but it is more effective and empowering to learn how to attract and receive through consciously chosen surrender. This allows the universe to do its best work for you! So it’s time to change your consciousness. Release issues around self-worth. Why should you not be empowered and assisted by the universe to create a life that fills you with joy and feels ‘just right’ for you? Of course you should, can will be! Release any lack of self-worth that would get in the way of your opening in complete trust to the universe.

Your most prized dream is within reach, through a combination of letting life unfold as it will and your own disciplined efforts. Don’t give up. You cannot make the fruit on the tree grow faster – that will happen according to the rhythm of life – but you can certainly do your part to be ready to climb the tree at the right moment to savour the sweetness of success!

BRILLIANT VIRGIN

In a world where we are bombarded daily with differing opinions and ideas, remaining true to you and your own point of view is nothing short of brilliant. Let go of confusion, distortion, comparison and compromise. You do not need to compare yourself to another or measure up to anyone or anything else. What matters to you and your successful life journey is to be in touch with your own truths. You know what you feel, no matter what anyone else says or believes. Stay true to you!

We have to trust that the inner vision, the hope, the dream within us, is going to be strong enough to stand the rigours of birth, and be able to come to life in the world. Sometimes we have to trust that we are enough, that we have goodness, value and worth, and so are worth the time, effort, patience and commitment required to transform our ideas into realities.

Stay true to you and your course. Do not allow yourself to be swayed by another, no matter how well-meaning their intentions may be or how impressive their arguments may seem. Do not water down the strength of your vision, your dream. You are meant to be birthing something unique into being. The world needs your originality! Pray for courage. Trust yourself.

When I saw the cards that chose to support, I giggled with delight as they all tie into the theme that I wrote about – WILLINGNESS and letting go of control. Seriously, you can’t make this shit up! We have a new month rushing in quickly which is a great time to get a monthly reading, the energy is going to shift and change and guess what? Summer Solstice is coming! (So love Summer Solstice!) Wishing you a week of exploration and Willingness, days filled with curiosity and laughter and most of all massive hugs and squeezes. See you next week.

Whales and Sea Lions Battling, April Energy has changed, and we have a New Moon in Aries!

Jenny Heston · 1:01 am ·

Happy Magickal, Marvelous, ‘Mazing, Mischievous, Manifesting Monday! How are you delicious one? So much to explore with the shift in energy for April and the lovely New Moon that’s happening this week, however, first let me share about the 100’s of Orcas I saw this morning!

As I do every morning I go to the beach with the doggo. So I got there bright and early and was walking along the beach reciting mantra and picking up rocks when all of a sudden I looked up and coming around the point was a massive super pod of Orcas! (Apparently there was a plankton blushing with the hot weather) and they were majestic! Undulating in and out of the water, blowing water up in the air – it was awe inspiring! I mean seriously, how can you watch these majestic beasts and not be blown away? Then all of a sudden as the last Orca rounded the point 4 HUGE sea lions slid off the rocky point and started attacking the last Orca! I was gob smacked! There was all sorts of noise, splashing and you could see bodies flipping up and around and tails smacking the water. I have never seen the like! Then within about 4 minutes it was all done and when I looked around the Orcas and sea lions had vanished.

Okay, I have to ask, am I the only demented one that loves April Fools day and likes to play practical jokes and little twists of the mind with people? In my world, if it is harmless, no one gets hurt (possibly confused), then it’s all good. A few years ago I altered all the clocks in the house by 2 hours and so the kids dashed to the bus stop about 2 hours before a bus would be there. I will be honest, I let them wait for a good 30 minutes and when I pulled up in the vehicle they were highly concerned they had missed the bus, something had happened, where was the bus? (I know, what a horrid mother I am). So I explained to them what had happened, thanked them for the saran wrapped toilet and the salt in the sugar and we all went for a yummy breakie!

Thus gorgeous one, Happy April Fool’s Day! (Playing and laughing are so important, if you’re not doing it, then you need to start (just saying)). Or come for a visit and we will make it gigglicious and glorious fun and hopefully see Orcas!

The energy for April has changed – do you remember the theme from last month? It was Activation. Well this month it is TRUTH, CHOICE AND ACTION, repeat that to yourself again – Truth, Choice and Action – how does that feel? Let me share what the amazing Lena says about this energy. “This is a very interesting month with many ups and downs, twists and turns, eccentric insights, and changes and reversals that will definitely keep you on your toes. The themes of Truth, Choice and Action create a channel for transformation that is much like the birth canal. The only way out is by going through it and there is no going back.

Truth comes as an inner knowing not yet defined. Choice is the emotional commitment that needs no explanation or reason. Action is the disciplined follow-through that anchors a new path.”

Wowzer! To read more you can find it at Lena’s site here.

On top of all this we have the New Moon in Aries on Friday, April 5th. According to Forever Conscious:- “We have been moving through a portal of energy. This energy was triggered on the Super Moon back in March and will continue until the Full Moon on April 19th. The April New Moon on the 5th is the midpoint of this journey and is the marker where we get to decide if we are ready for something new.

Perhaps you are feeling this in your life in some way. Perhaps you are feeling the call to let go of the old you. Perhaps you are feeling the call to clear out limited beliefs and to remove the blocks that are leaving you stuck.

On the night of the Aries New Moon, we are all going to be given the opportunity to embrace a new way of being and to keep moving through this portal of energy so we can evolve, grow, and renew. The Aries New Moon is typically the best time for manifesting, setting goals, planting seeds, and making wishes. If you want a time of year for getting clear on your dreams and mapping out what the future will look and feel like, the Aries New Moon is one of the best.

Aries is fiery, it represents leadership and action, and on an Aries New Moon there is supercharged energy in the cosmos that can help bring us closer to the life that we desire. On an Aries New Moon, we can send our wishes out to the Universe with confidence that they will be heard and that we will find the steps we need to turn them into realities.”

So with all this delicious energy swirling around, remember to make your New Moon wishes on Friday!

Okay, let’s crack on with the reading. When I asked the cards who wanted to work with us all, guide, support, inspire and help us on this glorious day the Divine Circus Oracle literally jumped so high that it was like a hand to the forehead! This is a gorgeous deck for the bold, the ones that find it hard to follow the rules “What is life if not a Divine Circus? Life might seem ordinary at times, yet when we look more closely, it is bursting with creative diversity, constantly evolving, pulling rugs out from underneath our feet and opening doors we couldn’t even see were right there before us a moment earlier.”

The crystals that wiggled and jiggled to come and join in are:- Atlantasite – will help you find inner peace. It will also stabilize your moods. It’s a wonderful meditation stone that will help you access and retrieve ancient information and wisdom about your past lives. We then have Citrine – premier stone of manifestation, imagination, and personal will. Carrying the power of the sun, it is warm and comforting, energizing and life giving. Last, but not least, Snowflake Obsidian – is a very grounding and protective stone. It is used as a great cleanser of negative energies, helping to remove not only negativity experienced in the environment, but also that of one’s own emotions, such as anger, jealousy, greed, resentment, etc.

Thanks to the wonderful reminder from a glorious reader to put the energetic descriptions in!

Okey, dokey – let’s crack on yes? Gently breathe yourself back into your body and as you feel yourself settle allow the theme of Truth, Choice and Action to float through your being. Breathe that in and invite it to choose the card or cards that would serve your highest good this week.

Ready?

Shall we go have a look?

DEATH SHALL NOT TAKE HIM

You are going to witness the impossible made possible. Whatever you think is lost, is not. Whatever you think cannot be, shall be. The universe is going to intervene and what seems to be over, shall in a new way, live again.

Sometimes, just when you think it’s all over, the eleventh hour comes. You can practically hear the opening chords of your swan song, and when you have finally given up, suddenly, somehow, right before your eyes, everything changes – just like that. You were free-falling and then, suddenly, you are soaring. Fate steps in, destinies are altered and life demonstrates its creative, restorative power, even if all seemed lost.

No matter how defeated you feel, no matter how many dead ends you’ve encountered, how many setbacks, how many failures, no matter how impossible success may seem, the universe has your back and is going to right things in your favour. You will succeed. So if you really must (sigh) doubt for one more moment – go ahead, then replace doubt with trust and participate in the divine defiance of life refusing to be stepped on or crushed. Why not just frigging relax and bear witness to the universe’s impressive display of life-giving power with reverence and delight? Gorgeous one – get out of your own way!

PLAY YOUR HAND

Have you been playing your cards close to your chest? Have you been waiting for the universe to give you a sign, for life to show you how to proceed? Sometimes we need to be patient and surrendered, but there’s also a time to take the initiative. It’s your time to show your hand to the universe. What do you want? What can you offer? Ask! Express! Expect! The Universe is waiting for you to make your move.

There are times to surrender and flow, to let the universe show you where to go. Then there are times when you need to choose, to play your cards, to make your move. The Universe is asking you, “What do you want? What are you willing to do?

Don’t waste a golden opportunity and such a receptive audience! Go into your heart and ask for what you want. If you don’t know the details, that is just fine! Ask for the essence of what you want and leave the fine details up to the universe to sort out. Do you want love? Abundance? Peace? Pleasure? Passion? Purpose? Or do you want creative freedom, to discover, express and enjoy the hidden inner treasures of your unknown talent, to feel so safe and secure within that you can relax and live your life to the full?

You have to take the first step, then all manner of support will come into play. It’s not a time for dreaming only; it’s a time for doing – even if it’s just one step in the direction of your dreams. Do it! Go for it – with gusto! Your confidence and willingness to be open are your keys to winning the game. So game on, sweet soul! Show your cards; let the dice roll!

DIVINE DISGUISE

Some blessings are obvious – the door that opens, the person who says yes and the instant success of an idea. But not all blessings are instantly recognisable. Some blessings are so veiled that at first you might consider them to be an unwanted development. A concealed blessing is either already at work in your life or on its way. Don’t worry if you feel like things aren’t working out as they should. Soon enough, the disguise will be dropped, and the blessed unmasked in all its beauty.

Blessings are the mysterious workings of the universe, there to help us along our unique life path to live our truths and fulfill our potential. The universe has the knack of knowing just what it is we need, even when sometimes we might think we need something altogether different. This is how it can be that something we resist and reject in our lives can become the very thing we’re most grateful for later on. We realise it had been a blessing masked, something actually helping us, even though it might have come in the form of a challenge or a struggle before we eventually gain great benefit from it.

The real beauty of a situation isn’t obvious to you yet. But trust and have peace of mind and a realisation that the universe does really know what it’s doing. It’s in your corner, on your side, cheering you on and helping you avoid unnecessary pitfalls, even if you don’t know they exist. There is no need to worry, even that which appears to be most troublesome is going to reveal itself to be working in your favour!

So my glorious one I wish you a stupendous week, loads and loads of laughter and play. Remember to get outside and connect yourself back to the elements and breathe! May your week be filled with discovering your Truth, making a Choice and taking Action (and also vases of glorious Spring blossoms)! See you next week. Huge hugs and squeezes!

Spring is Coming! What does Belonging look like? Where Does Your Voice Live?

Jenny Heston · 2:00 am ·

Happy Magnificent, Magickal, Marvelous, Mystical, Melodious, Merry, Magnanimous, Majestic Monday! I don’t know about you but I have a bit of a feeling of “OMG February is almost over!” This month seems to have just whizzed by, don’t you think? It just seems to be a tad of a blur of celebrations, snow and grey clouds, most interesting. However, with February passing by so quickly you know what that means? Spring is Coming!!!! Whoot! Whoot!

Okay, I have a couple of questions for you this week that have been coming up in conversations with clients, friends and random strangers and they may appear heavy, but they actually aren’t.

So let me ask you the first one. Where do you Belong? Where is the place, the space the whatever that really makes you feel like you Belong? Now you maybe thinking to yourself, Jenny that’s a rather unusual question, but it really isn’t. A few weeks ago we explored why the Ancestral DNA industry is booming and that’s because in our society that is more connected than ever via technology, we are more disconnected than ever from each other. Most families don’t live in the same town, let alone the same country!

So let’s go back to the question of where do you Belong?

On Friday, I went to a talk given by Toka pa Turner, who has written the book Belonging is a Skill and she spoke of how, as we are growing up, we estrange pieces of ourselves to “fit in”. I call this trying to put a square peg in a round hole. She then went on to say that when we reach adulthood we find a group, an organisation, friends or whomever that we resonate with and really feel like we “Belong” and then for one reason or another we are ousted, there is a grief, a loss – where do we Belong? Many of us have experienced that pain whether it is in our family (if we chose to do or be different, our church, our spiritual group, even in a Yoga class!) Toka pa recommends that we pull all those pieces back to us that we have estranged or distanced ourselves from to become whole and Belong to ourselves first and foremost. In other words we Belong to Ourselves, that we become complete packages instead of searching for the piece that is missing. (Have to admit it reminded me a tad of people who post on dating websites “Looking for someone to complete me!)

I found this fascinating as, with a big move and in a new place, I too have wondered where I belong. I have been trying different groups, churches, organisations, events and all sorts. Some meet my need of “Belonging” and others, not so much, however the interesting thing is that I don’t feel unwelcome or alone. In fact what I have realised (very similar to high school), I Belong in a plethora of groups and as long as I feel that I Belong in my body and in my own home. Life is good. So where do you Belong?

The next question that came up this past while is “Where Does Your Voice Live?” Now if your response is “Duh, Jen it lives in my throat, my vocal cords, geesh!” I have an invitation for you, “Does it”?

For myself I always thought that my voice was in my writing, in the things I created, in my home and on the side of the soccer pitch. It wasn’t really heard many other places. My voice could be seen in the gardens I would create to express something inside, or maybe in a piece of healing jewelry I had created for a client or friend, it could be heard in the stories that I created for my kids as they drifted off to sleep, or in a piece of writing. But didn’t that mean that my voice lived in my heart, head and hands and not so much in my throat?

This got me to exploring the throat chakra a tad more, as to me this is the glorious melting pot where creativity, self will and love pool with intuition and divine guidance and then emit out loud for all and sundry to hear. I then talked to artists, makers, creators, speakers, healers, numb people and asked them where their voice lived in them. Is it just one spot, or can it be a plethora of spots. A lovely woman I met, who has a line of work that she thoroughly enjoys, says that her voice is in her Yoni and her throat, but not in her heart or mind. Fair enough!

For myself, as I explore getting out of my comfort zone by joining a female acapella group (and apparently there is a concert in 4 weeks!), drumming and putting myself in front of groups of people I have never met before (which can be a delicious invitation for my introverted self to go hide in a closet). I have found that my voice is in my heart, my creativity, my hands, my mind, my throat and my body. So slowly and surely how I share my voice the deep inner piece of me is slowly coming out through fairly much every piece of me, which is really exciting, but in a way terrifying! Interestingly enough our “choir” leader threw a new song at us on Sunday and my whole being went “Ahhhhhh” when I read the lyrics and I haven’t been able to stop singing it since.

Here’s the first verse: “From our lips we are echo and mountain, In our eyes we are sacred and sun, By the grace of our hands, we’re the flame and the dance, In our hearts we are rhythm and drum.”

So let me ask again – Where Does Your Voice Live? And how does this shape where you Belong?

Okay so I have most certainly chuntered on long enough, so with all that being said let’s crack on with the reading.

When I asked the cards and guides who wanted to come and share this week I laughed when I saw it was The Oracle of the Divine Circus. The reason I laughed is these glorious guides are playful, but deep. They think outside the box and invite you to do the same. If you have never met these glorious guides, please let me introduce you. “What is life if not a Divine Circus? Life might seem ordinary at times, yet when we look more closely, it is bursting with creative diversity, constantly evolving, pulling rugs out from underneath our feet (usually just at the moment we think we have everything under control) and opening doors we couldn’t even see were right there before us moment earlier. Life is magical, thrilling, sometimes strange and even scary. It can inspire you and touch your soul, inviting you to discover the unique magic within you, to dare to live it, to express it, to play with possibilities and embrace what sets you apart from the crowd. “

The crystals that came to play wiggled and woggled and jumped out as did the lavender (interesting). We have Morganite – It cleanses the emotional body of stress and anxiety, old wounds and hidden traumas, and enkindles lightness within the spirit, as if a burden has been lifted, Blue Apatite – increase your appetite for life, Kyanite – by clearing the energy blocks clogging your fifth chakra, blue kyanite permits a better flow of energy to assist in self-expression and communication. The wand at the top is Selenite which cleanses and amplifies.

There is a glorious visualisation to tune up all your chakras, however, if that doesn’t resonate for you. All good, just take a glorious deep breath in through your nose and sigh it out through your mouth. As you breathe this way for a minute or two I invite you to see right at the base of your throat where your collar bone joins, a glorious pool of clear blue water. See the levels and layers, see your voice in this glorious pool and breathe it in. See where your voice expresses itself in your body and then when you are ready, invite your voice whether it is is in your hands, heart, throat etc to pick the card or cards that resonate for you. Yes?

Let’s go.

Did you remember to pick?

Then let’s go have a look, yes?

CROWN OF THE BUTTERFLY BAMBINI

Just as nature imbues the butterfly with an innate ability for radical transformation, so too do you have natural instincts within, guiding you to grow in dramatic, utterly life-changing ways. Progress is your perfection. Growth is your attainment. Do you shun what you have been or mistakes you have made? Or instead, do you wear your ability for transformation as a sacred crown of power?

Transformation is an ability, an art, a sacred power. It requires an ability to go through the death of an old self, to be reborn again. That death might be an identity, a lifestyle or career, or an inner sense of self that no longer seems enough to truly reflect who you are becoming.

It requires both strength and flexibility, to be like bamboo, to bend without breaking. Are you willing to let go of what you have known, who you have been, without judging it, except to understand that you are outgrowing your past and becoming your future in this very moment? This takes great courage whilst flexibility of mind allows you to believe there are other possibilities in this life beyond what you have already experienced. The strength gives you enough courage to bear the loss of the known and the terror of the unknown, perhaps even turning that terror into excitement for what may be.

Don’t dream small dreams, for you are capable of far more dramatic and colourful creations. Trust in the magnificence of what you are becoming, the expression of the transformational intelligence and power within you.

DUKE OF SHADOWS

Cunningly clever am I, helping you discern the truth from the lie. I remind you that half truths may seem to be whole, yet in the shadows is information yet to be known. When the time is right, the light shall be bright, and confusion will give way to understanding.

You are being invited to be patient. This is a cautionary card, not to inspire concern, but rather to inspire curiosity. There is more to a situation, person, opportunity, or even an apparent absence of activity or success, than meets the eye. You could imagine it being like the universe has another card up its sleeve and is yet to show its full hand. A process has been set in motion but is “under the radar” of your awareness. Something is happening, even if that doesn’t appear to be the case. But just like a seed starts to grow into a plant, deep in the earth, apparently invisible and yet very real, you are being subjected to invisible but real forces of growth and healing at this time.

Because you cannot know what you don’t know, you will need to wait for more information to come to you. So if what you see, sense or feel is negative right now, don’t believe it! Things are going to shift and change and there will be a surprising twist in your life. Though you don’t see it coming, another piece of your life puzzle is going to reveal itself soon. It will help solve a difficulty or question you have been holding in your heart.

OUT OF DARKNESS

Something that has been troubling you, something dark within you or in your life, is about to become something else. You won’t see it coming, but when the time is right (and it soon will be), out of darkness will come new life. A seed of new life is growing. Perhaps you cannot see it or feel it because the seed begins its journey to new life in the darkness, hidden, away from sight and away from light. This seed is destined to bring new life to a situation that might seem to be dying, a fresh perspective to a stale problem.

When the time is right – and that is fast approaching – the seed will push through, rise up and reveal itself. It will no longer be just a seed, but a shoot that will grow into a plant and can then flower and bear fruit. It is not a question of whether or not it is going to happen. It is going to happen. It is just a matter of time. Whatever struggle or challenge is in your life or your heart right now, trust that it is going to work out. Not only that, but the very thing that seems to be darkest in your life, the most troublesome, is actually going to be what brings forth a beautiful gift of new life.

In a strange way, it is actually trying to help you. It is assisting you in being ready to receive and experience new life, for something new to be born in you and in your life. This might be the realisation of your own inner strength, your courage, the development of belief in yourself, confidence to trust your instincts or some other gift yet to be understood.

In time, you’ll see that those gifts – developed in order to get through the darkness – helped you step out of the darkness and into a whole new life. Soon you’ll see there was an opportunity and even a blessing hiding in the troubles of your past, just waiting for the right time to transform itself into light and life.

Well delicious lovely, wishing you such a glorious week of exploring where you Belong and to whom, possibly. And most certainly as we head into March, and Spring approaching with the upward thrust of energy and growth, using and finding your voice and allowing it to be expressed throughout everything you do, think, create, be, say, touch. Sending you sunbeams, daffodils and big hugs. See you next week!

New Moon in Libra, Canadian Thanksgiving and It’s Good to be Back!!!

Jenny Heston · 1:11 am ·

Happy Magnificent, Magickal, Marvelous, Magnetic, Manifesting Monday!! (By the way if you know of any magnificent M words, let me know!) To all the lovely Canadians out there “Happy Thanksgiving”, a glorious time to remember all the things to be grateful for, glorious food and a beautiful space to create new memories. We also celebrate the New Moon in Libra today, which is a delicious transformative New Moon. With it being governed by Libra, this is the element of air and this New Moon will feel like a burst of fresh air that will wake up your senses and remind you of what is really important. As Lena Stevens shares:- “This is an important moon for anchoring balance, grounding, and receiving the support of your allies. If you are in the place of ambivalence around a decision, you could gain some emotional clarity around issues you have been trying too hard to “think through”. It is important to take some time around this New Moon and focus on balance. It may mean taking some things that do not serve you off your plate and replacing them with some things that will serve you better. As you take inventory of your life at this time, ask yourself where you could use more support and help. Set some intentions to receive the support you need from the allies and the helpers that can give it.” If you have been looking to get out of a rut, looking to redo areas of your life or just looking for a greater sense of purpose, this New Moon is going to help. This New Moon is going to deliver the secret sauce you need in order to break through and raise your journey to new heights. This illumination won’t happen straight away, but if you pay attention, over the course of the next few weeks, you will be guided and supported.

All I can say is BRING IT ON! September was a heck of a month and I am happily releasing it like a lovely autumnal leaf falling from its branch, and I will say It is soooo good to be back! Also, I would like to say a huge thank you to all of you who emailed, messaged or texted asking me if everything was okay and sending me prayers and love. That was so incredibly amazing and I am exceptionally touched and grateful.

So briefly to fill you in somewhat on what happened, as most of you know on Solstice I set the intention to live by the ocean and a few other things, and wow did the Universe respond! Within 2 weeks I knew it was happening, so I built a huge workshop to store my things in, found a roommate situation (with a woman who seemed like she was relatively sane)- paid her a chunk of money, rented out my home, said goodbye to one of my lovely boys and my dogs and moved. This was big for me as I had been in the same spot for 29 years to ensure that my children had stability and continuity as they were growing up. Thus, I arrived on the Island on September 1st, super excited and nervous as well. I helped two of my boys move and get settled into their new space and then contacted my roommate about meeting and move in time and all the parameters had changed. Apparently she had rented out my space to students, so I was welcome to sleep on the sofa for a while until they left, I had to now park on the road instead of the driveway and it was only 2 hour parking, thus I would have to move my vehicle every two hours and no I couldn’t see the space as she was busy. Wow!

Red flags sprung up everywhere as I felt that the rug I had thought was there was being twisted, manipulated and ripped out from under my feet. I cried and cried and got rather angry with the Universe to be honest and advised this “delightfully manipulative” woman that there were too many red flags already and I hadn’t even moved in yet, thus please return my damage deposit as I won’t be moving there. Nope was the response. No money returned, angry emails and texts and all sorts of crazy behaviour. It was sooooooo bizarre. Thankfully the boys let me camp out on their sofa for a month, which I was very grateful for as I was totally flummoxed and in a high state of fight or flight with a massive desire to just run home. But I didn’t. However, my body responded by getting sick not just a gentle tummy ache, but unable to eat, felt awful and anxiety was rampant. I lost 11 lbs in 2 weeks. Then as that eased up I went and had lunch at my mother’s retirement community and ordered the safest thing on the menu – a toasted ham/cheese sandwich. When it arrived it was solid. I mean solid and hard and guess what? I took a bite, experienced massive pain in my mouth and it had split and fractured my tooth! (Seriously) So for another two weeks it was a liquid diet and the weight kept dropping. So in total 15lbs lost and if you know me that means I am down to 120lbs at 5ft 9” – it’s not pretty to say the least I’m also massively phobic about dentists and normally need to be highly medicated, but I put my big girl panties on – my niece came with me and held my hand and I let him have a look. Due to the fact that I hadn’t medicated he refused to pull the fractured piece out, instead advised me it was going to fall out any minute and so I should pull it out quickly otherwise it would lacerate my esophagus or fall into my lung!!!! WTF.

Thus, I had to ask my son to sterilise a pair of pliers and pull the chunk out for me, and bless his cotton soxs he did. It took 20 minutes (so much for it dropping out quickly), but he got it out with only a mild laceration to the lip and no pain. Talk about a trust exercise (and the fact I am not stellar at asking for help)!!!

During this time I was scrambling and looking at all sorts of places, some were glorious but highly overpriced, others would send me to a psych ward if I had to live in them, as they were dark, dank and dingy. Finally I found a cute little old house that was only 3 blocks from the ocean and I could have it October 1st! Whoot! Excited puts it mildly. It FELT amazing, it FELT perfect, safe, cosy and just the right spot. But hang on, I have no furniture, absolutely nothing as I was meant to be moving into a furnished place. Hmmmmmm.

So I played a game – can I furnish a house in a tasteful, functional way for $300? Everyone I told this to said no. All I can say is that the abundance that flowed in was incredible. Friends gave me lamps, dishes, kitchen utensils, cushions, blankets, candles – all sorts. I found a new bed for $60 which came with brand new sheets, an Italian leather love seat for $40 and was gifted a new sewing machine and a $4K leather, brass studded sofa! I was gifted a cute kitchen table and chairs and one glorious friend painted an amazing picture that hangs over my mantelpiece. It was amazing! I didn’t quite make the $300, instead it was more like $450 – but seriously, that is amazing. So you are all welcome to come visit!

A week ago I moved in and wow! I have a garden to play in, I am doing a 40 day meditation/prayer where I walk a 5km circuit bright and early through the massive park, down to the beach, along the beach until I find “the rock” that calls to me. I then pick the rock up, park my arse down and offer up thanks, prayer and stillness. I think walk along the beach and circle round and back in time for tea at 7am. I have space to work and create, a place to invite friends over and I’m not sleeping on a sofa! (Though it was a very comfie sofa)

So my take away from this whole experience.

Most certainly ask the Universe/Divine for what you want, set your Intentions, don’t get freaked out when they don’t unfold as you thought they would. I do think the Universe likes to test and challenge you to see if your serious – don’t run. Trust, trust, trust, oh yes and when you can get out of your head, use the tools – trust, show up, believe, be willing to receive and take action. Find the miracles in the mundane and know that the drama llamas are transitory.

Now that I have shared all that, let’s crack on with the reading. When I asked the decks who wanted to show up this week I laughed my soxs off when I saw it was The Divine Circus Oracle. Why? Let me share with you the dedication if you have never encountered this delicious deck:- “This deck is for those who find it hard to follow rules, conform, bend to authority and generally ‘do what they are told’. May your rebel heart always be bold. May your spirit always be free. May you remember to live the Divine Circus and have fun doing things the way you aren’t supposed to, whilst living your most creative and unique divine destiny.” The crystals that wiggled and jiggled to come play are:- Malachite and two Ruby Zoisite’s. (So if you pick the card based on the colour of the crystal this will be most interesting). Rosemary, Lavender and Purple Sage also wanted to join in, which to me is positively perfect!

Thus, I invite you to take a moment, a pause, a long breath and just be with yourself at this moment. There is a lovely guided visualisation for you if you would like some more support with getting present and really celebrating you and the energy of this time.

If not, just breathe, breathe long and deep and roll your shoulders up, back and down. When you are ready ask, ask whatever you feel called to or trust that the Divine will guide you to the message that is meant for you. Then pick the card or cards that resonate for you. Enjoy!

Did you remember to pick?

Ready to go have a look?

DARK HARLEQUIN

Bells are ringing from deep inside. Something that once had to hide is seeking your attention. It want out! It wants to be free! As you release what was once shut away, your discomfort shall turn to glee. You are a spiritual adventurer! You are not afraid to go to the edge of what you know, of who you have believed yourself to be. Even when before you there lies the darkness of unknown worlds, of undiscovered parts of you, even when you feel uncertainty, discomfort or doubt, you are still willing to figure out what it’s all about,

So you’ve come to a place in you, and in your life, where you don’t know. You don’t know what’s happening. You don’t know how to work through it. You don’t know who you are (well, not all of who you are). You don’t know what you don’t know. You are at the point of not knowing because you are growing. There will be surprises. There will be discoveries. You’ll feel awkward at times, like you are trying to see in the dark.

Don’t be afraid to let there be some inner rattling and rampaging. You are at a time when you are naturally diving into the darkness for a healing purpose. So ask the difficult questions. Do things you wouldn’t normally do. Experiment with thinking in ways you wouldn’t normally think. Be willing to let everything change for the better by first letting go of how things are now. The messier your inner world seems to be right now, the more you can expect complete and utter transformation as a new order comes into form. Expect the unexpected, for you were born to grow into what is happening now. It’s time to let the wild thing out!

THE PROUD PIERETTE

If you were proud of who you are and everything you have learned in your life, free from shame, guilt or judgement, what would you choose for yourself today? The choices you make for yourself from a place of feeling good are going to be more loving and helpful than anything from a place of self-judgement. You’ve nothing to regret, you’ve learned a lot and you are a beautiful unique being on a wild divine journey. Be kind to yourself. Keep your head up! Then it will be easier to keep growing and glowing.

If you feel that life is getting you down, or you should have, or could have, made different decisions in life – you are doing a great job! You are meant to have learning experiences. What matters is that you choose to learn. And you do! In your own time and your own way, you make sense of things, and you grow wiser and stronger as a person.

If you feel any ridicule, judgement or shaming is coming from those around you – trust you are stronger and wilder and more beautiful and true than any of that mean-spirited fearfulness. Let the mud that is being slung slide right off or remain stuck in the hands of those throwing it your way. Keep your sense of inner dignity intact. Never make yourself smaller to placate the fear in another’s heart. Take pride in who you are. Be proud to be you! And know that this is a way to respect and honour the creative loving power of the universe that created you!

MEANT FOR YOU

You’ve voiced your intent, setting in motion a natural creative process. What you want has been summoned forth and is now headed your way. Don’t hesitate, refuse to receive, or pass this gift on to another. It is meant for you. Grab it! Within this new opportunity is exactly what you have been waiting for….what you have been wanting to create, what truly makes your heart sing.

What is rightfully yours is – or very soon will be – right in front of you. Caught up in a spiraling wave of new beginnings, it is time to reach out and grab what is headed your way. Opportunity is the universe believing in you. Return the compliment by accepting what is being offered with open arms and a trusting heart. You’ll be glad you did.

Don’t worry if this opportunity seems to be leading you down a different path to what you expected. All paths lead us to where we need to be. Sometimes the universe just has a better idea of what will get us to our destination at the perfect time, and along the pathway that will be of most benefit to all. Trust what is happening. Accept that you deserve good things to happen to you, and don’t be shy. Now is your time to step up, open your mouth (and your arms) and say, “Thank you! I accept!”

What a glorious reading for this Canadian Thanksgiving and New Moon. I invite you to use the energy of this day to really focus on all the people, places, situations and things that you are grateful for and to release and surrender those that don’t serve you. Write down your New Moon wishes and remember – there’s magick everywhere, guidance and love everywhere. Have a glorious week and see you next Monday. Huge hugs and squeezes.

First Monday of August, the Energy has Shifted and another Eclipse on the Way!

Jenny Heston · 6:00 am ·

Happy Magnificent, Magickal Marvelous First Monday of August! Here in BC it is a lovely Civic Holiday so a day when lots of people have been enjoying a delicious, lovely long hawt, hawt weekend. I personally spent yesterday going up and down a ladder 256 times in the day in 40C weather, (have to say my left arse cheek was exceptionally sore by the end of it all lol). Why? I spent yesterday putting up rafters and huge sheets of plywood on the roof of the large workshop/shed I’ve been building as I want it finished! (I get a tad myopic on projects some times).

So at the beginning of the month we always talk about the “energy” of the month, why? The energy of the month is what flows and weaves through each day, then layered on top of that or woven into it are the energies of the seasons, the celebrations, the eclipses and of course the New and Full Moon.

If you remember, July was all about “Mature Responsibility in Unpredictable Times”, June was about “Discipline and Follow Through”. Well August is all about “Creative Pragmatism” what does that mean?

As Lena shares – “August is a complex month supporting you to think outside the box. We have an opportunity for new creative insights, help from unexpected sources, and a new determination to step forward and show up with choices that are mature and practical. Your experience this month will be much more positive if you keep your eyes on your own goals, stay in your own lane, and don’t get distracted by the accidents and drama you may see around you on the side of the road. The questions to ask yourself over and over again this month are, “Is it creative enough, or is it the same old way of thinking?” “Is it practical and grounded?” “Am I staying in my own lane, or am I getting sucked into a drama that is not mine?” “Am I keeping good boundaries? To read more, please check out Lena she is amazing!

So the questions she poses are fabulous questions to ask yourself!

Floating over this monthly energy is the upcoming Partial Solar Eclipse on Saturday August 11th, this is the 3rd one in a month! (How are you doing with it all?) Remember, that eclipse time is about bringing things to light and we have had a lot brought to light, however, with it being a solar eclipse this is more internal, this is deep and waiting to be brought out to the light. Please remember with 3 eclipses in a row “Ready or not, the winds of change are blowing. Eclipses bring the unexpected, forcing us into action. Repeat after me: Change can be a good thing.”

So a note here – for those who are part of our amazing community there will be an email coming out to you on Friday with great information on how to really harness and relax into this big energy shift (oh yes and stay relatively sane lol). Also, as so many of you have asked for readings with all this “stuff” swirling around and you want to gain more clarity and direction, I want to make this easy and accessible for everyone. Thus, as an offering and an appreciation, from 10th of August to the 24th of August I will be offering 20% off a personal reading, but you will hear about that on Friday. Yes?

Okay, so let’s crack on with the reading. I took the time to sit outside today to write and do the reading and it was gorgeous. The sun was shining, the plethora of sunflowers that the birds seeded, were all bobbing their glorious heads and tracking the sun. I had a huge crow and her two large babies come and land on my table and cock their heads and watch me for a few minutes and the humming birds and bees buzzed around frantically through the various flowers gathering the pollen. It was positively the most perfect place to be at that moment in time.

When I asked the cards and crystals who wanted to come out and shine brightly I laughed with delight when The Divine Circus Oracle sauntered her way out of the decks, strutting her stuff and giggling. Of course, in this eclipse energy and the Fire energy of Early Summer life becomes a Circus. If you have never encountered this gorgeous deck, please, let me introduce you. “This deck is for those who find it hard to follow rules, conform, bend to authority and generally do what they are told. May your rebel heart always be bold. May your spirit always be free. May you remember to live the Divine Circus and have fun doing things the way you aren’t supposed to, whilst living your most creative and unique divine destiny. “

Then it was fascinating to watch which crystals stepped up and for the first time EVER all three are Amethyst, all in different forms. Hmmm. Why? Amethyst is a wonderful crystal of protection, prosperity and for helping you manage your emotions so that you can take right action. Well that actually sounds perfect! There is also a glorious Selenite wand for amplification. Oh yes! And the flowers, there was a bit of a conversation going on between the flowers and the herbs, so they reached a compromise. Hummingbird flowers came to join along with lemon balm (which has been eaten, nom!)

I also crafted a fun guided visualisation based on sunflowers (which make me smile), if you feel so inclined, to help you really get rooted and reach for the sun. If that doesn’t resonate for you just breathe into your body, give everything a wiggle and slow your breath down and invite your trusted wise self to have a moment to surface and ask what it is you need to know.

So are you ready?

Shall we go have a little peak?

JOKER IS WILD

The Universe has a sense of humour, but never at your expense. It is laughing with you, not t you. You’ll see this for yourself as the Joker weaves her magic in your life, bringing you the grace that is beyond all reason, the necessary ingredient to ensure you win with the hand you have been dealt by life. There’s nothing impossible when the Joker appears. Her wild ways can transform a losing streak into a lifelong love affair with lady Luck.

Strap yourself in and prepare for the ride of a lifetime. The Joker has come to you and the Joker is wild. Unpredictable and brilliant, she brings you a message. You are being empowered to overcome all odds. So you are going to win. No doubts, no dramas, but not necessarily in a way that you expect either! She is sending the best possible situation to you even now. It might startle you, like a sudden light in the middle of the night, but it will be welcome nonetheless.

You probably won’t see it coming. It will probably be in a way that subverts everything you once believed to be true. But it will be a welcome trick by the Universe, a loving joke that opens your heart and helps you realise that this vast impersonal universe personally knows and cares for you, so intimately and with such meticulous care. Just don’t expect to feel in control of the process, for the Joker is wild and moves according to her own genius, but always blesses you with what will work best, beyond compare, now and always.

RED COUNTESS

Deep within, you know what is true and what to do (or not do). Yet there is so much noise and distraction in the world, and even at times in our own minds, that listening for our inner wisdom can seem like trying to hear gentle birdsong in the midst of a rock concert. Even so, you are hearing an inner truth, and deep down, you know it. Can you trust that it is safe to not only hear your inner voice but act on it too?

There is something that you know. You’ve felt, sensed, heard or realised this truth more than once. Even if others see or feel differently, you just know what you know, even if you don’t quite know how you know it!

Give your truths value. Hold your feelings and insights in high enough esteem to pay attention to them, to give yourself time to process what you think, feel and sense. Know that they’re worth acting on, even if that action just means to trust more and stop worrying. If you cannot figure out what your inner truths are, or you feel confused by conflicting thoughts and feelings, torn between head and heart, then you are in a state of information overload. You need to switch off, discharge some excess mental and emotional energy and take a break. Give yourself some time out from the crazy noise and constant distractions of the world so you can get in touch with what is true for you.

WHITE DUCHESS

Don’t look to what has been to find your destiny. Your future is bright and blessed. If the pain of the past feels a little too close for comfort, White Duchess steps in to help you leave behind the emotional storms of your past and move into her protection. A time of transition is upon you and soon your feet shall settle upon sacred ground, and calm shall prevail, inside and out.

Are you one of the many suffering in a dark and stormy inner world of post-traumatic stress? Do you believe that because there have been struggles in your past, and perhaps at times even great pain, that this is how your future shall be too? Or perhaps you have been striving towards a dream and it seems so long since you began that you are losing hope of ever breaking through into successful fulfilment and a new life.

Don’t look back. Let the past be put to rest. Whatever has haunted your dreams, whatever has caused turmoil is over. It is not needed anymore. There is a future destiny calling to you now. It is time to transition through into a new world, into your new life. Trust her and believe in the positive power of your future.

Have I said I love the cards? So let me see – as we move into the energy of “Creative Pragmatism” and another eclipse the Joker is Wild surfaces inviting you to trust, release control and allow what happens to happen (as it is for your highest good). Then we have the Red Countess – who is inviting you to play with this solar eclipse energy and allow what is hidden deep down, that you know to come to life. The White Duchess – is inviting you to release the known and the struggle and to trust in change. Remember we just talked “Ready or not, the winds of change are blowing. Eclipses bring the unexpected, forcing us into action. Change can be a good thing.”

So I do feel compelled that I should clear something up. A while ago I had a reader email me asking “if I sifted through a deck, picked the cards I thought might work and then wrote to the cards, subbing in what needed to to make it all aligned.” Good question, however, to be honest I was appalled and gob smacked!

That would never even occur to me to do. So I shared with this lovely humanoid my process – I start writing the preface whilst surrounded by all of my decks and crystals and then decks and crystals make themselves known. I then smudge everything, get very grounded – open myself up to Spirit and become a conduit and the reading happens. The reason I share this story, is please don’t ever doubt yourself, your gifts or the messages (however they come to you). With this glorious sun energy, fire energy (remember that is about Passion) and all the rest of it. Step up, don’t doubt and shine gorgeous one. Shine. Huge hugs and squeezes and see you next Monday or earlier if you are signed up to receive emails. Have a fabulous week!

Divine Circus Oracle

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