Crystal Healing

How Big are Your Balls? Lol. Welcoming The Dark, Creativity, Intuition and the glorious Winter Solstice is coming!

Happy Magickal, Merry, Mystical, Marvellous, Magnanimous, Manifesting Monday!

How are you? If you celebrated Thanksgiving I hope it was relaxing, fun and made your heart sparkle.

Here the air has literally changed and I can smell that early winter smell mixed with wood smoke from cosy fireplaces.

As I go for my big yomps with Danu the wise (and highly energetic) therapy doggo I’ve noticed that people are putting up tons of sparkly lights – I so LOVE sparkly lights!

When I moved here a couple of years ago I noticed that people decorated their outdoor trees with HUGE, I mean HUGE Big Balls! Which was a “new to me” thing, (Thus very quickly I experienced Big Ball Envy!) So I thought – I need me some BIG BALLS! Bright, shiny, sparkly and eye-catching lolol.

I put this thought out there to friends and random strangers and lo and behold I manifested gorgeous gold crescent moons with a single star on them, big glorious gold balls and …….. Drum roll please! BIG BLUE BALLS!

(Trust me, some days I have the humour of a 10 year old boy!) Yup, huge, mammoth BIG BLUE SHINY BALLS! Snort!

I have since added more big balls so we now have gold, red, and blue balls. Thus, on Sunday when we had a glorious sunny day for a change I got out the ladder and bedecked the heck out of the tree in front of the house and a couple of wee Garry Oaks on the boulevard. It looks quite cheerful, sparkly and makes me smile.

So when a rather crotchety person walked by and said “You’re putting Xmas decorations up already?” I just grinned and said “these are my Solstice balls, and I like my balls big!”

Okay enough of those shenanigans!

Can you feel it? The change in the season, the change in the energy?

We are in the glorious late Fall and early Winter energy where we are being invited to go into the dark, to go inward, to ponder, perk, plan and prepare!

Winter Solstice is just around the corner and I am so thrilled as it is one of my most favourite times of year. I will be putting together a glorious package on rituals, energy and ways of celebrating the Winter Solstice, so make sure you are on the email list.

However, the bottom line is very much about – into the dark we go to nourish, replenish and rejuvenate.

I don’t know about you, but I’ve been finding with the shorter days and longer nights that my Creativity has been going through the roof. I’ve been knitting, doing macrame, making wee mushrooms out of clay, writing tons and tons and it has felt so nourishing and satisfying. It’s also increased my intuition 10 fold (which has been most interesting).

As when we allow Creativity to flow through us (without any attachment to perfection on the end result), it allows our Intuition to flow alongside and that’s when Magick happens!

What is something you have thought about making or creating but have held off due to overthinking and trying to make it perfect? I dare you to try it this week. Set aside some time in the evenings to just play!

Okay, let’s crack on with the reading. Are you ready?

When I asked my guides who wanted to come and play this week they picked the gorgeous Wild Wisdom Faeries.

Now if these guides are new to you, please let me introduce them as not to, would be rather rude!

It is time. It is that Once Upon a Time again. Time to return to our relationship with the wild places, the wild ones, the faeries and our wildish selves. For as we do, miracles of healing will occur. Just as faeries cleanse and purify the water, the air, the earth, the fire and the spirit, when we reweave our sacred alliance with the faery realms, we too begin to heal. From our sadness. Our loneliness. From our souls that cry out for the poetry that is the soul of the world.

If you yearn to shine once again, if you wish to reclaim the wildish self who lives at the heart of you, who knows how to be well, to be happy, to be whole…..if you wish to clear illness, guilt, and untruths from your life and truly, deeply heal and transform, then these guides are your keys to the faery realm, and there you will be reborn.

Perfect guides for the energy shift that is happening and as we move closer to Solstice when the Fae come to dance.

Okay dear one, take a moment. Breathe yourself back into your body. Allow your heart to beam like a glorious magnet and pull all the pieces of yourself back that you may have left scattered throughout the day.

Then when you are ready I invite you to see in your minds eye a warm, welcoming darkness that wraps itself around you like a soothing weighted blanket.

Your body and mind relax and from this place your Creativity surges bringing with it your own delicious Intuition. Breathe that in. Then when you are ready, pick the card or cards that whisper to you, tickle the edges.

Did you remember to pick?

Let’s go have a look shall we?

CHILD OF THE MOON

It is time to allow the cycles of time, the tides and the flow of life herself, and even the power of the moon’s cleansing light to help you to forgive someone. For if you are suffering right now, it must be due to a feeling of resentment or dislike that remains within you.

There is nothing that forgiveness and her power cannot heal. But how to do this, when life seems to flood us with memories of incidents that have wounded us?

It’s time to conduct a forgiveness ceremony as sincerely as you can in order not to recreate a situation that has previously hurt you. While you are still vibrating to the energy of the past, it cannot help but repeat itself, even if the echoes do grow fainter.

You can attain enlightenment – a lessening of the burdens, a reduction in grief, a return of good cheer and optimism – through forgiveness.

By forgiving those who have hurt or persecuted us, we allow ourselves to be free.

Ask the faeries to assist you, to help you find the opportunities to exercise your forgiveness muscles. Ask them to help you clear under moonlight, and watch them clear and brush from you all the debris that causes you pain. Just volunteer for this. Just all it to happen. Just be willing, be open to it.

You will know you have forgiven when reminders of the person or situation no longer cause you distress. You will see the blessings and the lesson, and you will not allow this to take place again because forgiveness frees us from the shackles of pain that tie us to the past and to people we have long left behind.

When we do not forgive, we are, energetically and quite literally, dragging them around behind us. And it is that weight that can hold us back from our true potential.

ONCE WAS INNOCENT

Once you did not know. You did not know the truth that your heart belongs to nature, that you were born innocent and you shall die wise, and that this is the true natural law. Once you did not know. But now you do. And now you do know, you must decide what to do.

Once you’ve experienced the magick of life, watched the moonlight woven into jewels, water offer herself to the thirsty roots of trees for drink and heard the birds speak one with the other. Now you know of this magick, what will you do? Pretend to live as before? Endlessly go though the days, the next so much the same as the day before that it feels you are endlessly reworking ever so slightly the same time between sunrise and sunset?

Now you know. What will you do?

If you are courageous, you can now become who you truly are on every level, including the magickal level. When you accept this part of who you are, and accept that this magick you have experienced is natural and good, you will grow stronger, more fearless, more calm, more effective and you will draw to you the people who can echo back to you these truths you have found.

You will no longer mind not fitting into a realm you always feared living in, and you will know you can find your own path, tangled and wooded as it may be. You can no longer deny what you have seen, heard, felt and touched and been touched by. You know magick is true and real. And that wonderment is your path, from this time forth.

So what to do? Seek advice and consult people who have had similar experiences. Surround yourself with knowledge, and know that the innocence is not lost, and that your beliefs are not naive. Your wisdom is not telling your truth, and acknowledging your experience.

Choose, let your blood sing and your heart will open. And you will be in wonderment evermore.

I wonder, too. What will you choose?

GREENMANS DOOR

The faery know that there are times when the door to their realm is firmly, well, shut. They choose when and to whom the door will open. And while they may not look like they are on guard, the beautiful faery maiden swinging oh so casually on the handle, and the Greenman of the wood – literally – behind her will not let any pass unless they have shown they are good and wild at heart.

But what the faery also knows, and what you are about to learn, is a great secret. For there are eight great doors to Faery every 13 moons, and they are as old as Mother Earth herself, and are powerful portals to other dimensions and worlds. Each of these great doorways and portals occurs throughout what witches call the Wheel of the Year, and they run from sundown to sundown the following day.

These eight special times have long been covered, or changed, or smothered by other lore. But now you know their true magicks, you too can experience the door opening. And if you are wondering when the next time is, it’s the Winter Solstice. These doorways, once walked through, can assist you in detaching from harmful thoughts, relationships and behaviours. Walking through these doorways HEALS.

You are about to pass through a potential doorway of time, thus you will soon have access to other dimensions and realities, including that of the faery.

It is time to consider becoming a walker between the worlds, to dance in the liminal space and the field of infinite possibilities. To draw back the veil and to part the mists.

To do so will bring healing, change and powerful magicks into your current reality. Ask the Greenman and the faery maiden for permission to enter and make an offering. Then prepare for deep, beautiful, abiding change.

Make an offering, place your hand on the door, and push ever so gently. Then she will open.

Wow! What glorious cards – how did you feel about the ones you picked? Well delicious lovely I wish you a stupendous week, may you take time to go inwards and allow your own unique creativity to come and play. Over the next bit we will be exploring the Winter Solstice, and a few other delightful nuggets to support you as we move through this last month of 2022. Many of you have asked if I am opening up spots for a personalised reading as a Solstice special. I will let you know next week. Sending you huge hugs and squeezes, and remember – You are a glorious Creative being with big balls! Lol. Have a great week!

The Last Week of “Summer” and How a Panic Attack can make you Forget it’s all Okay!

Jenny Heston · 9:09 am ·

Happy Magickal, Merry, Mystical, Magnificent, Manifesting Monday!

Did you take some time to set your New Moon Intentions? You still have time and if you want to explore what playing with New Moon Magick and Intentions that Manifest looks like. I talk about what New Moon energy is and how to use it here.

And if you want an easy (but intentional and amazing) ritual for this Virgo New Moon (trust me, you will have everything you need in your home) I have that for you here.

If you remember, last week we talked about Joy and I loved all the amazing emails and messages that you sent it sharing how you were feeling and how talking about a “Joy Meter” really resonated.

A reader did write in with this and ask me this question:

“You talked about Joy and it really got me thinking about my life. If I look around my life, it’s pretty good. I have a nice home, a great family, a good circle of friends, but my Joy level is low. I have long Covid (so a lot of fatigue), do I have to “go out and do big activities to feel Joy?”

Fabulous question and the answer is NO!

Remember, there is a huge difference between Joy and Happiness.

Happiness is caused by an externality, Joy is an inside job.

Joy is not based on externalities, for example you get a new car, you don’t feel Joy, you feel happy. As you drive the car, relish and remember how you saved for what you wanted, feel the safety, revel in the heated leather seats – you start to feel Joy when you drive the car, not because of the car per se, but because of the experience. Does that make sense?

Okay, so let’s say you agree it’s an inside job. Now what? From my experience, the more you feel anything the more it becomes a default. So if you continually feel that the world is out of whack or that there is something wrong with you as you don’t feel Joy and Passion every moment of the day – guess what? That’s your default. So it is time to gently, and with massive compassion, deconstruct that default.

It’s all about shifting the perceptual lens from which you look at life through.

An example. On Friday I had the worst panic attack I have had in nearly 5 years. As I took a break in the middle of my work day and took Danu for a yomp, out of nowhere came this panic attack and I was pretty sure that I was dying. I immediately went to the place of “Fuck I’m having a heart attack and I will die on the side of the road and Danu will be scared and get hit by a car!” (Not a helpful thought). All the tools flew out the window in a flood of cortisol and I forgot that this was transitory and I was actually okay!

The cars nearby sounded too loud, the sun was too bright and everything felt very sharp and edgy. Have you ever felt that? Have you ever had a random panic attack?

Needless to say I didn’t die (or I am writing this from a totally different place!) Lol And once I had the panic under control and had given the anxiety and fear (that had flooded up out of nowhere) a little bop on the nose. I was able to breathe again.

So I took myself out to the garden and just sat and looked around for all signs and things that bring me Joy. To bring me back to that place of connection.

As let’s be honest when you are flooded with a panic attack, anger, despair the connection gets thrown out the window.

What did I see, smell, hear or taste that brought me Joy?

I saw the hummingbirds who kept dashing in to suck up some of the sweet nectar of the wildflowers. I heard the massively fat squirrel chatter away at Kali (the cat) whilst he dashed up one of the Garry Oaks. I could smell the honeysuckle (that is now in its fourth bloom this year!) I sipped on my lovely cuppa lavender tea, and watched the 12ft sunflowers allow their heads to bob and flow with the breeze.

I kicked off my shoes and put my feet on the earth and breathed in that delicious healing energy and I could feel the Joy and Ease flooding in.

Did it cost me any money? No.

Was it “active”, yes in the way that I was participating in and with everything around me, but I didn’t need to leave my garden.

The key thing was, as frigging scared and freaked out by a random panic attack that made me feel vulnerable, less than and weak. I could shift the lens that I was looking at life through and remember to look for and EXPECT (intention) Joy to show up all around me, and it did.

Okay, I have chuntered on long enough. Let’s crack on with the reading.

When I asked the cards who wanted to talk and guide this week I laughed to see that it is the delicious Spirit of the Animals.

So in case you may have never met them, let me introduce you. “Animal Medicine, Animal Totems, and Animal Mascots have had cultural significance throughout our history. Europeans adopted animals as tribal symbols that were later incorporated into crests for nations. China has an animal associated with every birthday. The Romans celebrated the eagle as the symbol for the empire. Our ancestors observed the appearance of animals as omens and signs. Shamans and mystics rely on spirit animal helpers. Native Americans have vision quests to discover their personal animal totem. School sports teams choose animal mascots. It is no wonder that the interest in animals as emblems and how they relate to us still persists. Animals as symbols live in our deepest memory.”

Okay delicious lovely, take a gorgeous deep breath and allow your shoulders to drop and your jaw to gently relax. I invite you to see in your mind’s eye a place of stillness, a place filled with ease and flow, a place where you feel connected to earth and source. From the place pick the card or cards that whisper to you.

Did you Remember to Pick?

Let’s go have a look, shall we?

PENGUIN

Authentic

Penguin is the bird that cannot fly but instead swims. They can see better underwater than on land, symbolising better access to the subconscious mind than usual.

Penguins are full of surprises just like the people they represent. The males and females experience role reversals. Male penguins will sit on the eggs for months while their female counterparts hunt for food.

Penguin urges you to adapt to extreme circumstances, break free from expectations and reinvent yourself. Penguin says adapt, change, find your tribe, sing and celebrate your uniqueness.

Penguin people often feel awkward or out of place. Tapping into Penguin energy can help you embrace your differences. Self – acceptance is a big part of Penguin medicine. They remind us that there is no right way to be!

Like all diving birds, Penguin relates to the truth that lies below the surface. Maybe Penguin is telling you to go below, find your deeper truth and your most authentic self.

These are things in life that really matter. Finding like minded people (your tribe) will help you see your beauty as you see theirs.

The wisdom of Penguin asks you to just be the unique and colourful person that you are!

Break free from others’ expectations.

Love your uniqueness. Just be Yourself!

PRONGHORN

Action

While it is often called an antelope, the pronghorn is a unique species native to North America. Their thick hide protects them from the cold and predators.

Pronghorns’ energy, quick wit and speed are their gifts.

They never drop their antlers, which like antennas represent connection spirit, psychic abilities and intuition.

For Pronghorn, these gifts remain a constant in their lives. Their strong sense of smell and hearing helps them know when things are not right.

If Pronghorn has come to you, you are energetic and have an agile mind. You will have all you ever need. Your intuitive gifts help keep you alerted to danger when you listen.

There is a new path on offer, use your keen eyesight to find the way. In other words, the Antelope meaning reminds you to make your decisions wisely by using your instincts rather than your intellect

Pronghorn people are ultimate adaptors and possess the power of survival. If Pronghorn crosses your path it is saying “Do it now, don’t wait.” Trust your intuition, harness your courage and get ready to “take the leap.”

Your talents will always

Help you land on the pinnacle.

Your quick wit and keen senses

Will lead you to success.

SEA OTTER

Happiness

You are being called to the spontaneous art of playful living.

Otter people swim in the iconic watery world of their intuition and feelings. Otter people are inclusive and welcome the company of family, tribe and community.

Otter people know how to “go with the flow” and master celebrating life with simple things.

Otter energy is the playfulness of a child, available to us at any age. They have a giddiness and reverence for life itself, without the presence of doubt, worry, or skepticism.

Are you fighting life’s currents?

Imagine yourself with a little more Otter energy. What would life look like? What would it take to bring you there?

Your inner child needs room to frolic and play and if you let it out, you will be sure to enjoy life and not simply endure it. Let Otter lead you to all that is good in the world: happiness, abundance, friends and love. The celebration awaits!

Be the master of playful living.

Release expectations and enjoy every day.

Let worry go and instead choose love.

Surrender to the waves.

Your good destiny of love is sure.

What glorious guides for this week as we head into September! Wishing you a stupendous week filled with Ease, Love, Joy and Remembering – You are okay! Big hugs and squeezes!

With this Blood Moon Eclipse are you willing to cross the Thresholds?

Jenny Heston · 3:04 pm ·

Happy Magickal, Merry, Moodling, Magnificent, Manifesting Monday!

Well here we are at the Blood Moon Eclipse in Scorpio, how are you feeling?

If you remember, eclipses come in pairs. As if they are a Portal or a Threshold.

We had the first eclipse of the year just 2 weeks ago at the New Moon and its counterpart is happening right now. However, the bottom line is – what does this mean for you?

Eclipses uncover hidden emotions, beliefs, thought patterns and habits.

They bring to the surface the bits and bobs we have been either trying to stuff into an already over crammed closet, or have continually swept under a rug (and we wonder why the rug has a bump in the middle!)

So if you have been feeling agitated, emotional or as I like to refer to it – “itchy, twitchy and bitchy”, I’m not surprised.

With this being a Full Moon Eclipse. Imagine the energy of a Full Moon intensified by 100, that is the energy this brings. The releasing of a full moon, the uncovering of an eclipse and the deep, deep emotions of scorpio (with a zing!).

On top of it we have Mercury retrograde which is all about transforming how we communicate.

Pluto retrograde which is about facing our shadow sides, the bits that we have shunned and don’t want to accept. Revisiting old patterns and being willing to burn them in the fires and go through the process of transformation and regeneration.

And this all happens in the South Node which is about karma, the collective karma.

So we are going to see massive shifts and changes happening on a global scale, let alone a personal one.

And remember, eclipse energy is in play for 3 months!

Thus, I invite you to look at this time as a Threshold.

Now what do I mean by that?

When you think about the word Threshold, what comes to mind? A doorway? A gateway? A portal? A remembering?

As we move through any change or transition, there is a sense of fear filled with expectation. Think about when your children left home or you ended a career, moved across the country, started a new relationship, ended an old relationship, lost a loved one etc. Even going to the grocery store!

These are all thresholds, (as are the doors we walk through).

A Threshold is a liminal time.

A space where we are between the old and the new. (Which is what liminal means aka threshold).

Often, when encountering thresholds, we talk as if our work is that of successfully “passing through” them. We speak of “making healthy transitions.” We seek out advice and support as we decide which thresholds to lean into and which to resist. The goal, it would seem, is figuring out how to travel forward in the right way. But what if we looked at it a different way?

“A threshold is a space to imagine a new way, and a new self. Not moving or pushing but sitting and cultivating… The goal is to allow you space and time to reflect on your past, present, and future. To imagine a new beginning…”

Rev. Sara LaWall

What if a Threshold isn’t a place that you cross, but a place that you pause? A place that transforms you?

What if the invitation is to ask yourself daily:

What do I want to bring with me and what do I want to leave behind (or keep out) as I move through this threshold?

As I was yomping on the weekend, in a “new to me” place. I followed a path that led to a trail that led to the cutest “English Country” laneway that felt magickal. There were comfrey, lilacs, sweet cicely, and a myriad of other plants growing wild on the edges. My heart swelled with remembering and massive delightful joy. I had found a threshold, and it brought up so many delicious things for me.

So review the questions above and I leave you to ponder them.

Okay, with all that being said – let’s crack on with the reading. When I went to the cards to ask who wanted to share their wisdom and insight with you this week, the glorious “Love Your Inner Goddess” guides came out big and bold. Now if these are new to you, please let me introduce them (as it would be rude not to).

“These guides have come to help you awaken and express your divine feminine spirit, to live from your heart, to empower your true self – and to discover your sacred rebel within, to say no to the voices of fear and hate and become a voice for love, truth and spirit on the earth.

Living as a soul, with truth, takes real courage in this world. We are often taught to follow the rules and be a good boy or girl – and that if we do this, everything will be OK. Your inner goddess thinks that is a bunch of nonsense. She wants so much more for you. She wants you to live a beautiful divine destiny.

She will show you how to be a loving rebel, breaking the rules that go against your heart and soul, changing the game and playing from the heart. She’ll show you how to live the life that is meant only for you. You are meant to stir up healing change and be a voice for what is wise, loving and true.

There are issues in our own lives and the world that need to change, that need to be healed. Your inner goddess knows how to bring about healing change with love, playfulness, courage and dignity.

She is a fearless minx who will help you dance, love, storm and laugh your way into a more beautiful world, created from the heart. “

Seriously, the perfect guides for this time. Woosah!

So gorgeous one, breathe. Just breathe, BE and allow yourself to relax, your mind to calm, your breath to slow and ask your wise inner self – what do I need to know this week. Then when you are ready, pick the card or cards that tug at your heartstrings – don’t let your mind pick!

Did you remember to pick?

Let’s go have a gander shall we?

ON YOUR OWN TERMS

You are not the person you once were. You know it, but others might not always be ready to let the old you go so easily. Do not allow yourself to be shoved back into patterns of behaviour that are not true to who you are now. You have worked hard to grow and become this new self. Believe that she is more real than the old you, even if she is less familiar to others (and maybe even to you) at this stage.

All that will change, and what is new now will become familiar and easy for you to sustain in the near future. Be stubborn in a good way whilst you – and others around you – come to realise that the new you is the real you.

Others may offer their input, but when it comes down to it, it is you alone making your life decisions. Your choice may once have been to meet the expectations and honour the opinions of other people – but you are aware now that the best choices for you actually honour your own heart, irrespective of whether others understand your reasons or feelings.

You now know that you don’t have to wait for permission. You get to choose how you want to feel, how you want to live, and who you want to be. You’re ready for the responsibility and sweet reward of living your life on your own terms.

WARRIOR GODDESS

This is not a time to play it safe, nor is it time to allow another to take the lead in your life. You need to believe in yourself and trust that the instincts guiding you are correct. If you need to take action, do it. Speak up: say yes; say no. Trust your inner truth completely.

Be bold.

The Universe will answer your boldest actions with affirmation, and you’ll move through the consequences of your actions with grace and courage, ending up exactly where you are meant to be.

You are ready. Life has been preparing you. Your experiences have made you stronger and wiser. You have spirit and you have courage. Believe in yourself! You are a Warrior Goddess, and empowered, divine woman.

Trust that your foundations are strong. Put your faith in the Universe. It has been your life coach and guide all along, helping you build up your inner resources, encouraging you to realise the power that has always been within you.

The Universe believes in you.

When you feel it is time to take a step, take it with confidence. When you ask for help from the Universe, ask with boldness and total confidence that your prayers will be answered in the best possible way. You have the right to require that your personal space be respected. You have divine permission and encouragement to claim your rightful place in the world. You are meant to say no to behaviour that is dishonest, manipulative and bullying.

The warrior goddess uses her sacred anger to set a boundary and speak her truth, not to attack another. She uses her inner fire to live with integrity, even if the right choices for her seem hard or frightening at the time. She knows that the Universe has her back, so she is willing to be true to herself no matter what.

She places integrity above all else. She knows that compromising her self-respect to win a battle will end up losing her the war.

YOU ARE THE LIGHT

You are going through a spiritual initiation. This is happening because you are ready for it, even if it doesn’t always feel that way. The way to pass this test is to rely on the light within you. Don’t let fear or doubt make you distrust the path ahead.

Don’t let fear or doubt make you distrust the path ahead. Don’t give in to despair or believe that things will not work out. You are learning to trust that the Universe knows what it is doing. There are great and beautiful things meant for you, and no matter what appears to be right now, they will come to you in the perfect way and at the perfect time.

Light is powerful. Some people don’t understand this. The fear in their hearts makes them cynical. That fear stops them from seeing what is true. In the absence of truth, they hold on to their judgements instead. They scoff at what they don’t understand. Be careful of allowing such people to influence you.

It’s not wise to take advice from people who are investing in creating pain. You can have compassion for them, but you must not underestimate how their negativity can taint your trust in the Universe. When we feel the light within us, when we trust in it, we are able to move beyond the fear and negativity that exists in this world. You have it within you to be that light.

The only thing that can trap you is the choice to believe in the negative and give in to the fear.

That’s not you, so don’t choose that for yourself. Don’t listen to people who would cause you to question the light. The light within you is the real you.

Be at peace, beautiful one, for the positive power of the light in you is stronger than any darkness. Keep your faith in the light. All will be well.

Holy Hannah, you seriously can not make this shit up! Releasing old patterns, being bold and being the light. Now more than ever we all need that! So delicious lovely, I wish for you a fabulous week filled with ease, joy and deep belly chortles. May you always remember how special and important you are and that the world needs YOU! Big hugs and squeezes. See you in 2 weeks!

Mothering and the Blood Moon Eclipse.

Jenny Heston · 1:01 am ·

Happy Marvelous, Magickal, Magnificent, Miraculous, Merry, Majestic, Manifesting Monday delicious lovely! How was Mother’s Day for you?

I realised yesterday that asking that question can be rather loaded as there are so many energies that float around that day, there’s:- love, frustration, loss, disconnect, yearning, joy, expectations, connection, being invisible – and so very many more.

It reminded me of years ago when I was in a lovely Kundalini yoga class and my most amazing mentor invited us to bring in our Mother, to feel that energy of safety, unconditional love and peace.

Well, I have to say that was not what happened for me by any stretch, instead it brought up loss, abandonment, grief and some very dark emotions which had me sobbing the whole way through class! (Gotta love how energy moves).

Afterwards I went up and shared with her my experience and she could really hear how that didn’t feel safe inviting that person in. So instead she invited me to bring in someone who represented that mothering energy instead – so the next time I happily brought in my Great Aunt, another Aunt and a lovely older female friend, amazing women who had “mothered” me and some still do. Which in turn created a totally different experience!

This also got me to pondering the Roe vs Wade issue that is happening in the US at the moment. (Ready for a soapbox moment?)

To be honest, I had never wanted children when I was younger. I wasn’t one of those young women who said “I want to get married, have kids etc.” Hell no!

So to ensure that didn’t happen I took every form of birth control known to humankind, in fact at one point they took the pill I was taking off the market due to heart issues. Condoms, spermicide, diaphragms, IUD’s, the pill – you name it, I took them.

As a woman, and a mother of 5 I have been pregnant 10 times.

I chose to terminate two pregnancies, with great conscious awareness and gratitude that this was available to me, though I will be honest – the first termination I was 19 years old and the doctor made it a living hell for me and lectured me from a place of judgement, patriarchy and disgust. I have miscarried 3 times. And I am also blessed with 5 amazing children, who I have learned a lot from, and they have helped me grow up.

But to be told that I could have no control over my body, my own choices, that I had to bear a child? I’m sorry, that is fucked in my books (and if that offends you let’s appreciate to differ shall we?)

Okay, I will step off my soapbox now, but whichever side you land on this argument. Please ponder it. Ponder it deeply. We all should have choice. We all should have a voice.

This coming weekend ( in fact on May 15th), we will have another eclipse.

This is a Blood Moon Eclipse in Scorpio – so what does that mean?

Eclipses are harbingers of change — they usher in evolution. At a lunar eclipse, the shadow of the Earth falls across the face of the Moon bringing unconscious feelings to the surface, grounding them in reality. Lunar eclipses are culminations of emotional cycles that have run their course, and they encourage us to let go of emotions and attachments that are no longer serving us.

All Eclipses activate our soul contract, bringing forward events that are necessary for the growth and evolution of our soul. Even though Eclipses can bring challenges our way, they always put us where we need to be.

As Forever shares:

“Under the May 2022, Blood Moon Eclipse, we are being guided to close the door on a chapter in our lives. This Eclipse represents endings, closure, and completion. Something needs to end, and this Eclipse is going to be the trigger.

As this Eclipse falls in the transformative sign of Scorpio, we may also find ourselves retreating within to shed layers and move into a deeper and more authentic state of being.

Scorpio is represented by the scorpion for its ability to transform itself and shed its skin. But Scorpio energy is also connected to the Phoenix too. The Phoenix has the ability, the strength, and the power to birth itself from ashes. From the ashes it rises into its true and highest form.”

Eclipses are brilliant illuminators, revealing a truth about a condition that you never in a million years knew existed. Once you are given the information, the news can act as a catalyst to a major decision or action you will take. Most often we are shocked or surprised by the information that comes to us, for the eclipse is one of the most dramatic tools the universe uses to get you to sit up, pay attention, and take action. Eclipses are always your friends, for they are there to help to protect you.

Always be grateful for the truth.

Hmmmm, I don’t know about you but I feel that as a collective we need to shed quite a few things. Don’t you?

Okay, enough chuntering on, let’s crack on with the reading. The cards that were most adamant to come and guide this week are The Oracle of Shadows and Light. Now if these guides are new to you, let me introduce them (as that’s the polite thing to do), Wisdom for Misfits, Mystics, Seekers, and Wanderers. Bittersweet. Unheard. Unconventional. Rebellious. Cheeky…Whimsical…Invisible. They’re not the words you often hear associated with the spiritual world, are they? Nevertheless, some of the most spiritual beings who have ever lived are those who have been most at odds with what we call the mainstream. They do not fit in. They have had moments of despair. And they know being truthful, and being real, is one of the greatest strengths and spiritual paths of all! They ask you to step out from the shadows, to no longer hide your light away, and to consult with an oracle that acknowledges your individuality and strange genius! How’s that for a warm welcome?

The crystals that wiggled and jiggled to come to the forefront are Smoky Quartz – this is an amazing stone for grounding, leaving behind baggage and surrendering. Stone Canyon Jasper – is known as the ‘supreme nurturer’. It bestows a feeling of tranquillity and integrity, by providing warmth, nourishment, and protection. Amethyst – aids in healing and intense spiritual growth.

The flowers are lovely Bachelor Buttons and Poppy petals.

Let’s settle, yes? Just breathe nice and slow, in through your nose and out through your mouth. Allow your shoulders to gently drop and nestle along your spine, like gorgeous wings at rest. Breathe into the corners of your belly and down to your toes. Then when you are ready pick the card or cards that whisper to you, inviting you to “see” them.

Did you remember to pick?

Let’s go have a peek!

TWO KITTENS

This magickal being is holding tight to two beautiful cats; both of them offer her growth in her femininity, independence, and satisfaction on many levels. Both of them are very young, very tender. She feels nurturing and protective toward them both. “How can I put one down?” she asks, torn. She is being asked to choose between the two, to separate one thing from another, and she is shocked that she must make this choice. When this comes to you, tune in. Ask yourself, your body, what it wants to do. Make a decision. You can no longer go on at this point attempting to walk in two directions at once. And that which you most fear – causing pain – will not happen when you choose. Cats are about your independence, your ability to leap high and to make it through many tricky situations. Choose. Choose now.

So are you having trouble making an important decision? You can’t see which one to choose? Which way to go? Both seem equally good or equally flawed? Hmmmm. We have come to show you the difference between two choices. You know you can take only one road at this time, and you know you must trust that that which you leave behind – that which you are telling yourself you are abandoning – will be safe and cared for. You will make it through this choice without feeling agonies of guilt. You will. The Universe trusts you to make the right choice! Feel it – you can now choose between seemingly indivisible ways. There will be a solution to this impossible situation.

For now, put one thing down and choose the other, or no real growth can take place.

LITTLE RED RIDING HOOD

You are changing the way you view yourself and speaking up and out. Others see you as an advocate for justice and fair play. You defend others by being who you are, simply by refusing to hide away or be fearful. By waking up every day, despite hardships, you are showing so many the way to live. You have made friends with your strength, and while people have mistaken you for a pushover, you know when the time comes that you are a strong person who cannot be stopped.

Like a wolf, you have fur and claws, and brothers and sisters who will help you if you only so much as call on their energy. But to find them, you must connect with the wolf within. It is time to travel on a new path, crossing a wood that seems empty and cold, but you will not be alone or as helpless as others seem to think you will be. You are not prey. You will have strong and unconventional allies. Like a wolf, you must be prepared to defend yourself, even if it means facing a fight. There is time to stand your ground and face the enemy. That time has come, brave one.

As little Red Riding Hood says – once I was hunted. I do no not hunt in return, but watch. And I am strong. I am myself, and I am proud of who I am. No one can harm me now that I have this knowledge, and with my mystic familiar – my lone wolf – by my side, I continue to walk my path. While I have lost some of my innocence, I have my life, my strength, my voice, my ability to stay myself no matter what others do or sy. I will no be a victim. I am not a victim. I am alive. And I will never give up.

THE FAERY BEE

A bee appearing in the beautiful natural world is a wonderful sign that true health is being restored to you. Bees speak of timeless wisdom – as in the ancient proverb “Ask the wild bee what the Druids know” – and are adept at creating shapes, patterns and, of course, honey, which provides food, sweetness, a natural antiseptic, and air-ionizing healthful wax, and can be made into med. It is also said that after completing the ritual of the labyrinth in ancient Crete, the priestesses of Ariadne offered the initiates honeycomb to celebrate and acknowledge that all their needs would be met from that time forth. Bee can symbolise abundance, but, most importantly, it symbolises that all you need is being provided – and love is sure to come.

You ask me where the honey is, where the sweetness of life, the ease of life is? You wonder where the casual health and robust days have gone, and where the bright flowers and the sunshine have vanished to? No one took these things from you. You denied yourself your own needs and pleasures. I am here at all times, yet you have turned away from the natural world. For you to bring back its sweetness, you must spend time with flowers, ones that blossom generously – flowers of the plant kingdom and flowers of the human kind.

You have spent too much time among the bare-branched ones, who have told you that you will never acquire the luxury of feeling safe and comforted, but I am here to share that living life sweetly is as simple for you now as being outside in the sunshine for a few moments every day. The flowers will bloom; the bees will come back; your joy and delight will return.

Wowzers! Choice, Speaking Up and giving yourself the gifts of delights! All super strong messages in this month of All About Balance. How did your card resonate for you? Well, delicious lovely, have a fabulous week, don’t forget the Blood Flower Moon Eclipse this weekend. Wishing you spring flowers, warm showers, ease, effortlessness and flow and most importantly peace and laughter. Huge hugs and squeezes, see you next week.

Full Moon, How do you Tap into Inspiration, and Bring on Fall!!

Jenny Heston · 5:43 pm ·

Happy Magickal, Musical, Magnificent, Mysterious, Manifesting Monday!

Yesterday was the delicious Blue Sturgeon Full Moon, packed with all sorts of wonderful energies to play with, did you take some time to do so? It could be as simple as lighting a candle and reflecting on the traits within you that are like the Sturgeon. Remember, we talked last week that Sturgeon are strong and impressive. They’ve survived millions of years by adapting and persevering through many different challenges. You are just as powerful and resilient whether you realize it or not.

So I don’t know about you but this week has been rather funky. It “seems” as if the world is going absolutely bonkers and there is a lot of blaming, shaming, judgement and mixed messages. Let alone what Mumma Earth is kicking up. And yet we are being “encouraged” to just go back to normal, don’t rock the boat, just be normal. (Yet what the fuck is normal? Lol)

What made it more “interesting” for me, was in an interview, for a wonderful Summit of amazing women, that I had at the beginning of the week I said “What do we do when we are feeling good – we throw the tools out of the window and forget about them until next time.” Yes – I did say that outloud on an interview lol.

Interestingly enough, after I said that – my next time came quickly after that interview as I noticed I felt edgier, drained, things felt sharp and my Intuition and Inspiration had gone into hiding. So much so there was a day where I was wondering what was happening as I had zero energy (and if you know me, my energy is super high, like an Energiser bunny!) I felt a total lack of inspiration, which was triggering my Virgo tendencies in a huge way as we are in the midst of an amazing transformation of how Creatrix Circle is going to be and a few other wonderful goodies that are coming out. So needless to say the “to do lists” were calling persistently like an old relationship that didn’t realise we had broken up!

Thankfully I have friends who will be “real” with me and they all said “Step back, you’ve taken on the collective and need some rest time.” Gulp. Thus, I popped myself into the amazing macrame hammock chair that I made and made self care the number one item and guess what came up?

Inspiration (which as we know is tied to Intuition). The word “inspiration” means “breathing in.” The Hebrew word ruah and Greek pneuma mean both “breath” and “spirit”. To get inspired, we must breathe in spirit. Well that makes total sense don’t you think?

So as I swung in my chair (putting my logical/analytical mind in a box on the garden table), I turned to the breeze that was blowing around me and my breath for wisdom and got quiet. Just letting the thoughts arise and blow away like leaves in the wind and as I did this Inspiration drifted gently into the stillness I had created.

Yes!!!! It was like a gorgeous river of amazing images and words filled with fishes of Intuition. There was just the breeze that made the chair swing gently, the rustle of leaves, me and spirit. It was so delicious I stayed there for 3 hours (and I can’t normally sit still for that long). My Inspiration, Intuition and Magickal well being felt nourished and heard. The next day I grabbed a plethora of Sharpies, a huge sheet of paper and everything was mind mapped out – not from my ego brain, from my intuitive heart brain. It was magnificent!

So let me ask, what are you doing for yourself to fill your Inspiration tank? What does that look like for you (as well all do it differently). Is it sitting and breathing in spirit, is it writing, walking, going to the gym, having a great conversation with a friend. What Inspires You?

Okay, enough chuntering – let’s crack on with the reading. The cards that flew out and at me this week are the amazing Divine Circus Oracle, which made me laugh my soxs off – as the world does feel like that right now, circus like.

Now, if these guides are new to you, please let me introduce them (as not to would be rude!)

“What is life if not a Divine Circus? Life might seem ordinary at times, yet when we look more closely, it is bursting with creative diversity, constantly evolving, pulling rugs out from underneath our feet (usually just at the moment we think we have everything under control) and opening doors we couldn’t even see were right there before us moments earlier. Life is magical, thrilling, sometimes strange and even scary. It can inspire you and touch your soul, inviting you to discover the unique magic within you, to dare to live it, to express it, to play with possibilities and embrace what sets you apart from the crowd. “

Thus, I invite you to breathe and just BE with your gorgeous self here at this moment. Take a few lovely, rich, nourishing breaths and let the cares of the moment slide off like wee little raindrops. Then when you are ready, pick the card or cards that call to you.

If you need some help and support releasing the “shoulds”, the weight of energy around you I have a lovely guided visualisation for you. It’s fun, we are going on an explore!

Did you remember to pick?

Let’s go look!

STEAMPUNK PRIESTESS

Appearances can deceive; yet when the time is right, incisive intuition slices through the illusion and the truth hits you between the eyes. That is the perception of reality behind the illusion. You know it when you experience it and you know that you have to trust in what you see! So give yourself permission to acknowledge and accept the power of those insights. Don’t talk yourself out of the truth. Intuition might only last for a second; and yet it can change the way you look at things forever, setting you on a more authentic course and allowing for changes to take place that you might have previously believed were impossible.

You might need to look closer to understand what is happening, or to trust in what you are already perceiving, even if a part of you doubts it because the truth of the matter in such cases would be so at odds with superficial appearances. Trust in your insight, no matter how startling, surprising or shocking that intuitive hit might be.

Get focused on what matters to you, then you won’t lose precious energy by either worrying about what could go wrong or trying to sort something out in your head. When the time is right, even the most confusing situation is going to come into focus, and your understanding of the matter, and what you need to do or not do, will be crystal clear. Set an intention for clarity and trust in what you see!

THE PROUD PIERETTE

If you were proud of who you are and everything you have learned in your life, free from shame, guilt or judgement, what would you choose for yourself today? The choices you make for yourself from a place of feeling good are going to be more loving and helpful than anything from a place of self-judgement. You’ve nothing to regret, you’ve learned a lot and you are a beautiful unique being on a wild divine journey. Be kind to yourself. Keep your head up! Then it will be easier to keep growing and glowing.

Dear wild one, have you felt like you’ve lost your footing? Got a bit clumsy? Made a mistake? Have you been second-guessing your choices? Don’t you dare doubt you! Be proud of all you’ve done and how far you’ve come. Never be ashamed of who you are, or the journey you’ve taken.

If you feel that life is getting you down, or you should have, or could have, made different decisions in life – be reassured, you are doing a great job! You are meant to have learning experiences. What matters is that you choose to learn. And you do! In your own time and your own way, you make sense of things, and you grow wiser and stronger as a person.

If you feel any ridicule, judgement or shaming is coming from those around you – trust you are stronger and wilder and more beautiful and true than any of that mean-spirited fearfulness. Let the mud that is being slung slide right off or remain stuck in the hands of those throwing it your way. Keep your sense of inner dignity intact. Never make yourself smaller to placate the fear in another’s heart. Take pride in who you are. Be proud to be you! And know that this is a way to respect and honour the creative loving power of the universe that created you!

GUEST OF HONOUR

Have you ever felt like you were on the outside, looking in – maybe like everyone else has found their place, really belonging to someone or something, having set themselves up for life, with you still working out how to just get past the security guards at the front gate? It’s time for your outsider status to change.

There are times to break free from the crowd, to stand alone and have the courage to be the outsider. If you are brave enough to endure the times when you feel like you don’t fit in, you gain a precious treasure. This is the ability to know who you really are and to learn to love that self. When you are solid in your self-esteem, and your self-knowledge, the powers you have developed as an outsider – including different viewpoints and ways of understanding the world – can be brought back to the rest of the world to be shared, to create a better world for all. It’s a bit like a soul version of sharing your holiday pictures with the family after a big adventure, opening up their minds to other worlds and maybe even inspiring them to take their own journey.

But if you’ve spent long enough on the outside, on the fringe of life, perhaps leaving people behind, it can take some intention and attention to change course. You might have become used to being the lone wolf or standing so apart from the crowd that there’s no-one else around you. That will have served a purpose, but you are invited to shift your ways now – from setting yourself apart – to returning with that wisdom to share with others. It means believing you can sail straight past the security guards at the door, straight into the most deliciously wonderful party and into the VIP room at the centre.

You have learned to accept yourself, so you’ll not hand your power over to others, as though their approval means more to you than your own self-possession. You can be amongst the crowd, and take your rightful place there, yet still be an individual, very much at home, belonging and sharing your treasures with others, still exactly who you are in truth.

It’s time to take pride of place in something that matters a lot to you. Accept it. It is your time to feel as though you have been chosen and that you belong.

Oh wow, what gorgeous guides for this week! Seriously, you can’t make this shit up! What matters to you, be proud of who you are in your real/raw state and get ready to step into a place of community and connection. Whoot! So most gorgeous bean, wishing you a stupendous week filled with tapping into what you truly value and need, appreciating how far you have come and of course INSPIRATION!