Weekly Reading

Speaking Your Truth. Shame. Eclipse Season is coming and Summer Solstice!

Happy Marvellous, Magickal, ‘Mazing, Magnificent, Miraculous, Mellow, Mischievous, Manifesting Monday! Delicious lovely how has your week been? How was New Moon for you and working with the energy of ADAPT for this month?

If you remember when we explored New Moon energy for last Monday the New Moon in Gemini is all about truth, communication, and self-expression. This New Moon was drawing us to get clear on what our truth is and to work on expressing how we really feel. So Monday I worked with this energy and it was delicious. I then launched into Tuesday with clarity, compassion, truth and a shed ton to do – sounds good right? It was, until it wasn’t.

In the early evening I had an appointment set up with someone who was going to rent a room in my home. From the nano second I met this person – they tried to make me wrong. I was late (actually I was 10 minutes early) and then it went sideways in under 20 minutes. All of a sudden I am faced with bullying, intimidating, aggressive energy that no matter what I said I was wrong. Holy Hannah, WTF is happening (ran through my mind). So I spoke my truth. I spoke about how this was making me feel, how this behaviour wasn’t okay and all the other pieces and that there was no way this person was going to rent a room in my home. I did it with compassion, kindness and awareness – not from a place of anger or vengefulness. Nadda. It fell on deaf ears. I was to be dominated, controlled, manipulated and made to feel wrong. WOW.

Thus, the evening unfolded differently to what I had planned and as this person wouldn’t leave the property, change his behaviour and in fact ramped it up even more – the police were called. The police officer was fabulous and advised me that there were some people out there who basically fed off bullying, intimidating, manipulating and making someone wrong to get what they want. (Shudder) However, after the officer left I felt SHAME, massive, massive Shame. That kind of shame that makes you want to lock yourself in the bathroom! Obviously it was my fault, I had done something wrong. I should have been more accommodating, just been quiet and sucked it up (shades of my marriage were flooding to the forefront).Then I had a glorious friend grab the rope of shame and haul me back in and remind me – Not Your Shit. The minute I could embrace that all of a sudden I had a plethora of people talking to me about speaking their truth and then feeling shame.

So it made me realise we need to knock this shit on the head. If you are speaking your truth with compassion (because truth without compassion is brutality), you have that right, and in fact it’s super important! If someone wants to judge, berate, bully, harass you for that truth – that’s not okay. That’s just bad behaviour and not your shit, yet so many of us take it on and allow it to make us feel less than, wrong, questioning, confused and a myriad of other things. So I invite you to make a pact today, this very moment. Enough with that sense of Shame when you speak your truth. You have nothing to feel ashamed of!!

As the amazing Brene Brown says:- “Shame cannot survive being spoken. It cannot tolerate having words wrapped around it. What it craves is secrecy, silence and judgement. If you stay quiet you stay in a lot of self judgement.”

We have a pact then yes? No more Shame. No more hiding. Speak your Truth. Own it and know that it is okay, in fact it’s way better than okay!!!

So to add to the energy of ADAPT and speaking one’s TRUTH we are soon going to be heading into that lovely time of Eclipses. Do you remember at the very beginning of the year we had eclipse time? We had a partial solar and a total lunar? Well guess what? We are heading back into it. Starting in July we have a total solar and then a partial lunar. Now if you remember an eclipse can generate an awareness of something larger running the show and they poke holes in our ego/identity revealing things within us that we have been avoiding or are totally unaware of. Eclipse energy starts building weeks before the eclipse happens and then plays with us for about 6 months afterwards. Thus, if you are feeling at all that you have been side swiped off the path, don’t fret – you haven’t.

Oh yes, quite a few of you gorgeous beasties have been asking if I am going to do a Solstice special on Readings. I am. It will start on the 17th and be open for one week. However, we will talk about that next week as we explore Solstice and I’m mixing up a glorious spell for you to work on that day. Muhahaha.

Interestingly enough, when I went to the cards and asked who wanted to guide and lead this week, I was rather surprised. This deck has never chosen to come out for a public reading in all the time I have had her, which has been quite a while, so let me introduce you to the glorious guides of Les Vampires. – These are the glorious denizens of a realm of mystery, legend and power. These lovely guides come to those who are undergoing a test. If a shadow has fallen over your life, if you are confronting the unknown, you may feel abandoned and lonely, as if there is no light, no guide, and no path to follow. These guides walk the hidden paths of the Dark Forest, the ones who have made the Night their home, the guardians who can help you find your way back to the Dawn. They are abundant in all that you need at this time – rich in messages to offer, lessons to teach, and wisdom to share with you.

The crystals that wiggled and jiggled to come out and share their wisdom are:- Cinnabrite – a stone of purpose, achievement and problem solving. It is helpful in overcoming habitual negativity. Black Snowflake Obsidian – a stone of purity, Snowflake Obsidian brings about a balance to body, mind and spirit. Snowflake Obsidian helps to keep centered and focused when any type of chaotic situation (office, commute, home, etc.) presents itself. Atlantasite – is a powerful tool to open your way to the spirit. It will strengthen your feelings of love and compassion for others. Gorgeous daisies and Spanish Lavender came to play as well.

So are you ready to play? Hope so! Take a moment, actually take more than one and just take a Breath. Not a shoulder high breath, but a slowing, calming breath. Breathe it in through your nose and out through your mouth like a shoulder dropping sigh. Keep breathing this way and invite into your minds eye your Truth and any Shame that needs to be released. Just let them swirl there like watercolours. Don’t attach, just let them Be. Then when you are ready and that energy has settled, pick the card or cards that invite you in. They have something to share with you this week.

Did you remember to pick?

Are you curious?

PREY

When one is hunted in your time, with your people, you are often unable to identify what is happening. The veneer of civility that covers us all, even us, especially us, helps us appear kinder than we are. Some people are hunters. And that makes others prey.

In your culture at this time, there is a theory that those who are harmed, or hurt have somehow attracted that to themselves. Oh, how the hunters love this argument. For it is a way of saying that the prey is offering itself up. And this is what we have come to warn you of. There is one who sees you as prey, and they see themselves as the hunter. And the more they can persuade you that you wish to play this role, and that it is your fault, the more powerful they will become.

There are many examples of abuse and monstrosity in your world, amongst humans. And often it is the one who is most close to you, who will take what is most precious to you. Do not become prey. And do not agree to this hunter being invited by you. The victimization they are visiting upon you has not been invited by you, except through circumstance. If you feel this is wrong, speak up, and speak out. Being hunted, being preyed upon, is not something you must take responsibility for, nor must this play out.

You are able to make a stand, and you are strong, clever and powerful.

It is time to stand up to a bully or to one who wishes to blame you for their own bad behaviour. You did not attract the circumstances you find yourself within. You have a great deal more power than they wish you to have. Do not refuse to help yourself, or fall into patterns of victimhood.

BURNT BY THE SUN

There are times when you have set yourself a great task – when you have decided that you have within sights a glorious a glorious outcome. It could be an ambition, or a relationship, or a position, or an achievement. There is much that can come to you simply and with ease – but there are things in this world, which we both share, that must be earned. You must earn this next step. For it is as it is for us. Our nature is to live in the night, to be under the gentle, brilliant light off the stars, of candles, of the last moments of sunset, or the first moments of sunrise. To be in the full glare of the light is not for us. And at this time – this time not for all time – the fullness of your ambition will not be available to you. It must be earned. It must be deserved. And there is a path to walk, and a road to take before you can get there.

You may of course decide that we don’t know of what we speak, or of you, and your desire – and you may decide to reach as high as you can. And we say to you, when this sun you reach for burns you with its fire – for it is a star and made of fire – you will learn what it is to be too eager, too soon. There is a time, and a place, and a way in which we earn what will be ours. The desire is worthy of you. You are worthy of reaching it. But for now, the dream, which you reach for, you are not yet ready for. There is more work for you to do first. Be wise.

You will never know your potential, unless you go beyond the limits you have set yourself. You may not succeed. But you will know a great deal more about yourself than you do now – and you are certain to grow through the experience. Begin with baby steps, and persist.

NATURAL

To be your own true self is a lifelong – lifetimes long – purpose. It is the purpose of this existence, and for each of us, despite the labels we all have – human, vampire, woman, man. We have something greater at play – how the essence, that very drop of pure self makes itself known through us. And for this great miracle to take place, there are habits to be shed, reactions to be questioned, challenges to be met, and experiments to be made. For you are not who you have been told you are. And so we ask for you to clearly and finally, perhaps understand and acknowledge that all that you are can be discovered when you take yourself within, and quietly feel, look and listen to your own self. Not the self of the label, the job. Not the defences you have developed for protection. Not the protests of the ego, or the demands of family voices within. It is who you are truly are. And then, once having found a sense of that, to live from that place in small, consistent ways each day. How that manifests will be unique for each of you.

But we ask for you now to go beyond the labels of time, and place, and family, and education, and status – and go deep, deep within. There is something within you that is more than the history of others. That is yours alone. And the world needs it to be expressed – otherwise, why would you have been created? For each of us – every drop of rain, every stone, every creature of the sky and the land, has their role and their part to play. We need to become our natural self again, beyond what we are told we are, and to live from that place. And this will create a satisfying and more peaceful, harmonious life – no matter what challenges you meet from within, or without. You Are precious to the world, especially so when you find that part of you that is only yours to offer, and add it to the song of the world, and make all that is more beautiful, more fulfilled, and more totally realised as a consequence of your soul’s truest expression.

You have too many definitions others have given you. Let them go. And learn the song within you, and give voice to that, in order to become natural, and truly fulfilled as your own self.

Wow. Prey, Ambition and Tapping into your Essence. Absolutely deliciously divine for this moment in time. So my delicious lovely, I will see you next week where we will explore Summer Solstice (Litha) and if you are on the email list there will be a reading special and I think we need to play with Magick! Thus, there will be a cool and easy spell for you as well as some amazing rituals for Summer Solstice. Have a fantabulous week. Speak your Truth. Punt Shame to the curb. Breathe and Smile. Massive hugs and squeezes. See you next week.

How ADAPTABLE are you? New Moon in Gemini and Litha coming!

Jenny Heston · 12:01 pm ·

It’s Monday, it’s Monday – fa, la, la (Trust me, I’m singing out loud!) Remember we are re-framing Monday and making it magickal, mystical, marvelous, meditative and absolutely magnificent! First Monday in June and it’s time to ADAPT. I love June, (not because I am a sun bunny), but more a case of the flowers are blooming (especially the roses). Now I’m not talking ornamental roses with no smell, I’m talking about wild roses, Hansa’s and the other varieties that are rich in scent. If you have never buried your nose into a Hansa – I highly encourage it. With all the petals abounding it’s time to create some delicious tinctures, infusions and flower essences. It’s also a time to harvest the rose petals and dip them in meringue and dust them with sugar (Now those are absolutely glorious!)

With roses in bloom let’s talk about this month and week. There’s a lot happening this month energetically, we have the energy of the month, the New Moon and the energy of the approaching Summer Solstice.

Remember, the energy for this month is ADAPT and as Lena shares:- “This month is about looking forward at how you can be flexible and creative instead of back at what you are losing due to change and unexpected circumstances. When change occurs and situations are not what you expected, there is always opportunity to evolve in a positive way, to expand your perception of what is possible and to think outside the box. This requires a willingness to adapt, receptivity to something new, and trust that all is moving in the direction of positive personal evolution. The more optimistic and proactive you can be during the process, the better the outcome.

What is coming is a mystery and the mystery can be either frightening and stress producing, or exciting and inspiring in the anticipation of something new. It takes courage and letting go of your comfort zone to take advantage of the adventure of what change can bring into your life. If you know how you want your life to feel, that intention will drive the trust you need to have to keep you looking forward with enthusiasm instead of backwards with fear.”

I love how she uses the phrase “that intention will drive the trust you need to have to keep you looking forward with enthusiasm instead of backwards with fear.” I will say May for me had a lot of past feelings and fears come up, so there was quite a bit of unpacking to do. All good though, my baggage suitcase is wayyyy lighter now.

Today (Monday) is New Moon in Gemini. Now at the time both the Moon and the Sun are in exactly the same sign – did you know that? We cannot see the New Moon but on a soul level, the energy is working us, recharging us, and helping us to draw in what it is that we want from our lives. This is why it is a powerful and potent time for manifesting, visualising, and setting intentions for the month to come.

As Tannaz shares:- “This New Moon is all about truth, communication, and self-expression. This New Moon is drawing us to get clear on what our truth is and to work on expressing how we really feel. Under the darkness of this New Moon, we are also going to feel motivated to take action in some area of our lives.

While New Moons often cause us to retreat within and into the shadows of our own heart and soul, this New Moon is really championing us to take initiative and get things done.

There might be things in our lives that crop up around the Gemini New Moon that encourage us to act, make a decision, or put our foot down. We may also have to step up and take responsibility for what we want. If there is something we wish to communicate or speak up about, the New Moon will be supporting us to find our courage and strength.

As Oprah once said- “you only get in life what you have the courage to ask for.”And, under the spell of the New Moon, we must not be afraid to speak up and share what it is we desire.

While the Gemini New Moon is wonderful for all forms of self-expression and communication, we also have to be mindful of how we choose to communicate and what truths we wish to share with others. While we can’t force someone to listen to us or even understand us, we can lead by example by learning to really listen to the clues and signs around us. By listening and observing, it also allows more room for our other senses to kick in, especially our intuitive senses which are sometimes quieter and softer than our mind.

Take a moment to think about how you can listen more, whether it is listening to your clients, your friends, your family, or the Universe. Listening may just present that missing piece or the answers you’ve been looking for. In fact, if something has been troubling you, think about where can you afford to listen more. Where can you afford to tune into your intuition and trust the wisdom and knowledge that arises? If we want to communicate effectively, if we want to get to the truth of something, we first have to learn how to really listen. “

Under the dark New Moon of June, don’t hide away from your true power. Don’t squash down your emotions or ignore the gentle pulls and nudges of your heart. Use this energy to rise up, to speak up, and to stand up for all you believe in. Use this energy to take action and to take responsibility for the world you wish to create and the reality you wish to walk in.

We are not on this planet alone. Making connections, sharing our stories, listening to other stories, has always been the foundation of society and of humanity. Let’s get back to that. Let’s get back to storytime and open up about our journey, who we are, and what inspires us.Let us find the confidence to share our truth, to talk about our weaknesses and our strengths, and to celebrate the stories of others, for sharing and listening is how we inspire, grow, and change the world.

Thus, with ADAPT energy in play, the New Moon in Gemini energy we also have the building energy of Summer Solstice – aka as Litha. Litha is the first day of summer, the celebration of life coming into fruition and the gentle whisper that the days are going to get slowly shorten. However, we will explore this more over the next couple of weeks.

When I went to the cards and asked who wanted to guide, serve, inspire and teach this week, the glorious Faery Forest Oracle literally threw themselves at me! (Cheeky guides). Now if these fantabulous guides are new to you, please let me introduce them:- “Let us enter the wild green world together, friend, the faery forests where the great trees speak with us, the moss soft underfoot, the light pure and gentle. The homes of the once Sacred groves of the Celts, the Saxons, and the Vikings…and to the people who were here long before we had names with which to call them to us – the faerie people. May the wild green world and the wondrous beings of this Faery Forest heal us, inspire us and urge us all to become more who we truly are meant to be.” Fabulous!

The crystals that wiggled, giggled and jiggled are Clear Crystal Quartz Geode –known as the “master healer” and will amplify energy and thought, as well as the effect of other crystals. It absorbs, stores, releases and regulates energy. Rhodochrosite –integrates physical and spiritual energies, stimulating love and passion while energising the soul. Rhodochrosite opens the heart, lifting depression and encouraging a positive and cheerful outlook. Black Moonstone – A gem for intuition, balance, and wishes, Moonstone helps harbor our feminine side. (and of course some glorious Hansa petals).

So let’s take a moment to settle in shall we. Take a glorious exhale out through your mouth and then a slow inhale through your nose. Breathe long and deep and just allow yourself to come back to yourself. Feel anything that doesn’t serve you drop to the floor like dust.

Whilst breathing this way invite into your mind’s eye the energy of ADAPT and this glorious New Moon of speaking your truth. Let them dance in the center of your mind’s eye and when you are ready pick the card or cards that resonate for you.

Did you remember to pick?

Shall we go have a little peeky weeky?

DUIRA

It is time for you to focus completely on self-nurture and to support your own healing – emotionally, and in particular, physically. This means you must put aside all the excuses you have previously allowed to take precedence over your own wellbeing. Your own personal healing must be the top priority in your life. Seek out a holistic healer, a spiritual healer, and a physical healer and create a wellbeing program that you then fully commit to. Allow nothing to interrupt this. Nothing can take away this time you now must give to your own self – your soul is asking this of you, and you must become devoted to your own healing. When you do this, you will find others heal too – that your healing journey inspires others around you to fully connect with their own needs and, furthermore, allows them to become responsible for their own journey of healing.

Healing food must be within your home, and your ultimate home – your body. Healing exercise must be undertaken – mindful movement. Healing environments are your refuge. Healing people nourish you. Healing thoughts and music and energies support you on this journey every day. Be relentless and merciless in culling anything or anyone who will not allow you to support yourself through what must be done. You must become fully devoted to your own healing, and this must take place now.

THE ELF QUEEN

You have responsibilities that have accumulated to the point that you no longer feel free. You have dimmed your own bright light, and the world longs for you to shine once again. One by one, I ask you to take these burdens – anything that feels heavy, whose energy does not come from love but from fear, any demands and expectations that no longer meet your needs – and release them with love. There is no rejection in this gesture: it is simply time to re-establish your own personal boundaries. You may even be carrying burdens that rightly belong to other people – please, release these now!

Without this clearing, you may well feel you are carrying too much on your own shoulders, and are unable to see the path ahead of you. As you release, the beginnings of the sweet and tender freedoms that are your birthright will make themselves known to you. You are now free to love and care for others more effectively, as you will be acting out of love, not forcing yourself. If you clearly ask for support, other people will love and support you in all that you do.

FAERY GODMOTHER

When the Faery Godmother comes to you, be aware that this is a time when you will discover what has been long hidden to you – your true self will be revealed in surprising ways every day, and sudden moments of heightened perception will make this time especially significant for you. People finally get found out, manipulators can be seen through, true costs of circumstances are revealed, and any lies about you will be seen. This can be hard, but it is truly a hardship that is born of protection – you are safer for knowing in whom you can trust in order to make the right choices for your soul.

Throughout these revelations and insights will be a guiding hand – and this is the Faery Godmother. She is showing you what it is you need to know in order to create and foster a life that works for you – and she is protective force too. So what you need will come to you now, sometimes in very strange ways. Be mindful of counting your blessings at this time – for this energy your Faery Godmother can draw upon to keep transforming your life into one which is more abundant, magickal, meaningful, and joyful.

Note every moment of truth – they are all significant, and you are better for discovering what was once hidden from you.

Wow, wow, wow! Healing, Releasing Fear and finding Truth! HA! Gotta love it, the perfect cards to play with the energy of this month and what today’s New Moon is asking from you. Remember to take time to gift yourself some space today and write down your New Moon Wishes, if this is new to you, you can find out about it here. Also, thank you all for the feedback on the monthly readings! So glad many of you are finding them a glorious map to work with and are coming back for another one. I personally do this for myself every month or even mid month, and I have found them invaluable. So delicious lovely, wishing you a glorious week – remember to stop and smell the roses, be gentle with yourself, speak your truth and hold your head up high! Huge hugs and squeezes and see you next week!

Memorial Day & The One Phrase to Unf*ck Yourself

Jenny Heston · 1:11 am ·

Happy Magnificent, Magickal, Marvelous, Majestic Memorial Monday (to all my US friends), and happy Spring Bank holiday to all my lovely UK friends! Wow, May seems to have just flown by! It just seems a few days ago that I was talking about the energy of AWARENESS for this month and pffft, the month is almost done. Although, I will say I am reveling in the warm weather, the garden growth and all the amazing smelly flowers that come out and dance for us in Spring.

So this last week I was feeling rather stuck, not physically as I tend to do about 15 – 18 km a day, but most certainly mentally, energetically and spiritually. There was something brewing and it most certainly wasn’t burbling up to the surface, instead it was trying to drag me down the rabbit hole. (Which I did do for a day, to be honest). So the next morning I got up and told myself very sternly that I needed to shift my mindset or it wouldn’t be pretty and I also didn’t like how it was making me feel. (Not a huge fan of stagnation and all the rest of that).

So that day, I took a bit of a break in the afternoon and went for a huge yomp with the doggo and instead of chanting (which I do every morning) , putting on music, or being alone with my thoughts I quickly scanned my Audible library. As I was frantically filtering through it there was a whisper saying – “There is something here you need to listen to!” ‘Lo and behold, a book came up that I had bought a year ago and had never listened to and when I started playing it I laughed at the Divine Guidance that just flitted in behind me and kicked me up the arse with a large Doc Martin (in a very kind way).

Guess what the book was called?

UnFuck Yourself

Yes that’s right, that was the title. (Do you think the Universe was telling me something? lol) So as I yomped I started listening and by the second chapter I was in love with the book. It also helped that it was read by the author who is Scottish and I am a sucker for a Scottish or Irish accent.

So what’s the phrase you may be wondering that can really Unfuck you……… Ready? Super simple, but super powerful when faced with confusion, stagnation and all the rest of that dross.

The phrase is “AM I WILLING?” e.g:- Am I willing to do the work to make a change? Am I willing to get off the sofa and go to the gym to lose weight? Am I willing to release those relationships that drain me? AM I FUCKING WILLING TO MAKE CHANGE? Then interestingly enough the author goes on to say, if you can’t come up with anything to put on your AM I WILLING list. Turn it around and ask yourself the same question in a different way “WHAT AM I NOT WILLING TO DO OR PUT UP WITH?” e.g:- I am not willing to put up with this abusive relationship. I am not willing to continually struggle. I am not willing to be continually dismissed. I am not willing to feel unhealthy………..

Are you getting it now? Dare you to give it a try, it’s quite fascinating to play with, write down and it most certainly unravels those threads that can make you feel like you are tied up in a knot.

Interestingly enough I worked through my I AM WILLING list whilst playing with alcohol inks for the first time. Let me tell you, if you want a lesson in releasing control, giving up perfection, being open to the possibilities and creating something stunning – play with alcohol inks! They flow where they want to and where you send them with your breathe. The more rubbing alcohol you put on them, the more diffused they can be, but if you leave them fairly straight the colours are so vibrant and intoxicating. Plus, they play nicely with each other and create new colours together (we always like things that play well together!). So as I was trying them out with no idea what would happen, or what would be the outcome I had to ask myself “AM I WILLING” to let go of perfection and allow the process? Ahhhh, and now the list started flowing.

Okay so with that food for thought let’s crack on. The cards that were very clear that they wanted in, in a big way this week are The Divine Circus Oracle. Now, if these amazing guides are new to you, please let me introduce you (as that’s always polite, right) – I laughed as these glorious guides are playful, but deep. They think outside the box and invite you to do the same. “What is life if not a Divine Circus? Life might seem ordinary at times, yet when we look more closely, it is bursting with creative diversity, constantly evolving, pulling rugs out from underneath our feet (usually just at the moment we think we have everything under control) and opening doors we couldn’t even see were right there before us moment earlier. Life is magical, thrilling, sometimes strange and even scary. It can inspire you and touch your soul, inviting you to discover the unique magic within you, to dare to live it, to express it, to play with possibilities and embrace what sets you apart from the crowd. “

Crystals that came to play are:- Sodalite – brings mental calmness and rational thinking, Morganite – It cleanses the emotional body of stress and anxiety, old wounds and hidden traumas, and enkindles lightness within the spirit, as if a burden has been lifted, Orthoceras – which is a fossil (do you see the little fish in it), assist you in moving from the old to the new and to be receptive to the fresh, innovative forces that are available to you. Fossils can assist you in your quest for transition, transformation and personal growth, helping you to understand the process of change. The flowers are glorious phlox that fill the house with an amazing scent.

Okay, take a moment to drop back into your body, breathe yourself back, long, slow and deep. Gift yourself at least 4 long breaths in through the nose and out through the mouth and allow the phrase “I AM WILLING…..” to drift up into your mind eye. Put no attachment on it, just let it dance there and then when you are ready to pick, pick the card or cards that can help answer that question and support you this week.

Did you remember to pick?

Shall we see who has what to share?

PIXIE PIERROT

There is an original you, the you that has always been and will always be you. No matter how much the outer forms of your body, your work, your lifestyle, your world seem to change, the original, essential you is always there within, unique, precious and just as you were created to be.

Within you is an intelligence that helps you adapt to various life circumstances and situations. You might do this consciously or unconsciously, but the point of any type of adaptation is survival. There is more meant for you in this life than merely surviving. You are actually meant to thrive. You thrive most fully, abundantly and deliciously when you are just YOU. Not the version of you that another may prefer, nor the one that helps you fit into the crowd, but just YOU – as you have always been.

It’s time to get back to the essence of you. It might be time to go back to the things you dreamed about in childhood, or something that really feels like it expresses the true you but that you cast aside for some very logical and sensible reason or other. That might be a talent, passion or lifestyle you were pursuing, or a deep-seated need to create or express yourself through art, clothing, music or dance. It’s time to reclaim it. Love yourself and let yourself live, thrive and express the original genius of you.

THE VELVET QUEEN

A rare prize is to be bestowed upon you. The universe is confirming that the most luscious dreams of your heart are being nurtured into manifestation. To this end, you shall be given a saving grace, an intervention if needs be. To be open to receive, surrender doubt in favour of unconditional trust. Through your trust and optimism, you make it easier for the universe to give you a most deserved gift. A rare prize is worth the effort to attain it. Your efforts will need to include loving discipline. Loving discipline is not about trying to bend the world according to your will but rather about readying yourself to align with the spirit of what you want to receive.

To receive, rather than attempt to take by force, requires strength, trust, spiritual intelligence and courage. It is easier to try and force things from a fearful place, but it is more effective and empowering to learn how to attract and receive through consciously chosen surrender. This allows the universe to do its best work for you! So it’s time to change your consciousness. Release issues around self-worth. Why should you not be empowered and assisted by the universe to create a life that fills you with joy and feels ‘just right’ for you? Of course you should, can will be! Release any lack of self-worth that would get in the way of your opening in complete trust to the universe.

Your most prized dream is within reach, through a combination of letting life unfold as it will and your own disciplined efforts. Don’t give up. You cannot make the fruit on the tree grow faster – that will happen according to the rhythm of life – but you can certainly do your part to be ready to climb the tree at the right moment to savour the sweetness of success!

BRILLIANT VIRGIN

In a world where we are bombarded daily with differing opinions and ideas, remaining true to you and your own point of view is nothing short of brilliant. Let go of confusion, distortion, comparison and compromise. You do not need to compare yourself to another or measure up to anyone or anything else. What matters to you and your successful life journey is to be in touch with your own truths. You know what you feel, no matter what anyone else says or believes. Stay true to you!

We have to trust that the inner vision, the hope, the dream within us, is going to be strong enough to stand the rigours of birth, and be able to come to life in the world. Sometimes we have to trust that we are enough, that we have goodness, value and worth, and so are worth the time, effort, patience and commitment required to transform our ideas into realities.

Stay true to you and your course. Do not allow yourself to be swayed by another, no matter how well-meaning their intentions may be or how impressive their arguments may seem. Do not water down the strength of your vision, your dream. You are meant to be birthing something unique into being. The world needs your originality! Pray for courage. Trust yourself.

When I saw the cards that chose to support, I giggled with delight as they all tie into the theme that I wrote about – WILLINGNESS and letting go of control. Seriously, you can’t make this shit up! We have a new month rushing in quickly which is a great time to get a monthly reading, the energy is going to shift and change and guess what? Summer Solstice is coming! (So love Summer Solstice!) Wishing you a week of exploration and Willingness, days filled with curiosity and laughter and most of all massive hugs and squeezes. See you next week.

Misplaced Long Weekend, Full Moon in Scorpio, Nature Lessons

Jenny Heston · 1:11 am ·

Happy Magickal, Marvellous, Manifesting, Merry, Mellow, Monday! How are you delicious lovely? Did you have a splendid week? Here it is a long weekend, but the bizarre thing was my mind was so wrapped up in something else, I totally blanked. So along rolls the weekend and I’m like “What, how did I miss a long weekend and not make plans?” Yup, total brain fart which did throw me into a slight tail spin as I would have normally planned out the whole weekend and be doing, doing, doing (yes I am a doer!) Now don’t get me wrong, ask me when the Full Moon is, any of the Sabbats, the energy of the month all of that stuff – I have it dialed, but I blanked on the long weekend.

So on Saturday (which was the Full Moon in Scorpio) I was pondering what the heck I was going to DO for 3 days without a plan. I kept hearing a whisper – can you just BE with no plan? Can you just SIT with no plan? Can you just PLAY with no plan? Gulp! So I took it for a test drive, I made sure to bang off all errands, tasks etc early on Saturday and then went to an art supply store – why? A few months ago I saw a painting at the Art Gallery that made me suck in my breathe, the colours were so vibrant and it looked “interesting”. It was made with alcohol inks on Yopo paper, so I filed that away for a few months and then when in the art store I grabbed the things to play with this medium. Something I haven’t done in a long while. As I brought my treasures home I could feel the itchiness to be ‘doing’ something, so instead I went and sat out in the garden and then things became even more odd, lol.

So there I am on Saturday afternoon ( the full moon) sitting in the backyard, writing, creating and playing with a new oracle deck (wait until she decides to come out to play, very cool deck). Whilst puppers (aka Danu) was munching on a bone. The sun was shining and I was focused on BEing and trying to reign in my mind, which was berating me with a list of things I should be DOing, when all of a sudden I heard this loud “peep” sound. I looked over to where it was and there was nothing. I turned my attention back to the cards and the sound came again, except even louder. “PEEP”. I look up and around and still nothing, then just as I’m about to turn away all of a sudden this tiny hummingbird appeared in the barren spot I was looking at. He hovered in the exact same spot for a minute, made his sound, shot up at a rapid rate up into the air, and I mean about 60 feet up, and then as if he had run out of gas, plummeted straight down to the earth and just before I thought he was going to hit the ground he did a massive swoop up into the air and went back to the exact (I mean exact) same spot he started. WTF! Do I need to call someone, is this a suicidal hummingbird? He did this 4 more times then vanished for about 5 minutes and then repeated the process. Okay, I’m watching and paying attention, but I still didn’t understand. To me hummingbirds are the representatives of Joy and I have to admit my heart did soar to watch him dance in the sky and perform, so very cool. I then did a bit of research and found he was doing his mating dance, trying to entice the lovely female hummingbirds to him and that I didn’t need to call the Crisis hotline! I then checked out my amazing Animal Speak book and Hummingbirds represent “Tireless Joy and the Nectar of Life, Accomplishing that which seems impossible.”

So with that burbling in my heart and body I really played with the Full Moon. This Full Moon in Scorpio was deliciously intense, all about transformation, or as I like to call it – “transforfuckingmation”. So I made sure to gift myself with time and ritual in the evening to do some powerful releasing and reframing, it was very cathartic. I also filled up a huge jar of water and left it out in the moonlight with all of my crystals and my anathame to be cleansed and charged. Yummers!

On Sunday again I practiced just BEing (gosh it can be tough) and I went back out into the plants and the yard and watched Danu frolic and play and then I noticed this Bee. Not that it was a huge Bee or anything like that but the fact that it hovered in front of my face, approximately 10 inches away and just kept in one spot and stayed there for minutes, would do a swoop and come back – made me pay attention. So you remember that game as a kid where you stare at your friend and who blinks first loses? That’s what it reminded me of! This Bee was amazingly persistent and sometimes on his swoop he would bring a buddy back and they would both hover 10 inches from my face, so close I could see their little furry legs and the shadows of their wings as they moved at light speed. Get this. They did this for an hour! A whole hour! (I so lost the blinking game to be honest). So I talked to them, sang to them, all thoughts went out the window and I just played and focused on them and then all of a sudden I snorted water out of my nose with laughter as I realised I was BEEing! I know Bee is big wisdom and overcoming the impossible but I wanted to learn more, so I did. BEE represents Fertility and the Honey of Life, No matter how great the dream there is a promise of fulfillment if we pursue it.”

Am I paying attention now? You bet! For me these are amazing lessons to be reminded of, it’s been an interesting few weeks. I was so grateful to literally have it thrust into my face in such a way I couldn’t miss it if I wanted to! Gotta love how Nature talks to us and gives us little nudges.

With that all being said, when I asked the cards who wanted to come out and speak on this gorgeous sunny day the cards that wiggled and jiggled to come and guide this glorious week are The Isis Oracle. Have you ever asked who Isis is? Goddess of the Skies, Magick and Wisdom are just a few of the titles she is given. Let me take a moment to introduce you to this lovely deck – “You are a powerful Soul and you are awakening. Your thoughts, feelings and inner world is changing, and so too is your outer world. When a Soul is growing in power and strength, it can benefit from guidance to help make the path into new way of being in the world that much easier. Isis offers Her wisdom and guidance to you to assist you at this time of spiritual growth and transition. She loves you, and wants you to shine and be your radiant self, filled with power and wisdom.”

The crystals that were very clear it was their turn are Rhodonite – is a stone of compassion, an emotional balancer that clears away emotional wounds and scars from the past, and nurtures love. Amethyst – It is thought of mostly as a protective stone. As it is linked to the crown chakra, it is helpful in purifying the mind and clearing it of negative thoughts. Selenite – embodies a high vibration energy that works to help you to bring light down from the higher realms into the physical body, to create personal transformation. And as always, a Selenite Wand (which amplifies). Oh yes, the gorgeous Calendula flowers and a sprig of fennel were most insistent. (Nobody need call the flower hotline as they immediately went into a vase of water)!

Okay let’s drop in, ground and get present, yes? I have a lovely visualisation to help you anchor into heaven and earth if you so desire. If not, just breathe in slowly through your nose and then sigh it out through your mouth. Allow yourself to settle and as you do I invite you to welcome in Gaia, Nature, Magick and the whispers. Let them play in your mind space and then when you are ready pick the card or cards that invite you to come play.

Did you remember to pick?

Shall we see, yes?

LIFE RESTORED

Spiritual resurrection is gifted to you now. Whatever part of you or your life you thought to be dead is being revived and will flourish back into life. Just as the Phoenix rises from the fire, transitioning from death, into life, so too will you rise again, healed and renewed.

Any trauma, ending, struggle or apparent defeat is not the end of the story for you now. What may appear to be an ending can sometimes simply be the forces of Ancient Feminine Power flowing into new pathways, pulling energy away from old forms so that they can transition into new forms. This can take short or long periods of time. It could be over days or years, weeks, months, decades. It doesn’t matter how long something appears to have been decaying, it will spring back into life at the right time.

Just as the River Nile subtly adjusts its course over time, so too will the River of Light that flows through you, filling you with life force and Divine Energy, move with innate wisdom. You can trust what is happening for you now. Something important to you is coming back to life. It might even feel like you are coming back to life after a period of increasing emotional numbness, physical or psychological struggle or spiritual disillusionment. It might also be a lifestyle, practice, business or relationship – new or old – that is coming to life now.

You are guided by Divine Priestess of the Phoenix, Sister Isis, to turn your face to the Sun. Just as the Sacred Scarab Beetle follows the movement of the Sun, you are encouraged to focus on the light and life that is seeking you now. Do not resign yourself to the way things have been. Let go of the past! Have hope and optimism. The past is over. Enjoy your rebirth.

WINGS OF ISIS

You have a special spiritual relationship with the angelic worlds. Part of your Soul purpose is to birth angelic consciousness and values such as fearlessness, compassion and service, into this human culture. Wings of Isis bring you angelic assistance and intervention, and confirmation that any impressions you may have had that you belong not only to the human kingdom but also to the angelic one, are correct.

This is no small task and although you are well equipped to succeed, there are beings that wish to assist you so that they may grow too and your success may be more graceful and swift. Isis, Divine winged mother, goddess and angel of healing, wishes to assist you with unconditional love now.

You will be asked to lift yourself up to higher and higher vibrational states of awareness and this may mean letting go of certain relationships, practices or states of being or even particular habits or thought patterns that would lower your vibration into fear, doubt or shame. Give yourself permission to just let this happen. You do not need to force anything. It is a matter of softening, allowing and trusting what feels right for you with absolute faith and bold, radical acceptance. It will be OK!

The more you accept this part of you, the more you shall draw into your world others like you. You will just feel comfortable with each other, because you all hold a similar refined vibration. Even in the midst of ordinary, everyday relationship, there is a sense of easy connection, mutual understanding and spiritual acknowledgment. The angels send you love and peace now and say, “We are with you, beloved one.”

KNOT OF ISIS

Each initiate has their own unique spiritual blueprint with particular skills, talents and higher destinies unfolding that use their unique attributes. Part of your spiritual blueprint is a special relationship to the energies of the Goddess. This means that no only do you have the important spiritual task of helping Her thrive in this world but you are afforded Her power, protection and abundance too. You are now deepening your connection to Her.

Part of your High Destiny this lifetimes is to heal and flourish through the Divine Feminine in Her many forms, especially in those forms that truly resonate and hold meaning for you. This healing will happen on your personal path and may well be part of the work that you offer in service to the world (which may be simply in how you live your life.

Your Soul is braiding or twining with the Divine Feminine energies in a particular form. For some that will be a specific goddess and the energetic process will often be strong and deep. The Initiate will feel as if they are integrating the part of this goddess that is not just in them, but is a part of their own consciousness. It is a deeply personal, spiritually powerful and beautiful growth experience for the Soul. This process does not make you lose your individuality.

Listen to your body-soul as it grows with Divine Feminine wisdom and trust that She will guide you, whether man or woman, deeper into your own healing which benefits us all.

Ahhhhh, holy hannah as the reading unfolded I could feel goosebumps on my arms. Okay, the messages are clear, what are you going to do with yours? So delicious lovely, I wish you a stupendous week, one filled with lifting your eyes up to the heavens and feeling your feet firmly on the earth, gorgeous belly laughs and glorious food! Thank you all for your amazing messages and emails, I so appreciate them. Huge hugs and squeezes!

Mother’s Day and De-cluttering Relationships

Jenny Heston · 1:01 am ·

Happy Marvelous, Magickal, Magnificent, Miraculous, Merry, Majestic, Manifesting Monday delicious lovely! How was Mother’s Day for you? I realised yesterday that asking that question can be rather loaded as there are so many energies that float around that day, there’s:- love, frustration, loss, disconnect, yearning, joy, expectations, connection, being invisible – and so very many more. It reminded me of years ago when I was in a lovely Kundalini yoga class and my most amazing mentor invited us to bring in our Mother, to feel that energy of safety, unconditional love and peace. Well, I have to say that was not what happened for me by any stretch, instead it brought up loss, abandon, grief and some very dark emotions which had me sobbing the whole way through class! (Gotta love how energy moves). Afterwards I went up and shared with her my experience and she could really hear how that didn’t feel safe inviting that person in. So instead she invited me to bring in someone who represented that mothering energy instead – so the next time I happily brought in my Great Aunt, another Aunt and a lovely older female friend. Which in turn created a totally different experience!

So this got me to thinking about Spring; decluttering our homes, gardens, workshops, kitchen cupboards, that one scary drawer that gathers everything from buttons, to one shoelace to a used bandaid. But what about relationships?

Do you ever declutter your relationships?

Now what do I mean by that. I mean sit down and do an inventory of how that relationship is working for you, what you bring to the table, what you receive, how it makes you feel etc. For example, I noticed a while ago that since moving I have attracted female “friends” into my life that most certainly want me to take care of them and look after things for them. Now, this in itself is not an issue if it’s a two way street, however, some haven’t been and there is a feeling of “Jenny will take care of it”. So interestingly enough, even though I could kinda see this I still kept stepping up to the plate, then I noticed that some of these women would be a couple of hours late for an arranged meeting, or would just sit and talk about themselves with no awareness as to what was happening in my life. Ahhhhhh, okay this is an old pattern from family of origin that is surfacing again. Thus, over the last 3 weeks I have really been looking at which relationships feel like a one way street and not ones of reciprocity, kindness, awareness and caring. Do you just cast them aside then was the question I had to ask myself. Some, most certainly yes! Others, I have moved out of the inner circle of relationships and put them more on the periphery, they are still there, but they don’t get the energy and attention that I had poured into them before. I am still open to them changing and growing, but it’s more a case of seeing if the other person is willing to put the effort in from their end, with no attachment to the outcome.

I will say, this has freed up so much energy for me and has released a lot of frustration and feelings of neglect. Have you ever done this? If you haven’t I highly suggest you do, it’s quite an interesting exercise. It also ties in with the glorious theme of AWARENESS that is at play for us this month.

Okay, enough chuntering on, let’s crack on with the reading. The cards that were most adamant to come and guide this week are The Oracle of the Shapeshifters. Now if these guides are new to you, let me introduce them (as that’s the polite thing to do), These are the magickal familiars, once the companions of shamans, witches, wizards, and wise ones – and now they are here for you. Now is the time for you to undertake a great quest – to rebirth yourself within this lifetime and this quest of evolution does not need to be faced alone. We change and we change again. We fear change. Yet it comes. For us to fear change is as foolish as winter crying for the coming of spring. Change is. Fear corrupts. These guides are here to support, encourage and help you through transformation and to teach you to let go of fear. True , deep change must take place for you to fulfill your soul contract. You may have turned from possibility to what you have convinced yourself is probable: You diminish your possible self, reduce who you are, and dilute your spirit. But even when you have sought to remain invisible and hidden away, and said yes to everyone else, life will find you – and transform you. You are never alone with these beings.” Phew! So there we have it are you ready?

The crystals that wiggled and jiggled to come to the forefront are Smoky Quartz – this is an amazing stone for grounding, leaving behind baggage and surrendering. Stone Canyon Jasper – is known as the ‘supreme nurturer’. It bestows a feeling of tranquility and integrity, by providing warmth, nourishment, and protection. Amethyst – aids in healing and intense spiritual growth.

The flowers are lovely Bachelor Buttons and Poppy petals.

Let’s settle, yes? Just breathe nice and slow, in through your nose and out through your mouth. Allow your shoulders to gently drop and nestle along your spine, like gorgeous wings at rest. Breathe into the corners of your belly and down to your toes. Then when you are ready pick the card or cards that whisper to you, inviting you to “see” them.

Did you remember to pick?

Let’s go have a peek!

TWO KITTENS

This magickal being is holding tight to two beautiful cats; both of them offer her growth in her femininity, independence, and satisfaction of many levels. Both of them are very young, very tender. She feels nurturing and protective toward them both. “How can I put one down?” she asks, torn. She is being asked to choose between the two, to separate one thing from another, and she is shocked that she must make this choice. When this being come to you, tune in. Ask yourself, your body, what it wants to do. Make a decision. You can no longer go on at this point attempting to walk in two directions at once. And that which you most fear – causing pain – will not happen when you choose. Cats are about your independence, your ability to leap high and to make it through many tricky situations. Choose. Choose now.

So are you having trouble making an important decision? You can’t see which one to choose? Which way to go? Both seem equally good or equally flawed? Hmmmm. We have come to show you the difference between two choices. You know you can take only one road at this time, and you know you must trust that that which you leave behind – that which you are telling yourself you are abandoning – will be safe and cared for. You will make it through this choice without feeling agonies of guilt. You will. The Universe trusts you to make the right choice! Feel it – you can now choose between seemingly indivisible ways. There will be a solution to this impossible situation.

For now, put one thing down and choose the other, or no real growth can take place.

LITTLE RED RIDING HOOD

You are changing the way you view yourself and speaking up and out. Others see you as an advocate for justice and fair play. You defend others by being who you are, simply by refusing to hide away or be fearful. By waking up every day, despite hardships, you are showing so many the way to live. You have made friends with your strength, and while people have mistaken you for a pushover, you know when the time comes that you are a strong person who cannot be stopped.

Like a wolf, you have fur and claws, and brothers and sisters who will help you if you only so much as call on their energy. But to find them, you must connect with the wolf within. It is time to travel on a new path, crossing a wood that seems empty and cold, but you will not be alone or as helpless as others seem to think you will be. You are not prey. You will have strong and unconventional allies. Like a wolf, you must be prepared to defend yourself, even if it means facing a fight. There is time to stand your ground and face the enemy. That time has come, brave one.

As little Red Riding Hood says – once I was hunted. I do no not hunt in return, but watch. And I am strong. I am myself, and I am proud of who I am. No one can harm me now that I have this knowledge, and with my mystic familiar – my lone wolf – by my side, I continue to walk my path. While I have lost some of my innocence, I have my life, my strength, my voice, my ability to stay myself no matter what others do or sy. I will no be a victim. I am not a victim. I am alive. And I will never give up.

THE FAERY BEE

A bee appearing in the beautiful natural world is a wonderful sign that true health is being restored to you. Bees speak of timeless wisdom – as in the ancient proverb “Ask the wild bee what the Druids know” – and are adept at creating shapes, patterns and, of course, honey, which provides food, sweetness, a natural antiseptic, and air-ionizing healthful wax, and can be made into med. It is also said that after completing the ritual of the the labyrinth in ancient Crete, the priestesses of Ariadne offered the initiates honeycomb to celebrate and acknowledge that all their needs would be met from that time forth. Bee can symbolise abundance, but, most import, it symbolises that all you need is being provided – and love is sure to come.

You ask me where the honey is, where the sweetness of life, the ease of life is? You sonder where the casual health and robust days have gone, and where the bright flowers and the sunshine have vanished to? No one took these things from you. You denied yourself your own needs and pleasures. I am here at all times, yet you have turned away from the natural world. For you to bring back its sweetness, you must spend time with flowers, ones that blossom generously – flowers of the plant kingdom and flowers of the human kind.

You have spent too much time among the bare-branched ones, who have told you that you will never acquire the luxury of feeling safe and comforted, but I am here to share that living life sweetly is as simple for you now as being outside in the sunshine for a few moments every day. The the flowers will bloom; the bees will come back; your joy and delight will return.

Wowzers! Choice, Speaking Up and giving yourself the gifts of delights! All super strong messages in this month of Awareness. How did your card resonate for you? Well delicious lovely, have a fabulous week, don’t forget it is Full Moon on Saturday. Wishing you spring flowers, warm showers, ease, effortlessness and flow and most importantly peace and laughter. Don’t forget you can get the monthly reading at any time in the month as it is a month from the day of the reading. The feedback has been that it’s a very powerful tool for navigating the four weeks ahead. Thank you for all your lovely emails and messages! Huge hugs and squeezes, see you next week.

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